touching

i am having a movie marathon in my own room haha.. watched the break up,coyote ugly and lake house.. all of them are nice .. i just only watched lake house a couple of mins ago.. the starting abit slow.. but than when i get to understand.. its really nice.. about this guy who is from the past 2 years ago and this woman who is 2 years in the future of the guy.. so yea.. two people in two different timming.. kind of sweet the way how they kept their so called long distance relationship. they communicate through this mailbox at a lakehouse.. where the mail will have a link between the past and future.. following the story line , seeing how both of them kept the relationship even they cant see each other.. it makes thing special i guess.. cause this way u will noe the person by heart.. it would naturally tell u that this person is special.. so that is why they are still together even not physically.. but the ending is quite awesome.. its kind of a fantasy ending but yea. shows that even when the world is comming to an end.. dun give up hope =)go and watch it yurself haha...

coyote ugly is also another kind of love story but its abt this gal who move to new york to become a musican.. but end up working at a bar .. entertaining people by singing and dancing.. i kind of like the way how she met the guy and how they been through.. well well if u wana noe u got to watch the movie!!! hahaha

anyway i brought my keyboard and my mic up into my room.. cause i wanna practice more keyboard and do some recordining.. can say that my old pc is turnning into a music recording station haha.. even wif the monitor like u noe .. cannot see .. but still i made use of it.. just for music =) now i am squeezing at a corner of my room wif my laptop and my 2.1 altec lansing speakers haha.. kinda of small but nice =)

bored home

hello everyone.. it has been quite a long holiday for me yea.. and its fasting month too.. well i have been damn bored at home recently.. and have this weird feelins like u noe when u think that yur left alone by the world and i just lay home watch movies and do my things.. time just pass by like that even i could not remember wad day is it..

well i am currently listening to this song "All my life" by kc and jojo. its one of my childhood fav song .. i really like this song because its a special song meant for someone special..

its has really been very slow for me these few days.. well i only blog when i have things to share with.. basically i have not been anything lately so yea.. so its sad that i like u noe.. couldnt do anything different.. well i hope and i pray that maybe someday i can find something to spend my time on =)

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hello mates

hello.. it has been a while has it since i last posted yea? haha anyway. just talked to gerg just now on the phone.. was talking abt plans going uni haha.. omg la.. cannot imagine boht of us actually wanna go australia to study after our ns.. well its quite interesting looking at all the courses.. its like u noe.. so many!! hahaha.. go there to study and make money!! make more more money .. we find our ways for sure.. but i am looking forward to playing soccer there too! lol.. now 18.. 21 go ns.. study for 3-4 years after i am 23 out from ns.. wow.. damn old la haha.. than by the time i finish studying aready like 27? lol.. well if u have the money u no need worry a thing mates..

ealier today played soccer in school wif ayat zul cheng leong and rudy.. haha .. its our first time meeting each other since skool ended yea.. damn happy we managed to make it.. =) i still have 2 weeks of holidays.. no idea wad to do sia! haha.. think i go play tennis wif greg or just go find some lame shit work earn more cash.. i am suddenly so interested in just making money.. feel so damn being poor.. it sucks when u dun have the power to get wad u want!! MONEY= POWER hahahaha... there some things u cant buy but u can buy things to get another thing.. its all linked.. so yea.. roots of all is still money! haha.. all abt the money...

hey

hello peeps... okay today went for this job interview wif my bro.. its about going to schools teaching students how to use some programs.. omg.. going back to skool? haha .. isnt it cool =) but yea well paid job also.. its 15 per hour.. not bad.. haha.. oh yea last two nites i din came home.. i went to phunk bar wif ayat,akon,marvin and my bro haha.. omg its like so damn funny la.. dance until my shoes the sole come out.. doing some stupid break dancing.. well had a fun nite duo.. slept at the esplanade for 2 hours than headed home ... now holiday are nearly comming to an end.. how sad can that be? haha okay i gtg now.. bye mates

hows life

hello everyone.. life is just allrite here =) okay today i worked at a malay wedding serving drinks and cleaning up tables.. so yea get to meet alot of people.. haha.. and i got forced to dance infront of the whole crowd.. wahh.. well.. i did a couple of moves so yea.. but damn pai sei la haha.. anyway got 40 bucks so yea.. for 4 hours.. not bad huh.. saw some interesting people... u noe now days mixed races in families.. awesome rite? the kids look so chinese than the mother malay.. dad of course chinese.. like the clones of me.. pretty awesome.. haha.. yea.. well went to a soccer match after that which had been called off by the GAY ref! haha talk like wanna cry like that haha.. than act act army scolding style.. u can just kiss my ass la ref! haha.. i played like only 10 mins? just to get kicked at my damn leg lol.. dumbass la they all..

