foc

hey i am back from foc camp!! yea let me recap from day 1

DAY 1

went to clementi to had breakfast wif guan and adam than we took cab to ngee ann.. we went striaght to the lt 26. lol.. we actually cut the long queue la.. haha.. its a super long queue.. anyway.. day 1 was really rusty.. cause i went there all thinking abt being high.. be entu..so yea i tried my best la.. but seems like the camp is like so screwed up cause we were left nothing to do for 5 hours.. so ya everyone got bored.. played stupid games... and ya.. its like so dead la.. anyway.. the night walk was something that i would say its good haha.. we were sent by twos.. and the 2nd person is my dance partner.. michelle lol.. so ya.. its a super long night walk la haha.. walk through dark areas than the ogls keep shocking us and ya.. the night walk is the best one so far .. yea it rocks.. cause its really a long and exciting walk haha.. but the bad thing is that me and her was the first few couples to be sent out so ya.. we were watching the eye 2 at the lt.. it was nice la.. so shoik than kena go night walk.. and the worst part is that we had to wait till the others finish the walk than we can go and have our supper at 2am and than sleep at 3am!! haha.. i knock out striaght away sia the first nite.. so nice.. my blanket and pillow =)

DAY 2

okay woke up fresh bath and everything.. oh ya it rain like wad.. than some stuff were cancel than we waited 2 hours to get our breakfast and we had to walk all the way to the other end of the campus.. dunnoe why must use that canteen la.. so far!! somemore its raining than must go by the sheltered way.. cannot shortcut.. alot of sports camp ppl couldnt took the boringness of the camp so they booked out.. but its actually quite sad la.. all the super on ppl going home =( but the fun did happen on day 2.. after 3 pm onwards.. all the station games.. everyone really got bonded.. i love it man. .cause somemore i took the lead for the team NAGA 1 !!! i lead the war cheer.. superb awesome and followed by the see saw saw dance haha.. its the main feature of the camp.. my team famous see saw saw.. everyone loves to see us doing it.. haha =)and yea.. the night we learn mass dance.. OMG !! its so nice la.. haha super chim but its nice.. i Like it .. haha.. i kept asking my partner can u keep up wif the pace? she always say okay.. =) good la.. so can keep the beat going.. haha... its nice la.. the song.. the movement.. really like dancing.. its mass dance..!! i haha.. i was super high that night.. and people start talking to me more.. hahaha.. so yea.. ayrif is so cute la.. he is like my buddy in the camp.. israf also.. buddies.. we talk malay wif each other.. cause i always use english.. so yea.. i felt for once so comfortable speaking malay!!! ahah and alot of ppl cant believe i am mixed la.. they either say i am chinese or malay.. lol.. and yea i was sooooo high!!!but i kena the worst at the butter hill wtf.. haha butter and oil all over my body !! than go eat dinner like that la.. so gross.. but everyone had their fun.. i am proud of that =) mauhaha..

DAY 3

omg day 3 is the moment i got to talk abt.. haha first we started out wif war games.. wif water bombs damn fun la.. cause we use smart ideas to win so cool rite.. i love my ogls.. super funky and cool guys and gals.. than the station master blast off la.. scold us for F@!#!@ no reasons.. than we kena burn in the sun.. than collin my division head say he would go and screw the station master later for spoiling our mood la go scold us like wad.. than like that.. after that we were okay.. we had water games!! i was sooo exicted that i wanted to just jump into the pool but i din la.. cause i was chosen to be the model for NAGA!! wwahahahhaa.. i was like wahh.. iwanna swim la.. haha.. but than it was worth it .. cause i was like dress up into a sexy sea serpent and to catwalk and entertain infront for 500 plus people!!!!! whahahahaha.. omg if i have the pic i will let u all see.. haha because of that.. i manange to lead the whole battlion for NAGA 1,2 & 3 to fight the other 3 groups.. i did some dance and pole dancing haha.. they were like wow.. when i pole dance la.. haha.. omg.. than i shout the cheers... NAGA ARE YOU READY FOR WAR!@@!!!!!!??? haha.. that superb.. love it.. the cheers..i felt so touch when the whole naga cheer they were proud of me.. =) i was super high high high.. haha.. seriously i cant dance for nuts la.. suddenly they say things like i sexy when i did the pole dance bla bla hahaha.. but its kind of nice la... at least its not a bad thing to be sexy rite?? haha.. watever la.. anyway.. after that we had to plan for out campfire performance..we plan a dance THAT THING YOU DO and a super cheer.. haha.. i raise my voice to the top of the convection center roof wifout the mic hahaha.. i lost my voice because of that.. but its superb la.. BANG BANG BOOM BANG BANG BOOM !!!WOWOWOOWOoo i was super high.. everyone said i become super high on the stage leading the cheer somehow haha.. but it did made me know more people cause its nice la.. they were like wow u are so high while doing the cheer nice one bud.. and yea get to know more ppl its nice la.. omg the part which i always kena disturb that i scandle wif this gal from my grp la.. cause the 2nd day station game.. i was like focusing looking and cheering for the team than she accidently kiss me on the cheeks which i din realise?? than she suddenly omg sorry i acciddentally kiss and my WHOLE GROUP wAS like OOOHHH!!!!SCANDAL SIA!!! wahhahahaha... i like wtf? haha i dunnoe wad happen la.. but i was named scandal at the end of the day.. lol..super fun la.. after that we had a dancefloor open till 4am.. i danced until my legs so tired hahaha.. everyone was super damn high.. hahaha.. really made alot of frens.. so happy to met them all.. cool peeps.. so yea.. ride on.. i mean like its like this is the begining for my life.. i feel really happy being there.. being a feshie,a buddy,a fren,a stranger,a leader, a commander! haha funny sia.. ayrif kept shouting commander ming come come faster lead the cheer hahaha.. iwas like hrmm.. hahahah.. but its fun la.. leading a big group cheering.. =) i was really super high on the last nite.. shaking my head all the way..

DAY 4
i slept on the track la halfway talking to my members!! haha than they draw all over me la.. hahaha... i woke up abt 1 hour later.. than my ankle kena jam.. haha.. someone carried me all the way to the hall.. and all the medics came to assist.. super pain la.. i cant even stand on both legs.. so ya.. its because i slept while sitting down my legs cross.. haha ... anyway.. after that we had breakfast... BURGERS!!!! mauhahaha.. than we had our photo taking session.. which was awesome.. we did the see saw saw and the retarded faces hahaha.. super cool... than mass dance.. wohoo.. so fun la.. but after that we had the emo ending.. the gal sing until so emo la.. than alot of ppl cry.. its quite sad la.. how we wish if we were class mates.. and yet still skool mates.. so yea.. hug everyone around yea.. see ya around buddy.. =) i hope that next time we meet anywhere. u guys will always rememeber the time we were togther when we cheered , laughed,played and cried.. so yea.. after that went to kap wif the nagarians and gls.. haha.. than we talk cock session quite long.. than went home take cab wif the naga peeps.. haha so yea..

haha okay this is the summary of how my 4 days la.. if u want to know more.. can ask la.. cause i think i should dun inculde some stuff cause its censored hahaha.. kk =) RAWK ON

sup

hello mates going to camp tml agian !! FOC CAMP HERE I COME BABY!! muahaha... wohoo.... i kept swinging my head all over the air recently cause i am really high now!! kk i shud up now see ya all back on thursday.. dun say i action cause eh.. u noe who i am talking abt =D

np

helloo.... sup mates.. yea came back from camp aready .. sports camp was great.. we played hard and cheered hard.. grp name RIO haha.. but i wasnt 100% on la.. cause there are alot ppl who are on also.. so ya i decided to be quiet for the first time =) well.. yea met alot of great ppl.. the seniors are really someone who i do look up to.. cause they deserve the respect la i can say.. the way they put up themselves.. its good.. cause the camp is 100% run by the seniors. no students.. its amazing that the camp is so steady... play quite alot of sports... like 4x100 long jump high jump volley ball floor ball dragon boat kayaking canoe polo captain ball in the swimming pool! haha.. cheerleader stuns.. and yea throw potatoes.. haha.. the last day was the most gross part la.. we kena butter oil paint and spoilt milo.. super gross la.. than under the hot sun.. i kena sun burnt =( haha.. but it was all fun la i can say.. the cheers are were awesome.. after all i felt quite happy to be in np.. =) the people around are just socialble.. so yea.. made alot of frens.. my grp alone is like 30 plus.. plus the cgls and other grps.. think abt 60 plus or more new ppl i met to be frens.. haha.. oh ya.. how can i forget this ... the food was BRILLIANT!!!! WOHOOO.. even it was chicken all the way.. but it rocks!!! bbq chicken chicken chop kfc chicken style.. nasi lemak fried rice.. superb la.. !!! haha.. okay now i looking forward to FOC camp.. which the camp would be abt 4 times bigger muahaha...=D

anyway yesterday nite i went to watch acjc tempest.. which cost 25 bucks!! wahhaha.. i only paid 10 so far cause its really alot la.. the play was acceptional.. i can say.. cause i din understand the whole thing but got a main idea of it.. than i reflect abt wad i could do wif 25 dollars.. haha i rather go watch 2 movies in a row and have a meal or play lan for the whole day la.. haha... haiz.. nvm la too bad i aready bought the ticket anyway.. it was at dbs arts center which is just beside beach bar only la.. the everton supporters gathering is over there.. so yea. i been there quite alot of times.. well i really restrict myself from going out these few days.. cause the transport is expensive and i have little cash.. so yea i am gonna camp home till foc camp!!! muahahhaa.. sowie mates unless go play soccer at west coast... well yesterday met kris brayan liying eric and mike agian since dunnoe when...last week? i think so... din talk much to them expect kris and bryan.. i think i kind of lost touch wif them... i guess that they have their own reasons of being busy la.. they do contact among themselves... ya only bryan and kris the one left who still keeps in touch wif me.. i got a strong feeling that i am gonna fade away soon from their lives.. cause i am gonna be quite busy in np now... lol.. almost everything i wanna do can be in my own skool la.. unless they wanna meet at kap regularly.. which we promised to la..but so far we din really had such meeting =( sad rite.. haha..

anyway.. yea.. FOC camp here i come.. and oh ya liying thanks for the shirt lol... its from hong kong rite.. ? yea nice shirt thanks.. one more collection of shirt i have now haha... btw i have a fren who stays near my house also go np but he is in AT guan!!! wahaha.. got someone to go skool wif aready.. yea 3 years!! we also go ns together like that.. gonna be my buddy for sure.. i swear haha.. some he study the course i interested la.. i gonna hunt him down hahaha.. kk i shall stop here.. gonna have my keyboard lesson .. i haven been practicing .. gonna die sia!! haha..

yawns in the morning

hello once agian.. =) omg 1 last song to post b4 i go.. haha its a boyband song but yea its nice la.. by westlife if i let you go

Day after day
Time passed away
And I just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows, I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can't find
The courage to show to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before

And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
How will I know
If I let you go?

