what a strange day

today was quite a strange day.... i met a stranger out of no where.. it was this nice old man in his 60s 70s? he was hey... and i was like huh? then he told me to come and have a chat wif him.. i was like okay? anyway beatrice was late! haha.. so why not i have a chat.. he has this very nice way of speaking .. i dunnoe its just rare.. maybe this is the kind of stranger u meet once in yut life.. he really hit me when he said he knows what i am by just looking at my eyes and facial expression.. he said this.. son you are troubled i know.. but you are a nice person or else you wouldnt have stop and just walk alot.. well he was saying he is a lover of LIFE! omg when he said that it really brighten ups my day.. its really amazing how a stranger tell u this.. and he said this.. son.. you missing something in life.. someone who understands you and be your companion.. it really struck my really really hard when he said that.. i mean its like what he said does makes sense and true. i have always been so emo abt my own self for quite sometime.. when ever i am alone i will just go to this emo stage where i am in my own world.. and it just kills me being bored and everything. but the thing is that i am like really SOOO GLAD that such person existed a stranger to have a nice chat in the streets. he said that there is something is me and i have a very nice smile.. of course i smiled back at him.. and when i was about to leave him.. he almost cried .. omg omg... he said this.. it pains me when you go away because i am man of love. i felt like crying too.. how i wish that people these days in singapore are more open to talk.. everybody is busy with their own stuff and dun care whats happening around them.. thats why i always wanted to move to australia.. the people there are just like him.. u can really chat wif anybody under the sun .. its very social life.. no wonder the people there are sooo much more passionate and motivated.. for things like this can change the world..

finally

finally my np strings concert is over =) and now i have much more free time.. i have been thinking alot really.. yesterday... overnite at school so that today the concert can like wake up early =)yesterday.... oh yea played squash and followed beatrice back to her school which is at tanjong katong!! haha... and the worst part is that i only slept 2 hours the previous nite and then i cannot sleep in the bus .. well i dunnoe why got alot of things to talk until cannot sleep.. after that played squash then go kap eat wif them and went back home .. and went back school... practiced a little only .. jun wei a senior over there brought his guitar over i mean his electric with his distortion hahaSHIOK SIA play and he damn pro.. i really look up to him... damn good la... thats how u enjoy music haha...

omg its 4am now and i am blogging well today i mean yesterday was quite a long day... beatrice and hamster go take the laughing gas and turn into idiots lol.. had to take care of them the whole day la.. but hamster got even worse till she cant even stand straight then later on she had pain comming from her chest. made me worried the whole day .. anyways my test i think i kinda of screwed up cause i only know less than half the paper even its just MCQ haha.. after my test suppose to go np strings agian but i pon agian playing board games instead the whole nite haha.. everyone was there and its like a good reunion i guess lol..after that went to alaza to eat then went home...

the reason why i haven sleep till now is because someone emoed the whole nite haha.. and also i talk things out wif hamster.. not really everything but have a idea there.. see how things go... was talking to beatrice the whole nite even now .. begging me to follow her go back to her school as its at TANJONG KATONG!!!!! wahahha... u damn lucky beatrice that i am very nice... so next time think twice before trying to kill me again haha.. =) anyways thanks for all the support and ya noe what i mean..

i aint a quiter
neither a loser
either way i win
or walk away smiling =)

hello... today was a better day i guess.. things are so much clearer now and it seems like things are back to normal too i guess? anyways... i got 2 missing post in my blog.. my 2 post which i posted yesterday is missing because of my hamster!! haha .. okok not my fault not my fault.. anyway liked i said it doesnt matter to me. if it is or not. what matters is that everyone is happy =) well the only bad thing was skipping my np string practice haha.. well got kind of lazy la.. tml also got reharsal.. so yea.. give myself a rest la.. so watched movie in the library instead with almost everyone there.. uea that reminds me watching bubble boy 2 days ago... i really miss that show alot.. when i was sec 3 i almost everyday kept watching that movie over and over agian.. and the main song for the movie is from blink 182 thats why!! haha.. okok tml is my SA test omg!!!! i still dunnoe alot of things .. hope tml during skool can like u noe.. study? haha maybe i wake up early tml go school study or study during my break.. work some things out wif myself.. test is after school.. and after test got np string reharsal.. so yea. basically i am packed wif my time tml.. well well all i can say that today is beautiful day!!! rock on mates..

What I've done

What I've Done



In this farewell
There is no blood
There is no alibi
Cause I've drawn regret
From the truth
Of a thousand lies
So let mercy come
And wash away

What I've done
I'll face myself
To cross out
What I've become
Erase myself
And let go of
What I've done

Put to rest
What you thought of me
While I clean this slate
With the hands
Of uncertainty
So let mercy come
And wash away

What I've done
I'll face myself
To cross out
What I've become
Erase myself
And let go of
What I've done

For what I've done
I'll start again
And whatever thing
May come
Today this ends
I'm forgiving

Whaaaaat I've done

I'll face myself
To cross out
What I've become
Erase myself
And let go of
What I've done

What I've done

Forgiving what I've done

what a time to blog just right before school.. i slept super long since last nite think its more than 12 hours . well i did dreamt about alot alot of things. some of those were flashbacks. a hell alot of sleep. i hope today would be a better day for me. what a really fucking emo day i had yesterday. especially after i knew what the hell was going on . well even duo u say its not my fault , i did caused the major damage or else it wouldnt have even screw up. whats worst it happen right under his nose. well, things can never be the same i guess. everybody's changing and i dun feel the same.
almost everyday in life i tried to changed to be a better person ever since the last time i got screwed for real. things are so hard understand sometimes and thats nothing can be done to it. its untouchable and unchangable. always wanted to mould the world for a better place for the people , thats why i always wanted to be a musician. someday , sometime in my life , what all happened to me would just be a tale and part of my life. who cares about history these days, what you accomplished is nothing and what u failed is just another step to success which means actually nobody gives a shit. people arent that kind until u give them what they want. its over now for sure about enjoying my poly life, i guess it felt like i was in semster 2 with no life but just study and work.

