The class gathering at jp =) 06A02 for life ! 

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hello mates.. been quite a while since i blog yea? haha anyway.. had A02 class dinner yesterday at jp.. thanks for the cake and the song =) its really unfortunate to see wat happen in jj la.. dun really wanna talk abt it.. i mean like it disturbs me hearing abt the comments and all.. so ya.. all i wanna have is peace so yea.. chill it mate.. it was great meeting up wif the class agian yesterday.. hearing their happenings in their jc.. yea its true i got nothing much to say cause i am home all the time and yea.. ahah.. but its nice hearing what ppl say..

anyway camp is next monday.. sports camp.. haha.. gonna try all kinds of sports.. free sparing?? haha wow.. of course i will wanna play soccer.. i dun really know what is gonna happen yet but yea.. i hope i get to meet some nice ppl =) and the week after that camp would be the FOC camp.. haha they say that camp u gonna enjoy.. haha i dunnoe yet so yea.. keep up reading this blog i will tell ya wads happening in my skool.. its gonna be alot alot alot of stories by than.. also went back to np 2 days ago.. to follow chee fatt pay his school fees and enrolment.. i cant stand the hall la.. got 2 halls like that.. the seats can be push to the walls and like make more space.. and its wooden floor haha.. i just love the sound system.. it rocks.. haha was telling jun wei and chee fatt that if one day can have concert here.. power!! haha.. after that we had lunch at canteen 2.. haha there are 5 canteens in the skool!!! the one i went is just beside the sports complex.. the swimming pool there.. the chicken rice is only 2 bucks haha.. the other time i kena con la.. eat the nasi padang.. 3.50 super ex la.. still have quite alot of things to explore in np for me la.. haha.. they say the library is super high tech.. that np grads from uni come back here to use the library .. haha so it must be damn good la.. haha.. the only sad thing is that my block is at the back of the skool.. near the pub there i think? yea WE HAVE A PUB!!! haha.. and its link to SIM by a canteen or a gate.. so yea.. its really a big campus to me.. first time =)

its quite weird to go skool wifout uniform for now haha.. but its all the fashion ove r there haha.. gonna meet posers!!! and some cool shit fashion.. haha.. and yea the LAPTOPS!! muahaha i gonna use it like mad.. now aready using it like mad at home la... download so many songs and movies.. and i just transfered wc3 here la..MUAHAH the graphics rocks =) super awesome.. hrmm guess i stop here yea? haha

ROCK ON!! \\// <3

finally

whew.. finally my headach subside.. it was horrible la last nite.. i could feel my head burning .. yes burning.. think i had fever also.. the fan directly blowing my head.. so yea.. manage to fall asleep after a while.. i feel so much better now la.. one of the worse headachs i ever had last nite... now its over wow!! today i skip wu shu told my dad not feeling well.. omg.. i dunnoe if i can even go grading la.. i skip 2 grads like that.. which is 2/3 of a belt.. haiz... well what matters is the abillty anyway =)

painj

hello.. played the soccer match today.. scored a goal.. so happy la.. been quite a while i scored.. but than still lose 4-3.. i could had scored abt 2 more.. wasted... anyway.. oh man.. everton lost sia. 10 yellow and 2 red cards.. so shit la.. van de meyde send off.. wtf wtf... haiz... bad day... i gues.. cant say much .. i having headach now and its killing me!!!

yea yea

hey.. went to np ealier in the afternoon wif chee fatt and my parents.. yea.. met cheryl and joel there haha.. awesome.. registered for the camps.. looking at the people around makes me feel anxious haha.. gonna be someone i know someday.. so far so good =) its my skool !! come on.. i got to love it.. found out that i gonna study programming for my first module.. haha yea C programming.. been wanting to study it since i was p6 haha.. serious.. and now finally its something i got to study.. way too awesome.. hope that studying something i really like will motivate me =) and yea i think i talk abt this yesterday abt daniel asking me to join him to play music for money.. yea i think its a good idea.. more exposure.. same goes to more exprience and all..