Night after night I hear myself say
Why can't this feeling just fade away
There's no one like you
You speak to my heart
It's such a shame
we're worlds apart
I'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose

And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
How will I know
If I let you go?

going to camp

hello mates i am going to camp tml morning.. yea good isnt it ? i am gonna be away.. miss ya all =) if u wish to update me.. just tag my board the happenings.. thanks if u do.. my bag is so big la haha.. super jumbo size.. but who cares.. its gonna stay in the room anyway.. so yea.. i now listening to american pie band camp soundtracks.. really cool.. smooth and nice flowing... my emotions pouring out in the night.. feels really good =) was chating wif bryan just now on msn.. were like pouring out our trouble and doubts.. and he remembers wad i used to say to him lol.. haha.. bryan if yur reading this.. i chat seriously sometimes ya noe.. i mean like i really take it in and i do think abt what we last chat abt.. not everytime but at least i do... yea... when yur down.. stand up and take a look around.. and keep on moving.. cause if u dont u will be stuck the haze of troubles.. well.. i just love this line from sum41 'i try to be perfect but nothing was worth it' haha its nice la.. too many songs have gone through my head.. and changing my thoughts.. i think music has somehow control my emotions.. dunnoe if its good or not.. lol... anyway.. i love the music i listening now.. cant wait for camp to start tml and now its 2.30am and i have to wake up at 7.30am lol.. 5 hours.. haha.. kk i think i better stop here.. oh yea.. thanks for everyone who is reading my lame shit blog haha.. cause sometimes its hard to understand what i am saying here.. well i shall end this entry which i told bryan just now.. i am trying my best to enjoy life now.. no worries no doubts.. just go on and enjoy! =) cause i am Mr Brightside... !! haha rock on dude

iho

THE HELL SONG!!! BY................. SUM 41!!!!


Everybody's got their problems
Everybody says the same thing to you
It's just a matter how you solve them
And knowing how to change the things you've been through
I feel I've come to realize
How fast life can be compromised
Step back to see what's going on
I can't believe this happened to you
This happened to you

It's just a problem that I'm faced with
Am I not the only one who hates to stand by
Complications that are first in this line
With all these pictures running through my mind
Knowing endless consequences
I feel so useless in this
Get back, step back and as for me
I can't believe

Part of me, won't agree
Cause I don't know if it's for sure
Suddenly, suddenly
I don't feel so insecure
Part of me, won't agree
Cause I don't know if it's for sure
Suddenly, suddenly
I don't feel so insecure
Anymore

Everybody's got their problems
Everybody says the same thing to you
It's just a matter how you solve them
But what else are we supposed to do

Part of me, won't agree
Cause I don't know if it's for sure
Suddenly, suddenly
I don't feel so insecure
Part of me, won't agree
Cause I don't know if it's for sure
Suddenly, suddenly
I don't feel so insecure
(Anymore)
Why do things that matter the most
Never end up being our choice
(Anymore)
Now that I find out it ain't so bad
I don't think I knew what I had
(Anymore)
Why do things that matter the most
Never end up being our choice
(Anymore)
Now that I find out it ain't so bad
I don't think I knew what I had

hello

hello mates.. tml is my camp and i haven pack a single thing yet lol.. i am addicted to this song now.. pieces.. by sum 41 it rocks.. !! =) omg tml camd and i going for a soccer match during the camp.. yea yea big day out tml till thursday... u noe sometimes i wondered the things i done day by day.. sometimes i felt that i should had done something else.. now i have all the time in the world. and when skool starts.. i can make my own time table.. 3 years.. yea.. i guess its gonna be a hell of a ride.. i been playing soccer non stop for 3 days.. and tml would be the 4th.. yesterday went to ccab to play wif kris and his acs baker frens.. its super hot la.. in the morning till noon.. than i and kris chill out in the toilet in our shorts lol.. lying down on the seats and just daze and talk talk.. haha.. after that we went kap to eat macs than we walk to beauty world to get his pants... lol.. than walk back la.. somehow we have this chemistry to just talk alot haha.. i dunoe why but it doesnt work on everyone.. there are frens who i can just talk non stop... and laugh laugh and yea just talk alot of things la under the sun or moon..

well i cant change for the sake of the people because its me =) its not worth it la.. i wun be happy myself like that.. anyway.. today played at tanglin sec ... played only 15min? wtf? haiz. hope tml play full game.. so yea can score more goals.. anyway i got this catchy tune last nite.. wanted to make a song out of it but lost my spirit =( the line is I WANNA BE THERE WANNA BE THERE YEA YEA YEA =) lively and funnky tune .. haha gonna figure it out someday .. sum 41 rocks they rule my life from now on... their songs is always i am better of dead or i am better of my own.. lol... sounds so loner? well i am la.. admit it =) cause i spend like 95% on my own so yea.. makes me offically loner..

this room is so empty..that i am better of dead.. lol.. wtf... anyway.. i think too much music can make me go crazy sometimes.. there was one time i wanna be like slipknot.. haha.. rasing up hell .. anyway.. camp i tml tml tml tml tml yea yea yea wooohooooo... hehehehe... SO AM I STILL WAITING... FOR THIS WORLD TO STOP HATING... CANT FIND A GOOD REASON... CANT FIND A HOPE TO BELIEVE IN .!!! teTEteDa TEteda wohoooo!!!

ROCK ON!!!!!!! \m/

Thats my yummy cake!! Banana CHOCOLATE!!! MUAHAHA 

Yea my 3 mates who made my cutting session more lively.. haha... cant remember the last time i had to blow the candles.. anyway.. thanks mate.. i know ya love the cake yea? its rich in chocolate. muahaha.. YUMMY!! 

18 years old

hey.. i am finally 18!! wohoo.. yea i am a young adult now yea.. yea.. woho.. and i going to poly where they treat the students like adults ... which is awesome.. cause we get our freedom.. =) i also just got my crumpler bag.. hahaha.. my dad bought it for me.. so cool...this is just the beginning.. its feels good.. oh yea i feel so good i feel so good.. oh yea yea yea!!! omfg.. camp is just in 2 days time.. muahah.. kk crazy me

Sup bros... kai my vocalist on the left.. help him get the shirt from topman la haha.. mine also topman jacket.. center is chee fatt.. the crazy dude in slippers for prom.. haha.. can see his blue underwear la.. haha.. GGW.. not gals gone wild.. its GUYS GONE WILD!! haha 

RAWK ON BLOOD BROTHERS !! =) i loved that hair hahaha..  

my 3 cousins.. it has been awhile since i last met them.. =) how ya doing? 

The cake yea.. thanks mates!! =)  

The class gathering at jp =) 06A02 for life ! 

go

hello mates.. been quite a while since i blog yea? haha anyway.. had A02 class dinner yesterday at jp.. thanks for the cake and the song =) its really unfortunate to see wat happen in jj la.. dun really wanna talk abt it.. i mean like it disturbs me hearing abt the comments and all.. so ya.. all i wanna have is peace so yea.. chill it mate.. it was great meeting up wif the class agian yesterday.. hearing their happenings in their jc.. yea its true i got nothing much to say cause i am home all the time and yea.. ahah.. but its nice hearing what ppl say..

anyway camp is next monday.. sports camp.. haha.. gonna try all kinds of sports.. free sparing?? haha wow.. of course i will wanna play soccer.. i dun really know what is gonna happen yet but yea.. i hope i get to meet some nice ppl =) and the week after that camp would be the FOC camp.. haha they say that camp u gonna enjoy.. haha i dunnoe yet so yea.. keep up reading this blog i will tell ya wads happening in my skool.. its gonna be alot alot alot of stories by than.. also went back to np 2 days ago.. to follow chee fatt pay his school fees and enrolment.. i cant stand the hall la.. got 2 halls like that.. the seats can be push to the walls and like make more space.. and its wooden floor haha.. i just love the sound system.. it rocks.. haha was telling jun wei and chee fatt that if one day can have concert here.. power!! haha.. after that we had lunch at canteen 2.. haha there are 5 canteens in the skool!!! the one i went is just beside the sports complex.. the swimming pool there.. the chicken rice is only 2 bucks haha.. the other time i kena con la.. eat the nasi padang.. 3.50 super ex la.. still have quite alot of things to explore in np for me la.. haha.. they say the library is super high tech.. that np grads from uni come back here to use the library .. haha so it must be damn good la.. haha.. the only sad thing is that my block is at the back of the skool.. near the pub there i think? yea WE HAVE A PUB!!! haha.. and its link to SIM by a canteen or a gate.. so yea.. its really a big campus to me.. first time =)

its quite weird to go skool wifout uniform for now haha.. but its all the fashion ove r there haha.. gonna meet posers!!! and some cool shit fashion.. haha.. and yea the LAPTOPS!! muahaha i gonna use it like mad.. now aready using it like mad at home la... download so many songs and movies.. and i just transfered wc3 here la..MUAHAH the graphics rocks =) super awesome.. hrmm guess i stop here yea? haha

