thoughts

okay today was a day agian that i think and think think think...
this feels like one month ago how it all started.. i am just gonna type everything down this time.. i discovered something last nite quite shocking.. its a secret la.. so yea.. i dun think i wanna say it here.. well its something maybe i should had know so much earlier.. i think almost everyone i know in jj noes abt me chasing this gal.. lol.. but than since the start of jj everyone keeps making fun of me wif gal by gal.. so many.. the turth is that i only had one.. but its not really the start of jj i had this started.. its was more like abt the 3rd week onwards.. yea here i go.. this is my tale..

well..this gal is in my class..only started to really talk to her around chinese new year that time.. cause we went to orchard togther to meet the class as she came from her sec skool ,i was from home.. so yea clementi was the spot.. since than i started to know her more little by little... it din't really caught my attention immediately.. cause i am like okay.. just talk whatever crap i have.. everyone gets my crap talking.. slowly i started messaging her and talking to her on the phone.. since the night which she cried alot alot.. even msn talk still can pause to like cry first.. weird but than i know she is deeply hurt by her problems.. that night was the starting of everything to me.. because of that chat on msn.. it lead to me talking on the phone later.. and yea so on we just talk and talk.. slowly i have this feeling that maybe i should like go for her.. cause i found her very sepcial and someone whom makes me wonder abt certain things.. my plan was that i just try my best to make it obvious to show that i like her.. but not tell her directly.. cause i know its gonna be serious if i did that.. so yea.. i started opening myself more and more...

but this made me thought alot too.. because i dunnoe of how or what she thinks.. so its like not nice to make someone feel so werid.. yea i continued chatting wif her all that.. just wanting to know her better to know why i should go for her.. and also to have a better understanding.. somehow.. because of this.. it troubled me to communitcate wif her.. its like i suddenly become so shy... than my fren like hint me that she wun go into relationship cause she wanna study for a levels.. so yea.. i mean like i don't entirely believe thats the reason la.. maybe i felt that my chances were slimmer..

its never nice to feel this way wondering of how the gals feel or think.. its scary.. cause i came wif so many conclusions.. which hunts me.. well valentine's day was a day i wanted to ask her out.. even knowing that we are going in a group.. cause i felt that it would be nicer to like ask her on the phone.. so yea.. i did.. and that took really really alot from me.. but than the outcome wasnt really nice.. ya know.. but in the end still went in a group.. ya that point of time... my hopes were like totally crashed.. because its like maybe she is beyond my reach.. i mean like i felt i wasnt the only one for her.. seriously.. it did made me think that who ever gets her is a lucky man.. so i guessed i aint that lucky.. so yea.. i seriously had troubles to like just leave it like that.. came to conclusion that i do suck at expressing.. its has been my life living wif it.. even my ex.. i did a lousy job expressing not until she was mine.. its hard to tell someone u like about the things u felt.. because the outcome of wad she feels or says.. its just scary to get the answers back..

so yea that very day.. i like start to really let go of this.. but than things somehow refresh.. i mean like.. she still talk and all that.. after having a discussion that she thinks that i don't like her?? so yea.. i was like .. omg... how how?? so i just continued being nice to her.. but than this time.. the feeling i got is much more stronger i had the one b4.. i dunnoe why.. it just keeps me beating when i think of it .. even now.. but than my plan this time was to like take it slow.. and easy.. but i always think that being slow.. i think someone else might catch her instead.. i dunnoe if i am being selfish or wad.. but thats what i really afriad of.. because its like just too heartbreaking to see someone u like telling u that she wanna studys so yea no relationship.. than later u find that she is wif someone else.. its a nightmare.. which i always think of..

having to think so much about chasing her.. i came back to myself and ask.. why her? i dun have a definate answer.. what i can say is that i am following my heart all the way.. cause that brings joy the most.. well can say that she is one of a kind whom i never met in my life.. i mean like its just nice sharing thoughts and story wif her.. dunnoe if she finds it nice anot.. but than.. yea.. i dunnoe.. thats the thing.. but i really missed those time talking to her.. its just something i treasure alot..

on the last day of skool.. i sang a song infront of the class.. which i composed for her.. suppose to only let her listen.. its a song that suppose to say what happened and all that.. well it was a last min thing to like play it in the canteen to let everyone from my class and some others in the canteen to hear.. i never thought i could have done something like that.. i mean like to actually write a song in 1 day and perform a solo when i suck at vocals.. for just her.. it took 101% of me.. later that day.. i remember going to viknesh house.. he talked to me about it.. cause he was by my side when i played.. the thing is that i dunnoe what he thoughts all that.. but i recived a meassge later that night from her.. saying that she wants to study and have personal stress.. so yea she dun wanna have any commitment and hope we could just remain frens.. she likes the song..

