hard time

i have come to a very critical moment of my life now.. its like so busy now.. tonite i have work till 12.. then tml have to practice jamming till noon then go work.. monday go sentosa wif my foc group.. then practice jamming after that.. and tuesday whole day jamming.. but the thing is that i cant get the members get right on time for practice.. its so stressful for me.. well how i wish i had more time..

Hello people again... back from FOC trail camp.. lost my voice haha.. as usual.. had really a great time there.. its been a year back when i was that really happy. becoming a GL this time round.. feels damn good.. well to tell you the truth i cant wait for the actual camp to be rocking wif the freshies.. leading the hundreds agian... i really enjoy leading big group of people since i was in secondary school days in NCC.. even i was suppose to be the one that is fierce and Evil the big one.. haha i guess i just wanna make everyone happy and have a fun learning journey bonding them together.. i really miss the times i had in sec skool days in camp.. this FOC camp is gonna be bigger and more fun... the trail camp was quite a big success for all the GLs.. i had 4 days non stop fun hahaha... reall i enjoyed myself really alot... even i hate to admit i did stone in the camp at certain point of time is because i am like recalling how was is it like again being so bonded wif my group like we it happen last year wif naga.. well i was kinda named during the trail camp but who cares as long it makes everyone happy and so do i hahaha... i really hope that my group PERCIVAL would be one of best group in the coming FOC.. coming up wif your very own original cheers.. is just awesome. .just like playing music to me.. now the biggest challenge how to make the first day of FOC for the freshie real fun wif a big bang haha.. no more cock ups.. just pure fun and madness hahha... after being through the trail camp.. i just wanna be wif my group members.. they are sooo FUN!! haha.. even losing our voices we still joke around and laugh like monkeys haha.. 3 more weeks.. i think the gls should meet up more and more often to have the strong bonding.. this coming monday we are going to sentosa! haha surely this one confirm damn fun.. from today onwards i will try my very best to update my blog more often.. cause i dun want this point of my life to just pass by.. i wan to have a memoir of this moment even nobody cares.. yea..
another thing that is my biggest concern is the audition at ben n jerry next tuesday... omg my band wif the lack of practice.. die sia... i wanna really have a solid band to break into the music industry wif has always been my biggest dream.. well i really hope so i do get in someday.. i pray hard that this audition is the first step for us =)

sup

hey everyone.. its been a real long time i last update..especially its 2007! OMG haha.. okok

that is a picture of me waking up on the 1st day of the year! haha.. super shagged man.. and

its time to unleash the beast muhaha.. lol.. sleeping on newspaper wtf..

and here some of my cousins posing wif the walk of the 2007 .. i look super shag behind those shades lol..

anyway.. skool reopen as usual.. getting my results back.. not bad.. lol.. but could be better..

i just watched CRASH just now.. josiah borrow the dvd from vidz easy. so yea now i have to return it.. its a super nice show.. got to watch it or u regret.. its about interracial conflicts in america at LA.. the whole show is super meaningful.. comming to think of it.. this show makes u feel safe here in singapore somehow lol.. but yea.. a show u cannot miss..

well if there is anything i wanna update here.. hrmm.. oh yea i been working quite alot actually but recently they decided to cut cost and yea i work lesser hours and lesser days.. like wth .. so i found a job paying 7 an hour opposite my restaraunt lol... !!

besides work.. i been consistanly reminding myself about my music passion.. i miss playing music so badly.. and oh yea... 3 MORE DAYS TO MUSE CONCERT!! MUAHAHAHAH.. BUT!!! i am going this concert alone.. cause no one i know could afford to come wif me.. really sad but yea.. i cant miss this concert for sure.. haiz....

on the other hand.. i am quite glad that my cousin bonds are getting stronger.. we now meet up much more often and talk abt all our problems and doubts.. i mean like u noe we treat each other like blood brothers.. i have a feeling that later in life when we grow old.. we'll surely have something that we are gonna do together like a business or something.. if we carry on being close =)

it keeps raining and raining everyday.. the only thing i worry is that the concert on tuesday how?? rain or shine they will still go on i noe.. but yea.. just scared will spoil my plan enjoying the music..