HELLO everybody.. okay its me back from a serious hangover.. hop nite was great!!! 163 and above ROCKS!! it was a brillant idea to get high b4 the concert hahaha.. i actually din really remember how i played but i know i swing here and there alot.. i have been waiting all my life to have this chance to really rock that HARD!! i dun see an end to all of this... ITS JUST THE BEGINING!!!!!!!!! WE ARE GONNA GO GIGS AND CONCERTS OUTSIDE REAL SOON!!!!! AND I JUST CANT WAIT!!! Everyone in the band did great.. was really proud of them.. and think that we are the most happening program on hopnite! but sadly its the openning la.. cause its like u noe people as usual come late will miss it.. but well at least most of them still get to see us rock. finally all the effort we put into jamming and practice has been paid off.. such a big relief we did acutally played as the person in charge almost cancel of my performance la.. damn lucky we got the chance.. i looking for more pics or better still videos during the performance..

after the performance we all just lepak and got bored looking at the other performance.. i dun know why maybe because my freshie felt bored also thats why.. haha.. i ate rubbish la for hopntie.. haha.. we stayed in school really quite late.. by the time we got to russel's house it was aready 2am.. and hell yea no one manage to beat me in winning 11 wowhoohhoo... felt damn good to be a pro haha... after that went to drink really really alot.. omg i remembered that i couldnt even walk straight haha.. but it was a hell of a nite to drink alot.. alot of nice drinks.. i think? maybe i aready drank too much.. haha... but the hangover the next day was damn horrible.. and i still went for npstrings practice... and guess what my instructor dunnoe if he is joking say i will be the solo of my section? and i was like huh?? hahaha i wanna keng one ah.. i aready kena sit center front.. well oh yea details to np strings concert nexy week .. MUST MUST COME!!
its nice trust me even duo its classical
=)

DATE 19 May 2007 Saturday
LOCATION NGEE ANN POLY LT 26
TIME be seated by 6.45pm ends 9pm
ADMISSION FEE free!!!
(confirm wif me yur comming asap.. by sms or msn also can just say u comming i need to count how many comming)
hope to really see u guys there.. =)

ps: i think i shot myself at my head 2 days ago.. omg..

163 above in action!!
group photo

having the biggest headach of my life b4 the concert started. how sad is that =(

today is like a fresh start for me.. i suddenly realise how much i got to catch up wif my studies. lately have been slacking alot.. trying to get a new blog skin for my blog. i just revived my PC ! finally ! friday is hopnite i really cant WAIT!! haha .. tml chek wye and mark overniting my house to prepare on friday. i really look forward performing.. oh yea btw i got a new guitar!!! FENDER !! wohoo hahaha.. finally its like a dream come true.. i swear i will make it someday playing music.. i really love the guitar alot and it felt so good playing wif it. all thanks to my DAD!! i really dunnoe how to thank him but i noe he wants me to do good wif music someday.. the best way to repay him is my studies and a very promising career so that he doesnt to have to worry about my difficulties anymore..

just cleared up my table in my room also.. i realise i got alot alot of songs in my pc.. all the old songs.. a collection of what i had since sec skool haha.. abt 20 GB worth of music .. no wonder my laptop like feels so little song in it

tml gonna buy my guitar hard case and then they comming my house to jam .. so yea.. hope to update some pics really soon

hi everyone.. i am so high now that i cannot sleep ahha.. anyway.. had a soccer match just now.. won 5-3 ... but i got damn fucking tired haha.. my stamina got to retrain man!

tml jamming session.. should be one of the very important one to prepare us for hop nite! yeayeayaeyea... tonite i gonna jam the whole nite.. starting the first song for my band's very own album 163!!!

i been researching alot on my instruments i gonna get.. alot alot of effects so yea.. its nice to be exprimental.. kk nothing much else to say

rock on

had a long long day today... first woke up in the morning to do some slideshow for my percival blog then just stayed home the whole day... later in the afternoon met justin and samuel to go ice skating.. later on a few of my freshies join in.. had really alot of fun skating... well i still learning how to do the T break haha.. but its cool la.. was glad that my P1 mates could come and join.. while we were skating the rest who din wanna skate went to play k pool BO JIO! haha.. i wanted to play pool la.. but too bad i was skating .. after that went for an interview wif samuel and libin.. tml is the training day.. well i find it cool to be working with frens.. haha.. okay in the end i met the rest of them in town BK! we stayed there for a couple of hours talking rubbish haha.. really laughing my ass off.. been quite a while having this laughing session.. well.. quite sad i had to head home early as i have my curfew till 12.. so they went to 302 coffeeshop to lepak while i go home.. its sad that i cant join them... i go home earlier also like no diff end up being alone in my room just being damn emo..

tml gonna play squash in the morning wif mark and jasmine and then have a jamming session then go training for work... hop night is confirm next friday!!!omg omg its getting nearer each day..

well... life now is getting even for me.. still abit emo here and there.. i believe when school starts i wun get any better..


this song kinda of reflects my feelings (true)

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm

I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

Photobucket Album

Hello civals! i created this slideshow for just u all! enjoy the show =)
btw sorry that most of the pictures are from my p1 .. so yea.. p1 be proud cause i am proud of you ! (try to mute the blog's music by pausing it and listen to this slideshow's song its nice trust me )try viewing it twice.. just gaze and listen the music. the magic of music.

its been a long long while since i last update.. so well. yea.. FOC camp rocks!! making a whole new bunch of frens again. being a gl is a very nice feeling.. how i wished i could live a life of a gl once more.. its something really nice to be... leading the freshies.. at the end of the camp.. i was too touched wif everyone till i got to pour all my emotions out.. sounds dumb but really i felt soo touched.. it was great to work wif my group memebers and the freshies..

after foc we had a few outings.. still quite active.. i really hope the spirit wont die out.. but it will happen sadly when everyone has their own class and everything.. it feels so strange suddenly without seeing u guys everyday.. but i hope that when skool starts please dun forget who we are =)
well i am now enroll into a new class with new people .. i kind of like the idea of that but yea.. got to study hard man.. my gpa like kena sia last semester.. well okay tonight i update more.. now quite tired

hard time

i have come to a very critical moment of my life now.. its like so busy now.. tonite i have work till 12.. then tml have to practice jamming till noon then go work.. monday go sentosa wif my foc group.. then practice jamming after that.. and tuesday whole day jamming.. but the thing is that i cant get the members get right on time for practice.. its so stressful for me.. well how i wish i had more time..

Hello people again... back from FOC trail camp.. lost my voice haha.. as usual.. had really a great time there.. its been a year back when i was that really happy. becoming a GL this time round.. feels damn good.. well to tell you the truth i cant wait for the actual camp to be rocking wif the freshies.. leading the hundreds agian... i really enjoy leading big group of people since i was in secondary school days in NCC.. even i was suppose to be the one that is fierce and Evil the big one.. haha i guess i just wanna make everyone happy and have a fun learning journey bonding them together.. i really miss the times i had in sec skool days in camp.. this FOC camp is gonna be bigger and more fun... the trail camp was quite a big success for all the GLs.. i had 4 days non stop fun hahaha... reall i enjoyed myself really alot... even i hate to admit i did stone in the camp at certain point of time is because i am like recalling how was is it like again being so bonded wif my group like we it happen last year wif naga.. well i was kinda named during the trail camp but who cares as long it makes everyone happy and so do i hahaha... i really hope that my group PERCIVAL would be one of best group in the coming FOC.. coming up wif your very own original cheers.. is just awesome. .just like playing music to me.. now the biggest challenge how to make the first day of FOC for the freshie real fun wif a big bang haha.. no more cock ups.. just pure fun and madness hahha... after being through the trail camp.. i just wanna be wif my group members.. they are sooo FUN!! haha.. even losing our voices we still joke around and laugh like monkeys haha.. 3 more weeks.. i think the gls should meet up more and more often to have the strong bonding.. this coming monday we are going to sentosa! haha surely this one confirm damn fun.. from today onwards i will try my very best to update my blog more often.. cause i dun want this point of my life to just pass by.. i wan to have a memoir of this moment even nobody cares.. yea..
another thing that is my biggest concern is the audition at ben n jerry next tuesday... omg my band wif the lack of practice.. die sia... i wanna really have a solid band to break into the music industry wif has always been my biggest dream.. well i really hope so i do get in someday.. i pray hard that this audition is the first step for us =)

sup

hey everyone.. its been a real long time i last update..especially its 2007! OMG haha.. okok

that is a picture of me waking up on the 1st day of the year! haha.. super shagged man.. and

its time to unleash the beast muhaha.. lol.. sleeping on newspaper wtf..