ROCK ON!! \\// <3

finally

whew.. finally my headach subside.. it was horrible la last nite.. i could feel my head burning .. yes burning.. think i had fever also.. the fan directly blowing my head.. so yea.. manage to fall asleep after a while.. i feel so much better now la.. one of the worse headachs i ever had last nite... now its over wow!! today i skip wu shu told my dad not feeling well.. omg.. i dunnoe if i can even go grading la.. i skip 2 grads like that.. which is 2/3 of a belt.. haiz... well what matters is the abillty anyway =)

painj

hello.. played the soccer match today.. scored a goal.. so happy la.. been quite a while i scored.. but than still lose 4-3.. i could had scored abt 2 more.. wasted... anyway.. oh man.. everton lost sia. 10 yellow and 2 red cards.. so shit la.. van de meyde send off.. wtf wtf... haiz... bad day... i gues.. cant say much .. i having headach now and its killing me!!!

yea yea

hey.. went to np ealier in the afternoon wif chee fatt and my parents.. yea.. met cheryl and joel there haha.. awesome.. registered for the camps.. looking at the people around makes me feel anxious haha.. gonna be someone i know someday.. so far so good =) its my skool !! come on.. i got to love it.. found out that i gonna study programming for my first module.. haha yea C programming.. been wanting to study it since i was p6 haha.. serious.. and now finally its something i got to study.. way too awesome.. hope that studying something i really like will motivate me =) and yea i think i talk abt this yesterday abt daniel asking me to join him to play music for money.. yea i think its a good idea.. more exposure.. same goes to more exprience and all..

yea i gonna play soccer tml.. for coffee bean.. yea striker!!!! MUAHAHAA finally.. gonna unlesh everything tml.. and all .. my poor +10 haha.. long time no play.. and yea tml we gonna play.. hehe.. hope that my foot injury is okay.. damn pain la that time i landed on my foot bone so hard..hope tml i can play.. yea yea..

notin much to say.. so yea.. the chapter begins..

thursday?

hello... life is going in circles for me now.. almost everything i do everyday is repeating all over agian.. been staying home for 3 days.. yea.. its a pain.. daniel came over to my house to collect his application form for his SIM dip.. printed out the wrong one for him lol.. so yea.. he treated me lunch la.. so nice =) he is as usual does his long talk.. one of the things he mention that had my attention was when he asked me if i am in with him playing music at pubs or resturant. well its what i enjoy always.. music.. haha so yea we practice a few songs.. and i said that i will be a part time musician from now.. its cool.. i mean music is the beat of my life..

now everyone is busy.. i feel so alone now days.. and when its time to have fun for me.. suddenly so many people ask me out.. man.. its killing me now getting bored.. all i do now is watch movies at home sleep eat and play haha.. and i just cant stop dreaming at home!! help me.. haha..

this sucks

yea yea

yea yea looky here.. my new blog skin.. kinda of suck? haha .. i did it 4am this morning.. couldnt sleep.. dunnoe why.. btw if yur not using firefox as browser.. the video code will appear as html above here.. dunnoe why.. but yea sowie=) the navigator is above here.. just click click only la.. today is kind of a short day.. woke up at 12pm haha.. than i watched scary movie 3.. than played ps2.. and i realise some things today.. i mean like.. for the past few weeks or days.. i haven really been happy.. maybe only when i play soccer or music.. so yea.. i mean like.. its just not me.. not happy and all.. i can remember clearly that when i was sec 3.. i wished i did not need to sleep.. and enjoy every second of my life.. i would like just chat happily until i drop dead at my com desk.. when i am bored.. i would take up the guitar and strum until my fingers go numb.. than talk to my buddy hakim all that.. laugh wif chee fatt and my classmates.. i mean like i really enjoy life back than.. and all the things happen were so happening.. it was like the begining of life to me..

recently i felt like i gonna die or something haha.. but its stupid yea.. every ending has a begining.. today i was thinking all day about my music.. reading some magazines about music and recordings.. oh man.. i watched muse concert agian.. and yea.. oh man how i wished i am matt.. i would be the happiest man in the world if i could be like him..

i have been planing how is life ahead in the future.. first is doing well in poly.. and having as much fun as i can also.. 3 years.. soccer,music and study would be the only 3 things i must have in order to really be happy.. hope that within the 3 years i could at least have an album.. i think i should at least have 2 albums.. i been playing music for 3-4 years now. and yet i am playing like i learn last year.. which sucks.. so yea.. i got to start being passionate and yea.. and yea.. hope that i could at least play soccer at a higher level.. play for a club and hopefully i might get a chance to play in s league or national team someday..=) haha..

i think living without music for me .. my life would just die.. and now.. listening to tons and tons of songs.. filling up my moods.. yea.. all i wanna do is rock n roll.. RAWK ON mates..! =)

cant get my eyes off you

hello mates.. my laptop going nuts.. haha guess i have been installing to many and downloading stuff into it haha.. lucky i got it recovered back.. today haiz.. so boring la.. zhi wei say got something on than cannot go interview.. sucks =( been watching movies almost everyday at home!! wah.. such a loner life i have.. somebody save me!!!! been listening to emo songs over and over agian.. than watching SAW just now haha.. omg .. its so gross.. i never wanna have that shit feeling.. it sucks..

so this song goes.. greenday!!

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone!!


My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Til then I walk alone

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the borderline of the edge
And where I walk alone
Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone..

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Til then I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Til then I walk alone

passion

hello there... today i just found my old cds.. burn all my old mtv vids and songs inside.. since i was sec 3 ?? haha now i revive them into the laptop.. yea!!! oh man. blink concert videos awesome!! because of all this vidz.. i was greatly inspired each time i watch to be a rocker.. i mean like i felt the passion and the joy of being a musician .. i just love being there on the stage rocking wif my band someday.. wif the crowd responding.. also watch the mtv cribs.. oh man. give me more and better ideas how i wanna my house to be next time haha..

today wasnt really a good day cause i went to the factory agian today for the interview and it was lunch time? so yea i came back 1 hour later wif zhi wei.. and than they say come tml!! whahahahha... so yea.. tml i am going early i dun care.. affter that went home to like do all my cd and stuff.. wanted to find my half life so i can play cs.. but than can't find it.. my cd key!! =( anyway.. the good news is that i am going to the nike joga finals.. wif krisitan and nazrul.. haha!! the underdogs.. we really made it dude.. i gonna play soccer wif matin and all see who going haha.. i love soccer.. i love music.. i love my life if i can do this all my life!! haha..

anyway i watch the mtv diary.. show how billy joe armstrong talk abt his family.. yea its isnt easy to be a musician and balance family the same time.. its no point having a great career being a rocker but have no one share it wif.. its so cute when he drives his son to buy fish ..and the fish is part of the armstrong family .. hahaha.. cool.. if he was my dad.. omg.. yea.. =) seeing blink 182 agian.. made me feel so special.. i really do use to idolised tom delonge.. he is so cool..

well all i can do now is just wait wait wait and go go go go go.. haha.. somethings are meant to take and some meant to leave.. can't take them all rite.. so yea.. maybe when i have a bigger cradle next time =) lulululululu... i am going BLINK!!!! now haha.. yea rock on mates always!

time

hello mates.. yes yes yes.. i got my notebook!! =) loving it.. toshiba m100.. its 2.2kg.. not really light la. but its lighter than others.. most of them.. so yea.. i spend my whole sunday at home haha.. bored... watched the singapore local movie One More Chance.. nice show ... can cry the touching parts haha.. tml going for interview.. for the 3rd time saying this cause on saturday.. the factory was close?? haha gonna smack qing rong la.. tml going agian.. better be open now haha..

well recently i have been chatting wif some of my frens online .. having some problems.. some are quite similar to mine.. and yea.. its always like this.. i mean like when u help someone to gain confidence.. its easier said than done.. but now i guess i gain back my confidence.. after many days of wondering and all... just that i still have some unfinish business.. if ya noe wad i mean yea.. =) have been listening to this song by paparoach Scar.. nice song.. but doesnt really suit my suitation cause its like telling the person off.. which i dun.. but i like this part of the song

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

the song is nice la... emo type all that.. but than there is another song i also listen .. by lifehouse.. "you and me"
What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off you

Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of

You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive

haha yea songs just control my emotions.. i listen to those that suits my feelings most.. well.. news for myself.. well i did chat to her alittle today.. wasnt much.. dun even noe if she did read my last post... its weird ya noe.. wondering if she reads it or not..

i got to just keep moving on.. and just keep in touch as much as i can.. this blog is something i can pour my thoughts too.. cause its like telling ya fren about yur troubles.. the things is that.. blogging here.. whoever reads it.. becomes like a fren to consult me haha.. great.. my blog has all along been my passion my tale my life

thoughts

okay today was a day agian that i think and think think think...
this feels like one month ago how it all started.. i am just gonna type everything down this time.. i discovered something last nite quite shocking.. its a secret la.. so yea.. i dun think i wanna say it here.. well its something maybe i should had know so much earlier.. i think almost everyone i know in jj noes abt me chasing this gal.. lol.. but than since the start of jj everyone keeps making fun of me wif gal by gal.. so many.. the turth is that i only had one.. but its not really the start of jj i had this started.. its was more like abt the 3rd week onwards.. yea here i go.. this is my tale..

