fuck fuck

i wanna get out of this house aready la.. fuck man my dad.. i noe my fault i skip lessons then u noe wad.. tml i got chalet he dun let me go .. say i go hotel sleep better wtf right.. fuck la.. i gonna leave tonight vanish far away.. this is the the alot of time i been thinking about this.. i am trap at home .. fucking trap.. i cant do anything much to get out of this fucked up place... i gonna a letter to give my reasons of awol.. fuck la.. its holidays and no going out.. fuck it.. if u gonna control a 18 year old son at home fucking sick at just doing nothing at home.. its way of my limits.. the laws even states that if yur 16 or above u can just roam around wifout yur parent concern.. so yea.. i am being treated even worst than that... i can even just torn or chill out... i am aready the lowest point of my life and yet he smacked my head just now.. u push it too far away aready.. he said this if u wanna live like this get out of the house.. i go word for word this time .. i just wanna fucking kill myself..

wait and bleed

hello lads.. my laptop is down so cant update much for the past few days or even weeks.. so yea the update is that it is holidays.. and the sad news is that i think i am not as happy as i used to be due to some crisis i think i have... u see.. actually i had been in a relationship for a month i think.. at first it was all fun and all that.. and as it goes its dying out really fast and its just dont feel right.. i just dun feel the safeness of just going on like this... the fact is that she works and spends her time shopping wif her frens and ya alot of work agian.. and i just found out that me being left out ? i think i give one more week... if this really goes on and really makes my day worse just thinking about it.. i got to do something.. its never good whenever i feel this way.. and its 2 weeks holiday.. and i dun wanna just stay home and think about it.. its really painful just doing that.. its time that i should really make myself shut out to everybody except my family .. after listening to couple of angel and airwave songs.. they have this message which is that friends are always the one that make you happy.. i mean like i used to really love my life alot being happy and all that.. now its just the lowest point of time i am in now.. even its holiday and everything.. i had plans to restart my band and make a bigger impact than my previous one.. now i have 2 drummers from my class 1 guitarist or bassist and a bassist ... next whole week is jamming week... so yea.. and oh yea.. last thursday was like one of the most sad case la... after the test i actually waited for her at the atirm to recieve a call or something.. i end up leaving my class behind as they went to town.. had good fun.. wait for quite long until chee fatt and jun wei came.. and yea fuck it la.. i am going.. omg.. i never been that happy since the recent week i been to fucked up.. i laugh the loudest till cramps all that.. its not bad being gay after all..i mean happy dumbass haha.. i got to admit that if i were to compare being in a relationship now and the last one i had.. i was more confident and happier last time.. but i dun choose to live the past.. cause its over ass.. i just look ahead of my path... i guess the ones who take me higher and there holding my back.. i guess it should goes to the ones who has been there for me all these while.. you know who you are... and i never ever gonna forget the ones who were there when i am in the lowest point of time..

hate feeling this way.. but too bad.. its really reaching my limits.. you know why i love blogging. .cause it somehow share my thoughts and feelings who ever reads it.. even my brother sometimes reads it.. so ya.. it this 1 week i am not feeling anything from her.. i gonna ask for a week break.. being on my own and my frens.. see how its feels like being happy.. wad ever the decision is.. it would be right here in my arms..
i felt the hell rise up in me
nearby the clear stones of leaves
i wonder out where you cant see
inside my shell i wait and bleed..
and one thing.. i kinda of went abit of my path towards music... i just recentally start clubbing.. but one thing i noe for sure it will never be as good as a rock concert... and always remember this line my brothers.. ONCE A ROCKER ALWAYS A ROCKER!!!!

joga ell

hello ... today played the joga bandito finals at national stadium there.. got into the semi finals and lost =( we were sooo sosososososo close la.. sad sad.. and i hurt my back while i attemp to bicycle kick.. had wu shu in the morning.. did alot of practice agian as usual and i hurt my right arm while trying to break some sticks.. haiz...