and here some of my cousins posing wif the walk of the 2007 .. i look super shag behind those shades lol..

anyway.. skool reopen as usual.. getting my results back.. not bad.. lol.. but could be better..

i just watched CRASH just now.. josiah borrow the dvd from vidz easy. so yea now i have to return it.. its a super nice show.. got to watch it or u regret.. its about interracial conflicts in america at LA.. the whole show is super meaningful.. comming to think of it.. this show makes u feel safe here in singapore somehow lol.. but yea.. a show u cannot miss..

well if there is anything i wanna update here.. hrmm.. oh yea i been working quite alot actually but recently they decided to cut cost and yea i work lesser hours and lesser days.. like wth .. so i found a job paying 7 an hour opposite my restaraunt lol... !!

besides work.. i been consistanly reminding myself about my music passion.. i miss playing music so badly.. and oh yea... 3 MORE DAYS TO MUSE CONCERT!! MUAHAHAHAH.. BUT!!! i am going this concert alone.. cause no one i know could afford to come wif me.. really sad but yea.. i cant miss this concert for sure.. haiz....

on the other hand.. i am quite glad that my cousin bonds are getting stronger.. we now meet up much more often and talk abt all our problems and doubts.. i mean like u noe we treat each other like blood brothers.. i have a feeling that later in life when we grow old.. we'll surely have something that we are gonna do together like a business or something.. if we carry on being close =)

it keeps raining and raining everyday.. the only thing i worry is that the concert on tuesday how?? rain or shine they will still go on i noe.. but yea.. just scared will spoil my plan enjoying the music..

back on business

hey everyone.. its been ages since i last posted on my blog.. well my firefox screwed up and my internet too.. its holidays and i have been working almost everyday.. well basically my life is getting abit better at the moment.. i spend most of my time out normally wif my cousins on this holiday.. they come over and sleep in my room and make a mess of it lol.. but yea.. and because of that i lack of sleep really alot.. i just a really weird dream just now.. i din noe why.. but yea its super weird and unexpected.. but who cares.. i aint gonna tell anyone haha..

i am still currently trying to find a better job with a better pay.. the work place is working now is okay just that my supervisor is fucked up.. i dun think she even deserves to be called a supervisor.. cause all she does is fucking up everyone's moral.. it would really fun working without her on her offdays .. well too bad la.. and always come up with some stupid reasons to
me that i aint doing my work propely. i just dun get the idea.. at first u publish on the papers 6.5 an hour and now i come saying 6 as i had no experience and now u saying i not doing much enough? the job i applied is waiter not a cleaner.. when its really fucking boring and u do all u can find to do to do something .. u just wait for work rite? fuck it man.. i cant stand finding things to do even u had found the job.. bascially yur job is to find another thing to do.. everyone hates her.. too bad.. who ask u to be such a bitch.. a real pain in the ass.. well i giving another shot in showing things could work out.. if she still bitches me around.. thats it.. i am getting another job..

anyway new year is comming.. and my year of 2006 felt so empty.. i dun noe why.. but i can tell that the happiest time i had in 2006 was my 2months in jjc .. after that.. is was just normal and simple life.. sucky fucked up life rite.. anyway.. when i start skool agian in 2007 i think i wanna really kick some ass .. haha.. going to the muse concert! thats what i am waiting for.. and payday is on 28 dec.. cause bank will be close at the end of year.. so yea.. WOHOoooo!! money money money.. !! well my bro thinks that i am money driven.. which i think its true.. muahaha.. i think i should use money to motivate more into my studies... lol..

Starlight

Starlight

Far away
This ship has taken me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

Starlight
I will be chasing a starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

My life
You electrify my life
Let’s conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive

i'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

Far away
This ship has taken me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

i'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

hey.. tml my final theory and i hope i pass this time!!! freaking waited sooooooo long for it.. haiz.. also my mt prac common test.. my test all comming i still slack lol. but i quite confident can pass one la.. haha..

i bought the muse tickets aready!!! WOOHOO!! MUAHHAHAHAHAHA

grow

I Wanna Grow Old With You
Another day without your smile
Another day just passes by
But now i know how much it means
For you to stay right here with me
The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurts so bad i can't take it any longer.

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you, sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you.

A thousand miles between us now
It causes me to wonder how
Our love tonight remains so strong
It makes our risk right all along
The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad i can't take it any longer.

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you, sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you.

Things can come and go
I know but
Baby I believe
Something's burning strong between us
Makes it clear to me.

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you, sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you.

today i had a very very tiring start of the day..reach home from work 2 am just now.. i barely even slept.. i think one day my body is gonna give in.. i dunnoe why suddenly i have this sudden burst of energy to just work.. i guess its also to pass time faster.. nothing is holding me back to cherish the moment.. so yea.. might as well just dash into the future.

BTW I GOT 1 GOOD NEWS!! MUAHAHHAHA .. MUSE I COMMING TO SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMFG yea they are here.. right here in singapore in january... definately i will go no matter how much it cost.. well i am treating khai on this one for this birthday.. its gonna be explosive !! hell yea !!! muahhaha..

Finally its just you and me MATTEW BELLAMY! Face to Face!

down and out

hey... today was kind of a sad day for me.. well i was cut from the school team... guess i aint that good enough to be in the team.. felt quite dissapointed with myself.. well i still looking forward to train and towards np league next year.. patience...

i think my life now where i stand at now... i feel that bring me back 2 years ago.. i was much happier.. the difference is that now being more independent.. i do almost everything myself.. spending more time on my own.. what i can say is that my journey now feels more lonely than ever.. obviously one of the thing that i every love doing was playing music.. and thats something i neglected alot currently.. its sad that i cant really manage my time to fufill my desires in music.. its a shame .. haiz..

