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helloz... this morning just told my parents my results when i got up.. cause my dad was asking me.. really had a bad scolding.. so i pretended i went back to sleep cause i expected it all.. ya noe.. when u aready noe wad they gonna scold ya.. went to skool leaving my handphone behind cause i wanna break free.. yea.. so when i reached skool.. thinking that if i went back home i can never study cause they would be busy scolding me.. therefore i went home at 7.30 pm .. studied in skool all the way... i felt better after studying cause i noe i am improving each time i study.. after all the stress i face these few days.. i hope it has to go away..

now have to complete my english hwk which is tml! wah i think i wake up tml morning agian than do.. cause i am very tired and wore out now.. i realise my english spelling is getting worse and worse.. i think should read more chim books or something.. my compo i just pass only .. haiz.. i think i gonna just abandon my chinese once and for all.. cause i wanna really pump my other subjects.. my accounts i think i have to do beside someone who is good at it.. cause there are many things i that missed out.. =(

i am just hungry for better grades in my o levels.. i really hope i get the courses i want went i get back my results.. the feeling of getting 32 for l1r4 is like F!@#! cause i am imagining this is my o levels results.. lol. which is freaking me out and putting alot of stress.. the only way to efface my stress is just to study and become smarter.. lol.. sounds werid but i think i should really pump all my top 5 subjects ..

when i came home.. as usual they will ask me where did i go? and why i never bring my hp along.. than i said i forgotten to take it and i studied in skool. and they say i should at least called home or something.. but DUH!! like real they will let me study in skool till so late.. cause they dying to see me study at home.. i blasted to them that i did study at home b4 the exams and see wat happen? the truth is my home is not a place to study.. no matter how u arrange it now.. skool is the best place.. cause i have freedom own time own target and teachers to guide me or teach me when i dunnoe anything.. lol. but the weird thing is that my dad bought me guitars strings as he noe i needed it and cables.. and told me abt usa made guitars which he went to see just now.. i dunnoe why the change of subject.. well.. a few days ago i told him that since when did they ever trusted me in the house? they claim they did but i dun feel it... and i said that if they really trusted me... they wun order me around like a dog and watch me like hawk.. its just killing me.. studying at home is not my way of life.. its true and u can't change it.. u can never force a person to study... only the person can force himself.. and by doing that.. the person needs motivation.. which i dun really have from them much.. they agian claim they did in directly but once agian its not my way of life..

enough of this crap... =(