hello

hello mates.. its been a really long time since i last blog here.. hrmm.. well school is good as usual.. and yea something special happen to me not long ago.. i will blog it here in my next post i swear haha.. so ya i am really really tired now.. so yea nites

thorn

omg i reached home 7am this morning hahah... last nite dnd .. hrmm.. lets start from after skool.. yea went to orchard wif debbie first to get chris present and get our bling blings for the dnd haha.. bought this peace sign bling bling.. nice =) haha and we rushed our way to the hotel.. and guess wad.. the dinner started 2 hours later.. omg.. time wasting la.. hahah.. debbie and me was aready hungry.. and yea met steph and evan and all thoese who were there la hahaha.. the worst part was that debbie and me had to sit at another table which we totally no idea who is there.. lol.. guess wad.. ADAM sat beside me haha. okay la he is the only person i know in the table.. the dinner was okok la.. the food was alrite.. the night kind of ended super fast la.. cause the dinner only started at 9plus.. under expectations la.. haiz.. anyway i kind of got half drunk? dunnoe why la.. wasnt stable and got debbie worried.. after that i sent her up to the another party.. and ya i end up sitting in the room to chill out lol.. and by the time i go down back to sent her home.. it was the dancing part which we missed .. so yea.. dnd is more like just dinner .. and then ayat came to find me.. than we joined adam and gang.. they wanted to go MOS but then got abt 5 of them underage la.. end up going to indocine.. the crowd wasnt really there.. so yea went there to chill out .. after that went to esplanade to chill out again hahha.. i wasnt really high la.. but had a long long day.. my dad was like gonna screw me when i get home .. so yea..a mixture of feelings.. high,tired,drunk,stressed,worried. haiz. i woke up at 2pm.. and yea.. i am stoning now.. since 2 to 7pm which is now.. bored to death.. adam they all going zouk but i cant go and i dun wanna waste my money yet.. maybe end of semester.. so yea.. wait for a better day tml =)

long nite in skool

hello hello... =) omg omg i went back from skool at 10.45pm? hahaha was wif ayat the whole day... i think we 2 are becoming really close buddies.. we use the same bag same pants same shoes same LAPTOPS!! hahahah omg.. so yea we stayed in skool to do revision.. yea its fun studying like that la.. cause he can teach me in a fun way la.. its fun hanging out wif him la.. cause he would always look for gals haha.. so yea.. great time spent today =) anyway tml i start skool at 2!!! muahhahaha finally a time when i can relec ... whew.. think i post some pics

helloa..

hello!!! was up was up.. omg i din blog for quite some time aready.. hrmm.. oh yea yesterday i went shopping!!! bought a new pair of shoes and bag!!! wahahhaha... loving it man!! later gonna play soccer to test out my new shoes!! haha yesterday also had a soccer game.. and i invited ayat and zul to play wif my bro team.. omg.. ayat is good la.. i think if i were to tag wif him striker.. it would be so cool.. we just have this chemistry together.. ayat scored a brillant goal.. and yea i missed a good chance to score when i blast it over the post... wahhaha.. nvm la.. it has been a long time since i last played.. so yea its quite regretful not to play often la.. ayat is really a nice guy la.. he is helping me to get into the np soccer team.. so yea.. i really wanna play soccer once more... because its just something i love to do la.. like my music!! so yea.. we going to sign up nssl together also.. yea.. and here is the bad news.. i hurt my back!! i went to head a ball.. i jumped up la.. than this guy behind bend down.. than i like kena overturn and landed on my upper back.. almost my neck.. wahha.. i thought i broke something la.. lucky its nothing much... oh yea i got to do my homework now .. so yea bye

suppppppppppp

HElloo i am in skool now ..

lec

hello people haha omg .. i dunnoe why i love going skool now.. its so fun.. just that some lessons can die la.. its like dunnoe how many lessons in a row.. hahaha.. anyway. today finally fix my laptop problem and got the visual studio !! WOHOO =) hahaha..anyway today had quite alot of fun la.. just that its freaking HOT!!! in the afternoon.. omg!! hahahah.. its sooo HOT!! la.. can burn my skin.. wahahha.. oh ya.. today this gal rachel said my red shirt made me look like mac donalds OMG!! haha than i like wad!!@#@!! hahaha.. kk tml i dress up better la =)

sup

hey today first day of skool in NGEE ANN!! omg MADNESS AHAHAHA everything every single thing is different from was i used to study in.. now everything is so high tech use laptops so study and do tutorials.. i starting to enjoy studying la.. suddenly i have this strong sense to study.. cause everything is independent learning so ya.. its all up to us to study or not.. cause at the end of the day i wanna walk out of that skool wif my diploma cert =) so yea.. omg.. my block so near canteen 1.. roxor haha.. okay la wanna sleep now so tired haha... tml i continue.. maybe in skool

woke up at 1?