being cut, being left out , being down
happens to the best of us i guess =)
never take out that smile off my face
just keep going ahead

good time

hey.. had a soccer competition yesterday morning.. wif my cousins , faiz , im , dicky and my close pals khairul and mike! well even thought we only played until quartar finals.. we still felt proud that we played as one.. i cant remember the last time we actually the last time we played soccer so passionate.. i just wanna thank everyone who came down to play soccer yesterday.. really appricate yur effort comming down.. =)

well after that went home an then went out agian to watch li ying's school drama play.. on the way was abit rush lol.. cause everyone also last min start buying flowers and all that.. well made in time for the show.. so far i think this is one of the better drama plays i watch lol.. i never really had the chance to know the story of beauty and the beast..since the play was that so yea i kind of know the story.. after that had dinner at hereens wif them yea.. was hell of a good time meeting back all my old pals .. =)

good time

hey.. had a soccer competition yesterday morning.. wif my cousins , faiz , im , dicky and my close pals khairul and mike! well even thought we only played until quartar finals.. we still felt proud that we played as one.. i cant remember the last time we actually the last time we played soccer so passionate.. i just wanna thank everyone who came down to play soccer yesterday.. really appricate yur effort comming down.. =)

well after that went home an then went out agian to watch li ying's school drama play.. on the way was abit rush lol.. cause everyone also last min start buying flowers and all that.. well made in time for the show.. so far i think this is one of the better drama plays i watch lol.. i never really had the chance to know the story of beauty and the beast..since the play was that so yea i kind of know the story.. after that had dinner at hereens wif them yea.. was hell of a good time meeting back all my old pals .. =)

Day1 : in my grandma's house haha.. ayyub , faiz and me !!  

Day 1 : on the way to my grandma's house me & ayyub =) 

hey

hello everyone once more.. just came back from chalet yesterday... haha from tuesday till friday.. well many things happen along the way.. i ran out of house.. kinda of when nobodys home cause my dad just wun let me go .. so yea i simply just walked out the house and went to the chalet.. than he started calling me and treaten me abt alot of things.. well i din wanna pick up the phone first but yea i just listen to let him scold all he want.. i wrote a message on the table for them to read.. said i really need a break.. cause next week is skool and why cant i just enjoy my last week.. well.. i went back home at nite back the next moring i went back.. lol.. they told me to come back home at night but i din cared.. cause i really wanna stay.. went out wif greg and bazel.. the next day was reimi's birthday at midnight.. so we celebrated his birthday in MOS hahah.. i got in free cause i was an ambassador for some sites.. was cool to get into the vip room all that.. but its was so freaking crowed.. so yea i just end up chilling out wif my mates most of the time =) it was cool ya noe.. in the club for once just chilling in the vip room.. knowing more frens from rp.. reimi's fren duo.. kinda of cool people haha..

everyone was like having a hell of a good time.. the next day went to reimi's house to sleep wif ayat also.. haha.. then i head my way back home.. but my dad picked me up at celementi so i went to skool to buy my notes and then follow my bro and cousin go to queensway .. he got sheva's old boots which is damn freaking cheap la.. 94 bucks!! haha.. but i was eyeing on the new tunit f50 !! 265 !!! so ex la.. but its damn good.. was so tempted ya noe..

well when i got home wif my bro.. i saw pizza hut!! whahaha.. but well yea.. my mum was mad at me as u noe haha.. i guess things should be a little different now i guess.. walking out of that door of my house was something that took them up to the roof top scolding me.. and get super mad.. when i got home.. they were like all cooled down.. but yea this week is the week i never forget..

well cant wait for skool next week duo =) also tml is my grading .. wish me all the best haha

touching

i am having a movie marathon in my own room haha.. watched the break up,coyote ugly and lake house.. all of them are nice .. i just only watched lake house a couple of mins ago.. the starting abit slow.. but than when i get to understand.. its really nice.. about this guy who is from the past 2 years ago and this woman who is 2 years in the future of the guy.. so yea.. two people in two different timming.. kind of sweet the way how they kept their so called long distance relationship. they communicate through this mailbox at a lakehouse.. where the mail will have a link between the past and future.. following the story line , seeing how both of them kept the relationship even they cant see each other.. it makes thing special i guess.. cause this way u will noe the person by heart.. it would naturally tell u that this person is special.. so that is why they are still together even not physically.. but the ending is quite awesome.. its kind of a fantasy ending but yea. shows that even when the world is comming to an end.. dun give up hope =)go and watch it yurself haha...

coyote ugly is also another kind of love story but its abt this gal who move to new york to become a musican.. but end up working at a bar .. entertaining people by singing and dancing.. i kind of like the way how she met the guy and how they been through.. well well if u wana noe u got to watch the movie!!! hahaha

anyway i brought my keyboard and my mic up into my room.. cause i wanna practice more keyboard and do some recordining.. can say that my old pc is turnning into a music recording station haha.. even wif the monitor like u noe .. cannot see .. but still i made use of it.. just for music =) now i am squeezing at a corner of my room wif my laptop and my 2.1 altec lansing speakers haha.. kinda of small but nice =)

bored home

hello everyone.. it has been quite a long holiday for me yea.. and its fasting month too.. well i have been damn bored at home recently.. and have this weird feelins like u noe when u think that yur left alone by the world and i just lay home watch movies and do my things.. time just pass by like that even i could not remember wad day is it..

well i am currently listening to this song "All my life" by kc and jojo. its one of my childhood fav song .. i really like this song because its a special song meant for someone special..

its has really been very slow for me these few days.. well i only blog when i have things to share with.. basically i have not been anything lately so yea.. so its sad that i like u noe.. couldnt do anything different.. well i hope and i pray that maybe someday i can find something to spend my time on =)

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hello mates

hello.. it has been a while has it since i last posted yea? haha anyway. just talked to gerg just now on the phone.. was talking abt plans going uni haha.. omg la.. cannot imagine boht of us actually wanna go australia to study after our ns.. well its quite interesting looking at all the courses.. its like u noe.. so many!! hahaha.. go there to study and make money!! make more more money .. we find our ways for sure.. but i am looking forward to playing soccer there too! lol.. now 18.. 21 go ns.. study for 3-4 years after i am 23 out from ns.. wow.. damn old la haha.. than by the time i finish studying aready like 27? lol.. well if u have the money u no need worry a thing mates..

ealier today played soccer in school wif ayat zul cheng leong and rudy.. haha .. its our first time meeting each other since skool ended yea.. damn happy we managed to make it.. =) i still have 2 weeks of holidays.. no idea wad to do sia! haha.. think i go play tennis wif greg or just go find some lame shit work earn more cash.. i am suddenly so interested in just making money.. feel so damn being poor.. it sucks when u dun have the power to get wad u want!! MONEY= POWER hahahaha... there some things u cant buy but u can buy things to get another thing.. its all linked.. so yea.. roots of all is still money! haha.. all abt the money...