back on business

hey everyone.. its been ages since i last posted on my blog.. well my firefox screwed up and my internet too.. its holidays and i have been working almost everyday.. well basically my life is getting abit better at the moment.. i spend most of my time out normally wif my cousins on this holiday.. they come over and sleep in my room and make a mess of it lol.. but yea.. and because of that i lack of sleep really alot.. i just a really weird dream just now.. i din noe why.. but yea its super weird and unexpected.. but who cares.. i aint gonna tell anyone haha..

i am still currently trying to find a better job with a better pay.. the work place is working now is okay just that my supervisor is fucked up.. i dun think she even deserves to be called a supervisor.. cause all she does is fucking up everyone's moral.. it would really fun working without her on her offdays .. well too bad la.. and always come up with some stupid reasons to
me that i aint doing my work propely. i just dun get the idea.. at first u publish on the papers 6.5 an hour and now i come saying 6 as i had no experience and now u saying i not doing much enough? the job i applied is waiter not a cleaner.. when its really fucking boring and u do all u can find to do to do something .. u just wait for work rite? fuck it man.. i cant stand finding things to do even u had found the job.. bascially yur job is to find another thing to do.. everyone hates her.. too bad.. who ask u to be such a bitch.. a real pain in the ass.. well i giving another shot in showing things could work out.. if she still bitches me around.. thats it.. i am getting another job..

anyway new year is comming.. and my year of 2006 felt so empty.. i dun noe why.. but i can tell that the happiest time i had in 2006 was my 2months in jjc .. after that.. is was just normal and simple life.. sucky fucked up life rite.. anyway.. when i start skool agian in 2007 i think i wanna really kick some ass .. haha.. going to the muse concert! thats what i am waiting for.. and payday is on 28 dec.. cause bank will be close at the end of year.. so yea.. WOHOoooo!! money money money.. !! well my bro thinks that i am money driven.. which i think its true.. muahaha.. i think i should use money to motivate more into my studies... lol..

Starlight

Starlight

Far away
This ship has taken me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

Starlight
I will be chasing a starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

My life
You electrify my life
Let’s conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive

i'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

Far away
This ship has taken me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

i'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

hey.. tml my final theory and i hope i pass this time!!! freaking waited sooooooo long for it.. haiz.. also my mt prac common test.. my test all comming i still slack lol. but i quite confident can pass one la.. haha..

i bought the muse tickets aready!!! WOOHOO!! MUAHHAHAHAHAHA

grow

I Wanna Grow Old With You
Another day without your smile
Another day just passes by
But now i know how much it means
For you to stay right here with me
The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurts so bad i can't take it any longer.

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you, sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you.

A thousand miles between us now
It causes me to wonder how
Our love tonight remains so strong
It makes our risk right all along
The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad i can't take it any longer.

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you, sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you.

Things can come and go
I know but
Baby I believe
Something's burning strong between us
Makes it clear to me.

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you, sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you.

today i had a very very tiring start of the day..reach home from work 2 am just now.. i barely even slept.. i think one day my body is gonna give in.. i dunnoe why suddenly i have this sudden burst of energy to just work.. i guess its also to pass time faster.. nothing is holding me back to cherish the moment.. so yea.. might as well just dash into the future.

BTW I GOT 1 GOOD NEWS!! MUAHAHHAHA .. MUSE I COMMING TO SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMFG yea they are here.. right here in singapore in january... definately i will go no matter how much it cost.. well i am treating khai on this one for this birthday.. its gonna be explosive !! hell yea !!! muahhaha..

Finally its just you and me MATTEW BELLAMY! Face to Face!

down and out

hey... today was kind of a sad day for me.. well i was cut from the school team... guess i aint that good enough to be in the team.. felt quite dissapointed with myself.. well i still looking forward to train and towards np league next year.. patience...

i think my life now where i stand at now... i feel that bring me back 2 years ago.. i was much happier.. the difference is that now being more independent.. i do almost everything myself.. spending more time on my own.. what i can say is that my journey now feels more lonely than ever.. obviously one of the thing that i every love doing was playing music.. and thats something i neglected alot currently.. its sad that i cant really manage my time to fufill my desires in music.. its a shame .. haiz..

