yea yea

yea yea looky here.. my new blog skin.. kinda of suck? haha .. i did it 4am this morning.. couldnt sleep.. dunnoe why.. btw if yur not using firefox as browser.. the video code will appear as html above here.. dunnoe why.. but yea sowie=) the navigator is above here.. just click click only la.. today is kind of a short day.. woke up at 12pm haha.. than i watched scary movie 3.. than played ps2.. and i realise some things today.. i mean like.. for the past few weeks or days.. i haven really been happy.. maybe only when i play soccer or music.. so yea.. i mean like.. its just not me.. not happy and all.. i can remember clearly that when i was sec 3.. i wished i did not need to sleep.. and enjoy every second of my life.. i would like just chat happily until i drop dead at my com desk.. when i am bored.. i would take up the guitar and strum until my fingers go numb.. than talk to my buddy hakim all that.. laugh wif chee fatt and my classmates.. i mean like i really enjoy life back than.. and all the things happen were so happening.. it was like the begining of life to me..

recently i felt like i gonna die or something haha.. but its stupid yea.. every ending has a begining.. today i was thinking all day about my music.. reading some magazines about music and recordings.. oh man.. i watched muse concert agian.. and yea.. oh man how i wished i am matt.. i would be the happiest man in the world if i could be like him..

i have been planing how is life ahead in the future.. first is doing well in poly.. and having as much fun as i can also.. 3 years.. soccer,music and study would be the only 3 things i must have in order to really be happy.. hope that within the 3 years i could at least have an album.. i think i should at least have 2 albums.. i been playing music for 3-4 years now. and yet i am playing like i learn last year.. which sucks.. so yea.. i got to start being passionate and yea.. and yea.. hope that i could at least play soccer at a higher level.. play for a club and hopefully i might get a chance to play in s league or national team someday..=) haha..

i think living without music for me .. my life would just die.. and now.. listening to tons and tons of songs.. filling up my moods.. yea.. all i wanna do is rock n roll.. RAWK ON mates..! =)

cant get my eyes off you

hello mates.. my laptop going nuts.. haha guess i have been installing to many and downloading stuff into it haha.. lucky i got it recovered back.. today haiz.. so boring la.. zhi wei say got something on than cannot go interview.. sucks =( been watching movies almost everyday at home!! wah.. such a loner life i have.. somebody save me!!!! been listening to emo songs over and over agian.. than watching SAW just now haha.. omg .. its so gross.. i never wanna have that shit feeling.. it sucks..

so this song goes.. greenday!!

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone!!


My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Til then I walk alone

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the borderline of the edge
And where I walk alone
Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone..

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Til then I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Til then I walk alone

passion

hello there... today i just found my old cds.. burn all my old mtv vids and songs inside.. since i was sec 3 ?? haha now i revive them into the laptop.. yea!!! oh man. blink concert videos awesome!! because of all this vidz.. i was greatly inspired each time i watch to be a rocker.. i mean like i felt the passion and the joy of being a musician .. i just love being there on the stage rocking wif my band someday.. wif the crowd responding.. also watch the mtv cribs.. oh man. give me more and better ideas how i wanna my house to be next time haha..

today wasnt really a good day cause i went to the factory agian today for the interview and it was lunch time? so yea i came back 1 hour later wif zhi wei.. and than they say come tml!! whahahahha... so yea.. tml i am going early i dun care.. affter that went home to like do all my cd and stuff.. wanted to find my half life so i can play cs.. but than can't find it.. my cd key!! =( anyway.. the good news is that i am going to the nike joga finals.. wif krisitan and nazrul.. haha!! the underdogs.. we really made it dude.. i gonna play soccer wif matin and all see who going haha.. i love soccer.. i love music.. i love my life if i can do this all my life!! haha..

anyway i watch the mtv diary.. show how billy joe armstrong talk abt his family.. yea its isnt easy to be a musician and balance family the same time.. its no point having a great career being a rocker but have no one share it wif.. its so cute when he drives his son to buy fish ..and the fish is part of the armstrong family .. hahaha.. cool.. if he was my dad.. omg.. yea.. =) seeing blink 182 agian.. made me feel so special.. i really do use to idolised tom delonge.. he is so cool..

well all i can do now is just wait wait wait and go go go go go.. haha.. somethings are meant to take and some meant to leave.. can't take them all rite.. so yea.. maybe when i have a bigger cradle next time =) lulululululu... i am going BLINK!!!! now haha.. yea rock on mates always!

time

hello mates.. yes yes yes.. i got my notebook!! =) loving it.. toshiba m100.. its 2.2kg.. not really light la. but its lighter than others.. most of them.. so yea.. i spend my whole sunday at home haha.. bored... watched the singapore local movie One More Chance.. nice show ... can cry the touching parts haha.. tml going for interview.. for the 3rd time saying this cause on saturday.. the factory was close?? haha gonna smack qing rong la.. tml going agian.. better be open now haha..

well recently i have been chatting wif some of my frens online .. having some problems.. some are quite similar to mine.. and yea.. its always like this.. i mean like when u help someone to gain confidence.. its easier said than done.. but now i guess i gain back my confidence.. after many days of wondering and all... just that i still have some unfinish business.. if ya noe wad i mean yea.. =) have been listening to this song by paparoach Scar.. nice song.. but doesnt really suit my suitation cause its like telling the person off.. which i dun.. but i like this part of the song

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

the song is nice la... emo type all that.. but than there is another song i also listen .. by lifehouse.. "you and me"
What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off you

Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of

You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive

haha yea songs just control my emotions.. i listen to those that suits my feelings most.. well.. news for myself.. well i did chat to her alittle today.. wasnt much.. dun even noe if she did read my last post... its weird ya noe.. wondering if she reads it or not..

i got to just keep moving on.. and just keep in touch as much as i can.. this blog is something i can pour my thoughts too.. cause its like telling ya fren about yur troubles.. the things is that.. blogging here.. whoever reads it.. becomes like a fren to consult me haha.. great.. my blog has all along been my passion my tale my life

thoughts

okay today was a day agian that i think and think think think...
this feels like one month ago how it all started.. i am just gonna type everything down this time.. i discovered something last nite quite shocking.. its a secret la.. so yea.. i dun think i wanna say it here.. well its something maybe i should had know so much earlier.. i think almost everyone i know in jj noes abt me chasing this gal.. lol.. but than since the start of jj everyone keeps making fun of me wif gal by gal.. so many.. the turth is that i only had one.. but its not really the start of jj i had this started.. its was more like abt the 3rd week onwards.. yea here i go.. this is my tale..

well..this gal is in my class..only started to really talk to her around chinese new year that time.. cause we went to orchard togther to meet the class as she came from her sec skool ,i was from home.. so yea clementi was the spot.. since than i started to know her more little by little... it din't really caught my attention immediately.. cause i am like okay.. just talk whatever crap i have.. everyone gets my crap talking.. slowly i started messaging her and talking to her on the phone.. since the night which she cried alot alot.. even msn talk still can pause to like cry first.. weird but than i know she is deeply hurt by her problems.. that night was the starting of everything to me.. because of that chat on msn.. it lead to me talking on the phone later.. and yea so on we just talk and talk.. slowly i have this feeling that maybe i should like go for her.. cause i found her very sepcial and someone whom makes me wonder abt certain things.. my plan was that i just try my best to make it obvious to show that i like her.. but not tell her directly.. cause i know its gonna be serious if i did that.. so yea.. i started opening myself more and more...

but this made me thought alot too.. because i dunnoe of how or what she thinks.. so its like not nice to make someone feel so werid.. yea i continued chatting wif her all that.. just wanting to know her better to know why i should go for her.. and also to have a better understanding.. somehow.. because of this.. it troubled me to communitcate wif her.. its like i suddenly become so shy... than my fren like hint me that she wun go into relationship cause she wanna study for a levels.. so yea.. i mean like i don't entirely believe thats the reason la.. maybe i felt that my chances were slimmer..

its never nice to feel this way wondering of how the gals feel or think.. its scary.. cause i came wif so many conclusions.. which hunts me.. well valentine's day was a day i wanted to ask her out.. even knowing that we are going in a group.. cause i felt that it would be nicer to like ask her on the phone.. so yea.. i did.. and that took really really alot from me.. but than the outcome wasnt really nice.. ya know.. but in the end still went in a group.. ya that point of time... my hopes were like totally crashed.. because its like maybe she is beyond my reach.. i mean like i felt i wasnt the only one for her.. seriously.. it did made me think that who ever gets her is a lucky man.. so i guessed i aint that lucky.. so yea.. i seriously had troubles to like just leave it like that.. came to conclusion that i do suck at expressing.. its has been my life living wif it.. even my ex.. i did a lousy job expressing not until she was mine.. its hard to tell someone u like about the things u felt.. because the outcome of wad she feels or says.. its just scary to get the answers back..

so yea that very day.. i like start to really let go of this.. but than things somehow refresh.. i mean like.. she still talk and all that.. after having a discussion that she thinks that i don't like her?? so yea.. i was like .. omg... how how?? so i just continued being nice to her.. but than this time.. the feeling i got is much more stronger i had the one b4.. i dunnoe why.. it just keeps me beating when i think of it .. even now.. but than my plan this time was to like take it slow.. and easy.. but i always think that being slow.. i think someone else might catch her instead.. i dunnoe if i am being selfish or wad.. but thats what i really afriad of.. because its like just too heartbreaking to see someone u like telling u that she wanna studys so yea no relationship.. than later u find that she is wif someone else.. its a nightmare.. which i always think of..

having to think so much about chasing her.. i came back to myself and ask.. why her? i dun have a definate answer.. what i can say is that i am following my heart all the way.. cause that brings joy the most.. well can say that she is one of a kind whom i never met in my life.. i mean like its just nice sharing thoughts and story wif her.. dunnoe if she finds it nice anot.. but than.. yea.. i dunnoe.. thats the thing.. but i really missed those time talking to her.. its just something i treasure alot..