that message made me wondered.. is it because that she is really way beyond my reach.. i mean that she is like someone so good that i am not good enough for her.. or is it really because she dun wanna have more burden in life having this.. well i replied that i just wanna know her more so that i could get my answers better.. at the same time to find out why i am really into her.. since i sang that song.. things changed.. i felt that it affected how we talk now alot.. its like more general now.. just normal talk.. nothing much special.. maybe alittle..

the thing is that i wondered most is that did she ever felt for me.. or still does.. this 2 answer is very important to me.. because its like to decide if i should go on or not.. and yea this made me drag all the way till now.. i mean like i am not wanting the answer that if she wants to get into relationship wif me.. thats something naturally will be decided.. but now .. i till today have no answers if she ever like me.. i mean like if she does enjoy my company.. i will make her enjoy everyday of her life...all i wanted to see from her is her being happy.. which mattered most of all..

anyway.. to me .. love is never a burden... its always something extra specially for us to have.. cause whenever you are in the lowest point of life..u have someone to fall back on who believes in you.. that drives you to things u never imagined u could achieve.. its like an extra gear in you.. everything u do.. the reason is because of love..

well.. i always regret for not doing certain things in life.. which makes me so foolish.. the things i wanted to do.. i acutally wrote a lyrics out of it.. goes something like this.. "she is always there in my dreams, me telling her how much i felt for her. but its just a dream, if only could this be real. to look into her eyes and tell her how much i love her" its was when i going home just now from orchard.. very long bus ride.. because i actually wanted to send her home .. so ya she went up the bus.. i couldnt bring myself to go.. so yea i regret.. could had took that chance to do it ...

just because of her.. i have so much deep thoughts.. and getting to know that its her and because of her making me think like this.. is like wow.. she is really someone special to me.. that drove my spirit for 2 months.. even the times we had were short.. and maybe not special to her.. it did really gave me alot of things to learn in life..

knowing her was a blessing.. she is like an angel so high up there.. and i just wait and watch her.. the greatest chase of my life.. she took my heart away.. and yet i am here.. just waiting.. =)

guess that this post will be really the longest of all post.. btw if she gets to read this.. actually this is how much i wanna tell her abt my thoughts.. and hearing the answer right from her face.. it shall take me to where i head later.. i wished i could tell her this to her eyes..

its 2 am now.. and yes.. watever mention above is something i really kept for very long.. i know it can be selfish or boring.. well.. if it is.. thats life for me.. and hope i could be a better man..and hope my time will come.. to be like robbie williams!! lol. great lyrics .. love it..

well i hope that this won't make things worse.. and sorry to her if it did.. i shall shut up when u tell me to.. this is how much i think almost everyday.. so pouring it out here.. i hope it will get a better understanding..

playing soccer is my passion and yes soccer is my game and love.. wth.. okay i shut u p now.. its a long post i suppose.. okay

goodbye you

creep

running in circles... coming back to the start
i don't know anything about what is happening..
makes me feel like i am just so lost
i always fear of losing.. but losing is something that makes me learn
but losing it and learning.. is it possible to get it back..?
i shall keep my focus clear and just keep believing..
maybe someday.. it will come true..
or maybe i will just lose hope..
than thats when i start regret..
kill me

kill me

hey mates.. i am totally in chaos now.. my mind is so screwed up.. went chalet yesterday than overnite than this morning play soccer wif mike matin harision and kai.. than go look at laptops wif my parents.. after comming home.. this is when my world statt to become darker.. and i felt like really killing myself.. cause i found out something.. that i should had known long ago.. and now its uselss.. stupid me.. i feel so dumb =( haiz.. this is life.. i suck and tml i shall suck even more .. and so on

day at home

hello!! omg today i watch 4 moives in a row in my own room.. its super boring when u dun have money and u dun have anything on... all i could do is rot at home... today is a day i wasted.. doing nothing.. totally useless.. recently i have been thinking of buying so many things.. man.. this made me wanting to get a job.. even now i am working in coffee bean.. i wanna get another job.. because i want more money to get what i want.. how i wished if i have bigger allowance and get anything i want.. my soccer boots is the only thing i ever work for to get it.. and i just love it.. life can really be boring sometimes.. all i just need to do is just get something to do.. today i just feel soooo lazy.. thats why i watch movies.. think i am gonna watch some more..