well..this gal is in my class..only started to really talk to her around chinese new year that time.. cause we went to orchard togther to meet the class as she came from her sec skool ,i was from home.. so yea clementi was the spot.. since than i started to know her more little by little... it din't really caught my attention immediately.. cause i am like okay.. just talk whatever crap i have.. everyone gets my crap talking.. slowly i started messaging her and talking to her on the phone.. since the night which she cried alot alot.. even msn talk still can pause to like cry first.. weird but than i know she is deeply hurt by her problems.. that night was the starting of everything to me.. because of that chat on msn.. it lead to me talking on the phone later.. and yea so on we just talk and talk.. slowly i have this feeling that maybe i should like go for her.. cause i found her very sepcial and someone whom makes me wonder abt certain things.. my plan was that i just try my best to make it obvious to show that i like her.. but not tell her directly.. cause i know its gonna be serious if i did that.. so yea.. i started opening myself more and more...

but this made me thought alot too.. because i dunnoe of how or what she thinks.. so its like not nice to make someone feel so werid.. yea i continued chatting wif her all that.. just wanting to know her better to know why i should go for her.. and also to have a better understanding.. somehow.. because of this.. it troubled me to communitcate wif her.. its like i suddenly become so shy... than my fren like hint me that she wun go into relationship cause she wanna study for a levels.. so yea.. i mean like i don't entirely believe thats the reason la.. maybe i felt that my chances were slimmer..

its never nice to feel this way wondering of how the gals feel or think.. its scary.. cause i came wif so many conclusions.. which hunts me.. well valentine's day was a day i wanted to ask her out.. even knowing that we are going in a group.. cause i felt that it would be nicer to like ask her on the phone.. so yea.. i did.. and that took really really alot from me.. but than the outcome wasnt really nice.. ya know.. but in the end still went in a group.. ya that point of time... my hopes were like totally crashed.. because its like maybe she is beyond my reach.. i mean like i felt i wasnt the only one for her.. seriously.. it did made me think that who ever gets her is a lucky man.. so i guessed i aint that lucky.. so yea.. i seriously had troubles to like just leave it like that.. came to conclusion that i do suck at expressing.. its has been my life living wif it.. even my ex.. i did a lousy job expressing not until she was mine.. its hard to tell someone u like about the things u felt.. because the outcome of wad she feels or says.. its just scary to get the answers back..

so yea that very day.. i like start to really let go of this.. but than things somehow refresh.. i mean like.. she still talk and all that.. after having a discussion that she thinks that i don't like her?? so yea.. i was like .. omg... how how?? so i just continued being nice to her.. but than this time.. the feeling i got is much more stronger i had the one b4.. i dunnoe why.. it just keeps me beating when i think of it .. even now.. but than my plan this time was to like take it slow.. and easy.. but i always think that being slow.. i think someone else might catch her instead.. i dunnoe if i am being selfish or wad.. but thats what i really afriad of.. because its like just too heartbreaking to see someone u like telling u that she wanna studys so yea no relationship.. than later u find that she is wif someone else.. its a nightmare.. which i always think of..

having to think so much about chasing her.. i came back to myself and ask.. why her? i dun have a definate answer.. what i can say is that i am following my heart all the way.. cause that brings joy the most.. well can say that she is one of a kind whom i never met in my life.. i mean like its just nice sharing thoughts and story wif her.. dunnoe if she finds it nice anot.. but than.. yea.. i dunnoe.. thats the thing.. but i really missed those time talking to her.. its just something i treasure alot..

on the last day of skool.. i sang a song infront of the class.. which i composed for her.. suppose to only let her listen.. its a song that suppose to say what happened and all that.. well it was a last min thing to like play it in the canteen to let everyone from my class and some others in the canteen to hear.. i never thought i could have done something like that.. i mean like to actually write a song in 1 day and perform a solo when i suck at vocals.. for just her.. it took 101% of me.. later that day.. i remember going to viknesh house.. he talked to me about it.. cause he was by my side when i played.. the thing is that i dunnoe what he thoughts all that.. but i recived a meassge later that night from her.. saying that she wants to study and have personal stress.. so yea she dun wanna have any commitment and hope we could just remain frens.. she likes the song..

that message made me wondered.. is it because that she is really way beyond my reach.. i mean that she is like someone so good that i am not good enough for her.. or is it really because she dun wanna have more burden in life having this.. well i replied that i just wanna know her more so that i could get my answers better.. at the same time to find out why i am really into her.. since i sang that song.. things changed.. i felt that it affected how we talk now alot.. its like more general now.. just normal talk.. nothing much special.. maybe alittle..

the thing is that i wondered most is that did she ever felt for me.. or still does.. this 2 answer is very important to me.. because its like to decide if i should go on or not.. and yea this made me drag all the way till now.. i mean like i am not wanting the answer that if she wants to get into relationship wif me.. thats something naturally will be decided.. but now .. i till today have no answers if she ever like me.. i mean like if she does enjoy my company.. i will make her enjoy everyday of her life...all i wanted to see from her is her being happy.. which mattered most of all..

anyway.. to me .. love is never a burden... its always something extra specially for us to have.. cause whenever you are in the lowest point of life..u have someone to fall back on who believes in you.. that drives you to things u never imagined u could achieve.. its like an extra gear in you.. everything u do.. the reason is because of love..

well.. i always regret for not doing certain things in life.. which makes me so foolish.. the things i wanted to do.. i acutally wrote a lyrics out of it.. goes something like this.. "she is always there in my dreams, me telling her how much i felt for her. but its just a dream, if only could this be real. to look into her eyes and tell her how much i love her" its was when i going home just now from orchard.. very long bus ride.. because i actually wanted to send her home .. so ya she went up the bus.. i couldnt bring myself to go.. so yea i regret.. could had took that chance to do it ...

just because of her.. i have so much deep thoughts.. and getting to know that its her and because of her making me think like this.. is like wow.. she is really someone special to me.. that drove my spirit for 2 months.. even the times we had were short.. and maybe not special to her.. it did really gave me alot of things to learn in life..

knowing her was a blessing.. she is like an angel so high up there.. and i just wait and watch her.. the greatest chase of my life.. she took my heart away.. and yet i am here.. just waiting.. =)

guess that this post will be really the longest of all post.. btw if she gets to read this.. actually this is how much i wanna tell her abt my thoughts.. and hearing the answer right from her face.. it shall take me to where i head later.. i wished i could tell her this to her eyes..

its 2 am now.. and yes.. watever mention above is something i really kept for very long.. i know it can be selfish or boring.. well.. if it is.. thats life for me.. and hope i could be a better man..and hope my time will come.. to be like robbie williams!! lol. great lyrics .. love it..

well i hope that this won't make things worse.. and sorry to her if it did.. i shall shut up when u tell me to.. this is how much i think almost everyday.. so pouring it out here.. i hope it will get a better understanding..

playing soccer is my passion and yes soccer is my game and love.. wth.. okay i shut u p now.. its a long post i suppose.. okay

goodbye you

creep

running in circles... coming back to the start
i don't know anything about what is happening..
makes me feel like i am just so lost
i always fear of losing.. but losing is something that makes me learn
but losing it and learning.. is it possible to get it back..?
i shall keep my focus clear and just keep believing..
maybe someday.. it will come true..
or maybe i will just lose hope..
than thats when i start regret..
kill me

kill me

hey mates.. i am totally in chaos now.. my mind is so screwed up.. went chalet yesterday than overnite than this morning play soccer wif mike matin harision and kai.. than go look at laptops wif my parents.. after comming home.. this is when my world statt to become darker.. and i felt like really killing myself.. cause i found out something.. that i should had known long ago.. and now its uselss.. stupid me.. i feel so dumb =( haiz.. this is life.. i suck and tml i shall suck even more .. and so on

day at home

hello!! omg today i watch 4 moives in a row in my own room.. its super boring when u dun have money and u dun have anything on... all i could do is rot at home... today is a day i wasted.. doing nothing.. totally useless.. recently i have been thinking of buying so many things.. man.. this made me wanting to get a job.. even now i am working in coffee bean.. i wanna get another job.. because i want more money to get what i want.. how i wished if i have bigger allowance and get anything i want.. my soccer boots is the only thing i ever work for to get it.. and i just love it.. life can really be boring sometimes.. all i just need to do is just get something to do.. today i just feel soooo lazy.. thats why i watch movies.. think i am gonna watch some more..

hungry now!!!

monday

hello mates.. today i am going to jj to watch a soccer match agianst srjc.. dicky's skool.. and i think he will be there haha.. wish i could like trash his ass la.. anyway.. its really boring to like have a long holiday now.. i really feel like start skool now and just study study.. soccer soccer... seriously.. i suddenly felt the urge to like become an engineer.. its a good thing because i am going it wif my passion.. hope that poly will still have space for freedom.. well.. skool starts like at april 24th.. gonna go orientation agian... ice breaker agian haha.. i somehow feel like earning alot of cash now.. but coffee bean isnt a kind of job that gives big money if u work hard.. think i might get some factory work to earn big cash.. wanna get myself a new mp3.. new psp.. 2 pair of shoes.. bag.. shirts.. NEW HP!!! i got to earn like a 1000 to really get all this.. mp3.. ipod nano.. cost abt 300 plus.. psp 500plus.. shoes.. maybe around 60 each.. bag getting it likt around 70.. shirt.. get 2 topman shirt.. 140 togther.. haha its aready above 1000.. wanna get a new hp that cost around 500.. hrmm.. i think i should get a better hp than get a mp3.. get a mp3 phone.. but than i just love ipod nano.. its so small and have so many songs.. haiz..