on the last day of skool.. i sang a song infront of the class.. which i composed for her.. suppose to only let her listen.. its a song that suppose to say what happened and all that.. well it was a last min thing to like play it in the canteen to let everyone from my class and some others in the canteen to hear.. i never thought i could have done something like that.. i mean like to actually write a song in 1 day and perform a solo when i suck at vocals.. for just her.. it took 101% of me.. later that day.. i remember going to viknesh house.. he talked to me about it.. cause he was by my side when i played.. the thing is that i dunnoe what he thoughts all that.. but i recived a meassge later that night from her.. saying that she wants to study and have personal stress.. so yea she dun wanna have any commitment and hope we could just remain frens.. she likes the song..

that message made me wondered.. is it because that she is really way beyond my reach.. i mean that she is like someone so good that i am not good enough for her.. or is it really because she dun wanna have more burden in life having this.. well i replied that i just wanna know her more so that i could get my answers better.. at the same time to find out why i am really into her.. since i sang that song.. things changed.. i felt that it affected how we talk now alot.. its like more general now.. just normal talk.. nothing much special.. maybe alittle..

the thing is that i wondered most is that did she ever felt for me.. or still does.. this 2 answer is very important to me.. because its like to decide if i should go on or not.. and yea this made me drag all the way till now.. i mean like i am not wanting the answer that if she wants to get into relationship wif me.. thats something naturally will be decided.. but now .. i till today have no answers if she ever like me.. i mean like if she does enjoy my company.. i will make her enjoy everyday of her life...all i wanted to see from her is her being happy.. which mattered most of all..

anyway.. to me .. love is never a burden... its always something extra specially for us to have.. cause whenever you are in the lowest point of life..u have someone to fall back on who believes in you.. that drives you to things u never imagined u could achieve.. its like an extra gear in you.. everything u do.. the reason is because of love..

well.. i always regret for not doing certain things in life.. which makes me so foolish.. the things i wanted to do.. i acutally wrote a lyrics out of it.. goes something like this.. "she is always there in my dreams, me telling her how much i felt for her. but its just a dream, if only could this be real. to look into her eyes and tell her how much i love her" its was when i going home just now from orchard.. very long bus ride.. because i actually wanted to send her home .. so ya she went up the bus.. i couldnt bring myself to go.. so yea i regret.. could had took that chance to do it ...

just because of her.. i have so much deep thoughts.. and getting to know that its her and because of her making me think like this.. is like wow.. she is really someone special to me.. that drove my spirit for 2 months.. even the times we had were short.. and maybe not special to her.. it did really gave me alot of things to learn in life..

knowing her was a blessing.. she is like an angel so high up there.. and i just wait and watch her.. the greatest chase of my life.. she took my heart away.. and yet i am here.. just waiting.. =)

guess that this post will be really the longest of all post.. btw if she gets to read this.. actually this is how much i wanna tell her abt my thoughts.. and hearing the answer right from her face.. it shall take me to where i head later.. i wished i could tell her this to her eyes..

its 2 am now.. and yes.. watever mention above is something i really kept for very long.. i know it can be selfish or boring.. well.. if it is.. thats life for me.. and hope i could be a better man..and hope my time will come.. to be like robbie williams!! lol. great lyrics .. love it..

well i hope that this won't make things worse.. and sorry to her if it did.. i shall shut up when u tell me to.. this is how much i think almost everyday.. so pouring it out here.. i hope it will get a better understanding..

playing soccer is my passion and yes soccer is my game and love.. wth.. okay i shut u p now.. its a long post i suppose.. okay

goodbye you

creep

running in circles... coming back to the start
i don't know anything about what is happening..
makes me feel like i am just so lost
i always fear of losing.. but losing is something that makes me learn
but losing it and learning.. is it possible to get it back..?
i shall keep my focus clear and just keep believing..
maybe someday.. it will come true..
or maybe i will just lose hope..
than thats when i start regret..
kill me

kill me

hey mates.. i am totally in chaos now.. my mind is so screwed up.. went chalet yesterday than overnite than this morning play soccer wif mike matin harision and kai.. than go look at laptops wif my parents.. after comming home.. this is when my world statt to become darker.. and i felt like really killing myself.. cause i found out something.. that i should had known long ago.. and now its uselss.. stupid me.. i feel so dumb =( haiz.. this is life.. i suck and tml i shall suck even more .. and so on

day at home

hello!! omg today i watch 4 moives in a row in my own room.. its super boring when u dun have money and u dun have anything on... all i could do is rot at home... today is a day i wasted.. doing nothing.. totally useless.. recently i have been thinking of buying so many things.. man.. this made me wanting to get a job.. even now i am working in coffee bean.. i wanna get another job.. because i want more money to get what i want.. how i wished if i have bigger allowance and get anything i want.. my soccer boots is the only thing i ever work for to get it.. and i just love it.. life can really be boring sometimes.. all i just need to do is just get something to do.. today i just feel soooo lazy.. thats why i watch movies.. think i am gonna watch some more..

hungry now!!!

monday

hello mates.. today i am going to jj to watch a soccer match agianst srjc.. dicky's skool.. and i think he will be there haha.. wish i could like trash his ass la.. anyway.. its really boring to like have a long holiday now.. i really feel like start skool now and just study study.. soccer soccer... seriously.. i suddenly felt the urge to like become an engineer.. its a good thing because i am going it wif my passion.. hope that poly will still have space for freedom.. well.. skool starts like at april 24th.. gonna go orientation agian... ice breaker agian haha.. i somehow feel like earning alot of cash now.. but coffee bean isnt a kind of job that gives big money if u work hard.. think i might get some factory work to earn big cash.. wanna get myself a new mp3.. new psp.. 2 pair of shoes.. bag.. shirts.. NEW HP!!! i got to earn like a 1000 to really get all this.. mp3.. ipod nano.. cost abt 300 plus.. psp 500plus.. shoes.. maybe around 60 each.. bag getting it likt around 70.. shirt.. get 2 topman shirt.. 140 togther.. haha its aready above 1000.. wanna get a new hp that cost around 500.. hrmm.. i think i should get a better hp than get a mp3.. get a mp3 phone.. but than i just love ipod nano.. its so small and have so many songs.. haiz..

anyway i am really waiting to get the package from ngee poly so i can go and get my laptop!! i am just waiting waiting.. cause if i get it.. i would get a bag also.. gonna get a crumpler bag.. i have been having dreams lately.. its like always abt the same thing or person.. wonder if its a good or bad sign.. haiz.. life is like this.. and i wanna move on..

sum of all thoughts

jj nite 2 nites ago.. awesome.. it was very emotional seeing everyone.. everyone misses s jj.. its sad that now most of them i can't see them like we were in the first 2 months.. mr chng.. best teacher ever.. even the class has only been 2 months wif him. he still welcomes us back to jj or to him anytime.. he was shaking my hand and saying that i should at least see you in NUS or NTU 3 years from now or after ns.. matin cried.. seeing him cried made me felt like crying too.. but mike was there keeping us strong =) mass dance was awesome.. danced wif celest liying and mike haha.. we did the train all over the hall.. and i was drenched in my class shirt.. like i just jumped into a swimming pool.. the singing session was nice.. singing our hearts out.. haha mike was really teasing me.. when the chorus of thats where u find love.. dunnoe if i should state here wad exactly happen.. those who knows will know =) i gonna really miss jj alot.. it was like the perfect skool for me to study in.. but too bad i am not good enough for it.. after everything i went to thank umar.. he said he will miss me.. and yea i will miss everything about jj.. i was very very sad... felt like crying.. but still i hold it.. i reached home at 11.30 that nite.. matin so badly miss jj that he din wan to go home and just stay wif us..i felt the same too.. jj has somehow became a part of me.. its a blessing to meet u guys and gals in jj..

after jj nite.. the next day was li ying's birthday.. had some problems wif my fren afiq.. b4 going there.. i was really pissed off wif him.. dunnoe to blame myself or wad.. but he treats me like dirt yesterday.. and harrsion was there.. saying he is not your fren.. haiz.. my classmate for 3 years.. afiq.. i dunnoe wad to say.. but its sad seeing u like this.. u been having physcological problems..which i never mention.. cause i accept the way u are.. even ppl like says about u.. and like talk bad about u.. i never once join them.. cause i thought u were a real friend.. and now after something like this happen.. i guess i must be wrong... its such a pain to find that someone who u thought was yur buddy.. stabs u at the back.. well.. after that went to kap.. met celest and suan wee.. haha they waited for me like 1 hour.. than we ate macs.. awhile later came liying .. than her nan hua frens ... i never thought that the celebration was at her house.. i didnt give her the present as early as the rest because i was waiting for mike.. cause he also paid part of the present.. so yea.. we went to her house first than later came down to fetch mike up.. he was injured la. than climb up that hill haha.. haha we only gave the presents only when they were taking photos.. milton passed her the present which was a guitar and i said its a share from the four of us.. and harrison.. than i pass her my own present.. lol. it looks so simple la my one.. i should had wrap it.!! haha.. the cake looks quite nice.. white and pink.. but when she cuts the cake and i saw it inside.. i was like wow.... jam.. =) but the best part was eating the cake.. its cold inside.. haha.. one of the nicest birthday cake i ate.. while eating the cake.. i was sitting wif mike milton bryan and liying's mom.. haha suddenly we just talk.. well she did a very good job being a host.. nice and cool mom.. lol.. the thing that catches me most was her younger brother.. running around all over and being so hyper active.. reminds me.. when i was young haha..but for me.. i was much more worse.. well.. stayed till around 11.30.. haha... luckily me mike and milton manage to catch our last bus..

today went to play the nike joga 3v3 competition haha.. i was really nervous at first.. but than we won 5 games in a row!!!!wow!! haha but than they say if win 5 games must change court.. than we queue up agian.. super super long.. and the worst part was we got this very good team.. and they score against us in a blink of an eye.. we never touched the ball haha.. but than we were told her got into the finals.. but than tml we shall do it agian.. to get better chances =)well can say things are getting better so far.. just that i miss jj alot alot..

