choice

hey yo its been a freaking long time since i last blog? anyway alot of things has happen in my life. As you all know i play guitar for Beyond Crimson Horizon. But well i guess it will come to an end soon. Not good enough to be part of the band so yea. i guess i will be taking my leave. and well i am currently trying out the other bands. sometimes i ever wonder what makes a band. but i guess its my downfall ever since new members came into the band and i have been heavily brought down with my style of playing and sucky skills. they wanted to push me to keyboards for BCH but i guess i might as well take my leave since i cant play the guitar. even being a 3rd guitarist i think i would be the lousiest.

I still remember the times when i just join the band. it was like so fun.. no pressure and we just play. but as times goes by .. drummers after drummers.. i still played like how i used to but this time suddenly they said that my timing is wrong and i am SUCKY.
after such a long time jamming together and because of new members i am being like in a difficult position. and after not jamming as a band for a very long long time . Rex is trying to keep me in the band to just play keyboards.

Last saturday we had a jamming session with a new drummer (just trying out) he went out of beat a couple of times. but average he is okay can improve. BEcause i have been sucky the past few session including at HOME CLUB, i trained on my guitar parts before the jamming and the days before. Hoping they would see some improvement. BUt guess wad happen during the jamming session. Rex suddenly told the drummer and ME to watch our timing. i swear to god that how can i be out of time when i never even play the part? and the rest of the members who are instrument players say nothing. well personally i felt i improve but to them i din soooooo. yeaa... after all those practices i made for the band like gone to drain. as long as i stayed in the band.

so now they making the bassist to overtake my lead guitar and a new bassist is comming along with a new drummer.. soooo yea... i guess thats the reason what make me decide to leave the band. after jamming around together for like almost a year. it ends..

and this is what i feel and think.
Rex keep saying i am EGO dont wanna admit my mistakes and like EGO EGO EGO. i seriously felt like shit because i admited my mistakes and wads the EGO about?
Being in a Band where improvement = perfection?
if i move to keys it would be no better to my music ..
thats why i decided to find a new band where i can master my skills and improve,
and incase for u guys to know we jam like 2-3weeks once? sometimes months.

All i know is i wanna be a better musician
have i made the right choice?