being cut, being left out , being down
happens to the best of us i guess =)
never take out that smile off my face
just keep going ahead

good time

hey.. had a soccer competition yesterday morning.. wif my cousins , faiz , im , dicky and my close pals khairul and mike! well even thought we only played until quartar finals.. we still felt proud that we played as one.. i cant remember the last time we actually the last time we played soccer so passionate.. i just wanna thank everyone who came down to play soccer yesterday.. really appricate yur effort comming down.. =)

well after that went home an then went out agian to watch li ying's school drama play.. on the way was abit rush lol.. cause everyone also last min start buying flowers and all that.. well made in time for the show.. so far i think this is one of the better drama plays i watch lol.. i never really had the chance to know the story of beauty and the beast..since the play was that so yea i kind of know the story.. after that had dinner at hereens wif them yea.. was hell of a good time meeting back all my old pals .. =)

good time

hey.. had a soccer competition yesterday morning.. wif my cousins , faiz , im , dicky and my close pals khairul and mike! well even thought we only played until quartar finals.. we still felt proud that we played as one.. i cant remember the last time we actually the last time we played soccer so passionate.. i just wanna thank everyone who came down to play soccer yesterday.. really appricate yur effort comming down.. =)

well after that went home an then went out agian to watch li ying's school drama play.. on the way was abit rush lol.. cause everyone also last min start buying flowers and all that.. well made in time for the show.. so far i think this is one of the better drama plays i watch lol.. i never really had the chance to know the story of beauty and the beast..since the play was that so yea i kind of know the story.. after that had dinner at hereens wif them yea.. was hell of a good time meeting back all my old pals .. =)

Day1 : in my grandma's house haha.. ayyub , faiz and me !!  

Day 1 : on the way to my grandma's house me & ayyub =) 

hey

hello everyone once more.. just came back from chalet yesterday... haha from tuesday till friday.. well many things happen along the way.. i ran out of house.. kinda of when nobodys home cause my dad just wun let me go .. so yea i simply just walked out the house and went to the chalet.. than he started calling me and treaten me abt alot of things.. well i din wanna pick up the phone first but yea i just listen to let him scold all he want.. i wrote a message on the table for them to read.. said i really need a break.. cause next week is skool and why cant i just enjoy my last week.. well.. i went back home at nite back the next moring i went back.. lol.. they told me to come back home at night but i din cared.. cause i really wanna stay.. went out wif greg and bazel.. the next day was reimi's birthday at midnight.. so we celebrated his birthday in MOS hahah.. i got in free cause i was an ambassador for some sites.. was cool to get into the vip room all that.. but its was so freaking crowed.. so yea i just end up chilling out wif my mates most of the time =) it was cool ya noe.. in the club for once just chilling in the vip room.. knowing more frens from rp.. reimi's fren duo.. kinda of cool people haha..

everyone was like having a hell of a good time.. the next day went to reimi's house to sleep wif ayat also.. haha.. then i head my way back home.. but my dad picked me up at celementi so i went to skool to buy my notes and then follow my bro and cousin go to queensway .. he got sheva's old boots which is damn freaking cheap la.. 94 bucks!! haha.. but i was eyeing on the new tunit f50 !! 265 !!! so ex la.. but its damn good.. was so tempted ya noe..

well when i got home wif my bro.. i saw pizza hut!! whahaha.. but well yea.. my mum was mad at me as u noe haha.. i guess things should be a little different now i guess.. walking out of that door of my house was something that took them up to the roof top scolding me.. and get super mad.. when i got home.. they were like all cooled down.. but yea this week is the week i never forget..

well cant wait for skool next week duo =) also tml is my grading .. wish me all the best haha

touching

i am having a movie marathon in my own room haha.. watched the break up,coyote ugly and lake house.. all of them are nice .. i just only watched lake house a couple of mins ago.. the starting abit slow.. but than when i get to understand.. its really nice.. about this guy who is from the past 2 years ago and this woman who is 2 years in the future of the guy.. so yea.. two people in two different timming.. kind of sweet the way how they kept their so called long distance relationship. they communicate through this mailbox at a lakehouse.. where the mail will have a link between the past and future.. following the story line , seeing how both of them kept the relationship even they cant see each other.. it makes thing special i guess.. cause this way u will noe the person by heart.. it would naturally tell u that this person is special.. so that is why they are still together even not physically.. but the ending is quite awesome.. its kind of a fantasy ending but yea. shows that even when the world is comming to an end.. dun give up hope =)go and watch it yurself haha...