and yes.. SKOOL STARTS IN APRIL 24!!! WAHHAHAHAH CAN DIE WAITING

Who is comming and who is going? I just sit here and wait.. during hari raya last year.. my house nearby.. this road.. where will it take me? who will be there? who won't? life is like a box of chocolates.. ya neva noe wad ya gonna get =) 

lalallala

omg mates.. been going out everyday to town.. since monday.. shites.. i am so broke now.. staying at home.. will just make me think think think until i go nuts.. its soooo boring at home.. =( tml is jj nite.. alot of ppl asking me if i was going.. wad do ya think? lol.. duh!! going of course... oh mann.... skool starts like next month for me.. soooo long... i at home blasting music into my ears.. the same song.. over and over agian.. addicted to this song.. don't you forget about me.. it really suits my mood now.. serious.. haha... having mood swings.. felt so good playing soccer just now... but i got injured in just 5 mins.. so unlucky.. i hurt my foot bone.. soo pain!! yet i played for 4 hours .. hope i wun go nuts until i go and do something stupid.. tml afiq asked me to go clementi gym to work out haha.. need to pass him the money also.. think i go for awhile only... i badly want skool to start asap!! i super bored.. somebody please just kill me.. so i wun suffer lol..

life is amazing yet boring now!! cause staying at home..is like URHH... cant do much.. anyway.. hope tml will be a better day la.. cause i will be going to jj nite!! hehe =)

Don't you forget about me

THis song is dedicated to you

DON'T YOU FORGET ABOUT ME

Won't you come see about me
I'll be alone, dancing, you know
Tell me your troubles and doubts
Giving me everything inside and out
love's strange: so real in the dark
Think about the tender things
That we're working on
Slow change can pull us apart
When the light gets into your heart

[Chorus]
Don't you forget about me
Don't, don't, don't, don't
Don't you forget about me
(times 2)

As you walk on by
Will you call my name
As you walk on by
Will you call my name
When you walk away

Oh, will you walk away
Will you walk on by
Come on, call my name
Will you call my name

la lalala la lalala lalalalalala
la lalala la lalala lalalalalala
la lalala la lalala lalalalalala

globe

today went shopping wif my parents the entire day!! bough new globe shoes!! super chio.. nice cool.. haha .. i just loved it.. din expect them to spend so much on a shoe for me.. first time!! =) anyway.. i got a new pair or ear phones too.. i loving it.. makes my music feel so real now where ever i go.. sound quality matters alot!!! meet up wif bryan and mike just now at kap.. we talk crap all the way sia.. and say how we miss our times.. yea.. its nice seeing both of them back.. guess i gonna miss alot of frens soon.. tml going for yfc interview.. hope and pray hard i get in =)

creep

today was an emotional day.. thinking of just 1 thing.. and yes it did make me feel so lost.. in the morning went for wu shu.. went to jun wei's house first.. than train on some of my rusty moves in wu shu.. injured my groin badly.. so yea.. cant kick much.. today when i was sparing.. i felt like giving my full force out.. but i cant la.. or else i will die.. after that went to work.. everyone at coffee bean was like.. MING!! u still working? surviving? lol.. than act like they forget me la.. i just felt that i wanna be isolated the whole day.. stare blank.. after my work.. i went out to my work place the tables there.. the outdoor part of coffe bean.. the view was fantastic.. and the wind was strong.. i stood on the pillar.. where below me was a cliff.. i just rasie my hands up and close me eyes.. why am i feeling this way.. the wind blew my sorrows always.. felt better.. my fren at coffee bean was singing the 'creep' song.. lol. it really suits my mood la.. felt like screaming ...

anyway.. i just cant wait to go skool la.. all the jc start aready.. while the polys all still got 1 month?? =( =( .... i wanna like start studying seriouslly.. and yea.. play soccer.. do everything.. better than just work and work everyday.. oh my.. i think without music .. i would had gone nuts.. music control my emotions..

i guess that life for me.. it begins wif happiness.. and passion.. tuesday going for youth flying club interview.. to get my private jet licence.. wif kenny.. called me during work la.. haha.. it will be another week break.. dunnoe do wad.. till sunday i work agian.. i got so many things in mind wanna buy aready... get a good laptop.. get a crumpler laptop bag.. get a bike? get new shoes.. get new shirts from topman.. get a few pants.. get more gel and wax.. omg it makes alot of difference when i wax my hair.. or else i look like nerd.. gotta gear up wif confidence to start studying hard agian..

lulululu... all i can say mates.. Welcome to my life ! yea simple plan .. haha this is so sick.. more like mattew bellamy.. i wanna be.. i also feel like being kurt cobain.. do wad he is most happy doing... but sad la he kill himself because.. wad ppl love to see him to do is wad he hate most to do.. so yea.. life is quite unfair.. shotgun to the head.. think i should like go and learn turn table.. so can learn to become slipknot.. aggresive emotions.. always

sup

hello.. its like 1.15am now.. yea.. felt like blogging after looking all 06A02 photos.. looking at it reminds me of times we were together.. yea nice.. anyway.. i think that many things are getting clearer to me now.. i think that i get hold up quite easily.. hakim was like repeating this over and over agian.. haha.. he is really my real fren.. even duo he wasnt there for me all the time.. but he was there when i needed him the most.. i got to say that if not because of him i wouldnt be wad i am today.. he made me love music.. how to aprriciate life.. and time to chill out haha.. oh my oh my.. ngee ann poly.. gonna meet alot of new ppl agian..

oasis still remains the band i always let it lead my life.. songs that will play my life "dont go away" "stand by me" " let there be love" "dont look back an anger" "stop crying yur heart out" listen to these songs.. they pretty much lead the rythm of my life.. its nice stuff..

Class 06A02 u ROXOR! 

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A brand new day now.. i feel so sorry to done the class message thing so last min than i write so little only.. anyway.. i gonna really miss u guys.. yesterday was the last day and to some it may be the last time i seen u.. my life in jj.. i can never forget.. even duo it may be just only 2 months.. it felt more than that.. how i wish it was 2 years instead yea? well.. time really flys.. now we have come to an end.. every ending there is a new beginning.. for many of us.. i dunnoe if i could still meet u all up agian.. i hope that all of the class 06A02 will never forget the memories we had.. its something i will never forget.. i got to say that i felt sad yesterday going home.. when can i ever capture that moment we had agian.. keep in touch mates...

i hope my life will stay carry on and get better.. i never really talk abt this on my blog b4 cause i noe that she might read it someday.. lol.. anyway.. yea the song i wrote for her.. i spend nights thinking how can i express my feelings abt her.. thinking abt that makes me afraid of manythings.. cause i am like kind of a screwed up person.. so the chances making it a success is slim.. but its amazing.. i got soo inspired when i composed that song.. because i noe that if i dun do it.. i never gonna even have a chance to try.. and i gonne regret for a very long time.. somehow i felt that after singing the song and letting her listen.. i had not done my best.. my personal thoughts are always abt her... what matters most is that i wanna be happy always.. i can't force anything rite.. well.. i cant expect anything good since i went after her.. cause i noe that its just too fast.. i can't really find a reason why she is special.. i just felt it.. i got to respect her decision.. all i can do now is go on wif life and just be there for her.. going to poly may sound like i am gonna slack.. but actually its all crap.. like viknesh told me abt his bro in poly .. its all about pure hardwork if u wanna do well.. i got give my best this time.. i really hope that my frenship wif her will still be there and stronger.. in this world.. anything is possible if u believe.. =)

well going up so high.. i hope i dun end up like kurt kobain.. lol.. skool starts like in 1 month time.. really long break.. hope to keep in contact wif all my jj mates.. guess now its back to old working days wif coffee bean.. yea..

jj

today... all i could say.. is that it was great =)
last day of jj.. yes its sad leaving u all..
and yes finally like can say wad i did today
the song i sang it out today to her..
whew.. that took alot from me..
was touched by the class spport alot..
could had just teared.. but yea i was strong
things are suppose to be better
and maybe is it now =)
thank you u all for everything...
i will miss my memory in JJ
everyone going seperate ways..
yeas i hope we still keep in touch..
06A02 rocks.. and we must still united!!
its the best class ever...

I would like to use this song to remember JJ..

In Loving Memory
Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone and
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly

I never knew what it was to be alone....no
'Cause you were always there for me
You were always home waiting

But now I come home
And I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see

And I know
You're a part of me
And its your song
That sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight
'Cause it comforts me

I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of the one that was so true
You were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

I never knew what it was to be alone....no
'Cause you were always there for me
You were always home waiting

But now I come home
And its not the same no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone

And I know
You're a part of me
And it's your song
That sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight
'Cause it comforts me

I'm glad He set you free from sorrow
But I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you'll be here
With me still

All you did you did with feeling
And you always found a meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will

And I know
You're a part of me
And it's your song
That sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight
'Cause it comforts me

omg this photo is like taken 1 year ago? screwed up brain trying to study for o's ... well i was like listening music all the way.. btw this photo is special because its the first ever photo taken on chee fatt's phone!! haha yea.. hey mate.. when are we gonna go for our special trip?? haha miss u lots mate.. u made me laugh the loudest and the longest.. if it wasnt for u.. i wouldnt become a jackass.. well u are the bigger one.. life will never be the same =) 

suck

hello mates.. today i wasnt feeling good at all at the end of the day... i was injured and feeling a abit uneasy... maybe i shouldnt had thought of this so much.. somethings i regreted doing and somethings i did was lucky.. there will always a point of time where i can really go nuts in many ways.. but doing that sometimes makes me feel really free and happy.. and ya.. ppl might think i take this life as a joke..

i don't know how ppl think of me .. its real scary..
one of the reason is maybe because i dun really care wad ppl says abt me and i just go ahead.. sometimes i do get affected and sometimes i dun
if u think i am happy going on this way.. well maybe yur rite..
i am not sure wad the future brings me in..
all the greatest things i ever thought are illusion
can i make it reality?
wad makes me think that its gonna make me happy?
i realise happiness is very important to me..