hello mates.. so sowie i din blog the past few days.. cause i like couldnt find a time to blog as i have been busy hahaha.. no la.. i had been tired doing stuffs la.. omg omg tml skool starts.. but than its starts at 8AM!!! wtf.. not fair sia.. others start at 1pm.. haiz.. haha i think my course the lesssons are much more packed than other courses.. basically learn almost everything in engineering.. so yea... tml have maths hahaha.. i think my maths.. rusty!!! oh ya.. the stupid teacher go and uninstall my anti spy ware and anti virus.. than all the spy and virus comming in my com like no body business.. wahahha.. now got this stupid pop out la.. wtf.. haha i dun care i reinstall my own anti software..

wanna change this blog skin soon!!!! haaha cuase i have dreamweaver now!!! muahahahaha.. can finally make my own skins=) cool. yea.. anyway.. i got to say that i love NAGA!!! mauhahah everyone is mad in there.. all kinds and specs of people... but the weird thing is that where they live muahahah.. all over singapore la.. and some even not in singapore lol... wicked wicked... i join song composing club and cannoe polo ... soccer have to wait for the F!@#!@ trails which is in june!!!! WTF la.. so long... at least have some training session for the freshies or wad la...i was saying that i go set up my own club for the freshies to play hahaha. cause 2 months is too long la .. .wtf.. anyway afiq join my up for nssl.. hahaha COOL SHITE!!! but the thing is that all my shoes are torn =( i got to get a new one soon..
anyway i wanna go bath now..
parents bringing me out later.. collect my jeans and maybe some shopping ? hahahahah
RAWK ON!! \m/

yea

hello once agian people!! =) first time blogging on my bed and its 3.19am now.. i suddenly got worried that my laptop battery might be spoilt or the lifempend of it become very short.. lol.. seruious la.. it keeps droping by 1% each time i go check.. haha nvm think it can last until i go to sleep =)

today went out wif my mom and dad .. went to funan.. where i got my cakewalk music creator 3!!! wahaha my dad bought it for me.. =) so happy la.. cause its something i been wanting to learn.. how to compose music tracks on my very own pc.. cool eh.. and it comes wif a midi usb cable.. how cool can it be.. haha anyway.. wads even better is that my dad bought me a pair of topman jeans!! woho.. i love it.. wear it to skool everyday i swear haha.. skool next monday and tml nono later got naga outing... gonna meet themm so fun eh.. =) oh ya i spend almost my entire night checking out the new software and was chatting wif lina lol.. i show her the music which i composed not long ago.. My fairytale.. lol she go and post the lyrics at her blog la haha.. nvm.. i feel quite honoured actually someone did that... i suddenly feel like having this full burst making music agian.. it is just something i been waiting for a long time to do la..

it just feels so good la to be so free using a computer anywhere anytime.. the only bad thing is that the battery dies out quite fast.. =( if only laptop batteries are like handphone.. wouldnt it be cool? hahah.. i think my one can last less than 2 hours .. so sad la.. if the battery dies out so fast like that.. my dad gonna kill me la.. =( i need to start saving now.. and WORK! yayaya i wanna work la.. study and work... i need money so desprately now.. to meet my needs...haiz... nvm la.. now just live off wad i can get.. =)

cant wait to meet u guys later!! wohoo =) naga all the way..

yea the NAGAs!! ROXOR!! doing our trademark... no one does better than that.. can u dig that?  

suck this

today i have something that i kept low abt it since i was young... like they always say blood is always thicker than water.. but come to think about it.. for example like my cousins.. even they are younger than me.. they do push me around like i am underneath their fingers.. i was sorry for all the things i done that i might did them last time like pushing them around? i dunnoe.. but it just hurts me deeply.. i was really super ultra naughty when i was young.. so maybe they still had that image on me.. but its like too painful to live it this way.. just now had a small incident when i lost my band? the soccer id band.. i mean like its so obvious i put it on the table where i usually put wif my other bands.. and my cousin lost his.. early in the morning.. and just now he told me that he found it in his bag and i lost mine.. ever since i din wish to be treated as how i was, i tried my best to be a better person.. but than its just that its hurting la.. even playing soccer.. i know i might abit to the exterme.. but the way they talk to me isnt encouraging.. unlike when i play wif my frens? because when i play wif my other frens.. its like everything is so smooth and mistake is part of our game.. its just not nice to being humilate by my cousin thats all i can say.. trying to start a new life in poly. i wish i could just leave all this behind me and just work on towards a brighter start. respect is something that i so far never had among my cousins.. its not that i demand it.. but just that seeing others having a better way of communicating in a more brotherhood manner.. its just painful la.. but one thing i am sure is that i surely cant play soccer well wif my cousins.. its just something which is impossible since young.. trying for years.. because today we had this futsal match in the morning.. i was really hungry for glory so that we can qualify.. even we draw 0-0 i wasnt happy at all .

