here without you

hello mates.. sowie for the late updates.. yea yesterday went to sentosa.. so fun.. =) one of the best moments in sentosa for me.. i have something i wanna say.. i am havin the best class in my life now.. i mean like finally =) i used to envy other classes who are so cool but now i am in the best class!! muahaha =) crazy and cool ppl.. nothing much to type tonight sowie =( i lazy to think mates. yea thats all i wanna say =)

defeat

hello once agian.. today went back to tanglin for cca open house wif hakim.. miss the ncc show duo.. and i dun really like the new clt ernest.. looks so nerd and cocky.. wanted to teach my cadets new cheers but wasnt in the mood too.. i miss the feeling of being in ncc.. anyway.. after that.. had keyboard lesson.. my fingers became stiff agian.. maybe i never play for quite sometime but still in touch ehh :D went back to skool for soccer match agianst this MOE team.. wa lan lei.. they got this player damn freaking good la.. dribble pass the whole defence like water la.. bei tahan.. than i miss my shots too so sad.. and i think i play crapy la today.. cannot pass properly.. after the game my left ankle so pain la... than went to queensway.. wanted to get the new +10 the boots i all along desired for.. but than my pay still haven get =( damn sad sia.. tml i die die must get ah.. or else i even more sad... after that i went to macs to eat.. than this bryan ah.. make me laugh until my stomach cramp la.. damn spastic.. laugh all the way sia.. until he finally got in the cab and went home.. okay la.. today nothing much to say.. so yea.. nite mates

after soccer training

today had pc started at 930 and after that had econs, geog and chinese... damn boring haha.. slept halfway watching the geog vid.. think i din get enough sleep.. cause someone called me up at 1am last nite.. haiz... and i couldnt sleep well as my bro watch tv... until 4 am .. bei tahan.. after that went to meet my og frens at canteen.. haha always the table full one.. than no choice go sit wif my classmates.. ok la.. today made a few more new frens ... than played soccer in the rain.. traning.. was tough..as my leg calf hurts.. and my hips... but so far alrite... feel damn good passing the ball around wif confidence.. but dun tell its enough to improve my fitness and skills.. have been practicing alot of freekicks.. corners.. and my shooting.. anyway.. the good news is that i getting my pay this saturday!!! WOHOO!!!.. here i come baby.. addidas +10 hehehhehe.. .woohooo... and get a good massage for my legs.. damn tired.. and abit swollen.. my ankle still haven recovered.. damn =( anyway.. just waiting till brighter days

sup oasis

yea finally change my blogskin!! oasis yea.. they rock.. i wanna go to their concert but than no $ cause i wanna get addidas absolute +10 and a new handphone k608i .. omg.. unless chinese new year can give me some income boost..

tired

hello mates once agian.. its been along time since i blog.. well some updates.. just started skool.. jjc :D finished my orientation camp not long ago.. took the art stream.. h2 lit geog economics.. h1 chinese pw gp maths.. seriously.. i never had the idea of jc to be this fun.. i mean like there are always mates that can help u.. unliked secondary skool.. i used to hate skool.. and always thinking of getting into poly to like escape this skool thinking.. but jjc changed my thoughts.. i really enjoy going to skool. now.. i have my og 19 .. my og sa.. my frens.. soccer mates.. almost anyone i can find.. my classmates got to know 2 of them only today.. haha.. so gald today the soccer trials kristian and me got through.. and those well derserved j1.. played table tennis in skool today also and basketball.. haha i learn a few skills that would help me in my table tennis.. and my bro like always so action.. that he so good.. haha wait till i train wif my fren.. damn exhausted now.. after the whole trial.. we ran 10 rounds around the field.. luckly i could handle it.. but i feel so sick now.. =( btw i heard my og is joining superband.. i was like hahahahhaha... anyway.. life rocks now =) but i hate it when i collect results.. cause thats when some of my og members will go seprate ways.. but surelly we must keep in touch.. even knowing them for 3days.. they are like my soulmates ..