haiz.. i always get misunderstood.. even the place where i work.. ppl still talks abt me.. which i dunnoe.. i mean like.. how i wish i could just see all of this.. and just correct my mistakes.. i been trying so hard to become someone better.. everytime i felt like i did.. i think it has made me too proud sometimes.. or maybe always..

this is life.. full of everything.. i can feel like i am gonna die..until some miracle saves me.. all i wanna do is music now .. i cant stand all this stress kept in my head.. how i wish i had my own fender and own marshall amps.. training vocals really hard.. thats why i am like losing my voice these days..

i will get my answers sooner or later.. but i always thought of the worst.. and it happens 90% of my life.. i dunnoe if i am really dumb or just that i am not born to do it.. i always dream that i could be like tom delonge someday.. can play the guitar and sing.. not may be the best .. but i just love his style..

all i can do is dream dream dream.. when can i ever take this step ahead of life..
life is all about making choices..
tonight i will just think all night..
have i really started my life?

i am going nuts..

today i am going to take a step ahead

today was quite a strange day
i skip all classes to play badminton
there is something always running through my mind
my mates say i should just go for it
i am just afraid things would shatter
went home today early
slept in the bus all the way
can't say much now
the time will come

zai

today soccer traning ran 22 rounds around the field.. lol. than had 2 sided match agian.. this time i play crap.. so ya and my blister tore my skin.. after that umar suddenly just blow off scolding the whole team.. kena pump everything than suddenly go into the gym haha. actually was preparing to have a birthday bash.. and yea we did hahaha.. manage to hit a few times on his back.. he is strong dey.. haha.. all we went through the punishment by umar was just an act haha.. okay la. quite fun..

before training was in skool.. i pon all the lessons!! haha.. so fun.. first i went to see the ogls doing mass dance.. than my class ppl started to join in.. haha.. than suddenly i felt like dancing too.. so yea nicolas offered me to dance.. haha damn gay la.. than later danced wif celest.. can see everyone laughing at my lame dance la..ahhaha.. they recorded my dance la.. wa lao.. better pay me!! haha.. after that went to canteen and sat there for 2 .5 hours.. haha quite fun la.. talk to so many ppl.. than go to prayers.. lol.. i enjoyed it actually cause we are like so united.. than went back to skool played badminton than go soccer..

now i have some inspiration.. which i had lost quite sometime ago.. after days of thinking so hard.. so yea i finally can put it in words in music.. so yea.. hope at least i get something out at the end of the day :D

thursday

hello mates.. today went to JP to watch movie wif celest liying mike bryan milton.. watched pink panter.. wasnt really that good la.. but okok la.. the cinema was so cold!! haha.. after that went to eat at long john.. than go home.. today the things happen quite fast i can say.. did enjoy a little..

sometimes i feel like giving up
there would always be a shine of hope showing me
should i accept the fact ?
should i just go get what i want?
or should i just let it go and wait till another time..
time is running out.. once agian another day is gone..

wednesday

today had training wif blisters on my right foot.. but i played striker today!! haha.. but quite disappointing la.. only got a few shots.. anyway.. dad fetch me home.. so yea.. slept in the car.. nothing much to say la.. cause i lazy to think now.. :D

DAMNIT WOHOO!!!

I GUESS THIS IS GROWING UP ? This song rocks!

It's alright / to tell me / what you think / about me
I won't try / to argue / or hold it / against you
I know that / you're leaving / you must have / your reasons
the season / is calling / and your pictures / are falling down
(they're falling down)

The steps that / I retrace / the sad look / on your face
the timing / and structure / did you hear / that he fucked her?
a day late / a buck short / I'm writing / the report
on losing / and failing / when I move / I'm flailing now

And it's happened once again
I'll turn to a friend
someone that understands
sees through the master plan

But everybody's gone
and I've been here for too long
to face this on my own
well I guess this is growing up
well I guess this is growing up

And maybe / I'll see you / at a movie / sneak preview
you'll show up / and walk by / on the arm / of that guy
and I'll smile / and you'll wave / we'll pretend / it's okay
the charade / it won't last / when he's gone / I won't come back

And it'll happen once again
you'll turn to a friend
someone that understands
and sees through the master plan

But everybody's gone
and you've been there for too long
to face this on your own
well I guess this is growing up

Well, I guess this is growing up
well, I guess this is growing up
well, I guess this is growing up
well, I guess this is growing up
well, I guess this is growing up

tired day

hello mates once agian.. today was a hell of a tiring day.. i fell asleep in almost all my lessons.. yesterday had soccer training.. ran 4km than train some match practice.. super tired.. and i fell asleep halfway yesterday night messaging.. this morning i felt the tiredness.. dunnoe why i ate so much today.. ate 2 plates ... 1 hot dog.. ice cream.. rootbeer float.. ate somemore i came home.. today i am home early!! haiz.. its boring la.. back home dunnoe wad to do.. i guess i will end up sleeping.. suppose to jam today but than mike also very tired so yea..

somehow today pass by very fast.. nothing much happen.. next week is the last week of skool.. i am getting tired of lessons.. all i wanna do is enjoy b4 the postings are out.. and after that its time to get serious.. somehow i just cant wait to get into poly... i even dreamt about the orientation .. lol.. well the sad part is that i am leaving JJ and my new found frens.. hope to keep in contact wif ya all.. i cant imagine life wifout jj in this 3 months.. so yea.. thank you all for everything

my time will come one day..

sunday morning

hello mates once agian.. its sunday morning.. its been a long time since i went wu shu.. i miss my last grading =( anyway i am having soccer feva now.. hahah been playing soccer almost everyday... yesterday training .. i all the way train my shots.. think its getting more accurate.. i love to whack the ball striaght and hard..

anyway.. had keyboard lesson yesterday morning.. and after that went to acjc wif liying celestine matin mike milton and his gf.. lol.. was kind of lost in the skool.. cause i like have no idea wad to do la.. everything also need to use the ticket which i dun have.. haha in the end celest and liying treat me some tickets to get food and tried a few games.. and there was this game where u have to kick the ball through this tire.. and beside it was a guy on wheel chair... haha i almost hit him la.. so scary.. and mike told me to blast the ball.. and it rebound off the rooftop and back to my face!!! hhahaha... damn funny la.. the person was really scared.. he said chill it mate.. u gonna tear this place down. hhaha.. =) after that we went to holland v to eat burger king.. i dun realise time to fly so fast.. and yes i got to go training after that. and it started to rain super heavily .. wif lightning and everything.. in the end when i reached skool.. it stop raining.. and yea we train...

last nite was so horrible la..i kena mosquito attack!! cannot sleep.. than i take blanket and wrap myself up than finally can sleep lol...anyway.. today i gonna play soccer agian.. futsal this time.. time to show some flicks and blast hahaha.. yea.. i love soccer.. just love it..

there are many things i would to say to you but i dunnoe how..
cause maybe u got to be the one that save me
and after all.. yur my wonderwall! =)

vday

happy valentines day mates.. omg.. i suddenly feel so fresh.. like i woke up from my grave.. there are things that are FIANLLY clear off my mind.. whew.. i admire zhi wei courage.. to just chiong.. get it striaght and yea.. do it once.. do it right.. life as usual mate.. love is all around.. and please let there be love.. yea.. oasis.. gonna miss their concert =(

This is one of my fav song that makes me happy =)

SONGBIRD
Talking to the songbird yesterday
Flew me to a place not far away
She's a little pilot in my mind
Singing songs of love to pass the time

Gonna write a song so she can see
Give her all the love she gives to me
Talk of better days that have yet to come
I never felt this love from anyone

She's not anyone
She's not anyone
She's not anyone

A man can never dream these kind of things
Especially when she came and spread her wings
Whispered in my ear the things I'd like
Then she flew away into the night

Gonna write a song so she can see
Give her all the love she gives to me
Talk of better days that have yet to come
Never felt this love from anyone

She's not anyone
She's not anyone
She's not anyone

yea mate.. lets rock n roll. ALL our way to our very last breath ! =)

goodbye

hello mates.. sowie haven been updating the past few days due to some reasons i dun felt like blogging. and yea i got my results on friday.. it was shocking to me how badly i done. lucky enough i still could enter poly wif a wide range of courses. the thing i am most disappointed wif is that my english really shocked me i got a D7.. i mean like.. how the hell did i get that? ya that destroy my chances but not entirely. i felt really really very bad after getting my results.. my mum cried when i got home.. and i felt so loved when my dad was like showing that there is still hope in life.. i felt so touched.. they were the first ones to know my results.. i felt i really let down alot of ppl that day.. but i got to thank my family for the encouragement and my mates hakim and chi leong for helping to sort out my courses. i was really in a whirl after the results.. i spent the entire day looking at all the courses..and ya met up wif lying and bryan later on and than went to hakim's house and than my house.. they stayed my house until 3 am..

i thought i would be so doomed.. that night.. the sky was so beautiful.. the moonlight was so bright and the stars all over it.. i think its a sign to me showing that there is still hope and never to give up.. recently i have been thinking alot.. i hope that my thoughts will not hold my life from going on..

well on saturday got a game in jj agian.. agianst the MOE team agian.. umar ask me to come for like my last game or something.. yea i came.. we lost 5-3 but we did better la .. compared to the last few games.. but i was really cut off my stamina.. cause i ate laksa b4 the game...after the game went to raffles city wif bryan to help him get some stuff.. but in the end he decided to go and get it the next day..

well i am working today at bugis coffee bean.. lol.. well ya.. hope to update tonight agian

5

today wasnt really my day.. but i rather felt quite peaceful.. i was actually so anxious abt the vjc match the entire whole day.. cause this could be my last match playing for jj and play against such a strong team.. leassons today were cool.. everything went smoothly.. and quite slack.. played badminton.. lol.. to actually warm my legs up la.. i felt my legs so tight in the morning.. after that had maths.. and yea went to jp wif matin,bryan,celest,liying and sarah.. to actually eat 1 hour b4 the match.. ate ice chendol.. haha.. and yea i thought the gathering for soccer was 3.30.. but its actually 3pm.. haiz.. kena rushed there la.. than we started warming up.. kicking around.. had my shots quite accurate.. lol..haiz.. anyway.. later we gathered and huddled.. we sang the skool song.. facing the spporters.. i felt so honoured to have the fans there supporting jj.. faces of my frens mates classmates jj mates... and i look down and up the flag.. bending my head down closing my eyes.. feeling the meaning of the song .. it was very emotional.. could be the last time hearing the skool song.. i was like come on!! lets go and win.. sadly we lost the game 2-0.. we played well.. i was proud of team jj.. i know we can make it to the championship.. i took quite a long time on the field feeling the last breath of team jj.. i am gonna miss my soccer mates.. and the supporters.. i got to thank u all those i ask to come and support.. it was a great exprience =)

results in 2 days time.. yea.. the story is yet to be continued..

