hey

hello peeps... okay today went for this job interview wif my bro.. its about going to schools teaching students how to use some programs.. omg.. going back to skool? haha .. isnt it cool =) but yea well paid job also.. its 15 per hour.. not bad.. haha.. oh yea last two nites i din came home.. i went to phunk bar wif ayat,akon,marvin and my bro haha.. omg its like so damn funny la.. dance until my shoes the sole come out.. doing some stupid break dancing.. well had a fun nite duo.. slept at the esplanade for 2 hours than headed home ... now holiday are nearly comming to an end.. how sad can that be? haha okay i gtg now.. bye mates

hows life

hello everyone.. life is just allrite here =) okay today i worked at a malay wedding serving drinks and cleaning up tables.. so yea get to meet alot of people.. haha.. and i got forced to dance infront of the whole crowd.. wahh.. well.. i did a couple of moves so yea.. but damn pai sei la haha.. anyway got 40 bucks so yea.. for 4 hours.. not bad huh.. saw some interesting people... u noe now days mixed races in families.. awesome rite? the kids look so chinese than the mother malay.. dad of course chinese.. like the clones of me.. pretty awesome.. haha.. yea.. well went to a soccer match after that which had been called off by the GAY ref! haha talk like wanna cry like that haha.. than act act army scolding style.. u can just kiss my ass la ref! haha.. i played like only 10 mins? just to get kicked at my damn leg lol.. dumbass la they all..

anyway yesterday was my wu shu performance.. for the 42th year aniversary. awesome!! i get to perform in front of people.. but pai sei la.. my first kick i redo cause i misjudge than i hesitate haha.. but lucky nothing happen la.. than i whack the sticks all break.. whew! well.. it was awesome nite la.. the food the people!! those from nus also come.. cheers!!

i miss you

this song is dedicated to the one who is responsible for my sweetest mermories =)

I miss you - blink 182


(I miss you, miss you)

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare,
The shadow in the background of the morgue,
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if you want
Where you can always find me
And we'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
The webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight


Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)


Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)


(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)

hey

hey.. tml is my eltech exams and i am now still not 100% prepared.. wtf wtf lol.. damn shag now and i still have to read more.. my room is so messed up and i dun feel good duo.. its hot now and i cant feel good anywhere.. damn.. hope i dun screwed up my exams tml.. lol.. =)

in skool

hello! well i am in skool agian.. reached early .. nizam and hairul should be reaching in abt 10 min time.. gonna study today wif them.. yea today is thursday.. and tml is my maths exam.. i gonna revise my maths entirely today.. got to at least know how to do all.. careless mistake is okay la.. but if dunnoe to do.. die! haha.. i realise that i am quite lucky to have only 2 papers for the examination.. i heard people are taking 5 papers or wad.. But the mass com people are aready on holidays since last week.. they have no exams.. they only have presenation and that kind of stuff.. lol.. what i do really miss having fun when the examination are nearing .. is SOCCER!! wahh.. no skool training.. no court soccer in skool.. damn sian.. i bet wif u next week after my eltech exams.. i gonna choing to play soccer haha.. well maybe this examination break is also good of my injured ankle.. i dunnoe whats really wrong wif it.. but yea its still not fully recovered.. so yea.. its not as strong as ever... i got to train to my tip top condition agian.. when i can just run non stop and creating chances for the team.. be it scoring or assisting..

well i am alone here infront of the cheers in my skool.. behind the bus stop... just sitting here enjoying the wind and looking at the people around in groups... well .. people might think i am a loner or some thing haha. .well.. i am waiting for my frens so yea i am not.. listening to songs wif my headphones.. too bad i cant download songs in skool.. they kind of block it or something.. also i got no games in my laptop haha.. cause i reformated it!! hrmm i got movies that i downloaded from irc but no idea how to watch them.. its somekind of weird file formats..

