empty

hello i know its been quite awhile since i last updated my blog.. well i just came back from chek wye birthday outing. and its like 3.15AM now OMG! feeling super shagged.. well zero to hero competition is finally over. well i assume we are all noe heros? i dun feel like i accomplish much. rather disappointed with myself.. well i really had fun with u guys jamming and all but i am just u noe stubborn just not happy with myself for not doing being.. i am not a hero till i overcome my greatest challenge. i know my mentally is very competitive and its very bold and dumb.

all i wanna say is that i am proud of drop-d to pull off a good show even we did everything at the very last min. well something that struck me was when one of the judges told me this "you are a good man, dun let others tell you otherwise" and chek wye gave me a pad on my back. well feel kind of relief. my vocal i can still say it sucks to the core. the only thing i had was my showman ship going nuts and act like as though i am some superstar trying to impress the crowd. it really feels great holding the mic and have hundred of eyes watching you. well i really love to be somebody someday to be a front man and have the power. what they always call it " with the lift of your fingers, you lift up the world "

currently i have alot alot of things i been thinking about. and i felt that sometimes my life is kinda of empty. the only thing i feel comfortable filling in is music. well i hope that i can add more spices to my life than just being like this forever.i rather die . getting sick of the same stuff everyday. and when i take a look around. i just envy of all the things that i dun have. its just killing me.

its a cold day
my heart is empty
arms feeling weak
eyes wide shut

mind in an illusion
memories elude
hopes turned cold
soul is dying

stain on my shirt
torn out of baby arms
tears came crashing
smell of dead roses

saw the light at the end of the road
its dark and freezing cold here
dreamt of an angel
telling me everythings okay

but when i open my eyes
it was empty