3

it is confirm that this friday results are out.. I seriously want to have less than 20 points so i can stay in jjc.. i only had this thought only after taking my o levels.. thats why i having double thoughts.. haiz.. i should had put in even more effort la.. so i am confident abt it.. so afraid my results really screw me up..

well mates.. i really wish to stay in jj.. if i dun.. i would be sad.. even being in jj for only a month plus.. it has become a part of me.. the friends.. the teachers.. the faces.. the spirit.. after all the effort in put in jj wif my commiment in soccer and ogl.. it was all worth the blood to shed for.. today training was damn xiong la.. ran 300m burst.. 5 times!!! wth.. my legs cant even move properly la.. than play match after that.. than kena scold like wad la.. haiz.. its okay la.. i can take my mistake and learn.. now my body heating up because i have been not feeling well and i overwork my body out today.. almost vomited during training..

well tml gonna watch movie after skool wif celes and kuinoi.. dun abt the rest.. bryan said he had shadow meeting.. i suppose to go for coffee bean class lessons.. but since this is our last week of skool.. i wun let u all down and go on wif u all =) because this is the only chance in life we will have..

i really feel like making a tribute to jjc when i am gone.. to show my loving memory in jj that i will never forget.. cheer mates =(

2

omg i think i am seriously gonna fall sick.. been coughing.. well today went to skool for the ogl thing.. met the shadows.. wasnt really comfortable under their hands.. cause its like suddenly they are incharge of the ogls now.. i mean like they are aready selected to lead us.. which gives the ogls no room for leadership among ourselves.. no wonder they kept stressing abt the shadows and ogls sharing same power.. but it seems them controling ogls.. well.. wad to do?

The thing that strikes me most is that when the camp ic scold us for being slack taking our time to be puntual.. i mean like wtf la.. he said 1 pm meet.. than now he said 1245 we should be there aready.. and 1255 is when the bus comes in (like bloodly hell how we noe? ) i just hate it when the scolding gets on.. and its so obvious the kind of face the guy have is like MUAHAHAH i am bigger and have the rights to command u.. i felt like showing my finger.. lol.. its just this thing i am very uncomfortable abt.. haiz... dunnoe la.. its just not right i felt.. all the leadership roles among ourselves are under them.. and being scold.. its just not the spirit la.. i mean like if mistakes we do.. we learn together.. oh ya that reminds me when all the ogls sitting down and all the shadow standing surrounding us.. i mean like wow... i feel so small.. and when i was in the bus.. got this guy who is who damn thick skin.. kept shouting out for cheer.. siao!! than zhi wei also noe.. that this guy why become shadow? he more suitable for ogl.. cause he cheer hell of alot..lazy to talk abt it aready la.>

btw i walk back to clarke quay than met up wif afiq at ps.. we played x box for 3 hours.. haha so cheap.. 7.50!! =) yea felt so good.. and wads better is that we ate billy bombers agian!! on the house somemore..so shiok.. and yea we went hmv.. and guess wad? THEY PLAYED MUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!yea i love watching them rocking.. the whole hmv was muse.. yea.. =) after that went home.. and yea.. tada,, i am here =)
ps: tml skool

1

today went to visit the doctor early in the morning.. the report is that i have degenerated my ankle.. not really serious but i have to wear ankle guard from now on when ever i exercise or else it will become worse till i tear it.. and yes i was given the green light to carry on playing soccer!! =) MUAHHAHAHA

than afiq came my house to jam for awhile.. 0mg i was actually singing .. avril lavinge .. yea.. my happy ending.. somehow i enjoy that song very much..yea.. played drums as well.. made my bass drum more power! MUAHAH hahah.. yea.. feel it.. and i share wif him my jj spirit.. haha showed him the videos.. yea.. making him jealous.. and yea after that we went to marina square.. to chill out.. omg i actually broke the glass bottle head wif my teeth.. when i tried to open the cap wif my teeth.. there were small pieces of glass in my mouth.. quickly i hurried to the toilet and wash.. alittle blood only.. lucky nothing serious... whew... today i din really talk much to them... but 1 thing for sure.. we are anxious abt our results.. yea.. in the end i went home at 11.. but i am really bloated now.. hahahah

chilling out at starbucks sun tec wif afiq there and jun wei.. my old buddies.. thanks afiq for the treat.. almost the whole day.. i only spend 10 bucks..ate billy bombers.. played pool , bowling and drank.. haha.. i drank hell of alot today.. first was root beer .. than starbucks.. than later on long island volka.. than drank this can drink.. i was really damn bloated la.. afiq bought the same share as i did.. than he couldnt finish his burger.. i finish mine when he only took 1 bite.. haha.. it was damn nice la.. the burger.. =) i help him to finish abt half his burger.. now i still can feel the burger in my stomach haha... wow..  

pain

hello once agian.. today was a weird day.. cause i slept very early last night leaving everyone on msn talking to themself when i forget to log off.. cant sleep well actually after waking up at 1 am.. messy day today.. started wif lit.. than econs.. than break went to play badminton.. thanks nic for the training.. din expect to learn so much.. =) even in maths u help me.. really thanks mate.. than we played squash together.. taught him some basic moves.. haha.. yea went chinese and had chinese spelling and we sang a song.. haha i love the chourus part.. cause the singer went very hight pitch.. had to try a few times to catch that pitch.. haha.. after chinese went to jog 7km.. 16 rounds around the track.. after that went to play wif the j2 soccermates at the bar hahaha.. quite fun but i was later carried away playing wif matin harison and mike.. we practice set pieces.. yea we learn quite alot today.. mike was like so good la.. i mean the way he command.. we like planning wad to do some tactics we discover we actually unlock a way how to use the backs to the center and to the wing to strike.. and practice lots and lots of corner.. slightly b4 that kuinoi and celestine were shouting very far away calling me and said something.. i thought they said good bye or wad.. lol.. than i just wave back la.. actually they went to watch movie wif bryan and liying.. by the time i found out they aready watching the movie i not stupid too.. haha lucky i watched that movie.. matin was teasing me la when we were heading to the coffeeshop cause he heard wad kuinoi and celestine shouted la.. he though i was joining them .. haha than he sabo la.. than the soccerteam came asking me if i was dating them la.. omg.. la.. haha.. no wonder i like wad??? in the end i went to coffeshop wif the soccer team.. we sat and drank and eat.. i drank like 3 cups of water la.. super thirsty.. bryan called me when i reached home.. asking if i wanna join them.. lol.. its like aready 8? by the time i reach they going home la.. wanna to see doctor agian but it close agian!! haiz...

well i just told afiq that i wanna jam tml.. we said okay and plan to hang out tml nite.. yea.. miss those times mate.. when we just hang out till late .. i dunnoe wads my real plan tml also.. think i would be seeing the doctor tml morning.. and afternoon go jamming than catch a movie and chill out at city hall.. haha i dun understand why some ppl just look so low down at city hall la.. its the best place to chill out la.. hahaha.. i mean its like 10 times better than orchard and we dun have to spend so much $$..

when i came home.. i was feeling quite tired and a little sad somehow.. maybe i was thinking abt last nite post i entered..mark u said like i wanna die aready.. ya it sounds like i think.. but thats wad i felt .. a sense of something big is gonna happen.. bad or good i dunnoe.. but there would be a big change in life to me.. i noe it.. lucky i plan my route.. wad happen i know wad to do.. and ya some ppl are like so entu abt valentines day is comming.. lol.. i havent plan anything out yet cause i dun need to.. if ya noe wad i mean.. lol.. results should be out by than.. will get to see my old sec 5 mates.. back.. and yea.. an emotional result taking..

finally i manage to get back my old habits of typing long post.. haha.. it pours out my thoughts and feeling.. think i have to go find places to jam tml and invite more frens..

pain

hello once agian.. today was a weird day.. cause i slept very early last night leaving everyone on msn talking to themself when i forget to log off.. cant sleep well actually after waking up at 1 am.. messy day today.. started wif lit.. than econs.. than break went to play badminton.. thanks nic for the training.. din expect to learn so much.. =) even in maths u help me.. really thanks mate.. than we played squash together.. taught him some basic moves.. haha.. yea went chinese and had chinese spelling and we sang a song.. haha i love the chourus part.. cause the singer went very hight pitch.. had to try a few times to catch that pitch.. haha.. after chinese went to jog 7km.. 16 rounds around the track.. after that went to play wif the j2 soccermates at the bar hahaha.. quite fun but i was later carried away playing wif matin harison and mike.. we practice set pieces.. yea we learn quite alot today.. mike was like so good la.. i mean the way he command.. we like planning wad to do some tactics we discover we actually unlock a way how to use the backs to the center and to the wing to strike.. and practice lots and lots of corner.. slightly b4 that kuinoi and celestine were shouting very far away calling me and said something.. i thought they said good bye or wad.. lol.. than i just wave back la.. actually they went to watch movie wif bryan and liying.. by the time i found out they aready watching the movie i not stupid too.. haha lucky i watched that movie.. matin was teasing me la when we were heading to the coffeeshop cause he heard wad kuinoi and celestine shouted la.. he though i was joining them .. haha than he sabo la.. than the soccerteam came asking me if i was dating them la.. omg.. la.. haha.. no wonder i like wad??? in the end i went to coffeshop wif the soccer team.. we sat and drank and eat.. i drank like 3 cups of water la.. super thirsty.. bryan called me when i reached home.. asking if i wanna join them.. lol.. its like aready 8? by the time i reach they going home la.. wanna to see doctor agian but it close agian!! haiz...