well.. how i wish everyone is in skool and exams are over.. we can go jamming or play soccer... lol.. its 2 months break!! gonna work for a few days for sure.. hacing chalet and yea maybe my family gonna have a holiday at this lighthouse which i went ages ago.. its a small island off singapore.. its has only a lighthouse and 2 chalet houses
its really small..
can say its only 3/4 of the soccer field size haha definately gonna bring my laptop.. bring my guitar.. bring my ps2.. bring alot of moives.. bring alot of food!! haha.. gonna have fun duo.. having foc chalet and class chalet too.. it will be a time really for me to relec.. but can be boring la.. so i kind of expected it.. next month i am gonna start fasting!! wahahahha.. than 1 month later its hari raya.. a time to get really really busy hahaha =) well it would be nice to see all my cousins and relatives once agian..

i am gonna end 1/6 of my skool life in poly.. i felt like it just went pass just like that.. its freaking fast la.. hahaha but i only will finish studying here entirely in 2009 wah.. lol.. than i enter ns in june 2009 around there... finish ns by 2011 june! omg that really sound damn far.. i would be hrmm.. 23 years old by than.. no idea what my future brings yet.. omg i sound so damn old la.. i am only 18 now.. 23 is like 5 years later.. everyone that i noe around me definately is gonna look different like mad..

i guess its a time to really enjoy my time in poly haha.. wahha i just called nizam he say 15 min more .. omg.. i am so damn bored here alone la.. and there are people playing at the soccer court.. but its sizzling hot now la .. the sun is like a volcano haha.. guess i just reserve my energy.. =) btw i have a soccer game this sunday but than i having exams on monday.. hrmm.. thats intresting yea? haha.. last sunday i played okok la i think. i guess i under performed.. this sunday i gonna give all out.. hope ayat is comming so yea our partnership can bring us more goals..

haiz.. damn.. i guess i continue surfing the web around haha and maybe just sleep or something so yea..
rock on mates!

here by me

hello everyone agian =) well exams this friday and next comming monday and than its holidays.. today went to skool actually to attend this eltech lecture abt A.C circuits but than i end up going library studying on my own and watch movie wif ayat.. lol.. had quite a fun time studying today... so yea quite good la.. but still alot to study for me.. haiz...
nothing much to say tonite.. so sowie
but i have a song in mind here
its a very nice song

Here By Me

I hope you’re doing fine up there without me
'Cause I'm not doing so good without you
The things I thought you'd never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood
So how could I have been so blind for all these years
I guess I only see the truth through all this fear of living without you

And everything I have in this world
And all that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

I can’t take another day without you
'Cause, baby, I could never make it on my own
I've been waiting so long just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong
I'm sorry I can't always find the words to say
But everything I've ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

And everything I have in this world
All that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

As the days roll on I see
Time is standing still for me
When you’re not here
I’m sorry I can’t always find the words to say
Everything I’ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

x2
And everything I have in this world
And all that i'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

life is short

hey everyone.. i haven been blogging for quite awhile.. maybe because i was busy thinking and that point of time i have nothing to say much.. so yea now .. maybe i shall type out some of my thoughts.. dun know if they make any sense.. but this is what i come to after all the thinking.. hrmm..
life is short and temporary but life after is eternal.. everything i do now.. i am confused what my future brings me later.. i haven been flashbacking my memories for the past 2 years.. what happen.. seriously.. what i missed the most was when i was in love wif my previous galfren.. besides that.. maybe how i work my way up towards my music? this 2 things that i recalled.. god i am sure i do miss those times.. and now things are just going the way i din expected it to.. and people come telling me that everything is all right and its normal.. well.. i am sad to say that its just not i wanted it to be.. its like .. hrmm .. u noe.. just becoming a swinger .. playing around wif people hearts that kind of stuff.. and the meaning of love to me is like so simple and kind of dumb.. its damn stupid la i think.. u have someone who u called yur bf or gf than.. the only thing that u do is that yur just be there physically and just say all this mushy words and than u forgive everything.. besides that maybe u have fun dating and all that kind of sweet things.. BUT .. this is the part which i really look into.. yea But when you find yurself into a big big trouble and the whole world is gonna crush on you.. espcially when u quarrel wif yur bf or gf.. will he or she still be there for you ? ya they can like confort you.. but the thing is that they are not always by yur side giving you all the support you need.. it used to be that love is like u can find it like fishes in the sea.. but now.. you just take a good freaking look.. the sea is polluted.. just my luck that i came across wif this gal not long ago who really ruin it.. just spoilt the meaning of it.. well well.. i am not gonna avenge this on anyone else.. but i just have to say that i am quite disappointed of how things are now.. and its sad.. freaking SAD!! imgaine the divorce rate in 10 years time.. my words.. if u dun believe.. u wait and see..