dont know if this is just some stupid thoughts i had or is it something i just cant keep low abt it.. anyway... i just really had when ppl enter my room and leave it a mess. cause its aready messy and they make it worse.. lol.. i just clean up a little just now.. cause i find it messy la. cant take it also and my mother also has been nagging abt my room.. skool starts in a week time.. oh man..

oh yea tuesday is NAGA OUTING!!! WOWHOOOO!!! haha.. going orchard once more.. but the sad thing is that i am broke and in dept.. i starting to feel really pain how money just go away like that.. and to earn it its really difficult..

my life has been quite messy recently.. my music my soccer my studies.. this 3 i must plan it out properly as soon as i get my full time table.. i dun quite under the time table i have now .. so yea 1st week of skool i shall see abt it first.. join some cca like soccer and yea.. think i will spend 80% of my time in skool when skool starts.. lol. i think so..

hrmm.. oh yea.. last 2 days i went sentosa wif the sports camp ppl.. yea had some fun but wasnt to the fullest la.. but had a good time.. and oh yea i pang sei 2 of my frens that day.. one is the 06A02 badminton outing at clementi and Kris playing street soccer.. i felt so bad la.. thats why i couldnt like really smile the entire day wif the sports camp ppl.. oh yea we went orchard after sentosa and yea i met hakim at his work place.. listening to some cds they have there and got intro to hakim frens working there who offer me polka =) so nice.. was wif chao wei the entire day and we took cab home together.. qing juan is so funny la.. he looks like a gamer.. cause he has that face.. that my sec skool zhi wei has ahhaha.. so yea.. just fun ppl la.. we joke in the bus and laugh till my stomach cramps hahaha..

nazrul called me at nite to confirm for ther soccer tornement the next day but i seriously cannot la.. cause my brother also sign my up for another competition.. than nazrul was like WADeVER la.. i felt like such a @#@ person.. and thats what happen to kris also.. i felt so down because of this.. and we are going to have our finals at nike futsal.. haiz... well i guess its really hard to balance the people u wanan go wif next time... now i have like 5 groups of people who i can choose to hang out wif.. so yea. .its hard la sometimes.. staying at home is the best la.. ahhaha.. :D fair play

i been lazy to blog the past few days because i been busy and my cousins slept over at my house so yea.. i dun really like ppl looking at wad i typing for my blog.. but reading it after i post would be better.. so yea... tml i gonna stay at home!!!

foc

hey i am back from foc camp!! yea let me recap from day 1

DAY 1

went to clementi to had breakfast wif guan and adam than we took cab to ngee ann.. we went striaght to the lt 26. lol.. we actually cut the long queue la.. haha.. its a super long queue.. anyway.. day 1 was really rusty.. cause i went there all thinking abt being high.. be entu..so yea i tried my best la.. but seems like the camp is like so screwed up cause we were left nothing to do for 5 hours.. so ya everyone got bored.. played stupid games... and ya.. its like so dead la.. anyway.. the night walk was something that i would say its good haha.. we were sent by twos.. and the 2nd person is my dance partner.. michelle lol.. so ya.. its a super long night walk la haha.. walk through dark areas than the ogls keep shocking us and ya.. the night walk is the best one so far .. yea it rocks.. cause its really a long and exciting walk haha.. but the bad thing is that me and her was the first few couples to be sent out so ya.. we were watching the eye 2 at the lt.. it was nice la.. so shoik than kena go night walk.. and the worst part is that we had to wait till the others finish the walk than we can go and have our supper at 2am and than sleep at 3am!! haha.. i knock out striaght away sia the first nite.. so nice.. my blanket and pillow =)