hungry now!!!

monday

hello mates.. today i am going to jj to watch a soccer match agianst srjc.. dicky's skool.. and i think he will be there haha.. wish i could like trash his ass la.. anyway.. its really boring to like have a long holiday now.. i really feel like start skool now and just study study.. soccer soccer... seriously.. i suddenly felt the urge to like become an engineer.. its a good thing because i am going it wif my passion.. hope that poly will still have space for freedom.. well.. skool starts like at april 24th.. gonna go orientation agian... ice breaker agian haha.. i somehow feel like earning alot of cash now.. but coffee bean isnt a kind of job that gives big money if u work hard.. think i might get some factory work to earn big cash.. wanna get myself a new mp3.. new psp.. 2 pair of shoes.. bag.. shirts.. NEW HP!!! i got to earn like a 1000 to really get all this.. mp3.. ipod nano.. cost abt 300 plus.. psp 500plus.. shoes.. maybe around 60 each.. bag getting it likt around 70.. shirt.. get 2 topman shirt.. 140 togther.. haha its aready above 1000.. wanna get a new hp that cost around 500.. hrmm.. i think i should get a better hp than get a mp3.. get a mp3 phone.. but than i just love ipod nano.. its so small and have so many songs.. haiz..

anyway i am really waiting to get the package from ngee poly so i can go and get my laptop!! i am just waiting waiting.. cause if i get it.. i would get a bag also.. gonna get a crumpler bag.. i have been having dreams lately.. its like always abt the same thing or person.. wonder if its a good or bad sign.. haiz.. life is like this.. and i wanna move on..

sum of all thoughts

jj nite 2 nites ago.. awesome.. it was very emotional seeing everyone.. everyone misses s jj.. its sad that now most of them i can't see them like we were in the first 2 months.. mr chng.. best teacher ever.. even the class has only been 2 months wif him. he still welcomes us back to jj or to him anytime.. he was shaking my hand and saying that i should at least see you in NUS or NTU 3 years from now or after ns.. matin cried.. seeing him cried made me felt like crying too.. but mike was there keeping us strong =) mass dance was awesome.. danced wif celest liying and mike haha.. we did the train all over the hall.. and i was drenched in my class shirt.. like i just jumped into a swimming pool.. the singing session was nice.. singing our hearts out.. haha mike was really teasing me.. when the chorus of thats where u find love.. dunnoe if i should state here wad exactly happen.. those who knows will know =) i gonna really miss jj alot.. it was like the perfect skool for me to study in.. but too bad i am not good enough for it.. after everything i went to thank umar.. he said he will miss me.. and yea i will miss everything about jj.. i was very very sad... felt like crying.. but still i hold it.. i reached home at 11.30 that nite.. matin so badly miss jj that he din wan to go home and just stay wif us..i felt the same too.. jj has somehow became a part of me.. its a blessing to meet u guys and gals in jj..

after jj nite.. the next day was li ying's birthday.. had some problems wif my fren afiq.. b4 going there.. i was really pissed off wif him.. dunnoe to blame myself or wad.. but he treats me like dirt yesterday.. and harrsion was there.. saying he is not your fren.. haiz.. my classmate for 3 years.. afiq.. i dunnoe wad to say.. but its sad seeing u like this.. u been having physcological problems..which i never mention.. cause i accept the way u are.. even ppl like says about u.. and like talk bad about u.. i never once join them.. cause i thought u were a real friend.. and now after something like this happen.. i guess i must be wrong... its such a pain to find that someone who u thought was yur buddy.. stabs u at the back.. well.. after that went to kap.. met celest and suan wee.. haha they waited for me like 1 hour.. than we ate macs.. awhile later came liying .. than her nan hua frens ... i never thought that the celebration was at her house.. i didnt give her the present as early as the rest because i was waiting for mike.. cause he also paid part of the present.. so yea.. we went to her house first than later came down to fetch mike up.. he was injured la. than climb up that hill haha.. haha we only gave the presents only when they were taking photos.. milton passed her the present which was a guitar and i said its a share from the four of us.. and harrison.. than i pass her my own present.. lol. it looks so simple la my one.. i should had wrap it.!! haha.. the cake looks quite nice.. white and pink.. but when she cuts the cake and i saw it inside.. i was like wow.... jam.. =) but the best part was eating the cake.. its cold inside.. haha.. one of the nicest birthday cake i ate.. while eating the cake.. i was sitting wif mike milton bryan and liying's mom.. haha suddenly we just talk.. well she did a very good job being a host.. nice and cool mom.. lol.. the thing that catches me most was her younger brother.. running around all over and being so hyper active.. reminds me.. when i was young haha..but for me.. i was much more worse.. well.. stayed till around 11.30.. haha... luckily me mike and milton manage to catch our last bus..