yea i gonna play soccer tml.. for coffee bean.. yea striker!!!! MUAHAHAA finally.. gonna unlesh everything tml.. and all .. my poor +10 haha.. long time no play.. and yea tml we gonna play.. hehe.. hope that my foot injury is okay.. damn pain la that time i landed on my foot bone so hard..hope tml i can play.. yea yea..

notin much to say.. so yea.. the chapter begins..

thursday?

hello... life is going in circles for me now.. almost everything i do everyday is repeating all over agian.. been staying home for 3 days.. yea.. its a pain.. daniel came over to my house to collect his application form for his SIM dip.. printed out the wrong one for him lol.. so yea.. he treated me lunch la.. so nice =) he is as usual does his long talk.. one of the things he mention that had my attention was when he asked me if i am in with him playing music at pubs or resturant. well its what i enjoy always.. music.. haha so yea we practice a few songs.. and i said that i will be a part time musician from now.. its cool.. i mean music is the beat of my life..

now everyone is busy.. i feel so alone now days.. and when its time to have fun for me.. suddenly so many people ask me out.. man.. its killing me now getting bored.. all i do now is watch movies at home sleep eat and play haha.. and i just cant stop dreaming at home!! help me.. haha..

this sucks

yea yea

yea yea looky here.. my new blog skin.. kinda of suck? haha .. i did it 4am this morning.. couldnt sleep.. dunnoe why.. btw if yur not using firefox as browser.. the video code will appear as html above here.. dunnoe why.. but yea sowie=) the navigator is above here.. just click click only la.. today is kind of a short day.. woke up at 12pm haha.. than i watched scary movie 3.. than played ps2.. and i realise some things today.. i mean like.. for the past few weeks or days.. i haven really been happy.. maybe only when i play soccer or music.. so yea.. i mean like.. its just not me.. not happy and all.. i can remember clearly that when i was sec 3.. i wished i did not need to sleep.. and enjoy every second of my life.. i would like just chat happily until i drop dead at my com desk.. when i am bored.. i would take up the guitar and strum until my fingers go numb.. than talk to my buddy hakim all that.. laugh wif chee fatt and my classmates.. i mean like i really enjoy life back than.. and all the things happen were so happening.. it was like the begining of life to me..

recently i felt like i gonna die or something haha.. but its stupid yea.. every ending has a begining.. today i was thinking all day about my music.. reading some magazines about music and recordings.. oh man.. i watched muse concert agian.. and yea.. oh man how i wished i am matt.. i would be the happiest man in the world if i could be like him..

i have been planing how is life ahead in the future.. first is doing well in poly.. and having as much fun as i can also.. 3 years.. soccer,music and study would be the only 3 things i must have in order to really be happy.. hope that within the 3 years i could at least have an album.. i think i should at least have 2 albums.. i been playing music for 3-4 years now. and yet i am playing like i learn last year.. which sucks.. so yea.. i got to start being passionate and yea.. and yea.. hope that i could at least play soccer at a higher level.. play for a club and hopefully i might get a chance to play in s league or national team someday..=) haha..

i think living without music for me .. my life would just die.. and now.. listening to tons and tons of songs.. filling up my moods.. yea.. all i wanna do is rock n roll.. RAWK ON mates..! =)

cant get my eyes off you

hello mates.. my laptop going nuts.. haha guess i have been installing to many and downloading stuff into it haha.. lucky i got it recovered back.. today haiz.. so boring la.. zhi wei say got something on than cannot go interview.. sucks =( been watching movies almost everyday at home!! wah.. such a loner life i have.. somebody save me!!!! been listening to emo songs over and over agian.. than watching SAW just now haha.. omg .. its so gross.. i never wanna have that shit feeling.. it sucks..

so this song goes.. greenday!!

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone!!


My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Til then I walk alone

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the borderline of the edge
And where I walk alone
Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone..