anyway yesterday was my wu shu performance.. for the 42th year aniversary. awesome!! i get to perform in front of people.. but pai sei la.. my first kick i redo cause i misjudge than i hesitate haha.. but lucky nothing happen la.. than i whack the sticks all break.. whew! well.. it was awesome nite la.. the food the people!! those from nus also come.. cheers!!

i miss you

this song is dedicated to the one who is responsible for my sweetest mermories =)

I miss you - blink 182


(I miss you, miss you)

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare,
The shadow in the background of the morgue,
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if you want
Where you can always find me
And we'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
The webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight


Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)


Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)


(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)

hey

hey.. tml is my eltech exams and i am now still not 100% prepared.. wtf wtf lol.. damn shag now and i still have to read more.. my room is so messed up and i dun feel good duo.. its hot now and i cant feel good anywhere.. damn.. hope i dun screwed up my exams tml.. lol.. =)

in skool

hello! well i am in skool agian.. reached early .. nizam and hairul should be reaching in abt 10 min time.. gonna study today wif them.. yea today is thursday.. and tml is my maths exam.. i gonna revise my maths entirely today.. got to at least know how to do all.. careless mistake is okay la.. but if dunnoe to do.. die! haha.. i realise that i am quite lucky to have only 2 papers for the examination.. i heard people are taking 5 papers or wad.. But the mass com people are aready on holidays since last week.. they have no exams.. they only have presenation and that kind of stuff.. lol.. what i do really miss having fun when the examination are nearing .. is SOCCER!! wahh.. no skool training.. no court soccer in skool.. damn sian.. i bet wif u next week after my eltech exams.. i gonna choing to play soccer haha.. well maybe this examination break is also good of my injured ankle.. i dunnoe whats really wrong wif it.. but yea its still not fully recovered.. so yea.. its not as strong as ever... i got to train to my tip top condition agian.. when i can just run non stop and creating chances for the team.. be it scoring or assisting..

well i am alone here infront of the cheers in my skool.. behind the bus stop... just sitting here enjoying the wind and looking at the people around in groups... well .. people might think i am a loner or some thing haha. .well.. i am waiting for my frens so yea i am not.. listening to songs wif my headphones.. too bad i cant download songs in skool.. they kind of block it or something.. also i got no games in my laptop haha.. cause i reformated it!! hrmm i got movies that i downloaded from irc but no idea how to watch them.. its somekind of weird file formats..

well.. how i wish everyone is in skool and exams are over.. we can go jamming or play soccer... lol.. its 2 months break!! gonna work for a few days for sure.. hacing chalet and yea maybe my family gonna have a holiday at this lighthouse which i went ages ago.. its a small island off singapore.. its has only a lighthouse and 2 chalet houses
its really small..
can say its only 3/4 of the soccer field size haha definately gonna bring my laptop.. bring my guitar.. bring my ps2.. bring alot of moives.. bring alot of food!! haha.. gonna have fun duo.. having foc chalet and class chalet too.. it will be a time really for me to relec.. but can be boring la.. so i kind of expected it.. next month i am gonna start fasting!! wahahahha.. than 1 month later its hari raya.. a time to get really really busy hahaha =) well it would be nice to see all my cousins and relatives once agian..

i am gonna end 1/6 of my skool life in poly.. i felt like it just went pass just like that.. its freaking fast la.. hahaha but i only will finish studying here entirely in 2009 wah.. lol.. than i enter ns in june 2009 around there... finish ns by 2011 june! omg that really sound damn far.. i would be hrmm.. 23 years old by than.. no idea what my future brings yet.. omg i sound so damn old la.. i am only 18 now.. 23 is like 5 years later.. everyone that i noe around me definately is gonna look different like mad..

i guess its a time to really enjoy my time in poly haha.. wahha i just called nizam he say 15 min more .. omg.. i am so damn bored here alone la.. and there are people playing at the soccer court.. but its sizzling hot now la .. the sun is like a volcano haha.. guess i just reserve my energy.. =) btw i have a soccer game this sunday but than i having exams on monday.. hrmm.. thats intresting yea? haha.. last sunday i played okok la i think. i guess i under performed.. this sunday i gonna give all out.. hope ayat is comming so yea our partnership can bring us more goals..

haiz.. damn.. i guess i continue surfing the web around haha and maybe just sleep or something so yea..
rock on mates!