anyway i am really waiting to get the package from ngee poly so i can go and get my laptop!! i am just waiting waiting.. cause if i get it.. i would get a bag also.. gonna get a crumpler bag.. i have been having dreams lately.. its like always abt the same thing or person.. wonder if its a good or bad sign.. haiz.. life is like this.. and i wanna move on..

sum of all thoughts

jj nite 2 nites ago.. awesome.. it was very emotional seeing everyone.. everyone misses s jj.. its sad that now most of them i can't see them like we were in the first 2 months.. mr chng.. best teacher ever.. even the class has only been 2 months wif him. he still welcomes us back to jj or to him anytime.. he was shaking my hand and saying that i should at least see you in NUS or NTU 3 years from now or after ns.. matin cried.. seeing him cried made me felt like crying too.. but mike was there keeping us strong =) mass dance was awesome.. danced wif celest liying and mike haha.. we did the train all over the hall.. and i was drenched in my class shirt.. like i just jumped into a swimming pool.. the singing session was nice.. singing our hearts out.. haha mike was really teasing me.. when the chorus of thats where u find love.. dunnoe if i should state here wad exactly happen.. those who knows will know =) i gonna really miss jj alot.. it was like the perfect skool for me to study in.. but too bad i am not good enough for it.. after everything i went to thank umar.. he said he will miss me.. and yea i will miss everything about jj.. i was very very sad... felt like crying.. but still i hold it.. i reached home at 11.30 that nite.. matin so badly miss jj that he din wan to go home and just stay wif us..i felt the same too.. jj has somehow became a part of me.. its a blessing to meet u guys and gals in jj..

after jj nite.. the next day was li ying's birthday.. had some problems wif my fren afiq.. b4 going there.. i was really pissed off wif him.. dunnoe to blame myself or wad.. but he treats me like dirt yesterday.. and harrsion was there.. saying he is not your fren.. haiz.. my classmate for 3 years.. afiq.. i dunnoe wad to say.. but its sad seeing u like this.. u been having physcological problems..which i never mention.. cause i accept the way u are.. even ppl like says about u.. and like talk bad about u.. i never once join them.. cause i thought u were a real friend.. and now after something like this happen.. i guess i must be wrong... its such a pain to find that someone who u thought was yur buddy.. stabs u at the back.. well.. after that went to kap.. met celest and suan wee.. haha they waited for me like 1 hour.. than we ate macs.. awhile later came liying .. than her nan hua frens ... i never thought that the celebration was at her house.. i didnt give her the present as early as the rest because i was waiting for mike.. cause he also paid part of the present.. so yea.. we went to her house first than later came down to fetch mike up.. he was injured la. than climb up that hill haha.. haha we only gave the presents only when they were taking photos.. milton passed her the present which was a guitar and i said its a share from the four of us.. and harrison.. than i pass her my own present.. lol. it looks so simple la my one.. i should had wrap it.!! haha.. the cake looks quite nice.. white and pink.. but when she cuts the cake and i saw it inside.. i was like wow.... jam.. =) but the best part was eating the cake.. its cold inside.. haha.. one of the nicest birthday cake i ate.. while eating the cake.. i was sitting wif mike milton bryan and liying's mom.. haha suddenly we just talk.. well she did a very good job being a host.. nice and cool mom.. lol.. the thing that catches me most was her younger brother.. running around all over and being so hyper active.. reminds me.. when i was young haha..but for me.. i was much more worse.. well.. stayed till around 11.30.. haha... luckily me mike and milton manage to catch our last bus..

today went to play the nike joga 3v3 competition haha.. i was really nervous at first.. but than we won 5 games in a row!!!!wow!! haha but than they say if win 5 games must change court.. than we queue up agian.. super super long.. and the worst part was we got this very good team.. and they score against us in a blink of an eye.. we never touched the ball haha.. but than we were told her got into the finals.. but than tml we shall do it agian.. to get better chances =)well can say things are getting better so far.. just that i miss jj alot alot..

and yes.. SKOOL STARTS IN APRIL 24!!! WAHHAHAHAH CAN DIE WAITING

Who is comming and who is going? I just sit here and wait.. during hari raya last year.. my house nearby.. this road.. where will it take me? who will be there? who won't? life is like a box of chocolates.. ya neva noe wad ya gonna get =) 

lalallala

omg mates.. been going out everyday to town.. since monday.. shites.. i am so broke now.. staying at home.. will just make me think think think until i go nuts.. its soooo boring at home.. =( tml is jj nite.. alot of ppl asking me if i was going.. wad do ya think? lol.. duh!! going of course... oh mann.... skool starts like next month for me.. soooo long... i at home blasting music into my ears.. the same song.. over and over agian.. addicted to this song.. don't you forget about me.. it really suits my mood now.. serious.. haha... having mood swings.. felt so good playing soccer just now... but i got injured in just 5 mins.. so unlucky.. i hurt my foot bone.. soo pain!! yet i played for 4 hours .. hope i wun go nuts until i go and do something stupid.. tml afiq asked me to go clementi gym to work out haha.. need to pass him the money also.. think i go for awhile only... i badly want skool to start asap!! i super bored.. somebody please just kill me.. so i wun suffer lol..

life is amazing yet boring now!! cause staying at home..is like URHH... cant do much.. anyway.. hope tml will be a better day la.. cause i will be going to jj nite!! hehe =)

Don't you forget about me

THis song is dedicated to you

DON'T YOU FORGET ABOUT ME

Won't you come see about me
I'll be alone, dancing, you know
Tell me your troubles and doubts
Giving me everything inside and out
love's strange: so real in the dark
Think about the tender things
That we're working on
Slow change can pull us apart
When the light gets into your heart

[Chorus]
Don't you forget about me
Don't, don't, don't, don't
Don't you forget about me
(times 2)

As you walk on by
Will you call my name
As you walk on by
Will you call my name
When you walk away

Oh, will you walk away
Will you walk on by
Come on, call my name
Will you call my name

la lalala la lalala lalalalalala
la lalala la lalala lalalalalala
la lalala la lalala lalalalalala

globe

today went shopping wif my parents the entire day!! bough new globe shoes!! super chio.. nice cool.. haha .. i just loved it.. din expect them to spend so much on a shoe for me.. first time!! =) anyway.. i got a new pair or ear phones too.. i loving it.. makes my music feel so real now where ever i go.. sound quality matters alot!!! meet up wif bryan and mike just now at kap.. we talk crap all the way sia.. and say how we miss our times.. yea.. its nice seeing both of them back.. guess i gonna miss alot of frens soon.. tml going for yfc interview.. hope and pray hard i get in =)

creep

today was an emotional day.. thinking of just 1 thing.. and yes it did make me feel so lost.. in the morning went for wu shu.. went to jun wei's house first.. than train on some of my rusty moves in wu shu.. injured my groin badly.. so yea.. cant kick much.. today when i was sparing.. i felt like giving my full force out.. but i cant la.. or else i will die.. after that went to work.. everyone at coffee bean was like.. MING!! u still working? surviving? lol.. than act like they forget me la.. i just felt that i wanna be isolated the whole day.. stare blank.. after my work.. i went out to my work place the tables there.. the outdoor part of coffe bean.. the view was fantastic.. and the wind was strong.. i stood on the pillar.. where below me was a cliff.. i just rasie my hands up and close me eyes.. why am i feeling this way.. the wind blew my sorrows always.. felt better.. my fren at coffee bean was singing the 'creep' song.. lol. it really suits my mood la.. felt like screaming ...

anyway.. i just cant wait to go skool la.. all the jc start aready.. while the polys all still got 1 month?? =( =( .... i wanna like start studying seriouslly.. and yea.. play soccer.. do everything.. better than just work and work everyday.. oh my.. i think without music .. i would had gone nuts.. music control my emotions..

i guess that life for me.. it begins wif happiness.. and passion.. tuesday going for youth flying club interview.. to get my private jet licence.. wif kenny.. called me during work la.. haha.. it will be another week break.. dunnoe do wad.. till sunday i work agian.. i got so many things in mind wanna buy aready... get a good laptop.. get a crumpler laptop bag.. get a bike? get new shoes.. get new shirts from topman.. get a few pants.. get more gel and wax.. omg it makes alot of difference when i wax my hair.. or else i look like nerd.. gotta gear up wif confidence to start studying hard agian..

lulululu... all i can say mates.. Welcome to my life ! yea simple plan .. haha this is so sick.. more like mattew bellamy.. i wanna be.. i also feel like being kurt cobain.. do wad he is most happy doing... but sad la he kill himself because.. wad ppl love to see him to do is wad he hate most to do.. so yea.. life is quite unfair.. shotgun to the head.. think i should like go and learn turn table.. so can learn to become slipknot.. aggresive emotions.. always

sup

hello.. its like 1.15am now.. yea.. felt like blogging after looking all 06A02 photos.. looking at it reminds me of times we were together.. yea nice.. anyway.. i think that many things are getting clearer to me now.. i think that i get hold up quite easily.. hakim was like repeating this over and over agian.. haha.. he is really my real fren.. even duo he wasnt there for me all the time.. but he was there when i needed him the most.. i got to say that if not because of him i wouldnt be wad i am today.. he made me love music.. how to aprriciate life.. and time to chill out haha.. oh my oh my.. ngee ann poly.. gonna meet alot of new ppl agian..

oasis still remains the band i always let it lead my life.. songs that will play my life "dont go away" "stand by me" " let there be love" "dont look back an anger" "stop crying yur heart out" listen to these songs.. they pretty much lead the rythm of my life.. its nice stuff..

Class 06A02 u ROXOR! 