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Til then I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Til then I walk alone

passion

hello there... today i just found my old cds.. burn all my old mtv vids and songs inside.. since i was sec 3 ?? haha now i revive them into the laptop.. yea!!! oh man. blink concert videos awesome!! because of all this vidz.. i was greatly inspired each time i watch to be a rocker.. i mean like i felt the passion and the joy of being a musician .. i just love being there on the stage rocking wif my band someday.. wif the crowd responding.. also watch the mtv cribs.. oh man. give me more and better ideas how i wanna my house to be next time haha..

today wasnt really a good day cause i went to the factory agian today for the interview and it was lunch time? so yea i came back 1 hour later wif zhi wei.. and than they say come tml!! whahahahha... so yea.. tml i am going early i dun care.. affter that went home to like do all my cd and stuff.. wanted to find my half life so i can play cs.. but than can't find it.. my cd key!! =( anyway.. the good news is that i am going to the nike joga finals.. wif krisitan and nazrul.. haha!! the underdogs.. we really made it dude.. i gonna play soccer wif matin and all see who going haha.. i love soccer.. i love music.. i love my life if i can do this all my life!! haha..

anyway i watch the mtv diary.. show how billy joe armstrong talk abt his family.. yea its isnt easy to be a musician and balance family the same time.. its no point having a great career being a rocker but have no one share it wif.. its so cute when he drives his son to buy fish ..and the fish is part of the armstrong family .. hahaha.. cool.. if he was my dad.. omg.. yea.. =) seeing blink 182 agian.. made me feel so special.. i really do use to idolised tom delonge.. he is so cool..

well all i can do now is just wait wait wait and go go go go go.. haha.. somethings are meant to take and some meant to leave.. can't take them all rite.. so yea.. maybe when i have a bigger cradle next time =) lulululululu... i am going BLINK!!!! now haha.. yea rock on mates always!

time

hello mates.. yes yes yes.. i got my notebook!! =) loving it.. toshiba m100.. its 2.2kg.. not really light la. but its lighter than others.. most of them.. so yea.. i spend my whole sunday at home haha.. bored... watched the singapore local movie One More Chance.. nice show ... can cry the touching parts haha.. tml going for interview.. for the 3rd time saying this cause on saturday.. the factory was close?? haha gonna smack qing rong la.. tml going agian.. better be open now haha..

well recently i have been chatting wif some of my frens online .. having some problems.. some are quite similar to mine.. and yea.. its always like this.. i mean like when u help someone to gain confidence.. its easier said than done.. but now i guess i gain back my confidence.. after many days of wondering and all... just that i still have some unfinish business.. if ya noe wad i mean yea.. =) have been listening to this song by paparoach Scar.. nice song.. but doesnt really suit my suitation cause its like telling the person off.. which i dun.. but i like this part of the song

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

the song is nice la... emo type all that.. but than there is another song i also listen .. by lifehouse.. "you and me"
What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off you

Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of

You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive

haha yea songs just control my emotions.. i listen to those that suits my feelings most.. well.. news for myself.. well i did chat to her alittle today.. wasnt much.. dun even noe if she did read my last post... its weird ya noe.. wondering if she reads it or not..

i got to just keep moving on.. and just keep in touch as much as i can.. this blog is something i can pour my thoughts too.. cause its like telling ya fren about yur troubles.. the things is that.. blogging here.. whoever reads it.. becomes like a fren to consult me haha.. great.. my blog has all along been my passion my tale my life

thoughts

okay today was a day agian that i think and think think think...
this feels like one month ago how it all started.. i am just gonna type everything down this time.. i discovered something last nite quite shocking.. its a secret la.. so yea.. i dun think i wanna say it here.. well its something maybe i should had know so much earlier.. i think almost everyone i know in jj noes abt me chasing this gal.. lol.. but than since the start of jj everyone keeps making fun of me wif gal by gal.. so many.. the turth is that i only had one.. but its not really the start of jj i had this started.. its was more like abt the 3rd week onwards.. yea here i go.. this is my tale..