coyote ugly is also another kind of love story but its abt this gal who move to new york to become a musican.. but end up working at a bar .. entertaining people by singing and dancing.. i kind of like the way how she met the guy and how they been through.. well well if u wana noe u got to watch the movie!!! hahaha

anyway i brought my keyboard and my mic up into my room.. cause i wanna practice more keyboard and do some recordining.. can say that my old pc is turnning into a music recording station haha.. even wif the monitor like u noe .. cannot see .. but still i made use of it.. just for music =) now i am squeezing at a corner of my room wif my laptop and my 2.1 altec lansing speakers haha.. kinda of small but nice =)

bored home

hello everyone.. it has been quite a long holiday for me yea.. and its fasting month too.. well i have been damn bored at home recently.. and have this weird feelins like u noe when u think that yur left alone by the world and i just lay home watch movies and do my things.. time just pass by like that even i could not remember wad day is it..

well i am currently listening to this song "All my life" by kc and jojo. its one of my childhood fav song .. i really like this song because its a special song meant for someone special..

its has really been very slow for me these few days.. well i only blog when i have things to share with.. basically i have not been anything lately so yea.. so its sad that i like u noe.. couldnt do anything different.. well i hope and i pray that maybe someday i can find something to spend my time on =)

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hello mates

hello.. it has been a while has it since i last posted yea? haha anyway. just talked to gerg just now on the phone.. was talking abt plans going uni haha.. omg la.. cannot imagine boht of us actually wanna go australia to study after our ns.. well its quite interesting looking at all the courses.. its like u noe.. so many!! hahaha.. go there to study and make money!! make more more money .. we find our ways for sure.. but i am looking forward to playing soccer there too! lol.. now 18.. 21 go ns.. study for 3-4 years after i am 23 out from ns.. wow.. damn old la haha.. than by the time i finish studying aready like 27? lol.. well if u have the money u no need worry a thing mates..

ealier today played soccer in school wif ayat zul cheng leong and rudy.. haha .. its our first time meeting each other since skool ended yea.. damn happy we managed to make it.. =) i still have 2 weeks of holidays.. no idea wad to do sia! haha.. think i go play tennis wif greg or just go find some lame shit work earn more cash.. i am suddenly so interested in just making money.. feel so damn being poor.. it sucks when u dun have the power to get wad u want!! MONEY= POWER hahahaha... there some things u cant buy but u can buy things to get another thing.. its all linked.. so yea.. roots of all is still money! haha.. all abt the money...

hey

hello peeps... okay today went for this job interview wif my bro.. its about going to schools teaching students how to use some programs.. omg.. going back to skool? haha .. isnt it cool =) but yea well paid job also.. its 15 per hour.. not bad.. haha.. oh yea last two nites i din came home.. i went to phunk bar wif ayat,akon,marvin and my bro haha.. omg its like so damn funny la.. dance until my shoes the sole come out.. doing some stupid break dancing.. well had a fun nite duo.. slept at the esplanade for 2 hours than headed home ... now holiday are nearly comming to an end.. how sad can that be? haha okay i gtg now.. bye mates

hows life

hello everyone.. life is just allrite here =) okay today i worked at a malay wedding serving drinks and cleaning up tables.. so yea get to meet alot of people.. haha.. and i got forced to dance infront of the whole crowd.. wahh.. well.. i did a couple of moves so yea.. but damn pai sei la haha.. anyway got 40 bucks so yea.. for 4 hours.. not bad huh.. saw some interesting people... u noe now days mixed races in families.. awesome rite? the kids look so chinese than the mother malay.. dad of course chinese.. like the clones of me.. pretty awesome.. haha.. yea.. well went to a soccer match after that which had been called off by the GAY ref! haha talk like wanna cry like that haha.. than act act army scolding style.. u can just kiss my ass la ref! haha.. i played like only 10 mins? just to get kicked at my damn leg lol.. dumbass la they all..

anyway yesterday was my wu shu performance.. for the 42th year aniversary. awesome!! i get to perform in front of people.. but pai sei la.. my first kick i redo cause i misjudge than i hesitate haha.. but lucky nothing happen la.. than i whack the sticks all break.. whew! well.. it was awesome nite la.. the food the people!! those from nus also come.. cheers!!

i miss you

this song is dedicated to the one who is responsible for my sweetest mermories =)

I miss you - blink 182


(I miss you, miss you)

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare,
The shadow in the background of the morgue,
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if you want
Where you can always find me
And we'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
The webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight


Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)


Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)


(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)