2

A brand new day now.. i feel so sorry to done the class message thing so last min than i write so little only.. anyway.. i gonna really miss u guys.. yesterday was the last day and to some it may be the last time i seen u.. my life in jj.. i can never forget.. even duo it may be just only 2 months.. it felt more than that.. how i wish it was 2 years instead yea? well.. time really flys.. now we have come to an end.. every ending there is a new beginning.. for many of us.. i dunnoe if i could still meet u all up agian.. i hope that all of the class 06A02 will never forget the memories we had.. its something i will never forget.. i got to say that i felt sad yesterday going home.. when can i ever capture that moment we had agian.. keep in touch mates...

i hope my life will stay carry on and get better.. i never really talk abt this on my blog b4 cause i noe that she might read it someday.. lol.. anyway.. yea the song i wrote for her.. i spend nights thinking how can i express my feelings abt her.. thinking abt that makes me afraid of manythings.. cause i am like kind of a screwed up person.. so the chances making it a success is slim.. but its amazing.. i got soo inspired when i composed that song.. because i noe that if i dun do it.. i never gonna even have a chance to try.. and i gonne regret for a very long time.. somehow i felt that after singing the song and letting her listen.. i had not done my best.. my personal thoughts are always abt her... what matters most is that i wanna be happy always.. i can't force anything rite.. well.. i cant expect anything good since i went after her.. cause i noe that its just too fast.. i can't really find a reason why she is special.. i just felt it.. i got to respect her decision.. all i can do now is go on wif life and just be there for her.. going to poly may sound like i am gonna slack.. but actually its all crap.. like viknesh told me abt his bro in poly .. its all about pure hardwork if u wanna do well.. i got give my best this time.. i really hope that my frenship wif her will still be there and stronger.. in this world.. anything is possible if u believe.. =)

well going up so high.. i hope i dun end up like kurt kobain.. lol.. skool starts like in 1 month time.. really long break.. hope to keep in contact wif all my jj mates.. guess now its back to old working days wif coffee bean.. yea..

jj

today... all i could say.. is that it was great =)
last day of jj.. yes its sad leaving u all..
and yes finally like can say wad i did today
the song i sang it out today to her..
whew.. that took alot from me..
was touched by the class spport alot..
could had just teared.. but yea i was strong
things are suppose to be better
and maybe is it now =)
thank you u all for everything...
i will miss my memory in JJ
everyone going seperate ways..
yeas i hope we still keep in touch..
06A02 rocks.. and we must still united!!
its the best class ever...

I would like to use this song to remember JJ..

In Loving Memory
Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone and
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly

I never knew what it was to be alone....no
'Cause you were always there for me
You were always home waiting

But now I come home
And I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see

And I know
You're a part of me
And its your song
That sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight
'Cause it comforts me

I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of the one that was so true
You were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

I never knew what it was to be alone....no
'Cause you were always there for me
You were always home waiting

But now I come home
And its not the same no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone

And I know
You're a part of me
And it's your song
That sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight
'Cause it comforts me

I'm glad He set you free from sorrow
But I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you'll be here
With me still

All you did you did with feeling
And you always found a meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will

And I know
You're a part of me
And it's your song
That sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight
'Cause it comforts me

omg this photo is like taken 1 year ago? screwed up brain trying to study for o's ... well i was like listening music all the way.. btw this photo is special because its the first ever photo taken on chee fatt's phone!! haha yea.. hey mate.. when are we gonna go for our special trip?? haha miss u lots mate.. u made me laugh the loudest and the longest.. if it wasnt for u.. i wouldnt become a jackass.. well u are the bigger one.. life will never be the same =) 

suck

hello mates.. today i wasnt feeling good at all at the end of the day... i was injured and feeling a abit uneasy... maybe i shouldnt had thought of this so much.. somethings i regreted doing and somethings i did was lucky.. there will always a point of time where i can really go nuts in many ways.. but doing that sometimes makes me feel really free and happy.. and ya.. ppl might think i take this life as a joke..

i don't know how ppl think of me .. its real scary..
one of the reason is maybe because i dun really care wad ppl says abt me and i just go ahead.. sometimes i do get affected and sometimes i dun
if u think i am happy going on this way.. well maybe yur rite..
i am not sure wad the future brings me in..
all the greatest things i ever thought are illusion
can i make it reality?
wad makes me think that its gonna make me happy?
i realise happiness is very important to me..

haiz.. i always get misunderstood.. even the place where i work.. ppl still talks abt me.. which i dunnoe.. i mean like.. how i wish i could just see all of this.. and just correct my mistakes.. i been trying so hard to become someone better.. everytime i felt like i did.. i think it has made me too proud sometimes.. or maybe always..

this is life.. full of everything.. i can feel like i am gonna die..until some miracle saves me.. all i wanna do is music now .. i cant stand all this stress kept in my head.. how i wish i had my own fender and own marshall amps.. training vocals really hard.. thats why i am like losing my voice these days..

i will get my answers sooner or later.. but i always thought of the worst.. and it happens 90% of my life.. i dunnoe if i am really dumb or just that i am not born to do it.. i always dream that i could be like tom delonge someday.. can play the guitar and sing.. not may be the best .. but i just love his style..

all i can do is dream dream dream.. when can i ever take this step ahead of life..
life is all about making choices..
tonight i will just think all night..
have i really started my life?

i am going nuts..

today i am going to take a step ahead

today was quite a strange day
i skip all classes to play badminton
there is something always running through my mind
my mates say i should just go for it
i am just afraid things would shatter
went home today early
slept in the bus all the way
can't say much now
the time will come

zai

today soccer traning ran 22 rounds around the field.. lol. than had 2 sided match agian.. this time i play crap.. so ya and my blister tore my skin.. after that umar suddenly just blow off scolding the whole team.. kena pump everything than suddenly go into the gym haha. actually was preparing to have a birthday bash.. and yea we did hahaha.. manage to hit a few times on his back.. he is strong dey.. haha.. all we went through the punishment by umar was just an act haha.. okay la. quite fun..

before training was in skool.. i pon all the lessons!! haha.. so fun.. first i went to see the ogls doing mass dance.. than my class ppl started to join in.. haha.. than suddenly i felt like dancing too.. so yea nicolas offered me to dance.. haha damn gay la.. than later danced wif celest.. can see everyone laughing at my lame dance la..ahhaha.. they recorded my dance la.. wa lao.. better pay me!! haha.. after that went to canteen and sat there for 2 .5 hours.. haha quite fun la.. talk to so many ppl.. than go to prayers.. lol.. i enjoyed it actually cause we are like so united.. than went back to skool played badminton than go soccer..

now i have some inspiration.. which i had lost quite sometime ago.. after days of thinking so hard.. so yea i finally can put it in words in music.. so yea.. hope at least i get something out at the end of the day :D

thursday

hello mates.. today went to JP to watch movie wif celest liying mike bryan milton.. watched pink panter.. wasnt really that good la.. but okok la.. the cinema was so cold!! haha.. after that went to eat at long john.. than go home.. today the things happen quite fast i can say.. did enjoy a little..

sometimes i feel like giving up
there would always be a shine of hope showing me
should i accept the fact ?
should i just go get what i want?
or should i just let it go and wait till another time..
time is running out.. once agian another day is gone..

wednesday

today had training wif blisters on my right foot.. but i played striker today!! haha.. but quite disappointing la.. only got a few shots.. anyway.. dad fetch me home.. so yea.. slept in the car.. nothing much to say la.. cause i lazy to think now.. :D

DAMNIT WOHOO!!!

I GUESS THIS IS GROWING UP ? This song rocks!

It's alright / to tell me / what you think / about me
I won't try / to argue / or hold it / against you
I know that / you're leaving / you must have / your reasons
the season / is calling / and your pictures / are falling down
(they're falling down)

The steps that / I retrace / the sad look / on your face
the timing / and structure / did you hear / that he fucked her?
a day late / a buck short / I'm writing / the report
on losing / and failing / when I move / I'm flailing now

And it's happened once again
I'll turn to a friend
someone that understands
sees through the master plan

But everybody's gone
and I've been here for too long
to face this on my own
well I guess this is growing up
well I guess this is growing up

And maybe / I'll see you / at a movie / sneak preview
you'll show up / and walk by / on the arm / of that guy
and I'll smile / and you'll wave / we'll pretend / it's okay
the charade / it won't last / when he's gone / I won't come back

And it'll happen once again
you'll turn to a friend
someone that understands
and sees through the master plan

But everybody's gone
and you've been there for too long
to face this on your own
well I guess this is growing up

Well, I guess this is growing up
well, I guess this is growing up
well, I guess this is growing up
well, I guess this is growing up
well, I guess this is growing up

tired day

hello mates once agian.. today was a hell of a tiring day.. i fell asleep in almost all my lessons.. yesterday had soccer training.. ran 4km than train some match practice.. super tired.. and i fell asleep halfway yesterday night messaging.. this morning i felt the tiredness.. dunnoe why i ate so much today.. ate 2 plates ... 1 hot dog.. ice cream.. rootbeer float.. ate somemore i came home.. today i am home early!! haiz.. its boring la.. back home dunnoe wad to do.. i guess i will end up sleeping.. suppose to jam today but than mike also very tired so yea..

somehow today pass by very fast.. nothing much happen.. next week is the last week of skool.. i am getting tired of lessons.. all i wanna do is enjoy b4 the postings are out.. and after that its time to get serious.. somehow i just cant wait to get into poly... i even dreamt about the orientation .. lol.. well the sad part is that i am leaving JJ and my new found frens.. hope to keep in contact wif ya all.. i cant imagine life wifout jj in this 3 months.. so yea.. thank you all for everything

my time will come one day..