today went to play the nike joga 3v3 competition haha.. i was really nervous at first.. but than we won 5 games in a row!!!!wow!! haha but than they say if win 5 games must change court.. than we queue up agian.. super super long.. and the worst part was we got this very good team.. and they score against us in a blink of an eye.. we never touched the ball haha.. but than we were told her got into the finals.. but than tml we shall do it agian.. to get better chances =)well can say things are getting better so far.. just that i miss jj alot alot..

and yes.. SKOOL STARTS IN APRIL 24!!! WAHHAHAHAH CAN DIE WAITING

Who is comming and who is going? I just sit here and wait.. during hari raya last year.. my house nearby.. this road.. where will it take me? who will be there? who won't? life is like a box of chocolates.. ya neva noe wad ya gonna get =) 

lalallala

omg mates.. been going out everyday to town.. since monday.. shites.. i am so broke now.. staying at home.. will just make me think think think until i go nuts.. its soooo boring at home.. =( tml is jj nite.. alot of ppl asking me if i was going.. wad do ya think? lol.. duh!! going of course... oh mann.... skool starts like next month for me.. soooo long... i at home blasting music into my ears.. the same song.. over and over agian.. addicted to this song.. don't you forget about me.. it really suits my mood now.. serious.. haha... having mood swings.. felt so good playing soccer just now... but i got injured in just 5 mins.. so unlucky.. i hurt my foot bone.. soo pain!! yet i played for 4 hours .. hope i wun go nuts until i go and do something stupid.. tml afiq asked me to go clementi gym to work out haha.. need to pass him the money also.. think i go for awhile only... i badly want skool to start asap!! i super bored.. somebody please just kill me.. so i wun suffer lol..

life is amazing yet boring now!! cause staying at home..is like URHH... cant do much.. anyway.. hope tml will be a better day la.. cause i will be going to jj nite!! hehe =)

Don't you forget about me

THis song is dedicated to you

DON'T YOU FORGET ABOUT ME

Won't you come see about me
I'll be alone, dancing, you know
Tell me your troubles and doubts
Giving me everything inside and out
love's strange: so real in the dark
Think about the tender things
That we're working on
Slow change can pull us apart
When the light gets into your heart

[Chorus]
Don't you forget about me
Don't, don't, don't, don't
Don't you forget about me
(times 2)

As you walk on by
Will you call my name
As you walk on by
Will you call my name
When you walk away

Oh, will you walk away
Will you walk on by
Come on, call my name
Will you call my name

la lalala la lalala lalalalalala
la lalala la lalala lalalalalala
la lalala la lalala lalalalalala

globe

today went shopping wif my parents the entire day!! bough new globe shoes!! super chio.. nice cool.. haha .. i just loved it.. din expect them to spend so much on a shoe for me.. first time!! =) anyway.. i got a new pair or ear phones too.. i loving it.. makes my music feel so real now where ever i go.. sound quality matters alot!!! meet up wif bryan and mike just now at kap.. we talk crap all the way sia.. and say how we miss our times.. yea.. its nice seeing both of them back.. guess i gonna miss alot of frens soon.. tml going for yfc interview.. hope and pray hard i get in =)

creep

today was an emotional day.. thinking of just 1 thing.. and yes it did make me feel so lost.. in the morning went for wu shu.. went to jun wei's house first.. than train on some of my rusty moves in wu shu.. injured my groin badly.. so yea.. cant kick much.. today when i was sparing.. i felt like giving my full force out.. but i cant la.. or else i will die.. after that went to work.. everyone at coffee bean was like.. MING!! u still working? surviving? lol.. than act like they forget me la.. i just felt that i wanna be isolated the whole day.. stare blank.. after my work.. i went out to my work place the tables there.. the outdoor part of coffe bean.. the view was fantastic.. and the wind was strong.. i stood on the pillar.. where below me was a cliff.. i just rasie my hands up and close me eyes.. why am i feeling this way.. the wind blew my sorrows always.. felt better.. my fren at coffee bean was singing the 'creep' song.. lol. it really suits my mood la.. felt like screaming ...