hey

hello peeps... okay today went for this job interview wif my bro.. its about going to schools teaching students how to use some programs.. omg.. going back to skool? haha .. isnt it cool =) but yea well paid job also.. its 15 per hour.. not bad.. haha.. oh yea last two nites i din came home.. i went to phunk bar wif ayat,akon,marvin and my bro haha.. omg its like so damn funny la.. dance until my shoes the sole come out.. doing some stupid break dancing.. well had a fun nite duo.. slept at the esplanade for 2 hours than headed home ... now holiday are nearly comming to an end.. how sad can that be? haha okay i gtg now.. bye mates

hows life

hello everyone.. life is just allrite here =) okay today i worked at a malay wedding serving drinks and cleaning up tables.. so yea get to meet alot of people.. haha.. and i got forced to dance infront of the whole crowd.. wahh.. well.. i did a couple of moves so yea.. but damn pai sei la haha.. anyway got 40 bucks so yea.. for 4 hours.. not bad huh.. saw some interesting people... u noe now days mixed races in families.. awesome rite? the kids look so chinese than the mother malay.. dad of course chinese.. like the clones of me.. pretty awesome.. haha.. yea.. well went to a soccer match after that which had been called off by the GAY ref! haha talk like wanna cry like that haha.. than act act army scolding style.. u can just kiss my ass la ref! haha.. i played like only 10 mins? just to get kicked at my damn leg lol.. dumbass la they all..

anyway yesterday was my wu shu performance.. for the 42th year aniversary. awesome!! i get to perform in front of people.. but pai sei la.. my first kick i redo cause i misjudge than i hesitate haha.. but lucky nothing happen la.. than i whack the sticks all break.. whew! well.. it was awesome nite la.. the food the people!! those from nus also come.. cheers!!

i miss you

this song is dedicated to the one who is responsible for my sweetest mermories =)

I miss you - blink 182


(I miss you, miss you)

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare,
The shadow in the background of the morgue,
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if you want
Where you can always find me
And we'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
The webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight


Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)


Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)


(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)

hey

hey.. tml is my eltech exams and i am now still not 100% prepared.. wtf wtf lol.. damn shag now and i still have to read more.. my room is so messed up and i dun feel good duo.. its hot now and i cant feel good anywhere.. damn.. hope i dun screwed up my exams tml.. lol.. =)

in skool

hello! well i am in skool agian.. reached early .. nizam and hairul should be reaching in abt 10 min time.. gonna study today wif them.. yea today is thursday.. and tml is my maths exam.. i gonna revise my maths entirely today.. got to at least know how to do all.. careless mistake is okay la.. but if dunnoe to do.. die! haha.. i realise that i am quite lucky to have only 2 papers for the examination.. i heard people are taking 5 papers or wad.. But the mass com people are aready on holidays since last week.. they have no exams.. they only have presenation and that kind of stuff.. lol.. what i do really miss having fun when the examination are nearing .. is SOCCER!! wahh.. no skool training.. no court soccer in skool.. damn sian.. i bet wif u next week after my eltech exams.. i gonna choing to play soccer haha.. well maybe this examination break is also good of my injured ankle.. i dunnoe whats really wrong wif it.. but yea its still not fully recovered.. so yea.. its not as strong as ever... i got to train to my tip top condition agian.. when i can just run non stop and creating chances for the team.. be it scoring or assisting..

well i am alone here infront of the cheers in my skool.. behind the bus stop... just sitting here enjoying the wind and looking at the people around in groups... well .. people might think i am a loner or some thing haha. .well.. i am waiting for my frens so yea i am not.. listening to songs wif my headphones.. too bad i cant download songs in skool.. they kind of block it or something.. also i got no games in my laptop haha.. cause i reformated it!! hrmm i got movies that i downloaded from irc but no idea how to watch them.. its somekind of weird file formats..

well.. how i wish everyone is in skool and exams are over.. we can go jamming or play soccer... lol.. its 2 months break!! gonna work for a few days for sure.. hacing chalet and yea maybe my family gonna have a holiday at this lighthouse which i went ages ago.. its a small island off singapore.. its has only a lighthouse and 2 chalet houses
its really small..
can say its only 3/4 of the soccer field size haha definately gonna bring my laptop.. bring my guitar.. bring my ps2.. bring alot of moives.. bring alot of food!! haha.. gonna have fun duo.. having foc chalet and class chalet too.. it will be a time really for me to relec.. but can be boring la.. so i kind of expected it.. next month i am gonna start fasting!! wahahahha.. than 1 month later its hari raya.. a time to get really really busy hahaha =) well it would be nice to see all my cousins and relatives once agian..

i am gonna end 1/6 of my skool life in poly.. i felt like it just went pass just like that.. its freaking fast la.. hahaha but i only will finish studying here entirely in 2009 wah.. lol.. than i enter ns in june 2009 around there... finish ns by 2011 june! omg that really sound damn far.. i would be hrmm.. 23 years old by than.. no idea what my future brings yet.. omg i sound so damn old la.. i am only 18 now.. 23 is like 5 years later.. everyone that i noe around me definately is gonna look different like mad..

i guess its a time to really enjoy my time in poly haha.. wahha i just called nizam he say 15 min more .. omg.. i am so damn bored here alone la.. and there are people playing at the soccer court.. but its sizzling hot now la .. the sun is like a volcano haha.. guess i just reserve my energy.. =) btw i have a soccer game this sunday but than i having exams on monday.. hrmm.. thats intresting yea? haha.. last sunday i played okok la i think. i guess i under performed.. this sunday i gonna give all out.. hope ayat is comming so yea our partnership can bring us more goals..

haiz.. damn.. i guess i continue surfing the web around haha and maybe just sleep or something so yea..
rock on mates!

here by me

hello everyone agian =) well exams this friday and next comming monday and than its holidays.. today went to skool actually to attend this eltech lecture abt A.C circuits but than i end up going library studying on my own and watch movie wif ayat.. lol.. had quite a fun time studying today... so yea quite good la.. but still alot to study for me.. haiz...
nothing much to say tonite.. so sowie
but i have a song in mind here
its a very nice song

Here By Me

I hope you’re doing fine up there without me
'Cause I'm not doing so good without you
The things I thought you'd never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood
So how could I have been so blind for all these years
I guess I only see the truth through all this fear of living without you

And everything I have in this world
And all that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

I can’t take another day without you
'Cause, baby, I could never make it on my own
I've been waiting so long just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong
I'm sorry I can't always find the words to say
But everything I've ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

And everything I have in this world
All that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