DAY 2

okay woke up fresh bath and everything.. oh ya it rain like wad.. than some stuff were cancel than we waited 2 hours to get our breakfast and we had to walk all the way to the other end of the campus.. dunnoe why must use that canteen la.. so far!! somemore its raining than must go by the sheltered way.. cannot shortcut.. alot of sports camp ppl couldnt took the boringness of the camp so they booked out.. but its actually quite sad la.. all the super on ppl going home =( but the fun did happen on day 2.. after 3 pm onwards.. all the station games.. everyone really got bonded.. i love it man. .cause somemore i took the lead for the team NAGA 1 !!! i lead the war cheer.. superb awesome and followed by the see saw saw dance haha.. its the main feature of the camp.. my team famous see saw saw.. everyone loves to see us doing it.. haha =)and yea.. the night we learn mass dance.. OMG !! its so nice la.. haha super chim but its nice.. i Like it .. haha.. i kept asking my partner can u keep up wif the pace? she always say okay.. =) good la.. so can keep the beat going.. haha... its nice la.. the song.. the movement.. really like dancing.. its mass dance..!! i haha.. i was super high that night.. and people start talking to me more.. hahaha.. so yea.. ayrif is so cute la.. he is like my buddy in the camp.. israf also.. buddies.. we talk malay wif each other.. cause i always use english.. so yea.. i felt for once so comfortable speaking malay!!! ahah and alot of ppl cant believe i am mixed la.. they either say i am chinese or malay.. lol.. and yea i was sooooo high!!!but i kena the worst at the butter hill wtf.. haha butter and oil all over my body !! than go eat dinner like that la.. so gross.. but everyone had their fun.. i am proud of that =) mauhaha..

DAY 3

omg day 3 is the moment i got to talk abt.. haha first we started out wif war games.. wif water bombs damn fun la.. cause we use smart ideas to win so cool rite.. i love my ogls.. super funky and cool guys and gals.. than the station master blast off la.. scold us for F@!#!@ no reasons.. than we kena burn in the sun.. than collin my division head say he would go and screw the station master later for spoiling our mood la go scold us like wad.. than like that.. after that we were okay.. we had water games!! i was sooo exicted that i wanted to just jump into the pool but i din la.. cause i was chosen to be the model for NAGA!! wwahahahhaa.. i was like wahh.. iwanna swim la.. haha.. but than it was worth it .. cause i was like dress up into a sexy sea serpent and to catwalk and entertain infront for 500 plus people!!!!! whahahahaha.. omg if i have the pic i will let u all see.. haha because of that.. i manange to lead the whole battlion for NAGA 1,2 & 3 to fight the other 3 groups.. i did some dance and pole dancing haha.. they were like wow.. when i pole dance la.. haha.. omg.. than i shout the cheers... NAGA ARE YOU READY FOR WAR!@@!!!!!!??? haha.. that superb.. love it.. the cheers..i felt so touch when the whole naga cheer they were proud of me.. =) i was super high high high.. haha.. seriously i cant dance for nuts la.. suddenly they say things like i sexy when i did the pole dance bla bla hahaha.. but its kind of nice la... at least its not a bad thing to be sexy rite?? haha.. watever la.. anyway.. after that we had to plan for out campfire performance..we plan a dance THAT THING YOU DO and a super cheer.. haha.. i raise my voice to the top of the convection center roof wifout the mic hahaha.. i lost my voice because of that.. but its superb la.. BANG BANG BOOM BANG BANG BOOM !!!WOWOWOOWOoo i was super high.. everyone said i become super high on the stage leading the cheer somehow haha.. but it did made me know more people cause its nice la.. they were like wow u are so high while doing the cheer nice one bud.. and yea get to know more ppl its nice la.. omg the part which i always kena disturb that i scandle wif this gal from my grp la.. cause the 2nd day station game.. i was like focusing looking and cheering for the team than she accidently kiss me on the cheeks which i din realise?? than she suddenly omg sorry i acciddentally kiss and my WHOLE GROUP wAS like OOOHHH!!!!SCANDAL SIA!!! wahhahahaha... i like wtf? haha i dunnoe wad happen la.. but i was named scandal at the end of the day.. lol..super fun la.. after that we had a dancefloor open till 4am.. i danced until my legs so tired hahaha.. everyone was super damn high.. hahaha.. really made alot of frens.. so happy to met them all.. cool peeps.. so yea.. ride on.. i mean like its like this is the begining for my life.. i feel really happy being there.. being a feshie,a buddy,a fren,a stranger,a leader, a commander! haha funny sia.. ayrif kept shouting commander ming come come faster lead the cheer hahaha.. iwas like hrmm.. hahahah.. but its fun la.. leading a big group cheering.. =) i was really super high on the last nite.. shaking my head all the way..