well well.... i guess it would be a very long time till i am lucky enough to find one agian.. someone who will make me believe in love once more.. or else its all bullshit i can say.. oh yea.. this is a phrase i thought of when i thought of my past.. "Let me see you once agian, so that we could know wad we need and at least i have the chance say goodbye to someone i remembered always" its sad for me how it ended more than a year ago.. but yea.. well.. i admit i took things for granted even now ? i watched a moive just now wif zul "the click" its like showing things that i believe that it could make sense.. and its damn sad .. DAMN DAMN SAD when you took things for granted and you never have the chance to tell the one you love that you love him or her.. omg.. its really sad la i watch the show.. he had a rewind of his life showing how he treated his dad.. and he just din look at him and din entertaint his day.. and that was the day his dad died ! omg.. haiz.. i guess that being emo at times like this for me maybe its good.. ya never noe.. cause all i noe now is that i have to be a better man..

i always had this idea to kind of look up back to my ex and at least have a chat wif her.. but than.. i guess.. maybe its not the time or maybe.. i should just move on and i might happen to catch her someday agian.. its very hard for me to forget because it was the first time i crave someones name into my heart.. and its the only one i had.. so yea.. i just have to face the facts and move on..

times like this.. i will always remember who were there for me.. and never ever take things for granted..

rock on mates =)

wadf

what a time to wake up.. its 1.30pm in the day .. and its saturday! .. damn freaking tired... yesterday zul and cheng leong overnite at my crib.. so yea.. maybe we stayed up a bit too late lol.. well.. we went to skool yesterday cause zul had to take the test for his c programming.. and me and cheng leong just chill around to wait for him.. omg the new cheers which open in my skool.. well.. its wasnt really anything much i can say.. its like so empty.? guess maybe its beacause it is an outdoor one ? lol.. and its NOT 24HOURS!! how in the blue hell can i ever enjoy ? lol.. it closes at 8 plus.. sucks rite? after soccer cannot enjoy a good bite =( exams are commming i aint start a single revsion how dumb that can it be.. i just dun feel right these days..

back the habit

today had an A02 meeting agian! =) was really happy to see all of them once agian.. i will never forget.. the point of that i din wanna leave jj because of them.. it was nice seeing vicknesh,chee png,ji shen,celestine,kuinoi,yuvette,matani,ebigal,xinyi and germaine once agian.. really made my day.. oh ya i am so sowie kui noi i forgotten to wish u a happy 17th birthday!! i came late duo.. because of some idiot!! chengleong!! wahha idiotic sia.. go take my jeans and run away.. left me in my underwear only.. waste my time and made me miss 2 bus!! lol.. played soccer at the new court agian.. was really going wild just blasting the ball here and there.. at least i scored a few hehee.. today my skool had a bazar, giving free drinks.. ayat treated me ice cream cause he think that the gal that is selling it has looks?? hahaha... went to library to play this stupid drum game wif ayat.. always wanan challange me.. its in my blood.. of course u noe who won.. :P

i been quite radical these few days.. gettling loose all over just pouring my emotions out by ya noe.. talking wad i felt like.. i could like suddenly get serious over something.. people say i am shy.. but i say that once u make me feel welcome.. i become a irritating bastard!! haha... tml thinking of going back to skool to do maths wif ayat.. not really sure duo.. but yea they are comming to my house to jam =) hope that exams are over and i pass all of them.. 2months break follows on!! yea.. time to WORK!!! MONEY I NEED!! hahai wanan get a new guitar.. please someone spon me lol.. oh ya next week i am starting to fast! wah.. and than it would hari raya!!! money agian once more.. hehe..

last nite i slept at 5am thanks to ayat and zul talking to them all night.. its gay!! lol.. but yea.. me and zul wrote out a few songs aready.. me and him not long ago had been broke off by our relationships.. so yea.. we start writing thigns out.. and out album is gonna send a message to all those who cheated us... and some other stuffs..