As the days roll on I see
Time is standing still for me
When you’re not here
I’m sorry I can’t always find the words to say
Everything I’ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

x2
And everything I have in this world
And all that i'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

life is short

hey everyone.. i haven been blogging for quite awhile.. maybe because i was busy thinking and that point of time i have nothing to say much.. so yea now .. maybe i shall type out some of my thoughts.. dun know if they make any sense.. but this is what i come to after all the thinking.. hrmm..
life is short and temporary but life after is eternal.. everything i do now.. i am confused what my future brings me later.. i haven been flashbacking my memories for the past 2 years.. what happen.. seriously.. what i missed the most was when i was in love wif my previous galfren.. besides that.. maybe how i work my way up towards my music? this 2 things that i recalled.. god i am sure i do miss those times.. and now things are just going the way i din expected it to.. and people come telling me that everything is all right and its normal.. well.. i am sad to say that its just not i wanted it to be.. its like .. hrmm .. u noe.. just becoming a swinger .. playing around wif people hearts that kind of stuff.. and the meaning of love to me is like so simple and kind of dumb.. its damn stupid la i think.. u have someone who u called yur bf or gf than.. the only thing that u do is that yur just be there physically and just say all this mushy words and than u forgive everything.. besides that maybe u have fun dating and all that kind of sweet things.. BUT .. this is the part which i really look into.. yea But when you find yurself into a big big trouble and the whole world is gonna crush on you.. espcially when u quarrel wif yur bf or gf.. will he or she still be there for you ? ya they can like confort you.. but the thing is that they are not always by yur side giving you all the support you need.. it used to be that love is like u can find it like fishes in the sea.. but now.. you just take a good freaking look.. the sea is polluted.. just my luck that i came across wif this gal not long ago who really ruin it.. just spoilt the meaning of it.. well well.. i am not gonna avenge this on anyone else.. but i just have to say that i am quite disappointed of how things are now.. and its sad.. freaking SAD!! imgaine the divorce rate in 10 years time.. my words.. if u dun believe.. u wait and see..

well well.... i guess it would be a very long time till i am lucky enough to find one agian.. someone who will make me believe in love once more.. or else its all bullshit i can say.. oh yea.. this is a phrase i thought of when i thought of my past.. "Let me see you once agian, so that we could know wad we need and at least i have the chance say goodbye to someone i remembered always" its sad for me how it ended more than a year ago.. but yea.. well.. i admit i took things for granted even now ? i watched a moive just now wif zul "the click" its like showing things that i believe that it could make sense.. and its damn sad .. DAMN DAMN SAD when you took things for granted and you never have the chance to tell the one you love that you love him or her.. omg.. its really sad la i watch the show.. he had a rewind of his life showing how he treated his dad.. and he just din look at him and din entertaint his day.. and that was the day his dad died ! omg.. haiz.. i guess that being emo at times like this for me maybe its good.. ya never noe.. cause all i noe now is that i have to be a better man..

i always had this idea to kind of look up back to my ex and at least have a chat wif her.. but than.. i guess.. maybe its not the time or maybe.. i should just move on and i might happen to catch her someday agian.. its very hard for me to forget because it was the first time i crave someones name into my heart.. and its the only one i had.. so yea.. i just have to face the facts and move on..

times like this.. i will always remember who were there for me.. and never ever take things for granted..

rock on mates =)

wadf

what a time to wake up.. its 1.30pm in the day .. and its saturday! .. damn freaking tired... yesterday zul and cheng leong overnite at my crib.. so yea.. maybe we stayed up a bit too late lol.. well.. we went to skool yesterday cause zul had to take the test for his c programming.. and me and cheng leong just chill around to wait for him.. omg the new cheers which open in my skool.. well.. its wasnt really anything much i can say.. its like so empty.? guess maybe its beacause it is an outdoor one ? lol.. and its NOT 24HOURS!! how in the blue hell can i ever enjoy ? lol.. it closes at 8 plus.. sucks rite? after soccer cannot enjoy a good bite =( exams are commming i aint start a single revsion how dumb that can it be.. i just dun feel right these days..

back the habit

today had an A02 meeting agian! =) was really happy to see all of them once agian.. i will never forget.. the point of that i din wanna leave jj because of them.. it was nice seeing vicknesh,chee png,ji shen,celestine,kuinoi,yuvette,matani,ebigal,xinyi and germaine once agian.. really made my day.. oh ya i am so sowie kui noi i forgotten to wish u a happy 17th birthday!! i came late duo.. because of some idiot!! chengleong!! wahha idiotic sia.. go take my jeans and run away.. left me in my underwear only.. waste my time and made me miss 2 bus!! lol.. played soccer at the new court agian.. was really going wild just blasting the ball here and there.. at least i scored a few hehee.. today my skool had a bazar, giving free drinks.. ayat treated me ice cream cause he think that the gal that is selling it has looks?? hahaha... went to library to play this stupid drum game wif ayat.. always wanan challange me.. its in my blood.. of course u noe who won.. :P

i been quite radical these few days.. gettling loose all over just pouring my emotions out by ya noe.. talking wad i felt like.. i could like suddenly get serious over something.. people say i am shy.. but i say that once u make me feel welcome.. i become a irritating bastard!! haha... tml thinking of going back to skool to do maths wif ayat.. not really sure duo.. but yea they are comming to my house to jam =) hope that exams are over and i pass all of them.. 2months break follows on!! yea.. time to WORK!!! MONEY I NEED!! hahai wanan get a new guitar.. please someone spon me lol.. oh ya next week i am starting to fast! wah.. and than it would hari raya!!! money agian once more.. hehe..

last nite i slept at 5am thanks to ayat and zul talking to them all night.. its gay!! lol.. but yea.. me and zul wrote out a few songs aready.. me and him not long ago had been broke off by our relationships.. so yea.. we start writing thigns out.. and out album is gonna send a message to all those who cheated us... and some other stuffs..

High

H.I.G.H

the new band which i formed from my current class..
cheng leong -drummer
zul - bass
rudy - guitar
ming - guitar & keyboard

we are a new band... cheng leong and zul just started.. training them now.. gonna be the next electrico in singapore someday? haha.. i am so happy that we are doing this.. so that i can continue my passion for music.. my dream thing.. so yea.. now not really focusing on vocalist.. because we need to have good music first.. so yea vocals.. maybe soon la.. finding one now =)

backah

hello everybody its me back in action blogging =)
well welll today rudy cheng leong zul came my house to have some fun hahaha.. we jam and we video ourselves it was really hilarious hhaha... its insanity... omg its been a long while since i went so high just playing guitar lol.. yea yea.. had fun.. past few days..? i can say that time really flys.. its amazing that its aready weekend and i dun feel like i went to skool? lol.. haha.. i dunnoe why la.. but time really flys..
i wonder =)

rock

OMG I ENJOYED BAY BEATS!! ELECTRICO ROCKS OH YEA!! i was screaming and jumping and all that .. wat a way to end my weekend.. seriously they inspired me deeply once agian to be a musician someday hahaha.. its really awesome la.. love the way they rock.. rock really hard.. haha.. amanda as pretty as ever =) ahhaha... so yea.. tml skool oh yea btw i lost my hp =( sad case la.. so yea i go rest now hahaha

song?

i am really bored through the night.. staying up wif zul .. oh yea.. i got my laptop back yea =) so yea been thinking really alot.. listening to loving memory by alter bridge.. reminds me of jjc .. i close my eyes to see.. and yea they are a part of me.. its the lyrics in the song.. nice yea? feel like making a song now.. hrmm... the title should be.. what is love.. yea.. it has been the question that keeps going on through everyone at least once a life time..

What is love?

i couldnt answer myself why i felt that way,
just watch myself make the same mistake agian
i've been rejected number of times,
asking myself what is love

the love that i dreamt?
the love that i thought?
but what i saw was....

