Good Friday? nah...

Helloo... Just only woke up around 11am... Still feel quite sleepy... CAn't believe i posted so many things in my blog.. Not even know who are the people reading.. its not that i wan to tell the whole world.. just that those who are intrested are always welcome to read =) I think life has just began for me.. because what happened in the past no longer hold me back.. I would like to thank Muse alot lol.. listening to their songs everyday.. Give me the desire to wake up agian and shine out in life.. Even their songs are like the world is ending or revenge.. It just motivates me.. their music is just simply wonderful.. Oasis on the other hand is also a very good band.. Both of these bands have orignality.. no one plays like them... For the first time in my life.. i felt like studying.. very hard.. Its sounds scary when ppl say they realise something and they ignore you.. but i am not like that because no matter how much i realise things.. i will not leave anyone behind.. Yesterday when i was at home.. i felt regretful.. for not doing well in my psle.. if i had done better i could be 1 year ahead and together wif my badge of friends.. now just only seeing them moving forward and me still here.. Someday i must catch up wif them.. I also wun leave myself behind... After my O'levels.. there is many things i wish to do.. firstly is my band.. i wanna repolish my band.. Train our selves up until muse standart of play.. than we start composing... I been training my vocal for abt a month aready.. but now i am sick got sore throat.. my biggest dream is still the be a musician for all my life.. But of course my studies must also always be there to hold me back in case i dun make it.. I been thinking.. i dun wan to be someone simple and common.. Someone who is different.. Other than being a musician i wanna be a air pilot.. or become a businessman.. I make it big for my life.. no matter what.. i still have achieve that much in life than i am pleased.. It sounds quite selfish of thinking like that. but that is my dreams.. the only way i can for once be very happy.. when actually the things i love doing all my life is my work.. that is cool.. because its something we are doing from the best of ourselves... Today is good friday..lol.. exactly one year ago.. my fren invited me to her fren house for a party.. i thot it was just a normal simply party.. in the end they were celebrating good friday.. lol.. they explained to me abt christianity and even played a game related to the bible.. of course i din mind.. even showed me a video tape the crossing.. it turn out that 2 of my frens also had the same idea as me.. they are also not christians thinking its just a normal party.. to be frank.. i face this a couple of times.. when people talk about christianity infront of my face.. even in skool.. or class.. its just something i would like to have say but it always never turn out to be good .. cause its always agianst.. lol =x I got a few friends who had the same exprience as me.. when they go out as a group and being left out just because he or she is not a christian.. I dunnoe how can i say how i feel about this.. i fell that everyone should not divide among themselves.. it feels so terrible.. being leftout for me its okie.. but others cannot take it.. I have quite a board knowledge for most of the religions.. but i dun think its enough to really understand everything.. I trying to borrow the da vinci code from chee fatt.. heard its a damn good book.. but its agianst catholic.. Well there is no harm finding out more.. that is what most people fear.. finding of more beyond their religion.. you dun see a muslim reading a bible out there dun you? well there is a minority la.. but i think that is being unselfish.. to understand more.. But of course i got to know my own religion well enough first.. not enough.. very well ... and just compare.. like SBQ lol.. that is when skills comes in.. Humanities ... everyone is trying to save mankind .. but what is the real truth? If america thinks money is bigger than saving lives.. what about their beliefs? CAn we trust them? not only them.. alot of people.. just because of money.. ppl mislead us into this confusion.. everything is about money.. corruption.. My personal exprience is that.. even i never felt God before.. i know he is there.. no one can feel God.. its all about your thinking.. everyone can say they feel God.. But for me.. i think its something about your thinking.. Why i still believe even if i dun feel it? Because i know that the truth is that no one can feel God.. He is way off too powerful for u to feel.. Only the messengers have a small bit of it to feel.. after centuries.. who had? I dunnoe why i suddenly talk abt this.. but this is just something i been running through my mind.. If things happen, if it is good, it is because you earn it.. this is the most basic steps in life.. u cannot depend on someone else or luck.. its all up to you.. Thats why now i must start working hard... i just look forward to see what i get at the end of the day.. =)