well i just told afiq that i wanna jam tml.. we said okay and plan to hang out tml nite.. yea.. miss those times mate.. when we just hang out till late .. i dunnoe wads my real plan tml also.. think i would be seeing the doctor tml morning.. and afternoon go jamming than catch a movie and chill out at city hall.. haha i dun understand why some ppl just look so low down at city hall la.. its the best place to chill out la.. hahaha.. i mean its like 10 times better than orchard and we dun have to spend so much $$..

when i came home.. i was feeling quite tired and a little sad somehow.. maybe i was thinking abt last nite post i entered..mark u said like i wanna die aready.. ya it sounds like i think.. but thats wad i felt .. a sense of something big is gonna happen.. bad or good i dunnoe.. but there would be a big change in life to me.. i noe it.. lucky i plan my route.. wad happen i know wad to do.. and ya some ppl are like so entu abt valentines day is comming.. lol.. i havent plan anything out yet cause i dun need to.. if ya noe wad i mean.. lol.. results should be out by than.. will get to see my old sec 5 mates.. back.. and yea.. an emotional result taking..

finally i manage to get back my old habits of typing long post.. haha.. it pours out my thoughts and feeling.. think i have to go find places to jam tml and invite more frens..

OG 19 ! 

after soccer training 

BANANA FAMILY! WITH LOVE=) 

whats up mates! =) 

Thats a part of my class ROCKS!!! =) 

THE BANANA FAMILY! WITH LOVE =) 

revelation

REVELATION is what ppl of jjc has been talking about.. haha.. yea it brings me memories back to me yea or the orientation.. and jj nite.. omg today mass dance was so rusty for me la.. i forget so many moves haha.. anyway.. thanks ogls for all the effort u put in and the stuffs u gave me.. ogsa i din expect something so nice from u all =) og19 yea we took quit alot of photos haha..got the revelation cd too.. yea definately something nice to have.. F4 video was the best la to me.. so damn funny hahaha.. even duo its short.. its very very nice =)

even my stay in jj was short.. only 1 month.. it was one of the best month in skool i ever exprience.. time really fly mates.. the feeling i have now its like leaving u guys.. which is so .. i cant explain it in words.. next week would be our result taking.. it would either i come out of my skool smiling or screaming wif joy.. ya noe wad i got for my result if u can tell which reaction is for wad.. another thing that saddens me is that some of my friends in jj or class not sure abt staying in jj.. come on.. u have the chance.. take it.. u laugh and cheer the loudest in jj.. i can tell u all are happy to be in jj.. whats so hard thinking abt staying in jj.. even if some of them want to leave.. there would be more to come.. this is jj.. if u lost some.. u gain back more.. but one thing for sure is that my class is superb la.. haha.. =) imagine we study 2 years together taking a levels.. it would be a hell of a ride for 2 years.. dun need to think so much.. 1 month and yet so many things happen that change our lives.. everyone is happy in jj i noe it in my heart..

the banana family.. i will have to thank u all for the times we spend together.. it was nice visting bryan house for cny.. going to town wif u all.. we are this close now and yet 1 month ago we were strangers.. haha i seem to be like saying my last words to u all.. but one thing for sure.. i will never forget u guys.. =) keep in contact yea..

and the soccer team.. wifout u guys. i wun be here in jj.. got to thank umar for letting me into the soccer team last decemeber.. and the teachers who advice me and guide me.. i would really love to play wif u guys to the a division championship.. but that has to wait for my results.. even if i dun make it.. i will give u guys my 100% support in winning it and bringing the glory back to JJC !

now my class.. yea u all are the best! this is like my dream team class.. full of entu ppl and funny ppl.. viknesh is a superb class rap haha.. and also u kuinoi.. u all got the job done.. there is always answers to my question whenever i am lost.. thanks to u guys who guide me in class.. the class spirit is there la... i can sense it very strong.. i mean like my whole class is from F1 and i am like from F4.. ya total strangers on the first day when i met u all.. now we united.. even the revelation i was at first at F1 than i went back to F4.. watever it is.. we are 1 jj family.. thats what i feel most =)

well.. guess that wad i have to say b4 anything happens.. and would like to thank these ppl who has touched my life. banana family,bryan,celestine,kuinoi,matin,viknesh,ji shen,macus,liying,nicolas,donald,harison,fis,germaine,liying,xiuli,matani,xinyi,nazrul,syafiq,wanxian,shak,ady,umar,nazra,zai,soccer team jj, ogls , teachers of jj espically mr ng,miss phoo,mr cheng,mr SI, mr shankel..
thanks =)

picture taken last 2 weeks at sentosa.. yea.. harison on the left and right i dunnoe WHO? hahaha.. yea today btw went to bryan house agian to play ping pong and i LOST 60BUCKS!!! =( i lost it due to some game la.. kena rob by the rich.. =( my hong bao money!!! only left 10 dollars now la.. than after that go town just to eat wif them la.. zai kuinoi celestine bryan.. than go home so early la.. so sad la.. than i call my old mates to go out wif me to hang around to talk la.. which i love doing.. we sat at the coffee shop hazwani and talk .. yea long time since we met huh ? haha .. love all my mates.. and goodnite mates.. muahahha =) 

cny

hello mates.. sowie i was lazy to update my blog that often.. anyway.. today yes it is chinese new year.. went to houses for visiting and as usual i will always be the quiet one cause i dun speak hokkien.. haha.. was quite tired actually.. sleep in the car alot.. and after all the visiting went to watch movie wif my parents at bugis ... I NOT STUPID TOO haha.. ok la.. funny and quite emotional some parts.. i guess local movie suits us the best.. haha

anyway.. wad ran through my mind.. was that i am preparing to go poly if i cant stay in jjc.. planning to take music and technology.. at sp.. so far thats the course that interst me alot.. so ya i must take this a win win situation.. stay in jj will of course be good la.. thats what i want most.. but i cant depend so much on it.. or else i gonna feel so sad.. some to gain some to lose.. but i will of course keep contact wif my jj mates =) espically my banana family haha.. how i wish our jc life just starts.. no results to wait.. gonna miss u mates.. =(

tml going to bryan's crib.. so excited cause i never really been in a big house b4.. it sounds big.. haha.. maybe add some more cash to my collection too? hahah.. well i just wanna have a good time there.. wif all my mates =)

match

today we played agianst hong kah sec and won 4-3.. still quite dissapointed la.. even duo we won.. they make us look like fools la.. and i played damn horrible.. my control and vision wasnt there.. =( and we got scold la the j1 s .. cause some of the j1 suddenly got injured and dun come traning and when match come than ok.. but the thing that has been on my mind the whole day is abt staying in jj.. i very scared abt my reslts la.. haiz.. let fate decides.. where ever i go.. but i just love my class to much.. so fun..anyway.. i realise that my body is breaking down slowly.. lucky got break until next wednesday haha.. tml gonna see doctor for my x ray results.. hope nothing much serious..

here without you

hello mates.. sowie for the late updates.. yea yesterday went to sentosa.. so fun.. =) one of the best moments in sentosa for me.. i have something i wanna say.. i am havin the best class in my life now.. i mean like finally =) i used to envy other classes who are so cool but now i am in the best class!! muahaha =) crazy and cool ppl.. nothing much to type tonight sowie =( i lazy to think mates. yea thats all i wanna say =)

defeat

hello once agian.. today went back to tanglin for cca open house wif hakim.. miss the ncc show duo.. and i dun really like the new clt ernest.. looks so nerd and cocky.. wanted to teach my cadets new cheers but wasnt in the mood too.. i miss the feeling of being in ncc.. anyway.. after that.. had keyboard lesson.. my fingers became stiff agian.. maybe i never play for quite sometime but still in touch ehh :D went back to skool for soccer match agianst this MOE team.. wa lan lei.. they got this player damn freaking good la.. dribble pass the whole defence like water la.. bei tahan.. than i miss my shots too so sad.. and i think i play crapy la today.. cannot pass properly.. after the game my left ankle so pain la... than went to queensway.. wanted to get the new +10 the boots i all along desired for.. but than my pay still haven get =( damn sad sia.. tml i die die must get ah.. or else i even more sad... after that i went to macs to eat.. than this bryan ah.. make me laugh until my stomach cramp la.. damn spastic.. laugh all the way sia.. until he finally got in the cab and went home.. okay la.. today nothing much to say.. so yea.. nite mates

after soccer training

today had pc started at 930 and after that had econs, geog and chinese... damn boring haha.. slept halfway watching the geog vid.. think i din get enough sleep.. cause someone called me up at 1am last nite.. haiz... and i couldnt sleep well as my bro watch tv... until 4 am .. bei tahan.. after that went to meet my og frens at canteen.. haha always the table full one.. than no choice go sit wif my classmates.. ok la.. today made a few more new frens ... than played soccer in the rain.. traning.. was tough..as my leg calf hurts.. and my hips... but so far alrite... feel damn good passing the ball around wif confidence.. but dun tell its enough to improve my fitness and skills.. have been practicing alot of freekicks.. corners.. and my shooting.. anyway.. the good news is that i getting my pay this saturday!!! WOHOO!!!.. here i come baby.. addidas +10 hehehhehe.. .woohooo... and get a good massage for my legs.. damn tired.. and abit swollen.. my ankle still haven recovered.. damn =( anyway.. just waiting till brighter days

sup oasis

yea finally change my blogskin!! oasis yea.. they rock.. i wanna go to their concert but than no $ cause i wanna get addidas absolute +10 and a new handphone k608i .. omg.. unless chinese new year can give me some income boost..