CHORUS

Nothing i ever dreamt of
Nothing i thought it would be
Cause after all,
Love is a game
A game to play
When two falls in love..


haha i dunnoe if this will do.. i just make a short one first la.. =)

hey

omfg ... i am soooo excited.. okok.. this is what happen.. someone adds me on msn.. and i ask WHO ARE U? and he replied... SOMEONE WHO U THINK U MIGHT KNOW... haha and i looked at his dp.. omg.. its her bf.. u noe my hrmm.. bf.. then keep asking me things what happen.. hahaha okoko.. u noe wad matters most? it settled for mE!! omg... i am like finnally FINALLLY CLEARED!!! WHEW! mates.. i am out clean and yet the other side is letf wif more shit to clear.. haha.. okok.. now its all about friends and family.. ITS CLEARED CHOP 1000 times settled whew!

now days.. love is hard to find.. because people just say i love you without their whole heart.. maybe the world today made the communication so good that u can find another better one so easily so yea.. its possible to like love someone else instead of just one.. thats why i always love classic tales.. its more of a kind of 1 to 1... omg come on i just got screwed up by my previous one and now telling me that regreted going with me because i am just too popular?? while on the back she is wif someone else.. fuck it mate.. ever since i knew about this.. i try my best to find all the reasons in the world to forget about her.. seriously.. AHH BULL SHIT LA!! YUR SPOILING MY WORLD OF LOVE.... thats why i think gays have the best love in the world sometimes.. its like so hard to find gays.. and they just have that love which is deeper and better than most of the gal and guys who are in love!! OMG !! WHATS WRONG IS WITH THIS WORLD!! haha i think i gonna compose a song like that some day.. sayyinng that gays love is better than normal love for todayh... its such a disgrace to man everywhere and me..

love currently just sucks to me now .. cause all i hear is screwed up people..
maybe once in a million.. i got to be 100 times more strict wif my rules now .. or else i gonna get into another major accident agian.. lol..

now its all in my own world.. if u wanna be part of the ride.. think twice if yur worth a try.. and make sure that u know wad u want.. even as a fren.. just hate when things just screw

so yea.. rawk on!

pissed

I AM SO DAMN MAD!! MY LAPTOP CANNOT BE REPAIR!!!! WTF WTF!! SAY THE PART ALSO NO STOCK!!! WTF IS WRONG MAN!! I NEED IT BACK BADLY!! shit mates... got to continue carry my bro's 3.5 KG !! LAPTOP TO SKOOL!! haiz... nvm... i think i gonna load everything into his com tml aready.. i dun care.. i need to study..

update

hey hey hey sup mates!! woho haha
life has been going allrite for me now and then..
went to skool soccer trials yesterday and managed to get into the np soccer team.. damn really happy abt it despite my ankle like kind of fail to show my full potential.. its okay.. since i am in now.. i should take care of my ankle well.. been playing goalkeeper for my class team haha. last saturday.. we had a street soccer competition and won a couple of games.. all the way i played keeper.. its such a strange feeling for me cause i never like being keeper.. with my twisted ankle like this i had no choice.. so i offer my service of being a goalkeeper.. well.. some of my classmates thinks i am not good enough to be in the skoolteam.. even i heard it from somewhere.. there is nothing better i can do to fight them back but to prove them wrong one day.. its okay when people just criticise me directly, but on my back.. i think its disgusting.. so much for being a classmate.. well.. i dun intend to get mad or wad.. i should learn to be modest and just keep quiet abt it like i never heard a single thing..

besides that.. i will be playing soccer agian tml .. at the new court.. oh yea.. ngee ann have a soccer court now.. i spend like 70% of my time them after skool.. really enjoying to play with the people around here.. more time to train some skills too.. oh yea my fitness really dropped to the core.. i think now its just 40% of wad i had 5months ago.. eating soooo much now.. i am getting alitte fat hahaha..

i hope i get my laptop back today.. suppose to be yesterday , but then.. they ask my dad to call today agian.. and yea please come back to me today!! haha.. the weather is super nice now.. just stop raining.. a perfect time to sleep haha.. but ya now i got to really catch up my skoolwork.. i been missing out alot of things.. i am now fearing of not doing well for my exams later this year.. i really wanna do well.. not just pass..

oh yea.. on sunday.. zul and cheng leong camped at my house to do project and watch world cup hahahaha.. its really a disaster haha.. we 3 were like doing things at the same time.. but yea.. its like the first time i had frens who stayed overnite to just do project and watch soccer.. its fun la.. haha.. camping the whole day at home wif them.. in the end all of us slept during the match ahhahaha.. i only woke up during the penalty shootout.. my brother was like screaming all over the house ITALY!!! hahah..

the next day we went to skool together.. edman saw the 3 of us marching towards him hahah.. its the first time zul came to skool early!! because he is with me wad.. haha.. then later during break we went to zul house to take his soccer stuffs for the trials later that day .. haha guess wad... zul's dad drove us to skool in a BUS!!!! MUAHAHAH.. its like so big la.. then only 3 of us ... its just like so funny la..

now i just chilling out at the atirm to catch up some work... everyone has gone home how sad =( .. haha..

oh yea.. abt my life in general.. its much better than it used to be the past few post i made.. i am starting to open my life agian.. which is good =)
rawk on!

hello mr fish

hey.. omg i just woke up only and now its 2am haha.. slept at 6pm.. think i gonna be up whole nite =) yea i twisted my ankle last nite while playing soccer.. now its in a really bad shape.. so yea i cant walk.. haha i am really lame now.. hrmm... okok lastest update is that i am single?? lol.. its actually quite old news.. hrmm.. for those who follow my updates in my blog.. its amazing that some of you all update abt me by reading my blog lol.. but my blog is kind of slow news haha... cause i always very lazy to update my blog.. oh ya.. this person who viwed my friendster profile and read my blog.. mr fish.. i got to make my point clear for now.. i have nothing to do wif whoever u think i am with.. and please be kind to the world and stop being a bully lol.. ok enough .. dun deserve to be talk abt here anyway cause its not even on my mind.. okok.. hrmm.. i am more worried abt my poor little ankle =( given 2 days to rest.. see by friday i can recover fully..

yesterday my team was owning the whole court la.. abt 7 teams there.. we win everybody until we lost by penalty.. hhaha.. i cant wait to own agian!! i think that my time has come.. =) i mean time to really open up my world once more! the world of music and soccer.. yea yea passion is the key.. ever since skool started i am drifting away from my dreams.. now i am slowly gathering a band in my class to really go into full gear.. and exams just around the corner.. in august!! haha..

i just feel like talking abt love now.. hrmm.. i think that my thoughts abt love has change quite a little bit.. and the best song is by SUM41 - Pieces.. omg.. remember this line mates.. " I try to be perfect, but nothing was worth it" its so damn true.. it has been quite a while since i been in deep love.. and lost my faith in love.. it used to be a very big thing for me.. now it seems like the meaning is gone and not that amazing as i used to think of.. maybe if someone who do believes it deeply as how much i do then it would be different.. i mean like not everyone would think so highly of love.. so yea.. its still a long path ahead of me..