sunday morning

hello mates once agian.. its sunday morning.. its been a long time since i went wu shu.. i miss my last grading =( anyway i am having soccer feva now.. hahah been playing soccer almost everyday... yesterday training .. i all the way train my shots.. think its getting more accurate.. i love to whack the ball striaght and hard..

anyway.. had keyboard lesson yesterday morning.. and after that went to acjc wif liying celestine matin mike milton and his gf.. lol.. was kind of lost in the skool.. cause i like have no idea wad to do la.. everything also need to use the ticket which i dun have.. haha in the end celest and liying treat me some tickets to get food and tried a few games.. and there was this game where u have to kick the ball through this tire.. and beside it was a guy on wheel chair... haha i almost hit him la.. so scary.. and mike told me to blast the ball.. and it rebound off the rooftop and back to my face!!! hhahaha... damn funny la.. the person was really scared.. he said chill it mate.. u gonna tear this place down. hhaha.. =) after that we went to holland v to eat burger king.. i dun realise time to fly so fast.. and yes i got to go training after that. and it started to rain super heavily .. wif lightning and everything.. in the end when i reached skool.. it stop raining.. and yea we train...

last nite was so horrible la..i kena mosquito attack!! cannot sleep.. than i take blanket and wrap myself up than finally can sleep lol...anyway.. today i gonna play soccer agian.. futsal this time.. time to show some flicks and blast hahaha.. yea.. i love soccer.. just love it..

there are many things i would to say to you but i dunnoe how..
cause maybe u got to be the one that save me
and after all.. yur my wonderwall! =)

vday

happy valentines day mates.. omg.. i suddenly feel so fresh.. like i woke up from my grave.. there are things that are FIANLLY clear off my mind.. whew.. i admire zhi wei courage.. to just chiong.. get it striaght and yea.. do it once.. do it right.. life as usual mate.. love is all around.. and please let there be love.. yea.. oasis.. gonna miss their concert =(

This is one of my fav song that makes me happy =)

SONGBIRD
Talking to the songbird yesterday
Flew me to a place not far away
She's a little pilot in my mind
Singing songs of love to pass the time

Gonna write a song so she can see
Give her all the love she gives to me
Talk of better days that have yet to come
I never felt this love from anyone

She's not anyone
She's not anyone
She's not anyone

A man can never dream these kind of things
Especially when she came and spread her wings
Whispered in my ear the things I'd like
Then she flew away into the night

Gonna write a song so she can see
Give her all the love she gives to me
Talk of better days that have yet to come
Never felt this love from anyone

She's not anyone
She's not anyone
She's not anyone

yea mate.. lets rock n roll. ALL our way to our very last breath ! =)

goodbye

hello mates.. sowie haven been updating the past few days due to some reasons i dun felt like blogging. and yea i got my results on friday.. it was shocking to me how badly i done. lucky enough i still could enter poly wif a wide range of courses. the thing i am most disappointed wif is that my english really shocked me i got a D7.. i mean like.. how the hell did i get that? ya that destroy my chances but not entirely. i felt really really very bad after getting my results.. my mum cried when i got home.. and i felt so loved when my dad was like showing that there is still hope in life.. i felt so touched.. they were the first ones to know my results.. i felt i really let down alot of ppl that day.. but i got to thank my family for the encouragement and my mates hakim and chi leong for helping to sort out my courses. i was really in a whirl after the results.. i spent the entire day looking at all the courses..and ya met up wif lying and bryan later on and than went to hakim's house and than my house.. they stayed my house until 3 am..

i thought i would be so doomed.. that night.. the sky was so beautiful.. the moonlight was so bright and the stars all over it.. i think its a sign to me showing that there is still hope and never to give up.. recently i have been thinking alot.. i hope that my thoughts will not hold my life from going on..

well on saturday got a game in jj agian.. agianst the MOE team agian.. umar ask me to come for like my last game or something.. yea i came.. we lost 5-3 but we did better la .. compared to the last few games.. but i was really cut off my stamina.. cause i ate laksa b4 the game...after the game went to raffles city wif bryan to help him get some stuff.. but in the end he decided to go and get it the next day..

well i am working today at bugis coffee bean.. lol.. well ya.. hope to update tonight agian

5

today wasnt really my day.. but i rather felt quite peaceful.. i was actually so anxious abt the vjc match the entire whole day.. cause this could be my last match playing for jj and play against such a strong team.. leassons today were cool.. everything went smoothly.. and quite slack.. played badminton.. lol.. to actually warm my legs up la.. i felt my legs so tight in the morning.. after that had maths.. and yea went to jp wif matin,bryan,celest,liying and sarah.. to actually eat 1 hour b4 the match.. ate ice chendol.. haha.. and yea i thought the gathering for soccer was 3.30.. but its actually 3pm.. haiz.. kena rushed there la.. than we started warming up.. kicking around.. had my shots quite accurate.. lol..haiz.. anyway.. later we gathered and huddled.. we sang the skool song.. facing the spporters.. i felt so honoured to have the fans there supporting jj.. faces of my frens mates classmates jj mates... and i look down and up the flag.. bending my head down closing my eyes.. feeling the meaning of the song .. it was very emotional.. could be the last time hearing the skool song.. i was like come on!! lets go and win.. sadly we lost the game 2-0.. we played well.. i was proud of team jj.. i know we can make it to the championship.. i took quite a long time on the field feeling the last breath of team jj.. i am gonna miss my soccer mates.. and the supporters.. i got to thank u all those i ask to come and support.. it was a great exprience =)

results in 2 days time.. yea.. the story is yet to be continued..

3

it is confirm that this friday results are out.. I seriously want to have less than 20 points so i can stay in jjc.. i only had this thought only after taking my o levels.. thats why i having double thoughts.. haiz.. i should had put in even more effort la.. so i am confident abt it.. so afraid my results really screw me up..

well mates.. i really wish to stay in jj.. if i dun.. i would be sad.. even being in jj for only a month plus.. it has become a part of me.. the friends.. the teachers.. the faces.. the spirit.. after all the effort in put in jj wif my commiment in soccer and ogl.. it was all worth the blood to shed for.. today training was damn xiong la.. ran 300m burst.. 5 times!!! wth.. my legs cant even move properly la.. than play match after that.. than kena scold like wad la.. haiz.. its okay la.. i can take my mistake and learn.. now my body heating up because i have been not feeling well and i overwork my body out today.. almost vomited during training..

well tml gonna watch movie after skool wif celes and kuinoi.. dun abt the rest.. bryan said he had shadow meeting.. i suppose to go for coffee bean class lessons.. but since this is our last week of skool.. i wun let u all down and go on wif u all =) because this is the only chance in life we will have..

i really feel like making a tribute to jjc when i am gone.. to show my loving memory in jj that i will never forget.. cheer mates =(

2

omg i think i am seriously gonna fall sick.. been coughing.. well today went to skool for the ogl thing.. met the shadows.. wasnt really comfortable under their hands.. cause its like suddenly they are incharge of the ogls now.. i mean like they are aready selected to lead us.. which gives the ogls no room for leadership among ourselves.. no wonder they kept stressing abt the shadows and ogls sharing same power.. but it seems them controling ogls.. well.. wad to do?

The thing that strikes me most is that when the camp ic scold us for being slack taking our time to be puntual.. i mean like wtf la.. he said 1 pm meet.. than now he said 1245 we should be there aready.. and 1255 is when the bus comes in (like bloodly hell how we noe? ) i just hate it when the scolding gets on.. and its so obvious the kind of face the guy have is like MUAHAHAH i am bigger and have the rights to command u.. i felt like showing my finger.. lol.. its just this thing i am very uncomfortable abt.. haiz... dunnoe la.. its just not right i felt.. all the leadership roles among ourselves are under them.. and being scold.. its just not the spirit la.. i mean like if mistakes we do.. we learn together.. oh ya that reminds me when all the ogls sitting down and all the shadow standing surrounding us.. i mean like wow... i feel so small.. and when i was in the bus.. got this guy who is who damn thick skin.. kept shouting out for cheer.. siao!! than zhi wei also noe.. that this guy why become shadow? he more suitable for ogl.. cause he cheer hell of alot..lazy to talk abt it aready la.>

btw i walk back to clarke quay than met up wif afiq at ps.. we played x box for 3 hours.. haha so cheap.. 7.50!! =) yea felt so good.. and wads better is that we ate billy bombers agian!! on the house somemore..so shiok.. and yea we went hmv.. and guess wad? THEY PLAYED MUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!yea i love watching them rocking.. the whole hmv was muse.. yea.. =) after that went home.. and yea.. tada,, i am here =)
ps: tml skool

1

today went to visit the doctor early in the morning.. the report is that i have degenerated my ankle.. not really serious but i have to wear ankle guard from now on when ever i exercise or else it will become worse till i tear it.. and yes i was given the green light to carry on playing soccer!! =) MUAHHAHAHA

than afiq came my house to jam for awhile.. 0mg i was actually singing .. avril lavinge .. yea.. my happy ending.. somehow i enjoy that song very much..yea.. played drums as well.. made my bass drum more power! MUAHAH hahah.. yea.. feel it.. and i share wif him my jj spirit.. haha showed him the videos.. yea.. making him jealous.. and yea after that we went to marina square.. to chill out.. omg i actually broke the glass bottle head wif my teeth.. when i tried to open the cap wif my teeth.. there were small pieces of glass in my mouth.. quickly i hurried to the toilet and wash.. alittle blood only.. lucky nothing serious... whew... today i din really talk much to them... but 1 thing for sure.. we are anxious abt our results.. yea.. in the end i went home at 11.. but i am really bloated now.. hahahah

chilling out at starbucks sun tec wif afiq there and jun wei.. my old buddies.. thanks afiq for the treat.. almost the whole day.. i only spend 10 bucks..ate billy bombers.. played pool , bowling and drank.. haha.. i drank hell of alot today.. first was root beer .. than starbucks.. than later on long island volka.. than drank this can drink.. i was really damn bloated la.. afiq bought the same share as i did.. than he couldnt finish his burger.. i finish mine when he only took 1 bite.. haha.. it was damn nice la.. the burger.. =) i help him to finish abt half his burger.. now i still can feel the burger in my stomach haha... wow..  