well..this gal is in my class..only started to really talk to her around chinese new year that time.. cause we went to orchard togther to meet the class as she came from her sec skool ,i was from home.. so yea clementi was the spot.. since than i started to know her more little by little... it din't really caught my attention immediately.. cause i am like okay.. just talk whatever crap i have.. everyone gets my crap talking.. slowly i started messaging her and talking to her on the phone.. since the night which she cried alot alot.. even msn talk still can pause to like cry first.. weird but than i know she is deeply hurt by her problems.. that night was the starting of everything to me.. because of that chat on msn.. it lead to me talking on the phone later.. and yea so on we just talk and talk.. slowly i have this feeling that maybe i should like go for her.. cause i found her very sepcial and someone whom makes me wonder abt certain things.. my plan was that i just try my best to make it obvious to show that i like her.. but not tell her directly.. cause i know its gonna be serious if i did that.. so yea.. i started opening myself more and more...

but this made me thought alot too.. because i dunnoe of how or what she thinks.. so its like not nice to make someone feel so werid.. yea i continued chatting wif her all that.. just wanting to know her better to know why i should go for her.. and also to have a better understanding.. somehow.. because of this.. it troubled me to communitcate wif her.. its like i suddenly become so shy... than my fren like hint me that she wun go into relationship cause she wanna study for a levels.. so yea.. i mean like i don't entirely believe thats the reason la.. maybe i felt that my chances were slimmer..

its never nice to feel this way wondering of how the gals feel or think.. its scary.. cause i came wif so many conclusions.. which hunts me.. well valentine's day was a day i wanted to ask her out.. even knowing that we are going in a group.. cause i felt that it would be nicer to like ask her on the phone.. so yea.. i did.. and that took really really alot from me.. but than the outcome wasnt really nice.. ya know.. but in the end still went in a group.. ya that point of time... my hopes were like totally crashed.. because its like maybe she is beyond my reach.. i mean like i felt i wasnt the only one for her.. seriously.. it did made me think that who ever gets her is a lucky man.. so i guessed i aint that lucky.. so yea.. i seriously had troubles to like just leave it like that.. came to conclusion that i do suck at expressing.. its has been my life living wif it.. even my ex.. i did a lousy job expressing not until she was mine.. its hard to tell someone u like about the things u felt.. because the outcome of wad she feels or says.. its just scary to get the answers back..

so yea that very day.. i like start to really let go of this.. but than things somehow refresh.. i mean like.. she still talk and all that.. after having a discussion that she thinks that i don't like her?? so yea.. i was like .. omg... how how?? so i just continued being nice to her.. but than this time.. the feeling i got is much more stronger i had the one b4.. i dunnoe why.. it just keeps me beating when i think of it .. even now.. but than my plan this time was to like take it slow.. and easy.. but i always think that being slow.. i think someone else might catch her instead.. i dunnoe if i am being selfish or wad.. but thats what i really afriad of.. because its like just too heartbreaking to see someone u like telling u that she wanna studys so yea no relationship.. than later u find that she is wif someone else.. its a nightmare.. which i always think of..

having to think so much about chasing her.. i came back to myself and ask.. why her? i dun have a definate answer.. what i can say is that i am following my heart all the way.. cause that brings joy the most.. well can say that she is one of a kind whom i never met in my life.. i mean like its just nice sharing thoughts and story wif her.. dunnoe if she finds it nice anot.. but than.. yea.. i dunnoe.. thats the thing.. but i really missed those time talking to her.. its just something i treasure alot..

on the last day of skool.. i sang a song infront of the class.. which i composed for her.. suppose to only let her listen.. its a song that suppose to say what happened and all that.. well it was a last min thing to like play it in the canteen to let everyone from my class and some others in the canteen to hear.. i never thought i could have done something like that.. i mean like to actually write a song in 1 day and perform a solo when i suck at vocals.. for just her.. it took 101% of me.. later that day.. i remember going to viknesh house.. he talked to me about it.. cause he was by my side when i played.. the thing is that i dunnoe what he thoughts all that.. but i recived a meassge later that night from her.. saying that she wants to study and have personal stress.. so yea she dun wanna have any commitment and hope we could just remain frens.. she likes the song..