High

H.I.G.H

the new band which i formed from my current class..
cheng leong -drummer
zul - bass
rudy - guitar
ming - guitar & keyboard

we are a new band... cheng leong and zul just started.. training them now.. gonna be the next electrico in singapore someday? haha.. i am so happy that we are doing this.. so that i can continue my passion for music.. my dream thing.. so yea.. now not really focusing on vocalist.. because we need to have good music first.. so yea vocals.. maybe soon la.. finding one now =)

backah

hello everybody its me back in action blogging =)
well welll today rudy cheng leong zul came my house to have some fun hahaha.. we jam and we video ourselves it was really hilarious hhaha... its insanity... omg its been a long while since i went so high just playing guitar lol.. yea yea.. had fun.. past few days..? i can say that time really flys.. its amazing that its aready weekend and i dun feel like i went to skool? lol.. haha.. i dunnoe why la.. but time really flys..
i wonder =)

rock

OMG I ENJOYED BAY BEATS!! ELECTRICO ROCKS OH YEA!! i was screaming and jumping and all that .. wat a way to end my weekend.. seriously they inspired me deeply once agian to be a musician someday hahaha.. its really awesome la.. love the way they rock.. rock really hard.. haha.. amanda as pretty as ever =) ahhaha... so yea.. tml skool oh yea btw i lost my hp =( sad case la.. so yea i go rest now hahaha

song?

i am really bored through the night.. staying up wif zul .. oh yea.. i got my laptop back yea =) so yea been thinking really alot.. listening to loving memory by alter bridge.. reminds me of jjc .. i close my eyes to see.. and yea they are a part of me.. its the lyrics in the song.. nice yea? feel like making a song now.. hrmm... the title should be.. what is love.. yea.. it has been the question that keeps going on through everyone at least once a life time..

What is love?

i couldnt answer myself why i felt that way,
just watch myself make the same mistake agian
i've been rejected number of times,
asking myself what is love

the love that i dreamt?
the love that i thought?
but what i saw was....

CHORUS

Nothing i ever dreamt of
Nothing i thought it would be
Cause after all,
Love is a game
A game to play
When two falls in love..


haha i dunnoe if this will do.. i just make a short one first la.. =)

hey

omfg ... i am soooo excited.. okok.. this is what happen.. someone adds me on msn.. and i ask WHO ARE U? and he replied... SOMEONE WHO U THINK U MIGHT KNOW... haha and i looked at his dp.. omg.. its her bf.. u noe my hrmm.. bf.. then keep asking me things what happen.. hahaha okoko.. u noe wad matters most? it settled for mE!! omg... i am like finnally FINALLLY CLEARED!!! WHEW! mates.. i am out clean and yet the other side is letf wif more shit to clear.. haha.. okok.. now its all about friends and family.. ITS CLEARED CHOP 1000 times settled whew!

now days.. love is hard to find.. because people just say i love you without their whole heart.. maybe the world today made the communication so good that u can find another better one so easily so yea.. its possible to like love someone else instead of just one.. thats why i always love classic tales.. its more of a kind of 1 to 1... omg come on i just got screwed up by my previous one and now telling me that regreted going with me because i am just too popular?? while on the back she is wif someone else.. fuck it mate.. ever since i knew about this.. i try my best to find all the reasons in the world to forget about her.. seriously.. AHH BULL SHIT LA!! YUR SPOILING MY WORLD OF LOVE.... thats why i think gays have the best love in the world sometimes.. its like so hard to find gays.. and they just have that love which is deeper and better than most of the gal and guys who are in love!! OMG !! WHATS WRONG IS WITH THIS WORLD!! haha i think i gonna compose a song like that some day.. sayyinng that gays love is better than normal love for todayh... its such a disgrace to man everywhere and me..

love currently just sucks to me now .. cause all i hear is screwed up people..
maybe once in a million.. i got to be 100 times more strict wif my rules now .. or else i gonna get into another major accident agian.. lol..