pain

hello once agian.. today was a weird day.. cause i slept very early last night leaving everyone on msn talking to themself when i forget to log off.. cant sleep well actually after waking up at 1 am.. messy day today.. started wif lit.. than econs.. than break went to play badminton.. thanks nic for the training.. din expect to learn so much.. =) even in maths u help me.. really thanks mate.. than we played squash together.. taught him some basic moves.. haha.. yea went chinese and had chinese spelling and we sang a song.. haha i love the chourus part.. cause the singer went very hight pitch.. had to try a few times to catch that pitch.. haha.. after chinese went to jog 7km.. 16 rounds around the track.. after that went to play wif the j2 soccermates at the bar hahaha.. quite fun but i was later carried away playing wif matin harison and mike.. we practice set pieces.. yea we learn quite alot today.. mike was like so good la.. i mean the way he command.. we like planning wad to do some tactics we discover we actually unlock a way how to use the backs to the center and to the wing to strike.. and practice lots and lots of corner.. slightly b4 that kuinoi and celestine were shouting very far away calling me and said something.. i thought they said good bye or wad.. lol.. than i just wave back la.. actually they went to watch movie wif bryan and liying.. by the time i found out they aready watching the movie i not stupid too.. haha lucky i watched that movie.. matin was teasing me la when we were heading to the coffeeshop cause he heard wad kuinoi and celestine shouted la.. he though i was joining them .. haha than he sabo la.. than the soccerteam came asking me if i was dating them la.. omg.. la.. haha.. no wonder i like wad??? in the end i went to coffeshop wif the soccer team.. we sat and drank and eat.. i drank like 3 cups of water la.. super thirsty.. bryan called me when i reached home.. asking if i wanna join them.. lol.. its like aready 8? by the time i reach they going home la.. wanna to see doctor agian but it close agian!! haiz...

well i just told afiq that i wanna jam tml.. we said okay and plan to hang out tml nite.. yea.. miss those times mate.. when we just hang out till late .. i dunnoe wads my real plan tml also.. think i would be seeing the doctor tml morning.. and afternoon go jamming than catch a movie and chill out at city hall.. haha i dun understand why some ppl just look so low down at city hall la.. its the best place to chill out la.. hahaha.. i mean its like 10 times better than orchard and we dun have to spend so much $$..

when i came home.. i was feeling quite tired and a little sad somehow.. maybe i was thinking abt last nite post i entered..mark u said like i wanna die aready.. ya it sounds like i think.. but thats wad i felt .. a sense of something big is gonna happen.. bad or good i dunnoe.. but there would be a big change in life to me.. i noe it.. lucky i plan my route.. wad happen i know wad to do.. and ya some ppl are like so entu abt valentines day is comming.. lol.. i havent plan anything out yet cause i dun need to.. if ya noe wad i mean.. lol.. results should be out by than.. will get to see my old sec 5 mates.. back.. and yea.. an emotional result taking..

finally i manage to get back my old habits of typing long post.. haha.. it pours out my thoughts and feeling.. think i have to go find places to jam tml and invite more frens..

pain

hello once agian.. today was a weird day.. cause i slept very early last night leaving everyone on msn talking to themself when i forget to log off.. cant sleep well actually after waking up at 1 am.. messy day today.. started wif lit.. than econs.. than break went to play badminton.. thanks nic for the training.. din expect to learn so much.. =) even in maths u help me.. really thanks mate.. than we played squash together.. taught him some basic moves.. haha.. yea went chinese and had chinese spelling and we sang a song.. haha i love the chourus part.. cause the singer went very hight pitch.. had to try a few times to catch that pitch.. haha.. after chinese went to jog 7km.. 16 rounds around the track.. after that went to play wif the j2 soccermates at the bar hahaha.. quite fun but i was later carried away playing wif matin harison and mike.. we practice set pieces.. yea we learn quite alot today.. mike was like so good la.. i mean the way he command.. we like planning wad to do some tactics we discover we actually unlock a way how to use the backs to the center and to the wing to strike.. and practice lots and lots of corner.. slightly b4 that kuinoi and celestine were shouting very far away calling me and said something.. i thought they said good bye or wad.. lol.. than i just wave back la.. actually they went to watch movie wif bryan and liying.. by the time i found out they aready watching the movie i not stupid too.. haha lucky i watched that movie.. matin was teasing me la when we were heading to the coffeeshop cause he heard wad kuinoi and celestine shouted la.. he though i was joining them .. haha than he sabo la.. than the soccerteam came asking me if i was dating them la.. omg.. la.. haha.. no wonder i like wad??? in the end i went to coffeshop wif the soccer team.. we sat and drank and eat.. i drank like 3 cups of water la.. super thirsty.. bryan called me when i reached home.. asking if i wanna join them.. lol.. its like aready 8? by the time i reach they going home la.. wanna to see doctor agian but it close agian!! haiz...

well i just told afiq that i wanna jam tml.. we said okay and plan to hang out tml nite.. yea.. miss those times mate.. when we just hang out till late .. i dunnoe wads my real plan tml also.. think i would be seeing the doctor tml morning.. and afternoon go jamming than catch a movie and chill out at city hall.. haha i dun understand why some ppl just look so low down at city hall la.. its the best place to chill out la.. hahaha.. i mean its like 10 times better than orchard and we dun have to spend so much $$..

when i came home.. i was feeling quite tired and a little sad somehow.. maybe i was thinking abt last nite post i entered..mark u said like i wanna die aready.. ya it sounds like i think.. but thats wad i felt .. a sense of something big is gonna happen.. bad or good i dunnoe.. but there would be a big change in life to me.. i noe it.. lucky i plan my route.. wad happen i know wad to do.. and ya some ppl are like so entu abt valentines day is comming.. lol.. i havent plan anything out yet cause i dun need to.. if ya noe wad i mean.. lol.. results should be out by than.. will get to see my old sec 5 mates.. back.. and yea.. an emotional result taking..

finally i manage to get back my old habits of typing long post.. haha.. it pours out my thoughts and feeling.. think i have to go find places to jam tml and invite more frens..

OG 19 ! 

after soccer training 

BANANA FAMILY! WITH LOVE=) 

whats up mates! =) 

Thats a part of my class ROCKS!!! =) 

THE BANANA FAMILY! WITH LOVE =) 

revelation

REVELATION is what ppl of jjc has been talking about.. haha.. yea it brings me memories back to me yea or the orientation.. and jj nite.. omg today mass dance was so rusty for me la.. i forget so many moves haha.. anyway.. thanks ogls for all the effort u put in and the stuffs u gave me.. ogsa i din expect something so nice from u all =) og19 yea we took quit alot of photos haha..got the revelation cd too.. yea definately something nice to have.. F4 video was the best la to me.. so damn funny hahaha.. even duo its short.. its very very nice =)

even my stay in jj was short.. only 1 month.. it was one of the best month in skool i ever exprience.. time really fly mates.. the feeling i have now its like leaving u guys.. which is so .. i cant explain it in words.. next week would be our result taking.. it would either i come out of my skool smiling or screaming wif joy.. ya noe wad i got for my result if u can tell which reaction is for wad.. another thing that saddens me is that some of my friends in jj or class not sure abt staying in jj.. come on.. u have the chance.. take it.. u laugh and cheer the loudest in jj.. i can tell u all are happy to be in jj.. whats so hard thinking abt staying in jj.. even if some of them want to leave.. there would be more to come.. this is jj.. if u lost some.. u gain back more.. but one thing for sure is that my class is superb la.. haha.. =) imagine we study 2 years together taking a levels.. it would be a hell of a ride for 2 years.. dun need to think so much.. 1 month and yet so many things happen that change our lives.. everyone is happy in jj i noe it in my heart..

the banana family.. i will have to thank u all for the times we spend together.. it was nice visting bryan house for cny.. going to town wif u all.. we are this close now and yet 1 month ago we were strangers.. haha i seem to be like saying my last words to u all.. but one thing for sure.. i will never forget u guys.. =) keep in contact yea..

and the soccer team.. wifout u guys. i wun be here in jj.. got to thank umar for letting me into the soccer team last decemeber.. and the teachers who advice me and guide me.. i would really love to play wif u guys to the a division championship.. but that has to wait for my results.. even if i dun make it.. i will give u guys my 100% support in winning it and bringing the glory back to JJC !

now my class.. yea u all are the best! this is like my dream team class.. full of entu ppl and funny ppl.. viknesh is a superb class rap haha.. and also u kuinoi.. u all got the job done.. there is always answers to my question whenever i am lost.. thanks to u guys who guide me in class.. the class spirit is there la... i can sense it very strong.. i mean like my whole class is from F1 and i am like from F4.. ya total strangers on the first day when i met u all.. now we united.. even the revelation i was at first at F1 than i went back to F4.. watever it is.. we are 1 jj family.. thats what i feel most =)

well.. guess that wad i have to say b4 anything happens.. and would like to thank these ppl who has touched my life. banana family,bryan,celestine,kuinoi,matin,viknesh,ji shen,macus,liying,nicolas,donald,harison,fis,germaine,liying,xiuli,matani,xinyi,nazrul,syafiq,wanxian,shak,ady,umar,nazra,zai,soccer team jj, ogls , teachers of jj espically mr ng,miss phoo,mr cheng,mr SI, mr shankel..
thanks =)