back

Hello mates.. its been really a long time since i update my blog.. ohh my.. haha anyway.. i think this blog is dead sooner or later.. anyway.. life update.. after o levels..after grad nite.. after chalet.. things went pass very fast.. now holidays till jan.. will be in jjc for 1st 3 months.. omg.. its like impossible for me ya noe.. haha but i got it.. in the jjc soccer team.. yea hope my legs can do wonders to help them =)
its really a pleasure to be in a jc.. its something i long wanted to be in.. and since this year the begining.. those thoughts have faded because i used to think that being in jc could help me caught up wif time.. and yea things happen than.. and i gave up hopes on jc.. after awhile during my o levels.. i am like wtf... can i get into jc by soccer? cause i heard from a fren who did it wif 32 points to sajc.. lol.. so yea why not give it a try.. and yea.. i went to jjc.. hope i get into that skool.. superb.. the ppl there are friendly.. its fun.. long time since i played in such a team.. looks like this would be a huge moral booster for me.. and yea.. hope things go right for me =)

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yea...4 more papers and i am a gonner haha.. =) i am reparing my computer now.. so that i can play WOW!!! wtf.. haha.. my bro put password on his laptop.. which is quite unexpected because once and agian.. they do this only after some papers? haha=)anyway i manage to hacked it and delete the password.. for the fun of it =) its quite fun to hack passwords ya noe.. its just so tempting.. so it came and i did it.. dun use it much either even i could use.. i used my com instead.. thats why i am patching things up now!!!my com will be up one day agian.. good =)

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oh sheet mates.. my exams are comming! actually just excited that its gonna be all over.. i just waved goodbye to my chinese paper for the last time yesterday lol.. was actually staring at the paper.. that its gonna be the last chinese test of my life i hope so =) haha.. anyway its better than the 1st attemp definately!! hari raya this thursday.. hehe.. i am gonna be rich agian.. fasting left 2 days.. tml last day.. wooohooo!!!!!

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hey wads up mates.. hrmm nothin much.. actually my life is always the same. .stress and exams coming.. i promise that my blog will be alive agian after my o levels... RAWK ON!!

time is running out

been quite a while since i update cause my parents has be hogging me since i blog too much.. haiz... if i really can't contact my pals online.. i shall do it the old skool way.. letter or phone .. lol... my exams this thursday!! can't believe it.. and 1.5 months to go!!! woOOH!!! anyway.. i replied my email to shannon this morning.. lol.. its actually a gal from new zealand cool.. =) anyway.. after replying i decided to explore my email folders.. haiz.. guess wad.. i am still keeping ellice's folder.. all the emails we had from last year all the way till march? theres quite alot.. lol.. i was reading from the start of how it began.. and the missing part is just the ending.. cause i dunnoe.. damn me.. how come i kept thinking of it.. haiz.. its really hard to forget.. but just to let it pass =)

refresh

haiz... today just like any other day.. just that these few days i had flashbacks of ellice.. which is weird.. cleaning up my room today wif my bro.. discovered that i had quite a number of things that belongs to her is wif me.. lol.. strange keeping her stuff now.. and i browse through all the gifts and letters.. fresh memories.. its like an artifact.. milestone .. yea indeed it is... just a little flash back wad happen one year ago till now.. just amazing... yesterday was a history.. dunnoe wad tml brings.. all i can just do is work hard and make it happen.. =)

3rd day of fasting

hello dudes.. its been a long time since i relec... haiz.. stressing on my upcomming exams.. really wanna get good grades.. btw i practice singing just now in skool.. damn cool.. trying to make the song nicer.. ITs YOu! lol.. first time in my life i could sing a song.. while daniel was playing the guitar part.. really .. its the first time i could really enjoy singing in my life.. cause there is always no one there for me to play something so i can sing.. i realise that this is one of the reasons why i couldn't sing well.. victor said i had a nice voice and if i could learn how to sing properly .. i it would be fantastic.. well.. daniel said i can become a proper singer one day.. i really felt so motivated for once in my singing .. still cant believe that i can actually sing one day.. i am used to always being shut all the time whenever i sing.. now its getting better =) and it really feels better than feeling hungry while fasting!!!

last day

lol.. today is the last day that i can enjoy eating in daylight.. tml gonna fast aready.. haiz.. cannot do anything much aready=( cause most of the time i will be eating? haha.. anyway. i;ve been studying alot recently... its tiring and quite stressful.. anyway.. i have been thinking abt my band.. and i think its not going well.. cause i realise that we have alot of things to do.. and set up a strong belief system in the band.. anyway.. thats all for today sowie =( tired la!