that message made me wondered.. is it because that she is really way beyond my reach.. i mean that she is like someone so good that i am not good enough for her.. or is it really because she dun wanna have more burden in life having this.. well i replied that i just wanna know her more so that i could get my answers better.. at the same time to find out why i am really into her.. since i sang that song.. things changed.. i felt that it affected how we talk now alot.. its like more general now.. just normal talk.. nothing much special.. maybe alittle..

the thing is that i wondered most is that did she ever felt for me.. or still does.. this 2 answer is very important to me.. because its like to decide if i should go on or not.. and yea this made me drag all the way till now.. i mean like i am not wanting the answer that if she wants to get into relationship wif me.. thats something naturally will be decided.. but now .. i till today have no answers if she ever like me.. i mean like if she does enjoy my company.. i will make her enjoy everyday of her life...all i wanted to see from her is her being happy.. which mattered most of all..

anyway.. to me .. love is never a burden... its always something extra specially for us to have.. cause whenever you are in the lowest point of life..u have someone to fall back on who believes in you.. that drives you to things u never imagined u could achieve.. its like an extra gear in you.. everything u do.. the reason is because of love..

well.. i always regret for not doing certain things in life.. which makes me so foolish.. the things i wanted to do.. i acutally wrote a lyrics out of it.. goes something like this.. "she is always there in my dreams, me telling her how much i felt for her. but its just a dream, if only could this be real. to look into her eyes and tell her how much i love her" its was when i going home just now from orchard.. very long bus ride.. because i actually wanted to send her home .. so ya she went up the bus.. i couldnt bring myself to go.. so yea i regret.. could had took that chance to do it ...

just because of her.. i have so much deep thoughts.. and getting to know that its her and because of her making me think like this.. is like wow.. she is really someone special to me.. that drove my spirit for 2 months.. even the times we had were short.. and maybe not special to her.. it did really gave me alot of things to learn in life..

knowing her was a blessing.. she is like an angel so high up there.. and i just wait and watch her.. the greatest chase of my life.. she took my heart away.. and yet i am here.. just waiting.. =)

guess that this post will be really the longest of all post.. btw if she gets to read this.. actually this is how much i wanna tell her abt my thoughts.. and hearing the answer right from her face.. it shall take me to where i head later.. i wished i could tell her this to her eyes..

its 2 am now.. and yes.. watever mention above is something i really kept for very long.. i know it can be selfish or boring.. well.. if it is.. thats life for me.. and hope i could be a better man..and hope my time will come.. to be like robbie williams!! lol. great lyrics .. love it..

well i hope that this won't make things worse.. and sorry to her if it did.. i shall shut up when u tell me to.. this is how much i think almost everyday.. so pouring it out here.. i hope it will get a better understanding..

playing soccer is my passion and yes soccer is my game and love.. wth.. okay i shut u p now.. its a long post i suppose.. okay

goodbye you

creep

running in circles... coming back to the start
i don't know anything about what is happening..
makes me feel like i am just so lost
i always fear of losing.. but losing is something that makes me learn
but losing it and learning.. is it possible to get it back..?
i shall keep my focus clear and just keep believing..
maybe someday.. it will come true..
or maybe i will just lose hope..
than thats when i start regret..
kill me

kill me

hey mates.. i am totally in chaos now.. my mind is so screwed up.. went chalet yesterday than overnite than this morning play soccer wif mike matin harision and kai.. than go look at laptops wif my parents.. after comming home.. this is when my world statt to become darker.. and i felt like really killing myself.. cause i found out something.. that i should had known long ago.. and now its uselss.. stupid me.. i feel so dumb =( haiz.. this is life.. i suck and tml i shall suck even more .. and so on

day at home

hello!! omg today i watch 4 moives in a row in my own room.. its super boring when u dun have money and u dun have anything on... all i could do is rot at home... today is a day i wasted.. doing nothing.. totally useless.. recently i have been thinking of buying so many things.. man.. this made me wanting to get a job.. even now i am working in coffee bean.. i wanna get another job.. because i want more money to get what i want.. how i wished if i have bigger allowance and get anything i want.. my soccer boots is the only thing i ever work for to get it.. and i just love it.. life can really be boring sometimes.. all i just need to do is just get something to do.. today i just feel soooo lazy.. thats why i watch movies.. think i am gonna watch some more..