now its all in my own world.. if u wanna be part of the ride.. think twice if yur worth a try.. and make sure that u know wad u want.. even as a fren.. just hate when things just screw

so yea.. rawk on!

pissed

I AM SO DAMN MAD!! MY LAPTOP CANNOT BE REPAIR!!!! WTF WTF!! SAY THE PART ALSO NO STOCK!!! WTF IS WRONG MAN!! I NEED IT BACK BADLY!! shit mates... got to continue carry my bro's 3.5 KG !! LAPTOP TO SKOOL!! haiz... nvm... i think i gonna load everything into his com tml aready.. i dun care.. i need to study..

update

hey hey hey sup mates!! woho haha
life has been going allrite for me now and then..
went to skool soccer trials yesterday and managed to get into the np soccer team.. damn really happy abt it despite my ankle like kind of fail to show my full potential.. its okay.. since i am in now.. i should take care of my ankle well.. been playing goalkeeper for my class team haha. last saturday.. we had a street soccer competition and won a couple of games.. all the way i played keeper.. its such a strange feeling for me cause i never like being keeper.. with my twisted ankle like this i had no choice.. so i offer my service of being a goalkeeper.. well.. some of my classmates thinks i am not good enough to be in the skoolteam.. even i heard it from somewhere.. there is nothing better i can do to fight them back but to prove them wrong one day.. its okay when people just criticise me directly, but on my back.. i think its disgusting.. so much for being a classmate.. well.. i dun intend to get mad or wad.. i should learn to be modest and just keep quiet abt it like i never heard a single thing..

besides that.. i will be playing soccer agian tml .. at the new court.. oh yea.. ngee ann have a soccer court now.. i spend like 70% of my time them after skool.. really enjoying to play with the people around here.. more time to train some skills too.. oh yea my fitness really dropped to the core.. i think now its just 40% of wad i had 5months ago.. eating soooo much now.. i am getting alitte fat hahaha..

i hope i get my laptop back today.. suppose to be yesterday , but then.. they ask my dad to call today agian.. and yea please come back to me today!! haha.. the weather is super nice now.. just stop raining.. a perfect time to sleep haha.. but ya now i got to really catch up my skoolwork.. i been missing out alot of things.. i am now fearing of not doing well for my exams later this year.. i really wanna do well.. not just pass..

oh yea.. on sunday.. zul and cheng leong camped at my house to do project and watch world cup hahahaha.. its really a disaster haha.. we 3 were like doing things at the same time.. but yea.. its like the first time i had frens who stayed overnite to just do project and watch soccer.. its fun la.. haha.. camping the whole day at home wif them.. in the end all of us slept during the match ahhahaha.. i only woke up during the penalty shootout.. my brother was like screaming all over the house ITALY!!! hahah..

the next day we went to skool together.. edman saw the 3 of us marching towards him hahah.. its the first time zul came to skool early!! because he is with me wad.. haha.. then later during break we went to zul house to take his soccer stuffs for the trials later that day .. haha guess wad... zul's dad drove us to skool in a BUS!!!! MUAHAHAH.. its like so big la.. then only 3 of us ... its just like so funny la..

now i just chilling out at the atirm to catch up some work... everyone has gone home how sad =( .. haha..

oh yea.. abt my life in general.. its much better than it used to be the past few post i made.. i am starting to open my life agian.. which is good =)
rawk on!

hello mr fish

hey.. omg i just woke up only and now its 2am haha.. slept at 6pm.. think i gonna be up whole nite =) yea i twisted my ankle last nite while playing soccer.. now its in a really bad shape.. so yea i cant walk.. haha i am really lame now.. hrmm... okok lastest update is that i am single?? lol.. its actually quite old news.. hrmm.. for those who follow my updates in my blog.. its amazing that some of you all update abt me by reading my blog lol.. but my blog is kind of slow news haha... cause i always very lazy to update my blog.. oh ya.. this person who viwed my friendster profile and read my blog.. mr fish.. i got to make my point clear for now.. i have nothing to do wif whoever u think i am with.. and please be kind to the world and stop being a bully lol.. ok enough .. dun deserve to be talk abt here anyway cause its not even on my mind.. okok.. hrmm.. i am more worried abt my poor little ankle =( given 2 days to rest.. see by friday i can recover fully..