tired

hello mates once agian.. its been along time since i blog.. well some updates.. just started skool.. jjc :D finished my orientation camp not long ago.. took the art stream.. h2 lit geog economics.. h1 chinese pw gp maths.. seriously.. i never had the idea of jc to be this fun.. i mean like there are always mates that can help u.. unliked secondary skool.. i used to hate skool.. and always thinking of getting into poly to like escape this skool thinking.. but jjc changed my thoughts.. i really enjoy going to skool. now.. i have my og 19 .. my og sa.. my frens.. soccer mates.. almost anyone i can find.. my classmates got to know 2 of them only today.. haha.. so gald today the soccer trials kristian and me got through.. and those well derserved j1.. played table tennis in skool today also and basketball.. haha i learn a few skills that would help me in my table tennis.. and my bro like always so action.. that he so good.. haha wait till i train wif my fren.. damn exhausted now.. after the whole trial.. we ran 10 rounds around the field.. luckly i could handle it.. but i feel so sick now.. =( btw i heard my og is joining superband.. i was like hahahahhaha... anyway.. life rocks now =) but i hate it when i collect results.. cause thats when some of my og members will go seprate ways.. but surelly we must keep in touch.. even knowing them for 3days.. they are like my soulmates ..

back

Hello mates.. its been really a long time since i update my blog.. ohh my.. haha anyway.. i think this blog is dead sooner or later.. anyway.. life update.. after o levels..after grad nite.. after chalet.. things went pass very fast.. now holidays till jan.. will be in jjc for 1st 3 months.. omg.. its like impossible for me ya noe.. haha but i got it.. in the jjc soccer team.. yea hope my legs can do wonders to help them =)
its really a pleasure to be in a jc.. its something i long wanted to be in.. and since this year the begining.. those thoughts have faded because i used to think that being in jc could help me caught up wif time.. and yea things happen than.. and i gave up hopes on jc.. after awhile during my o levels.. i am like wtf... can i get into jc by soccer? cause i heard from a fren who did it wif 32 points to sajc.. lol.. so yea why not give it a try.. and yea.. i went to jjc.. hope i get into that skool.. superb.. the ppl there are friendly.. its fun.. long time since i played in such a team.. looks like this would be a huge moral booster for me.. and yea.. hope things go right for me =)

:)

yea...4 more papers and i am a gonner haha.. =) i am reparing my computer now.. so that i can play WOW!!! wtf.. haha.. my bro put password on his laptop.. which is quite unexpected because once and agian.. they do this only after some papers? haha=)anyway i manage to hacked it and delete the password.. for the fun of it =) its quite fun to hack passwords ya noe.. its just so tempting.. so it came and i did it.. dun use it much either even i could use.. i used my com instead.. thats why i am patching things up now!!!my com will be up one day agian.. good =)

3

oh sheet mates.. my exams are comming! actually just excited that its gonna be all over.. i just waved goodbye to my chinese paper for the last time yesterday lol.. was actually staring at the paper.. that its gonna be the last chinese test of my life i hope so =) haha.. anyway its better than the 1st attemp definately!! hari raya this thursday.. hehe.. i am gonna be rich agian.. fasting left 2 days.. tml last day.. wooohooo!!!!!

123

hey wads up mates.. hrmm nothin much.. actually my life is always the same. .stress and exams coming.. i promise that my blog will be alive agian after my o levels... RAWK ON!!

time is running out

been quite a while since i update cause my parents has be hogging me since i blog too much.. haiz... if i really can't contact my pals online.. i shall do it the old skool way.. letter or phone .. lol... my exams this thursday!! can't believe it.. and 1.5 months to go!!! woOOH!!! anyway.. i replied my email to shannon this morning.. lol.. its actually a gal from new zealand cool.. =) anyway.. after replying i decided to explore my email folders.. haiz.. guess wad.. i am still keeping ellice's folder.. all the emails we had from last year all the way till march? theres quite alot.. lol.. i was reading from the start of how it began.. and the missing part is just the ending.. cause i dunnoe.. damn me.. how come i kept thinking of it.. haiz.. its really hard to forget.. but just to let it pass =)

refresh

haiz... today just like any other day.. just that these few days i had flashbacks of ellice.. which is weird.. cleaning up my room today wif my bro.. discovered that i had quite a number of things that belongs to her is wif me.. lol.. strange keeping her stuff now.. and i browse through all the gifts and letters.. fresh memories.. its like an artifact.. milestone .. yea indeed it is... just a little flash back wad happen one year ago till now.. just amazing... yesterday was a history.. dunnoe wad tml brings.. all i can just do is work hard and make it happen.. =)

3rd day of fasting

hello dudes.. its been a long time since i relec... haiz.. stressing on my upcomming exams.. really wanna get good grades.. btw i practice singing just now in skool.. damn cool.. trying to make the song nicer.. ITs YOu! lol.. first time in my life i could sing a song.. while daniel was playing the guitar part.. really .. its the first time i could really enjoy singing in my life.. cause there is always no one there for me to play something so i can sing.. i realise that this is one of the reasons why i couldn't sing well.. victor said i had a nice voice and if i could learn how to sing properly .. i it would be fantastic.. well.. daniel said i can become a proper singer one day.. i really felt so motivated for once in my singing .. still cant believe that i can actually sing one day.. i am used to always being shut all the time whenever i sing.. now its getting better =) and it really feels better than feeling hungry while fasting!!!

last day

lol.. today is the last day that i can enjoy eating in daylight.. tml gonna fast aready.. haiz.. cannot do anything much aready=( cause most of the time i will be eating? haha.. anyway. i;ve been studying alot recently... its tiring and quite stressful.. anyway.. i have been thinking abt my band.. and i think its not going well.. cause i realise that we have alot of things to do.. and set up a strong belief system in the band.. anyway.. thats all for today sowie =( tired la!

=)

today was sleepy in the morning .. goin through my crap papers.. haiz.. should have scored hight instead =( well.. after that went through all the other lessons.. damn.. its now just in one class!! i mean we only stick to one classroom now!!wtf.. =( my position is not that good as the ones we go to other rooms.. gonna miss my united englando team... at least i learn alot from them too.. but now.. its on my own.. lol.. sound so spas.. anyway.. stayed back at skool just now.. studied till 6 plus .. went home.. relec.. till now.. nothing much to say i guess?? =)

wah

helloz... this morning just told my parents my results when i got up.. cause my dad was asking me.. really had a bad scolding.. so i pretended i went back to sleep cause i expected it all.. ya noe.. when u aready noe wad they gonna scold ya.. went to skool leaving my handphone behind cause i wanna break free.. yea.. so when i reached skool.. thinking that if i went back home i can never study cause they would be busy scolding me.. therefore i went home at 7.30 pm .. studied in skool all the way... i felt better after studying cause i noe i am improving each time i study.. after all the stress i face these few days.. i hope it has to go away..

now have to complete my english hwk which is tml! wah i think i wake up tml morning agian than do.. cause i am very tired and wore out now.. i realise my english spelling is getting worse and worse.. i think should read more chim books or something.. my compo i just pass only .. haiz.. i think i gonna just abandon my chinese once and for all.. cause i wanna really pump my other subjects.. my accounts i think i have to do beside someone who is good at it.. cause there are many things i that missed out.. =(

i am just hungry for better grades in my o levels.. i really hope i get the courses i want went i get back my results.. the feeling of getting 32 for l1r4 is like F!@#! cause i am imagining this is my o levels results.. lol. which is freaking me out and putting alot of stress.. the only way to efface my stress is just to study and become smarter.. lol.. sounds werid but i think i should really pump all my top 5 subjects ..

when i came home.. as usual they will ask me where did i go? and why i never bring my hp along.. than i said i forgotten to take it and i studied in skool. and they say i should at least called home or something.. but DUH!! like real they will let me study in skool till so late.. cause they dying to see me study at home.. i blasted to them that i did study at home b4 the exams and see wat happen? the truth is my home is not a place to study.. no matter how u arrange it now.. skool is the best place.. cause i have freedom own time own target and teachers to guide me or teach me when i dunnoe anything.. lol. but the weird thing is that my dad bought me guitars strings as he noe i needed it and cables.. and told me abt usa made guitars which he went to see just now.. i dunnoe why the change of subject.. well.. a few days ago i told him that since when did they ever trusted me in the house? they claim they did but i dun feel it... and i said that if they really trusted me... they wun order me around like a dog and watch me like hawk.. its just killing me.. studying at home is not my way of life.. its true and u can't change it.. u can never force a person to study... only the person can force himself.. and by doing that.. the person needs motivation.. which i dun really have from them much.. they agian claim they did in directly but once agian its not my way of life..

enough of this crap... =(

fark results

hello mates.. haiz. my results are damn horrible.. but not so bad la.. cause i am confident that my o levels wouldnt be much a problem.. my results reflects on the little effort i put in.. my humanities is the best among all and is the least that i studied besides accounts and chinese.. lol.. i think i put maths science and humans are my 3 main subjects.. to get distinction!!! my english just pass only 50 %!! wahha.. and my accounts okok la.. get D7.. but its dissapointing that my maths only get c6 and science d7!! fail sia. nvm la.. my practical i screwed up wif my mcq.. think if i put more effort getting a B grade should not be a problem.. well.. my L1R4 this time is 31 !!! wah.. only can go republic poly..lol.. better than no place actually.. just get the fark out of sec skool yea.. also not to go ITE la of course.. from 31 to 15 for L1R4 should be okay la.. my maths confirm must score one sia.. alot of careless mistakes.. i think i should have gotten around B4 if i have less errors.. =( but i should aim for A1 my maths now.. time to do papers everyday.. and my science also!! my humanities just read more regularly la.. anyway.. my results i am quite convience because i have done much BETTER!!! than MiD YEAR!!! knn.. THE BIG PROBLEM IS THAT MY FAMILY WILL NOT TOLERATE THE MARKS I HAVE NOW AND THEY WILL DISCONNECT ALL MY FREEDOM PLUS BLOGGING AND INTERNET=( THIS IS GONNA BE HELL!!! SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE LET MY LIVE UNTIL I TAKE MY O LEVELS PLEASE!!! BEFORE I GO CRAZY AND CUT MYSELF LOOSE!! it motivated me alot base on my results.. so to me is okay.. BUT NOT TO THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!$#@&(!@^#(*@^(*!^(#!@

my internet kena cut

hello... just to let u all noe that my internet for my com is cut!!! WAHAHHAHAHAHA.. anyway whenever i want to make it back online.. i must steal my mother's internet cable over to mine.. this is so spastic.. only when my prelims ends than they take out =( this is sadistic.. imagine wif the bad results la.. i think i dun even exist.. i am being cut loose..they said that i spend too much time on my blog?? @!#@!# lol.. i only spend 5-10 min posting my blog and nothing else wad.. my tagboard also like dead? haiz.. i guess sooner or later this blog will freeze agian.. this is so shite!