hungry now!!!

monday

hello mates.. today i am going to jj to watch a soccer match agianst srjc.. dicky's skool.. and i think he will be there haha.. wish i could like trash his ass la.. anyway.. its really boring to like have a long holiday now.. i really feel like start skool now and just study study.. soccer soccer... seriously.. i suddenly felt the urge to like become an engineer.. its a good thing because i am going it wif my passion.. hope that poly will still have space for freedom.. well.. skool starts like at april 24th.. gonna go orientation agian... ice breaker agian haha.. i somehow feel like earning alot of cash now.. but coffee bean isnt a kind of job that gives big money if u work hard.. think i might get some factory work to earn big cash.. wanna get myself a new mp3.. new psp.. 2 pair of shoes.. bag.. shirts.. NEW HP!!! i got to earn like a 1000 to really get all this.. mp3.. ipod nano.. cost abt 300 plus.. psp 500plus.. shoes.. maybe around 60 each.. bag getting it likt around 70.. shirt.. get 2 topman shirt.. 140 togther.. haha its aready above 1000.. wanna get a new hp that cost around 500.. hrmm.. i think i should get a better hp than get a mp3.. get a mp3 phone.. but than i just love ipod nano.. its so small and have so many songs.. haiz..

anyway i am really waiting to get the package from ngee poly so i can go and get my laptop!! i am just waiting waiting.. cause if i get it.. i would get a bag also.. gonna get a crumpler bag.. i have been having dreams lately.. its like always abt the same thing or person.. wonder if its a good or bad sign.. haiz.. life is like this.. and i wanna move on..

sum of all thoughts

jj nite 2 nites ago.. awesome.. it was very emotional seeing everyone.. everyone misses s jj.. its sad that now most of them i can't see them like we were in the first 2 months.. mr chng.. best teacher ever.. even the class has only been 2 months wif him. he still welcomes us back to jj or to him anytime.. he was shaking my hand and saying that i should at least see you in NUS or NTU 3 years from now or after ns.. matin cried.. seeing him cried made me felt like crying too.. but mike was there keeping us strong =) mass dance was awesome.. danced wif celest liying and mike haha.. we did the train all over the hall.. and i was drenched in my class shirt.. like i just jumped into a swimming pool.. the singing session was nice.. singing our hearts out.. haha mike was really teasing me.. when the chorus of thats where u find love.. dunnoe if i should state here wad exactly happen.. those who knows will know =) i gonna really miss jj alot.. it was like the perfect skool for me to study in.. but too bad i am not good enough for it.. after everything i went to thank umar.. he said he will miss me.. and yea i will miss everything about jj.. i was very very sad... felt like crying.. but still i hold it.. i reached home at 11.30 that nite.. matin so badly miss jj that he din wan to go home and just stay wif us..i felt the same too.. jj has somehow became a part of me.. its a blessing to meet u guys and gals in jj..

after jj nite.. the next day was li ying's birthday.. had some problems wif my fren afiq.. b4 going there.. i was really pissed off wif him.. dunnoe to blame myself or wad.. but he treats me like dirt yesterday.. and harrsion was there.. saying he is not your fren.. haiz.. my classmate for 3 years.. afiq.. i dunnoe wad to say.. but its sad seeing u like this.. u been having physcological problems..which i never mention.. cause i accept the way u are.. even ppl like says about u.. and like talk bad about u.. i never once join them.. cause i thought u were a real friend.. and now after something like this happen.. i guess i must be wrong... its such a pain to find that someone who u thought was yur buddy.. stabs u at the back.. well.. after that went to kap.. met celest and suan wee.. haha they waited for me like 1 hour.. than we ate macs.. awhile later came liying .. than her nan hua frens ... i never thought that the celebration was at her house.. i didnt give her the present as early as the rest because i was waiting for mike.. cause he also paid part of the present.. so yea.. we went to her house first than later came down to fetch mike up.. he was injured la. than climb up that hill haha.. haha we only gave the presents only when they were taking photos.. milton passed her the present which was a guitar and i said its a share from the four of us.. and harrison.. than i pass her my own present.. lol. it looks so simple la my one.. i should had wrap it.!! haha.. the cake looks quite nice.. white and pink.. but when she cuts the cake and i saw it inside.. i was like wow.... jam.. =) but the best part was eating the cake.. its cold inside.. haha.. one of the nicest birthday cake i ate.. while eating the cake.. i was sitting wif mike milton bryan and liying's mom.. haha suddenly we just talk.. well she did a very good job being a host.. nice and cool mom.. lol.. the thing that catches me most was her younger brother.. running around all over and being so hyper active.. reminds me.. when i was young haha..but for me.. i was much more worse.. well.. stayed till around 11.30.. haha... luckily me mike and milton manage to catch our last bus..