yesterday my team was owning the whole court la.. abt 7 teams there.. we win everybody until we lost by penalty.. hhaha.. i cant wait to own agian!! i think that my time has come.. =) i mean time to really open up my world once more! the world of music and soccer.. yea yea passion is the key.. ever since skool started i am drifting away from my dreams.. now i am slowly gathering a band in my class to really go into full gear.. and exams just around the corner.. in august!! haha..

i just feel like talking abt love now.. hrmm.. i think that my thoughts abt love has change quite a little bit.. and the best song is by SUM41 - Pieces.. omg.. remember this line mates.. " I try to be perfect, but nothing was worth it" its so damn true.. it has been quite a while since i been in deep love.. and lost my faith in love.. it used to be a very big thing for me.. now it seems like the meaning is gone and not that amazing as i used to think of.. maybe if someone who do believes it deeply as how much i do then it would be different.. i mean like not everyone would think so highly of love.. so yea.. its still a long path ahead of me..

i think i am begining to start loving my classmates more somemore.. not in gay sense but in brotherhood.. i almost lost them due to love.. and now since i let everything go besides my frens.. its really awesome to be back in business wif them =) i mean like i laugh the loudest agian and really yea that high in life agian.. thanks mate..

i know that i made a mistake and regret quite a little.. but i cant just keep looking back at it.. its time to leave everything behind and see whats ahead in life.. cause its the only way i am gonna be happy and be myself.. so yea thanks for reading my blog.. i din though u all bothered to read my trash haha...

nites RAWK ON!!!

ming

HELLO MATES!! wowhoo.. haha just finish 13hours of work today.. tml my pay gagi UP ! 30 cents perhour more hahhaa.. power.. 14 more hourse to OT OT OT OT!! wowhoo haha.. anyway i am really excited abt saturday night.. cause i gonna camp at my work place overnight!! and guess who is the vip?? HAKIM!! woot woot wooT!!! haha.. omg i really miss him alot lots lots misses.. and he is gonna go to ns =( awhh... but he is gonna be a man yea.. yea bro .. dun forget our plan that we like next door haha.. i think our neighbours are gonna be fucking piss off wif the noise level.. cause its gonna be Boom boom BOOM everyday like how we used to hang out at west coast.. relec only yea... i bored u bored.. just walking distance to the park and chill out.. i guess hakim doesnt read my blog. soo.. yea.. anyway wat matters its inside here <3 =) rawk on bro..

soo yea.. i am quite suprise i did make someone feel special abt a event i made not long ago.. a crazy bbq infront my house.. in the park... and that man is non other than my sweet puffly vocalist KHAIRUL.. kai in the house yea.. haha.. he kind of said to me.. "ming.. lets have bbq once agian over at yur place yea? its the best bbq i ever had in my entire life.. i mean like its fun la.. let do it once more =)" OMFG u noe how touched i felt that mate? owhh.. it was yea.. melting me .. haha.. never did i expect to like u noe.. haha.. and yea khai at the end of this year.. we gonna party over at my place? yea? or best we make our own chalet la.. u noe.. my class chalet or some stupid shit grp of frens i bbq wif.. i think my homemade bbq is the most fun la.. and oh yea.. u noe why..?? cause HAKIM IS THERE!! omg.. he makes a big impact to the party la.. he is the man..haha this are the kind of things thats makes me feel happy in this world.. friends whom i spend my times wif .. the moments that we always had.. =) bros for life..

anyway.. oh yea.. steph u tagged my board=) hahaha.. yea.. glad u did cause it kind of like revive my blog agian.. so yea thanks sweetie.. and oh yea.. i am in the next 5 .. hahha quite suprise my name is there in yur blog steph.. thanks =) i dunnoe why.. but it seems that i can never stop crapping wif u hahha.. so yea.. be honoured yea to have yur name here in my blog post!! haha..

so yea worked 13 hours today feel happy.. and yea.. made frens at my workplace.. 3 man.. omg.. all look so young but then they are like 22 23 23.. all uni undergrads.. pro pro.. but they are nice people la.. talk to me abt ns.. abt drving bla bla bla.. we talk and work the same time.. fun la.. and one of them studying in USA wahh!! hahha..