toe!!

today had my chem paper.. OMG!! i am like writing this in the same format? shit shit. since when did my creativity died.. =( anyway my english has been horrible ever since my orals.. darn.. i can speak propely and cant spell well.. NONONONONO!!!@! shit shit shit .. my prelims.. i dunnoe.. think maybe at least i will pass 4 subs now? hehehe.. mid year only pass 2.. so that is 100 % improvement.. muahah.. lol. anyway.. tml is chinese 2 and mcq for science.. today damn crap.. i hurt my toe!! banged it agianst the wall while playing soccer.. and it bled furiously.. but i continued playing soccer for another 2 hours hahahaha.. than now it hurts =( i knew this would happen.. hope it wont get infected .. cant wait till tml. and i am free !! MAUHAHA but hope my results is good la of course.. and my o levels. .muahaha.. anyway.. my MUM..!! wahhh.. just now when i told her that my o levels next month.. the first reaction was that she thinks i am not ready and i will do very bad cause i din study.. and i was mad at that cause i am prepared b4 prelims.. come on .. of course we have to prepared b4 any examinations.. i have IQ .. darn.. dunnoe wad they do to me if i had bad results for prelims.. i am gonna be busted by 4 ppl in da house if i do bad =( help me!! and if i get good grades.. i vowed to say that its my own effort and no one motivated me.. seriously everyone in the da house are killing me.. and my mum and eldest bro thinks that if i done well. is because of them pushing me.. i will proudly said that i motivated myself.. if i was weaker.. i could have gone and kill myself or runaway and make it impossible to find me.. this world is big.. sometimes wif just a little love to show.. it makes hell alot of a difference.. !!!!!! >=(

copy

i very lazy to type agian la.. i just type of my problem blog aready haha.. so i copy and past wats there to here!! muahaha.. today papers okokok la.. english tyco easy and account maybe tyco pass and hope tml tyco maths get a1 MUAHAHAHha

NO worries mark.. thats what mates are made for =) anyway.. drums? aiyo.. dun we have a portable drumset? most to most kai do beat box haha.. its cool anyway.. our band must be flexible.. remember the performance b4 teachers day? we were beat boxing in the canteen man! haha.. and i think we can make it la.. we are good enougn** hahaha.. anyway.. mark u could have yur chance to sing ya song on grad nite.. how lovely would that be =) hahaha.. anyway heard abt afiq? he kena accident sia.. and suddenly got this gal message me claiming to be his ex.. which i never heard off.. psycho sia the gal.. say afiq play bass since he was 10 years old? !@# wtf.. haha u think i believe? than wanna boast to me that she knows afiq more than me.. than i was like damn wtf... she says she knows everything abt afiq.. than i forget to tell her this.. than why ask me abt him??!@!@#! hahhahahha.. lamer sia.. dun even noe if its really a gal anot.. to be so dumb and lame... i dunnoe how to see how afiq condition is as this gal is like covering him.. and one more thing.. she said that he have a band contee.. and he have connections wif MxPx ? lol.. even it was true.. wtf cares? haha.. i got MY PROBLEM!! thats wad i am proud off.. and i got connections wif 10 k man and ng beng kiong. .wad ya gotta say abt that.. LAlalalallalala i dun care aready.. one day i will find out the truth.. psycho sia!!!

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today woke up at 4 pm lol.. after 18 hours of sleep.. tonite everton vs arsenal.. i am begining to feel worried for the results as everton are not doing well now.. the worst performance for everton.. tml having my accounts and english 2 .. account i think i will focus on mcq and some accounts.. using logic to answer most of the question.. hope at least i could pass my accounts this time round.. =)

long day..

hello peeps!! today had a really long day.. had social studies this morning and phyics too.. today's paper was easier than expected.. but its really stressfull.. since after my papers yesterday.. i been feeling stressful.. dunnoe why.. and it gives me headachs and drowziness but can't sleep!! this feeling sucks big time.. went to orchard just noe to register terry fox run which is held this sunday at SENTOSA!! wtf.. lol.. i am going wif someone i never met? a ang moh guy..giant.. wtf.. haha.. anyway.. my fren zh hao also going cause of his stupid red shite fan club.. just now when all the fans from diffent teams took the phototakings.. we were singing.. We hate man united.. we hate man untied.. We are MAN UNITED ........ .HATERS!!! hahaha.. damn hilarious.. ang moh sure has good sense of humour.. gotta learn to speak like them someday.. yea mate!

damn it

omg.. haha.. at nite still studying for phyics and social studies.. today.. i mean thursday.. i was very very stress just now.. after my maths paper 2.. i couldn't study.. and slept in the day.. and now.. awake.. still cannot really focus.. i think i been pushing too hard for my history aready... my social studies wif a above average pass will do.. =) my maths 2.. i think will pass la.. than maths 1 must die die get abt 85 percent correct! i make too many careless mistakes.. =( social studies i study very little only.. hope my source base is strong enough to pass my paper.. how i wish this was final year exam!

wtf

whwhahahahh.. woke up at 12!! must study today =( tml got history and maths.. my history...!! wahh.... my maths okok la.. but i wanna get A1 =(

yea ye

oohh my !!! MUAHAHAH i have create my very own band's blog!! isnt it cool shite? hehe.. but i guess it sucks after all even my entire day effort put into it.. anyway.. its at www.wearemyproblem.blogspot.com !! visit rite now.. okay.. since yur now at the web.. check out the vid!! NIRVANA!! WOOOHOOO cool shite.. wikid! anyway.. today had my english and chinese paper 1 .. felt too sleepy .. lol. but i finish too fast? =( anyway.. i am not sleepy now..!!!!!! WTH!!! haha.. tml no skool.. so study la ming!!

yea ye

oh my ....!! WE Got a BLOG!!! visit please.. www.wearemyproblem.blogspot.com !! rite away.. haha .. spend my whole day doing this blog.. the background still not good enough.. maybe more improvement by zul? the master haha =) anyway.. today had my papers.. damn sleepy!! but not now.. =( tml no skool.. so study la!!

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woot..!! today had science practical.. rain like wad today.. sky dark like dunnoe wad.. than go home also dunnoe like wad.. than study like dunnoe wad.. and now also dunnoe doing wad.. wad?

rain!!

hey.. just came back from tuition at jurong east.. accounts tuition.. after tuition went to popular to buy some books for o levels!!! spend nearly 40 bucks.. danr.. i used my own money of the excceding ones=( anyway.. when i came back home at the bus stop there.. it started rainning heavy!!! WAHAWH@#! i had to cross the overhead bridge.. slipper keep falling out.. decided to run barefooted home lol..

"I WILL BRING MY PROBLEM TO SUCCESS ONE DAY" khairul (on the left in white t shirt" i'm so touched =`) 

this is crap

wtf...wtf.. wtf...

yea yea!=)

Hello dudes..! woohoo... i going crazy over my blog.. i love this blog.. muhahaha.. btw the song in the video is "time of your life" by greenday of course.. my fav song!! MUahahhaha=) damn.. my hitcounter dosen't seem to be working.. anyway.. i got to study 6 hours a day from yesterday? =( awhh.. i think only after my prelims than can relex alittle be.. and i go crazy over my blog agian..ahahhaha

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hello.. i just added the video there ---->!! haha like it? or maybe its lagging =( anyway better maximize the window to have a better view =)

Yeap we peformed and teacher's 

wtf mates! they kicked me out =( 

rockin in the air(left victor,right ming) 

morning

Hello lads.. its early in the morning.. preparing to go tuition at 11.30 and ends maybe at 1.30pm? than go out study wif victor and afiq agian.. darn.. why i post in the morning..? nothing much to say.. and i din have a dream that i dreamt last nite!

back in action

Hello dudes!! i am back here on blogspot.. wad do ya think of my new blog skin? greenday? yea they rox=) sowie that i kept this blog dead for a very very long time.. maybe cause my house is now downstairs? =x cause of my freaking o levels!!

my prelims is next week.. and now.. i am like.. not 100% focus? damn.. haha.. well i have to do well for prelims no matter wad.. i been practicing my maths so hard.. until i only revised for maths!! wth.. my humanities can go die aready.. i think i read the book 2-5 times.. the summarise ones can aready..ahahhaha... my mind still isn't on exams.. i just can't wait for all this to be over.. =(

i heard that i type to much for my blog? sowie if the person reading now is getting lazy to read.. well.. this is me.. and i wanna be myself:) okay la.. i think i from now onwards post here the small ones and maybe the longer ones on msn space? yea cools.. all my pics are there.. go take a look if ya one

check out on me.. i made that poem.. i din took lit.. so if it sucks.. i dun mind cause i suck at this!! hahaha... wahhawhh.. i am going nuts.. i prefer this blog to my previous one.. its more organise.. hehe...

maybe i show update everyday? haha if u all wan me to update more often.. pls shout it out in my tagboard!!!ahah keep this alive..

RAWK ON!!!