anyway.. i just cant wait to go skool la.. all the jc start aready.. while the polys all still got 1 month?? =( =( .... i wanna like start studying seriouslly.. and yea.. play soccer.. do everything.. better than just work and work everyday.. oh my.. i think without music .. i would had gone nuts.. music control my emotions..

i guess that life for me.. it begins wif happiness.. and passion.. tuesday going for youth flying club interview.. to get my private jet licence.. wif kenny.. called me during work la.. haha.. it will be another week break.. dunnoe do wad.. till sunday i work agian.. i got so many things in mind wanna buy aready... get a good laptop.. get a crumpler laptop bag.. get a bike? get new shoes.. get new shirts from topman.. get a few pants.. get more gel and wax.. omg it makes alot of difference when i wax my hair.. or else i look like nerd.. gotta gear up wif confidence to start studying hard agian..

lulululu... all i can say mates.. Welcome to my life ! yea simple plan .. haha this is so sick.. more like mattew bellamy.. i wanna be.. i also feel like being kurt cobain.. do wad he is most happy doing... but sad la he kill himself because.. wad ppl love to see him to do is wad he hate most to do.. so yea.. life is quite unfair.. shotgun to the head.. think i should like go and learn turn table.. so can learn to become slipknot.. aggresive emotions.. always

sup

hello.. its like 1.15am now.. yea.. felt like blogging after looking all 06A02 photos.. looking at it reminds me of times we were together.. yea nice.. anyway.. i think that many things are getting clearer to me now.. i think that i get hold up quite easily.. hakim was like repeating this over and over agian.. haha.. he is really my real fren.. even duo he wasnt there for me all the time.. but he was there when i needed him the most.. i got to say that if not because of him i wouldnt be wad i am today.. he made me love music.. how to aprriciate life.. and time to chill out haha.. oh my oh my.. ngee ann poly.. gonna meet alot of new ppl agian..

oasis still remains the band i always let it lead my life.. songs that will play my life "dont go away" "stand by me" " let there be love" "dont look back an anger" "stop crying yur heart out" listen to these songs.. they pretty much lead the rythm of my life.. its nice stuff..

Class 06A02 u ROXOR! 

2

A brand new day now.. i feel so sorry to done the class message thing so last min than i write so little only.. anyway.. i gonna really miss u guys.. yesterday was the last day and to some it may be the last time i seen u.. my life in jj.. i can never forget.. even duo it may be just only 2 months.. it felt more than that.. how i wish it was 2 years instead yea? well.. time really flys.. now we have come to an end.. every ending there is a new beginning.. for many of us.. i dunnoe if i could still meet u all up agian.. i hope that all of the class 06A02 will never forget the memories we had.. its something i will never forget.. i got to say that i felt sad yesterday going home.. when can i ever capture that moment we had agian.. keep in touch mates...

i hope my life will stay carry on and get better.. i never really talk abt this on my blog b4 cause i noe that she might read it someday.. lol.. anyway.. yea the song i wrote for her.. i spend nights thinking how can i express my feelings abt her.. thinking abt that makes me afraid of manythings.. cause i am like kind of a screwed up person.. so the chances making it a success is slim.. but its amazing.. i got soo inspired when i composed that song.. because i noe that if i dun do it.. i never gonna even have a chance to try.. and i gonne regret for a very long time.. somehow i felt that after singing the song and letting her listen.. i had not done my best.. my personal thoughts are always abt her... what matters most is that i wanna be happy always.. i can't force anything rite.. well.. i cant expect anything good since i went after her.. cause i noe that its just too fast.. i can't really find a reason why she is special.. i just felt it.. i got to respect her decision.. all i can do now is go on wif life and just be there for her.. going to poly may sound like i am gonna slack.. but actually its all crap.. like viknesh told me abt his bro in poly .. its all about pure hardwork if u wanna do well.. i got give my best this time.. i really hope that my frenship wif her will still be there and stronger.. in this world.. anything is possible if u believe.. =)

well going up so high.. i hope i dun end up like kurt kobain.. lol.. skool starts like in 1 month time.. really long break.. hope to keep in contact wif all my jj mates.. guess now its back to old working days wif coffee bean.. yea..

jj

today... all i could say.. is that it was great =)
last day of jj.. yes its sad leaving u all..
and yes finally like can say wad i did today
the song i sang it out today to her..
whew.. that took alot from me..
was touched by the class spport alot..
could had just teared.. but yea i was strong
things are suppose to be better
and maybe is it now =)
thank you u all for everything...
i will miss my memory in JJ
everyone going seperate ways..
yeas i hope we still keep in touch..
06A02 rocks.. and we must still united!!
its the best class ever...

