Confusion

Now is just only 1 day away from my prelims.. lol.. i only studied alittle.. well.. today i had a fear in me.. i dunnoe .. its just fear... i fear that my relationship would just affect me.. it has change me life... hard to describe it here.. wif just words.. i can never draw a clear picture of it... even now after talking to kimberly and ellice wif all my thoughts.. i still have a fear in me.. i dunnoe .. it seems strange... i talk to kimberly 2 days ago told her why i made my decision to go on wif her.. everything just came out all from me.. lol.. it was a moment that i ever wanted to have to express my emotions... b4 we talk on that day.. something happen at mac donalds.. lol.. dunnoe if i should type it here.. playing turth or dare wif my classmates .. and we 2 had to do something.. ya noe.. =)

anyway... i am not sure if i am doing the correct thing .. thats the fear i have in me... my life should be go on normal.. but sometimes this kind of things happen... got struck by love.. and i lose all my focus.. and i lose focus because i dun feel things are going rite... it always happen to me like this.. and i hate it... because i always jump to conclusion.. wat had happen to my thinking ? maybe i should let it go and thing will get better.. but that dosen't always work... so yea.. now having a relationship does makes me think more... i am so confuse now... there are so many things i am afraid of.. how can i face it? wat will i do? my mood will depend on how the flow goes... now my mood is like lifeless... listening to songs.. kept repeating.. until its kept in my head..

i hope i get things striaght as soon as possible... =)