=)

today was sleepy in the morning .. goin through my crap papers.. haiz.. should have scored hight instead =( well.. after that went through all the other lessons.. damn.. its now just in one class!! i mean we only stick to one classroom now!!wtf.. =( my position is not that good as the ones we go to other rooms.. gonna miss my united englando team... at least i learn alot from them too.. but now.. its on my own.. lol.. sound so spas.. anyway.. stayed back at skool just now.. studied till 6 plus .. went home.. relec.. till now.. nothing much to say i guess?? =)

wah

helloz... this morning just told my parents my results when i got up.. cause my dad was asking me.. really had a bad scolding.. so i pretended i went back to sleep cause i expected it all.. ya noe.. when u aready noe wad they gonna scold ya.. went to skool leaving my handphone behind cause i wanna break free.. yea.. so when i reached skool.. thinking that if i went back home i can never study cause they would be busy scolding me.. therefore i went home at 7.30 pm .. studied in skool all the way... i felt better after studying cause i noe i am improving each time i study.. after all the stress i face these few days.. i hope it has to go away..

now have to complete my english hwk which is tml! wah i think i wake up tml morning agian than do.. cause i am very tired and wore out now.. i realise my english spelling is getting worse and worse.. i think should read more chim books or something.. my compo i just pass only .. haiz.. i think i gonna just abandon my chinese once and for all.. cause i wanna really pump my other subjects.. my accounts i think i have to do beside someone who is good at it.. cause there are many things i that missed out.. =(

i am just hungry for better grades in my o levels.. i really hope i get the courses i want went i get back my results.. the feeling of getting 32 for l1r4 is like F!@#! cause i am imagining this is my o levels results.. lol. which is freaking me out and putting alot of stress.. the only way to efface my stress is just to study and become smarter.. lol.. sounds werid but i think i should really pump all my top 5 subjects ..

when i came home.. as usual they will ask me where did i go? and why i never bring my hp along.. than i said i forgotten to take it and i studied in skool. and they say i should at least called home or something.. but DUH!! like real they will let me study in skool till so late.. cause they dying to see me study at home.. i blasted to them that i did study at home b4 the exams and see wat happen? the truth is my home is not a place to study.. no matter how u arrange it now.. skool is the best place.. cause i have freedom own time own target and teachers to guide me or teach me when i dunnoe anything.. lol. but the weird thing is that my dad bought me guitars strings as he noe i needed it and cables.. and told me abt usa made guitars which he went to see just now.. i dunnoe why the change of subject.. well.. a few days ago i told him that since when did they ever trusted me in the house? they claim they did but i dun feel it... and i said that if they really trusted me... they wun order me around like a dog and watch me like hawk.. its just killing me.. studying at home is not my way of life.. its true and u can't change it.. u can never force a person to study... only the person can force himself.. and by doing that.. the person needs motivation.. which i dun really have from them much.. they agian claim they did in directly but once agian its not my way of life..

enough of this crap... =(

fark results

hello mates.. haiz. my results are damn horrible.. but not so bad la.. cause i am confident that my o levels wouldnt be much a problem.. my results reflects on the little effort i put in.. my humanities is the best among all and is the least that i studied besides accounts and chinese.. lol.. i think i put maths science and humans are my 3 main subjects.. to get distinction!!! my english just pass only 50 %!! wahha.. and my accounts okok la.. get D7.. but its dissapointing that my maths only get c6 and science d7!! fail sia. nvm la.. my practical i screwed up wif my mcq.. think if i put more effort getting a B grade should not be a problem.. well.. my L1R4 this time is 31 !!! wah.. only can go republic poly..lol.. better than no place actually.. just get the fark out of sec skool yea.. also not to go ITE la of course.. from 31 to 15 for L1R4 should be okay la.. my maths confirm must score one sia.. alot of careless mistakes.. i think i should have gotten around B4 if i have less errors.. =( but i should aim for A1 my maths now.. time to do papers everyday.. and my science also!! my humanities just read more regularly la.. anyway.. my results i am quite convience because i have done much BETTER!!! than MiD YEAR!!! knn.. THE BIG PROBLEM IS THAT MY FAMILY WILL NOT TOLERATE THE MARKS I HAVE NOW AND THEY WILL DISCONNECT ALL MY FREEDOM PLUS BLOGGING AND INTERNET=( THIS IS GONNA BE HELL!!! SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE LET MY LIVE UNTIL I TAKE MY O LEVELS PLEASE!!! BEFORE I GO CRAZY AND CUT MYSELF LOOSE!! it motivated me alot base on my results.. so to me is okay.. BUT NOT TO THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!$#@&(!@^#(*@^(*!^(#!@