DAY 4
i slept on the track la halfway talking to my members!! haha than they draw all over me la.. hahaha... i woke up abt 1 hour later.. than my ankle kena jam.. haha.. someone carried me all the way to the hall.. and all the medics came to assist.. super pain la.. i cant even stand on both legs.. so ya.. its because i slept while sitting down my legs cross.. haha ... anyway.. after that we had breakfast... BURGERS!!!! mauhahaha.. than we had our photo taking session.. which was awesome.. we did the see saw saw and the retarded faces hahaha.. super cool... than mass dance.. wohoo.. so fun la.. but after that we had the emo ending.. the gal sing until so emo la.. than alot of ppl cry.. its quite sad la.. how we wish if we were class mates.. and yet still skool mates.. so yea.. hug everyone around yea.. see ya around buddy.. =) i hope that next time we meet anywhere. u guys will always rememeber the time we were togther when we cheered , laughed,played and cried.. so yea.. after that went to kap wif the nagarians and gls.. haha.. than we talk cock session quite long.. than went home take cab wif the naga peeps.. haha so yea..

haha okay this is the summary of how my 4 days la.. if u want to know more.. can ask la.. cause i think i should dun inculde some stuff cause its censored hahaha.. kk =) RAWK ON

sup

hello mates going to camp tml agian !! FOC CAMP HERE I COME BABY!! muahaha... wohoo.... i kept swinging my head all over the air recently cause i am really high now!! kk i shud up now see ya all back on thursday.. dun say i action cause eh.. u noe who i am talking abt =D

np

helloo.... sup mates.. yea came back from camp aready .. sports camp was great.. we played hard and cheered hard.. grp name RIO haha.. but i wasnt 100% on la.. cause there are alot ppl who are on also.. so ya i decided to be quiet for the first time =) well.. yea met alot of great ppl.. the seniors are really someone who i do look up to.. cause they deserve the respect la i can say.. the way they put up themselves.. its good.. cause the camp is 100% run by the seniors. no students.. its amazing that the camp is so steady... play quite alot of sports... like 4x100 long jump high jump volley ball floor ball dragon boat kayaking canoe polo captain ball in the swimming pool! haha.. cheerleader stuns.. and yea throw potatoes.. haha.. the last day was the most gross part la.. we kena butter oil paint and spoilt milo.. super gross la.. than under the hot sun.. i kena sun burnt =( haha.. but it was all fun la i can say.. the cheers are were awesome.. after all i felt quite happy to be in np.. =) the people around are just socialble.. so yea.. made alot of frens.. my grp alone is like 30 plus.. plus the cgls and other grps.. think abt 60 plus or more new ppl i met to be frens.. haha.. oh ya.. how can i forget this ... the food was BRILLIANT!!!! WOHOOO.. even it was chicken all the way.. but it rocks!!! bbq chicken chicken chop kfc chicken style.. nasi lemak fried rice.. superb la.. !!! haha.. okay now i looking forward to FOC camp.. which the camp would be abt 4 times bigger muahaha...=D

anyway yesterday nite i went to watch acjc tempest.. which cost 25 bucks!! wahhaha.. i only paid 10 so far cause its really alot la.. the play was acceptional.. i can say.. cause i din understand the whole thing but got a main idea of it.. than i reflect abt wad i could do wif 25 dollars.. haha i rather go watch 2 movies in a row and have a meal or play lan for the whole day la.. haha... haiz.. nvm la too bad i aready bought the ticket anyway.. it was at dbs arts center which is just beside beach bar only la.. the everton supporters gathering is over there.. so yea. i been there quite alot of times.. well i really restrict myself from going out these few days.. cause the transport is expensive and i have little cash.. so yea i am gonna camp home till foc camp!!! muahahhaa.. sowie mates unless go play soccer at west coast... well yesterday met kris brayan liying eric and mike agian since dunnoe when...last week? i think so... din talk much to them expect kris and bryan.. i think i kind of lost touch wif them... i guess that they have their own reasons of being busy la.. they do contact among themselves... ya only bryan and kris the one left who still keeps in touch wif me.. i got a strong feeling that i am gonna fade away soon from their lives.. cause i am gonna be quite busy in np now... lol.. almost everything i wanna do can be in my own skool la.. unless they wanna meet at kap regularly.. which we promised to la..but so far we din really had such meeting =( sad rite.. haha..