today went to play the nike joga 3v3 competition haha.. i was really nervous at first.. but than we won 5 games in a row!!!!wow!! haha but than they say if win 5 games must change court.. than we queue up agian.. super super long.. and the worst part was we got this very good team.. and they score against us in a blink of an eye.. we never touched the ball haha.. but than we were told her got into the finals.. but than tml we shall do it agian.. to get better chances =)well can say things are getting better so far.. just that i miss jj alot alot..

and yes.. SKOOL STARTS IN APRIL 24!!! WAHHAHAHAH CAN DIE WAITING

Who is comming and who is going? I just sit here and wait.. during hari raya last year.. my house nearby.. this road.. where will it take me? who will be there? who won't? life is like a box of chocolates.. ya neva noe wad ya gonna get =) 

lalallala

omg mates.. been going out everyday to town.. since monday.. shites.. i am so broke now.. staying at home.. will just make me think think think until i go nuts.. its soooo boring at home.. =( tml is jj nite.. alot of ppl asking me if i was going.. wad do ya think? lol.. duh!! going of course... oh mann.... skool starts like next month for me.. soooo long... i at home blasting music into my ears.. the same song.. over and over agian.. addicted to this song.. don't you forget about me.. it really suits my mood now.. serious.. haha... having mood swings.. felt so good playing soccer just now... but i got injured in just 5 mins.. so unlucky.. i hurt my foot bone.. soo pain!! yet i played for 4 hours .. hope i wun go nuts until i go and do something stupid.. tml afiq asked me to go clementi gym to work out haha.. need to pass him the money also.. think i go for awhile only... i badly want skool to start asap!! i super bored.. somebody please just kill me.. so i wun suffer lol..

life is amazing yet boring now!! cause staying at home..is like URHH... cant do much.. anyway.. hope tml will be a better day la.. cause i will be going to jj nite!! hehe =)

Don't you forget about me

THis song is dedicated to you

DON'T YOU FORGET ABOUT ME

Won't you come see about me
I'll be alone, dancing, you know
Tell me your troubles and doubts
Giving me everything inside and out
love's strange: so real in the dark
Think about the tender things
That we're working on
Slow change can pull us apart
When the light gets into your heart

[Chorus]
Don't you forget about me
Don't, don't, don't, don't
Don't you forget about me
(times 2)

As you walk on by
Will you call my name
As you walk on by
Will you call my name
When you walk away

Oh, will you walk away
Will you walk on by
Come on, call my name
Will you call my name

la lalala la lalala lalalalalala
la lalala la lalala lalalalalala
la lalala la lalala lalalalalala

globe

today went shopping wif my parents the entire day!! bough new globe shoes!! super chio.. nice cool.. haha .. i just loved it.. din expect them to spend so much on a shoe for me.. first time!! =) anyway.. i got a new pair or ear phones too.. i loving it.. makes my music feel so real now where ever i go.. sound quality matters alot!!! meet up wif bryan and mike just now at kap.. we talk crap all the way sia.. and say how we miss our times.. yea.. its nice seeing both of them back.. guess i gonna miss alot of frens soon.. tml going for yfc interview.. hope and pray hard i get in =)