my internet kena cut

hello... just to let u all noe that my internet for my com is cut!!! WAHAHHAHAHAHA.. anyway whenever i want to make it back online.. i must steal my mother's internet cable over to mine.. this is so spastic.. only when my prelims ends than they take out =( this is sadistic.. imagine wif the bad results la.. i think i dun even exist.. i am being cut loose..they said that i spend too much time on my blog?? @!#@!# lol.. i only spend 5-10 min posting my blog and nothing else wad.. my tagboard also like dead? haiz.. i guess sooner or later this blog will freeze agian.. this is so shite!

toe!!

today had my chem paper.. OMG!! i am like writing this in the same format? shit shit. since when did my creativity died.. =( anyway my english has been horrible ever since my orals.. darn.. i can speak propely and cant spell well.. NONONONONO!!!@! shit shit shit .. my prelims.. i dunnoe.. think maybe at least i will pass 4 subs now? hehehe.. mid year only pass 2.. so that is 100 % improvement.. muahah.. lol. anyway.. tml is chinese 2 and mcq for science.. today damn crap.. i hurt my toe!! banged it agianst the wall while playing soccer.. and it bled furiously.. but i continued playing soccer for another 2 hours hahahaha.. than now it hurts =( i knew this would happen.. hope it wont get infected .. cant wait till tml. and i am free !! MAUHAHA but hope my results is good la of course.. and my o levels. .muahaha.. anyway.. my MUM..!! wahhh.. just now when i told her that my o levels next month.. the first reaction was that she thinks i am not ready and i will do very bad cause i din study.. and i was mad at that cause i am prepared b4 prelims.. come on .. of course we have to prepared b4 any examinations.. i have IQ .. darn.. dunnoe wad they do to me if i had bad results for prelims.. i am gonna be busted by 4 ppl in da house if i do bad =( help me!! and if i get good grades.. i vowed to say that its my own effort and no one motivated me.. seriously everyone in the da house are killing me.. and my mum and eldest bro thinks that if i done well. is because of them pushing me.. i will proudly said that i motivated myself.. if i was weaker.. i could have gone and kill myself or runaway and make it impossible to find me.. this world is big.. sometimes wif just a little love to show.. it makes hell alot of a difference.. !!!!!! >=(

copy

i very lazy to type agian la.. i just type of my problem blog aready haha.. so i copy and past wats there to here!! muahaha.. today papers okokok la.. english tyco easy and account maybe tyco pass and hope tml tyco maths get a1 MUAHAHAHha

NO worries mark.. thats what mates are made for =) anyway.. drums? aiyo.. dun we have a portable drumset? most to most kai do beat box haha.. its cool anyway.. our band must be flexible.. remember the performance b4 teachers day? we were beat boxing in the canteen man! haha.. and i think we can make it la.. we are good enougn** hahaha.. anyway.. mark u could have yur chance to sing ya song on grad nite.. how lovely would that be =) hahaha.. anyway heard abt afiq? he kena accident sia.. and suddenly got this gal message me claiming to be his ex.. which i never heard off.. psycho sia the gal.. say afiq play bass since he was 10 years old? !@# wtf.. haha u think i believe? than wanna boast to me that she knows afiq more than me.. than i was like damn wtf... she says she knows everything abt afiq.. than i forget to tell her this.. than why ask me abt him??!@!@#! hahhahahha.. lamer sia.. dun even noe if its really a gal anot.. to be so dumb and lame... i dunnoe how to see how afiq condition is as this gal is like covering him.. and one more thing.. she said that he have a band contee.. and he have connections wif MxPx ? lol.. even it was true.. wtf cares? haha.. i got MY PROBLEM!! thats wad i am proud off.. and i got connections wif 10 k man and ng beng kiong. .wad ya gotta say abt that.. LAlalalallalala i dun care aready.. one day i will find out the truth.. psycho sia!!!

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today woke up at 4 pm lol.. after 18 hours of sleep.. tonite everton vs arsenal.. i am begining to feel worried for the results as everton are not doing well now.. the worst performance for everton.. tml having my accounts and english 2 .. account i think i will focus on mcq and some accounts.. using logic to answer most of the question.. hope at least i could pass my accounts this time round.. =)