here by me

hello everyone agian =) well exams this friday and next comming monday and than its holidays.. today went to skool actually to attend this eltech lecture abt A.C circuits but than i end up going library studying on my own and watch movie wif ayat.. lol.. had quite a fun time studying today... so yea quite good la.. but still alot to study for me.. haiz...
nothing much to say tonite.. so sowie
but i have a song in mind here
its a very nice song

Here By Me

I hope you’re doing fine up there without me
'Cause I'm not doing so good without you
The things I thought you'd never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood
So how could I have been so blind for all these years
I guess I only see the truth through all this fear of living without you

And everything I have in this world
And all that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

I can’t take another day without you
'Cause, baby, I could never make it on my own
I've been waiting so long just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong
I'm sorry I can't always find the words to say
But everything I've ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

And everything I have in this world
All that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

As the days roll on I see
Time is standing still for me
When you’re not here
I’m sorry I can’t always find the words to say
Everything I’ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

x2
And everything I have in this world
And all that i'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

life is short

hey everyone.. i haven been blogging for quite awhile.. maybe because i was busy thinking and that point of time i have nothing to say much.. so yea now .. maybe i shall type out some of my thoughts.. dun know if they make any sense.. but this is what i come to after all the thinking.. hrmm..
life is short and temporary but life after is eternal.. everything i do now.. i am confused what my future brings me later.. i haven been flashbacking my memories for the past 2 years.. what happen.. seriously.. what i missed the most was when i was in love wif my previous galfren.. besides that.. maybe how i work my way up towards my music? this 2 things that i recalled.. god i am sure i do miss those times.. and now things are just going the way i din expected it to.. and people come telling me that everything is all right and its normal.. well.. i am sad to say that its just not i wanted it to be.. its like .. hrmm .. u noe.. just becoming a swinger .. playing around wif people hearts that kind of stuff.. and the meaning of love to me is like so simple and kind of dumb.. its damn stupid la i think.. u have someone who u called yur bf or gf than.. the only thing that u do is that yur just be there physically and just say all this mushy words and than u forgive everything.. besides that maybe u have fun dating and all that kind of sweet things.. BUT .. this is the part which i really look into.. yea But when you find yurself into a big big trouble and the whole world is gonna crush on you.. espcially when u quarrel wif yur bf or gf.. will he or she still be there for you ? ya they can like confort you.. but the thing is that they are not always by yur side giving you all the support you need.. it used to be that love is like u can find it like fishes in the sea.. but now.. you just take a good freaking look.. the sea is polluted.. just my luck that i came across wif this gal not long ago who really ruin it.. just spoilt the meaning of it.. well well.. i am not gonna avenge this on anyone else.. but i just have to say that i am quite disappointed of how things are now.. and its sad.. freaking SAD!! imgaine the divorce rate in 10 years time.. my words.. if u dun believe.. u wait and see..

well well.... i guess it would be a very long time till i am lucky enough to find one agian.. someone who will make me believe in love once more.. or else its all bullshit i can say.. oh yea.. this is a phrase i thought of when i thought of my past.. "Let me see you once agian, so that we could know wad we need and at least i have the chance say goodbye to someone i remembered always" its sad for me how it ended more than a year ago.. but yea.. well.. i admit i took things for granted even now ? i watched a moive just now wif zul "the click" its like showing things that i believe that it could make sense.. and its damn sad .. DAMN DAMN SAD when you took things for granted and you never have the chance to tell the one you love that you love him or her.. omg.. its really sad la i watch the show.. he had a rewind of his life showing how he treated his dad.. and he just din look at him and din entertaint his day.. and that was the day his dad died ! omg.. haiz.. i guess that being emo at times like this for me maybe its good.. ya never noe.. cause all i noe now is that i have to be a better man..

i always had this idea to kind of look up back to my ex and at least have a chat wif her.. but than.. i guess.. maybe its not the time or maybe.. i should just move on and i might happen to catch her someday agian.. its very hard for me to forget because it was the first time i crave someones name into my heart.. and its the only one i had.. so yea.. i just have to face the facts and move on..

times like this.. i will always remember who were there for me.. and never ever take things for granted..

rock on mates =)

wadf

what a time to wake up.. its 1.30pm in the day .. and its saturday! .. damn freaking tired... yesterday zul and cheng leong overnite at my crib.. so yea.. maybe we stayed up a bit too late lol.. well.. we went to skool yesterday cause zul had to take the test for his c programming.. and me and cheng leong just chill around to wait for him.. omg the new cheers which open in my skool.. well.. its wasnt really anything much i can say.. its like so empty.? guess maybe its beacause it is an outdoor one ? lol.. and its NOT 24HOURS!! how in the blue hell can i ever enjoy ? lol.. it closes at 8 plus.. sucks rite? after soccer cannot enjoy a good bite =( exams are commming i aint start a single revsion how dumb that can it be.. i just dun feel right these days..