anyway.. yea.. FOC camp here i come.. and oh ya liying thanks for the shirt lol... its from hong kong rite.. ? yea nice shirt thanks.. one more collection of shirt i have now haha... btw i have a fren who stays near my house also go np but he is in AT guan!!! wahaha.. got someone to go skool wif aready.. yea 3 years!! we also go ns together like that.. gonna be my buddy for sure.. i swear haha.. some he study the course i interested la.. i gonna hunt him down hahaha.. kk i shall stop here.. gonna have my keyboard lesson .. i haven been practicing .. gonna die sia!! haha..

yawns in the morning

hello once agian.. =) omg 1 last song to post b4 i go.. haha its a boyband song but yea its nice la.. by westlife if i let you go

Day after day
Time passed away
And I just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows, I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can't find
The courage to show to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before

And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
How will I know
If I let you go?

Night after night I hear myself say
Why can't this feeling just fade away
There's no one like you
You speak to my heart
It's such a shame
we're worlds apart
I'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose

And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
How will I know
If I let you go?

going to camp

hello mates i am going to camp tml morning.. yea good isnt it ? i am gonna be away.. miss ya all =) if u wish to update me.. just tag my board the happenings.. thanks if u do.. my bag is so big la haha.. super jumbo size.. but who cares.. its gonna stay in the room anyway.. so yea.. i now listening to american pie band camp soundtracks.. really cool.. smooth and nice flowing... my emotions pouring out in the night.. feels really good =) was chating wif bryan just now on msn.. were like pouring out our trouble and doubts.. and he remembers wad i used to say to him lol.. haha.. bryan if yur reading this.. i chat seriously sometimes ya noe.. i mean like i really take it in and i do think abt what we last chat abt.. not everytime but at least i do... yea... when yur down.. stand up and take a look around.. and keep on moving.. cause if u dont u will be stuck the haze of troubles.. well.. i just love this line from sum41 'i try to be perfect but nothing was worth it' haha its nice la.. too many songs have gone through my head.. and changing my thoughts.. i think music has somehow control my emotions.. dunnoe if its good or not.. lol... anyway.. i love the music i listening now.. cant wait for camp to start tml and now its 2.30am and i have to wake up at 7.30am lol.. 5 hours.. haha.. kk i think i better stop here.. oh yea.. thanks for everyone who is reading my lame shit blog haha.. cause sometimes its hard to understand what i am saying here.. well i shall end this entry which i told bryan just now.. i am trying my best to enjoy life now.. no worries no doubts.. just go on and enjoy! =) cause i am Mr Brightside... !! haha rock on dude

iho

THE HELL SONG!!! BY................. SUM 41!!!!


Everybody's got their problems
Everybody says the same thing to you
It's just a matter how you solve them
And knowing how to change the things you've been through
I feel I've come to realize
How fast life can be compromised
Step back to see what's going on
I can't believe this happened to you
This happened to you

It's just a problem that I'm faced with
Am I not the only one who hates to stand by
Complications that are first in this line
With all these pictures running through my mind
Knowing endless consequences
I feel so useless in this
Get back, step back and as for me
I can't believe

Part of me, won't agree
Cause I don't know if it's for sure
Suddenly, suddenly
I don't feel so insecure
Part of me, won't agree
Cause I don't know if it's for sure
Suddenly, suddenly
I don't feel so insecure
Anymore

Everybody's got their problems
Everybody says the same thing to you
It's just a matter how you solve them
But what else are we supposed to do

Part of me, won't agree
Cause I don't know if it's for sure
Suddenly, suddenly
I don't feel so insecure
Part of me, won't agree
Cause I don't know if it's for sure
Suddenly, suddenly
I don't feel so insecure
(Anymore)
Why do things that matter the most
Never end up being our choice
(Anymore)
Now that I find out it ain't so bad
I don't think I knew what I had
(Anymore)
Why do things that matter the most
Never end up being our choice
(Anymore)
Now that I find out it ain't so bad
I don't think I knew what I had