and yea.. i have a song in mind.. goes to someone u know who u are lol. so here it goes.. music for life! =)

Matchbox Romance - PROMISE


what would you say if i asked you not to go
to forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me
would you take my hand and never let me go
promise me you'll never let me go

and the stars aren't out tonight,
but neither are we to look up at them
why does hello feel like goodbye?
these memories can't replace,
these wishes i wished and these dreams i chased
take this broken heart and make it right

I feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know,
you're not making this easy

i never thought i'd be the one to say
please don't, please don't leave me

i feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know,
you're not making this easy

you're not making this easy... (easy, easy, easy...)

take my hand and never let me go,
take my hand and never let me go,
promise me...
you'll never let go
you'll never let go
you'll never let go
you'll never let go
make this last forever

i feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know, you're not making this easy

you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy

so fall asleep tonight, cuz' that brings me closer to you

nice song yea? jam this song someday =)

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today something really struck me.. something i been wondering why i been blogging since dunnoe when.. since i was sec 2? hrmm.. cause pearlyn is like so anti blogging and say that why would u wanna let people know yur personal stuffs and feeling.. for me i dun see it that way.. i mean like .. i would love to share my thoughts and feeling to everyone la.. because its something i know that it is harmless? blogging dosent mean telling people just how you feel and what u do or wad so ever.. i treat it like i am sending a message to who ever reads my blog.. why do i hate why do i love? why i do i care? everything has it reasons.. abt my feelings.. hrmm.. maybe because i really have no one to talk to? i admit i have quite a loner life but.. there is always someone who proves me wrong that i aint one.. and that is those who will always stand by me.. family or frens.. well.. what ever i blog is not always my 100% of what i think or feel causei feel that everyone have the rights the kept some thing within them.. i do have my presonal stuffs that i have kept deep inside too.. i kind of love blogging because i love sharing my thouhgts and feeling.. cause its somewhere i can really express whatever i want.. being in my own world.. being the ming he is always is.. sometimes things just keep repeating to me.. i just felt like its worthless in this life.. because whenever u wanna start anew people just cant treat u that way cause u aready gave them the impression.. so the only way i think is that just shut the fuck up and smile.. always keep it cool and steady.. i believe this will keep my temper down and learn =)

and for those who do read my blog.. i would like to say thank you for your support =) thats one of the reason why i blog.. cause people just like to read what ever rubbish i type somehow hahaha... i dunnoe why but thats the way it is... tml gonna work agian.. 9.30am.. so yea nites amigos.. RAWK ON!

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hello people.. sorry haven been blogging quite some time... came back from chalet few days back.. okay had fun.. world cup fever and all that.. and i lost quite alot =( i been feeling sick since dunnoe when.. just cannot recover fully.. guess must be the way i rest or something.. tml gonna start work aready.. expecting to at least get 500 plus... gonna save the money and maybe use 50 to bet on something haha.. clear all my debts also.. i think my debt can sum up to 100 sia.. working the entire whole week.. guess that all my fun is over now =( talking abt my previous post being like so fucked up.. i guess things are getting clearer now for me... i had a good talk wif chee fatt abt my worries and everything.. think that i am being too self centered sometimes..so ya.. this shouldnt had happen la.. anyway i still haven mention my sweetheart yet in this blog.. so ya those who dun noe was going on for me .. so yea i am attached now =) abt 1 month plus aready la.. btw her name is pearlyn.. got to know her from ngee ann.. okay la.. i dun wanna say anything much here cause i scared i say wrong thing later she come kill me hahha.. jkjk... i dun think she noes i blog la.. haha.. well.. i am actually quite surprise of how things happen.. never did i expected things to be so fast for us.. but it has been a hell of a ride la.. still building up together.. so yea.. the only sad thing for us is that i hardly get to have my time wif her.. so ya.. its has been quite sensational to just get used to things now.. things i still yet to tell her i haven .. haiz... as time goes on i hope i still now wad i am doing and i am still the man i used to be.. as happy as always =)