back the habit

today had an A02 meeting agian! =) was really happy to see all of them once agian.. i will never forget.. the point of that i din wanna leave jj because of them.. it was nice seeing vicknesh,chee png,ji shen,celestine,kuinoi,yuvette,matani,ebigal,xinyi and germaine once agian.. really made my day.. oh ya i am so sowie kui noi i forgotten to wish u a happy 17th birthday!! i came late duo.. because of some idiot!! chengleong!! wahha idiotic sia.. go take my jeans and run away.. left me in my underwear only.. waste my time and made me miss 2 bus!! lol.. played soccer at the new court agian.. was really going wild just blasting the ball here and there.. at least i scored a few hehee.. today my skool had a bazar, giving free drinks.. ayat treated me ice cream cause he think that the gal that is selling it has looks?? hahaha... went to library to play this stupid drum game wif ayat.. always wanan challange me.. its in my blood.. of course u noe who won.. :P

i been quite radical these few days.. gettling loose all over just pouring my emotions out by ya noe.. talking wad i felt like.. i could like suddenly get serious over something.. people say i am shy.. but i say that once u make me feel welcome.. i become a irritating bastard!! haha... tml thinking of going back to skool to do maths wif ayat.. not really sure duo.. but yea they are comming to my house to jam =) hope that exams are over and i pass all of them.. 2months break follows on!! yea.. time to WORK!!! MONEY I NEED!! hahai wanan get a new guitar.. please someone spon me lol.. oh ya next week i am starting to fast! wah.. and than it would hari raya!!! money agian once more.. hehe..

last nite i slept at 5am thanks to ayat and zul talking to them all night.. its gay!! lol.. but yea.. me and zul wrote out a few songs aready.. me and him not long ago had been broke off by our relationships.. so yea.. we start writing thigns out.. and out album is gonna send a message to all those who cheated us... and some other stuffs..

High

H.I.G.H

the new band which i formed from my current class..
cheng leong -drummer
zul - bass
rudy - guitar
ming - guitar & keyboard

we are a new band... cheng leong and zul just started.. training them now.. gonna be the next electrico in singapore someday? haha.. i am so happy that we are doing this.. so that i can continue my passion for music.. my dream thing.. so yea.. now not really focusing on vocalist.. because we need to have good music first.. so yea vocals.. maybe soon la.. finding one now =)

backah

hello everybody its me back in action blogging =)
well welll today rudy cheng leong zul came my house to have some fun hahaha.. we jam and we video ourselves it was really hilarious hhaha... its insanity... omg its been a long while since i went so high just playing guitar lol.. yea yea.. had fun.. past few days..? i can say that time really flys.. its amazing that its aready weekend and i dun feel like i went to skool? lol.. haha.. i dunnoe why la.. but time really flys..
i wonder =)

rock

OMG I ENJOYED BAY BEATS!! ELECTRICO ROCKS OH YEA!! i was screaming and jumping and all that .. wat a way to end my weekend.. seriously they inspired me deeply once agian to be a musician someday hahaha.. its really awesome la.. love the way they rock.. rock really hard.. haha.. amanda as pretty as ever =) ahhaha... so yea.. tml skool oh yea btw i lost my hp =( sad case la.. so yea i go rest now hahaha

song?

i am really bored through the night.. staying up wif zul .. oh yea.. i got my laptop back yea =) so yea been thinking really alot.. listening to loving memory by alter bridge.. reminds me of jjc .. i close my eyes to see.. and yea they are a part of me.. its the lyrics in the song.. nice yea? feel like making a song now.. hrmm... the title should be.. what is love.. yea.. it has been the question that keeps going on through everyone at least once a life time..

What is love?

i couldnt answer myself why i felt that way,
just watch myself make the same mistake agian
i've been rejected number of times,
asking myself what is love

the love that i dreamt?
the love that i thought?
but what i saw was....