I would like to use this song to remember JJ..

In Loving Memory
Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone and
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly

I never knew what it was to be alone....no
'Cause you were always there for me
You were always home waiting

But now I come home
And I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see

And I know
You're a part of me
And its your song
That sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight
'Cause it comforts me

I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of the one that was so true
You were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

I never knew what it was to be alone....no
'Cause you were always there for me
You were always home waiting

But now I come home
And its not the same no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone

And I know
You're a part of me
And it's your song
That sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight
'Cause it comforts me

I'm glad He set you free from sorrow
But I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you'll be here
With me still

All you did you did with feeling
And you always found a meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will

And I know
You're a part of me
And it's your song
That sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight
'Cause it comforts me

omg this photo is like taken 1 year ago? screwed up brain trying to study for o's ... well i was like listening music all the way.. btw this photo is special because its the first ever photo taken on chee fatt's phone!! haha yea.. hey mate.. when are we gonna go for our special trip?? haha miss u lots mate.. u made me laugh the loudest and the longest.. if it wasnt for u.. i wouldnt become a jackass.. well u are the bigger one.. life will never be the same =) 

suck

hello mates.. today i wasnt feeling good at all at the end of the day... i was injured and feeling a abit uneasy... maybe i shouldnt had thought of this so much.. somethings i regreted doing and somethings i did was lucky.. there will always a point of time where i can really go nuts in many ways.. but doing that sometimes makes me feel really free and happy.. and ya.. ppl might think i take this life as a joke..

i don't know how ppl think of me .. its real scary..
one of the reason is maybe because i dun really care wad ppl says abt me and i just go ahead.. sometimes i do get affected and sometimes i dun
if u think i am happy going on this way.. well maybe yur rite..
i am not sure wad the future brings me in..
all the greatest things i ever thought are illusion
can i make it reality?
wad makes me think that its gonna make me happy?
i realise happiness is very important to me..

haiz.. i always get misunderstood.. even the place where i work.. ppl still talks abt me.. which i dunnoe.. i mean like.. how i wish i could just see all of this.. and just correct my mistakes.. i been trying so hard to become someone better.. everytime i felt like i did.. i think it has made me too proud sometimes.. or maybe always..

this is life.. full of everything.. i can feel like i am gonna die..until some miracle saves me.. all i wanna do is music now .. i cant stand all this stress kept in my head.. how i wish i had my own fender and own marshall amps.. training vocals really hard.. thats why i am like losing my voice these days..

i will get my answers sooner or later.. but i always thought of the worst.. and it happens 90% of my life.. i dunnoe if i am really dumb or just that i am not born to do it.. i always dream that i could be like tom delonge someday.. can play the guitar and sing.. not may be the best .. but i just love his style..

all i can do is dream dream dream.. when can i ever take this step ahead of life..
life is all about making choices..
tonight i will just think all night..
have i really started my life?

i am going nuts..

today i am going to take a step ahead

today was quite a strange day
i skip all classes to play badminton
there is something always running through my mind
my mates say i should just go for it
i am just afraid things would shatter
went home today early
slept in the bus all the way
can't say much now
the time will come

zai

today soccer traning ran 22 rounds around the field.. lol. than had 2 sided match agian.. this time i play crap.. so ya and my blister tore my skin.. after that umar suddenly just blow off scolding the whole team.. kena pump everything than suddenly go into the gym haha. actually was preparing to have a birthday bash.. and yea we did hahaha.. manage to hit a few times on his back.. he is strong dey.. haha.. all we went through the punishment by umar was just an act haha.. okay la. quite fun..

before training was in skool.. i pon all the lessons!! haha.. so fun.. first i went to see the ogls doing mass dance.. than my class ppl started to join in.. haha.. than suddenly i felt like dancing too.. so yea nicolas offered me to dance.. haha damn gay la.. than later danced wif celest.. can see everyone laughing at my lame dance la..ahhaha.. they recorded my dance la.. wa lao.. better pay me!! haha.. after that went to canteen and sat there for 2 .5 hours.. haha quite fun la.. talk to so many ppl.. than go to prayers.. lol.. i enjoyed it actually cause we are like so united.. than went back to skool played badminton than go soccer..

now i have some inspiration.. which i had lost quite sometime ago.. after days of thinking so hard.. so yea i finally can put it in words in music.. so yea.. hope at least i get something out at the end of the day :D