CHORUS

Nothing i ever dreamt of
Nothing i thought it would be
Cause after all,
Love is a game
A game to play
When two falls in love..


haha i dunnoe if this will do.. i just make a short one first la.. =)

hey

omfg ... i am soooo excited.. okok.. this is what happen.. someone adds me on msn.. and i ask WHO ARE U? and he replied... SOMEONE WHO U THINK U MIGHT KNOW... haha and i looked at his dp.. omg.. its her bf.. u noe my hrmm.. bf.. then keep asking me things what happen.. hahaha okoko.. u noe wad matters most? it settled for mE!! omg... i am like finnally FINALLLY CLEARED!!! WHEW! mates.. i am out clean and yet the other side is letf wif more shit to clear.. haha.. okok.. now its all about friends and family.. ITS CLEARED CHOP 1000 times settled whew!

now days.. love is hard to find.. because people just say i love you without their whole heart.. maybe the world today made the communication so good that u can find another better one so easily so yea.. its possible to like love someone else instead of just one.. thats why i always love classic tales.. its more of a kind of 1 to 1... omg come on i just got screwed up by my previous one and now telling me that regreted going with me because i am just too popular?? while on the back she is wif someone else.. fuck it mate.. ever since i knew about this.. i try my best to find all the reasons in the world to forget about her.. seriously.. AHH BULL SHIT LA!! YUR SPOILING MY WORLD OF LOVE.... thats why i think gays have the best love in the world sometimes.. its like so hard to find gays.. and they just have that love which is deeper and better than most of the gal and guys who are in love!! OMG !! WHATS WRONG IS WITH THIS WORLD!! haha i think i gonna compose a song like that some day.. sayyinng that gays love is better than normal love for todayh... its such a disgrace to man everywhere and me..

love currently just sucks to me now .. cause all i hear is screwed up people..
maybe once in a million.. i got to be 100 times more strict wif my rules now .. or else i gonna get into another major accident agian.. lol..

now its all in my own world.. if u wanna be part of the ride.. think twice if yur worth a try.. and make sure that u know wad u want.. even as a fren.. just hate when things just screw

so yea.. rawk on!

pissed

I AM SO DAMN MAD!! MY LAPTOP CANNOT BE REPAIR!!!! WTF WTF!! SAY THE PART ALSO NO STOCK!!! WTF IS WRONG MAN!! I NEED IT BACK BADLY!! shit mates... got to continue carry my bro's 3.5 KG !! LAPTOP TO SKOOL!! haiz... nvm... i think i gonna load everything into his com tml aready.. i dun care.. i need to study..

update

hey hey hey sup mates!! woho haha
life has been going allrite for me now and then..
went to skool soccer trials yesterday and managed to get into the np soccer team.. damn really happy abt it despite my ankle like kind of fail to show my full potential.. its okay.. since i am in now.. i should take care of my ankle well.. been playing goalkeeper for my class team haha. last saturday.. we had a street soccer competition and won a couple of games.. all the way i played keeper.. its such a strange feeling for me cause i never like being keeper.. with my twisted ankle like this i had no choice.. so i offer my service of being a goalkeeper.. well.. some of my classmates thinks i am not good enough to be in the skoolteam.. even i heard it from somewhere.. there is nothing better i can do to fight them back but to prove them wrong one day.. its okay when people just criticise me directly, but on my back.. i think its disgusting.. so much for being a classmate.. well.. i dun intend to get mad or wad.. i should learn to be modest and just keep quiet abt it like i never heard a single thing..

besides that.. i will be playing soccer agian tml .. at the new court.. oh yea.. ngee ann have a soccer court now.. i spend like 70% of my time them after skool.. really enjoying to play with the people around here.. more time to train some skills too.. oh yea my fitness really dropped to the core.. i think now its just 40% of wad i had 5months ago.. eating soooo much now.. i am getting alitte fat hahaha..

i hope i get my laptop back today.. suppose to be yesterday , but then.. they ask my dad to call today agian.. and yea please come back to me today!! haha.. the weather is super nice now.. just stop raining.. a perfect time to sleep haha.. but ya now i got to really catch up my skoolwork.. i been missing out alot of things.. i am now fearing of not doing well for my exams later this year.. i really wanna do well.. not just pass..

oh yea.. on sunday.. zul and cheng leong camped at my house to do project and watch world cup hahahaha.. its really a disaster haha.. we 3 were like doing things at the same time.. but yea.. its like the first time i had frens who stayed overnite to just do project and watch soccer.. its fun la.. haha.. camping the whole day at home wif them.. in the end all of us slept during the match ahhahaha.. i only woke up during the penalty shootout.. my brother was like screaming all over the house ITALY!!! hahah..

the next day we went to skool together.. edman saw the 3 of us marching towards him hahah.. its the first time zul came to skool early!! because he is with me wad.. haha.. then later during break we went to zul house to take his soccer stuffs for the trials later that day .. haha guess wad... zul's dad drove us to skool in a BUS!!!! MUAHAHAH.. its like so big la.. then only 3 of us ... its just like so funny la..

now i just chilling out at the atirm to catch up some work... everyone has gone home how sad =( .. haha..

oh yea.. abt my life in general.. its much better than it used to be the past few post i made.. i am starting to open my life agian.. which is good =)
rawk on!