i think i am begining to start loving my classmates more somemore.. not in gay sense but in brotherhood.. i almost lost them due to love.. and now since i let everything go besides my frens.. its really awesome to be back in business wif them =) i mean like i laugh the loudest agian and really yea that high in life agian.. thanks mate..

i know that i made a mistake and regret quite a little.. but i cant just keep looking back at it.. its time to leave everything behind and see whats ahead in life.. cause its the only way i am gonna be happy and be myself.. so yea thanks for reading my blog.. i din though u all bothered to read my trash haha...

nites RAWK ON!!!

ming

HELLO MATES!! wowhoo.. haha just finish 13hours of work today.. tml my pay gagi UP ! 30 cents perhour more hahhaa.. power.. 14 more hourse to OT OT OT OT!! wowhoo haha.. anyway i am really excited abt saturday night.. cause i gonna camp at my work place overnight!! and guess who is the vip?? HAKIM!! woot woot wooT!!! haha.. omg i really miss him alot lots lots misses.. and he is gonna go to ns =( awhh... but he is gonna be a man yea.. yea bro .. dun forget our plan that we like next door haha.. i think our neighbours are gonna be fucking piss off wif the noise level.. cause its gonna be Boom boom BOOM everyday like how we used to hang out at west coast.. relec only yea... i bored u bored.. just walking distance to the park and chill out.. i guess hakim doesnt read my blog. soo.. yea.. anyway wat matters its inside here <3 =) rawk on bro..

soo yea.. i am quite suprise i did make someone feel special abt a event i made not long ago.. a crazy bbq infront my house.. in the park... and that man is non other than my sweet puffly vocalist KHAIRUL.. kai in the house yea.. haha.. he kind of said to me.. "ming.. lets have bbq once agian over at yur place yea? its the best bbq i ever had in my entire life.. i mean like its fun la.. let do it once more =)" OMFG u noe how touched i felt that mate? owhh.. it was yea.. melting me .. haha.. never did i expect to like u noe.. haha.. and yea khai at the end of this year.. we gonna party over at my place? yea? or best we make our own chalet la.. u noe.. my class chalet or some stupid shit grp of frens i bbq wif.. i think my homemade bbq is the most fun la.. and oh yea.. u noe why..?? cause HAKIM IS THERE!! omg.. he makes a big impact to the party la.. he is the man..haha this are the kind of things thats makes me feel happy in this world.. friends whom i spend my times wif .. the moments that we always had.. =) bros for life..

anyway.. oh yea.. steph u tagged my board=) hahaha.. yea.. glad u did cause it kind of like revive my blog agian.. so yea thanks sweetie.. and oh yea.. i am in the next 5 .. hahha quite suprise my name is there in yur blog steph.. thanks =) i dunnoe why.. but it seems that i can never stop crapping wif u hahha.. so yea.. be honoured yea to have yur name here in my blog post!! haha..

so yea worked 13 hours today feel happy.. and yea.. made frens at my workplace.. 3 man.. omg.. all look so young but then they are like 22 23 23.. all uni undergrads.. pro pro.. but they are nice people la.. talk to me abt ns.. abt drving bla bla bla.. we talk and work the same time.. fun la.. and one of them studying in USA wahh!! hahha..

and yea.. i have a song in mind.. goes to someone u know who u are lol. so here it goes.. music for life! =)

Matchbox Romance - PROMISE


what would you say if i asked you not to go
to forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me
would you take my hand and never let me go
promise me you'll never let me go

and the stars aren't out tonight,
but neither are we to look up at them
why does hello feel like goodbye?
these memories can't replace,
these wishes i wished and these dreams i chased
take this broken heart and make it right

I feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know,
you're not making this easy

i never thought i'd be the one to say
please don't, please don't leave me

i feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know,
you're not making this easy

you're not making this easy... (easy, easy, easy...)

take my hand and never let me go,
take my hand and never let me go,
promise me...
you'll never let go
you'll never let go
you'll never let go
you'll never let go
make this last forever

i feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know, you're not making this easy

you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy

so fall asleep tonight, cuz' that brings me closer to you

nice song yea? jam this song someday =)

w

today something really struck me.. something i been wondering why i been blogging since dunnoe when.. since i was sec 2? hrmm.. cause pearlyn is like so anti blogging and say that why would u wanna let people know yur personal stuffs and feeling.. for me i dun see it that way.. i mean like .. i would love to share my thoughts and feeling to everyone la.. because its something i know that it is harmless? blogging dosent mean telling people just how you feel and what u do or wad so ever.. i treat it like i am sending a message to who ever reads my blog.. why do i hate why do i love? why i do i care? everything has it reasons.. abt my feelings.. hrmm.. maybe because i really have no one to talk to? i admit i have quite a loner life but.. there is always someone who proves me wrong that i aint one.. and that is those who will always stand by me.. family or frens.. well.. what ever i blog is not always my 100% of what i think or feel causei feel that everyone have the rights the kept some thing within them.. i do have my presonal stuffs that i have kept deep inside too.. i kind of love blogging because i love sharing my thouhgts and feeling.. cause its somewhere i can really express whatever i want.. being in my own world.. being the ming he is always is.. sometimes things just keep repeating to me.. i just felt like its worthless in this life.. because whenever u wanna start anew people just cant treat u that way cause u aready gave them the impression.. so the only way i think is that just shut the fuck up and smile.. always keep it cool and steady.. i believe this will keep my temper down and learn =)

and for those who do read my blog.. i would like to say thank you for your support =) thats one of the reason why i blog.. cause people just like to read what ever rubbish i type somehow hahaha... i dunnoe why but thats the way it is... tml gonna work agian.. 9.30am.. so yea nites amigos.. RAWK ON!

back

hello people.. sorry haven been blogging quite some time... came back from chalet few days back.. okay had fun.. world cup fever and all that.. and i lost quite alot =( i been feeling sick since dunnoe when.. just cannot recover fully.. guess must be the way i rest or something.. tml gonna start work aready.. expecting to at least get 500 plus... gonna save the money and maybe use 50 to bet on something haha.. clear all my debts also.. i think my debt can sum up to 100 sia.. working the entire whole week.. guess that all my fun is over now =( talking abt my previous post being like so fucked up.. i guess things are getting clearer now for me... i had a good talk wif chee fatt abt my worries and everything.. think that i am being too self centered sometimes..so ya.. this shouldnt had happen la.. anyway i still haven mention my sweetheart yet in this blog.. so ya those who dun noe was going on for me .. so yea i am attached now =) abt 1 month plus aready la.. btw her name is pearlyn.. got to know her from ngee ann.. okay la.. i dun wanna say anything much here cause i scared i say wrong thing later she come kill me hahha.. jkjk... i dun think she noes i blog la.. haha.. well.. i am actually quite surprise of how things happen.. never did i expected things to be so fast for us.. but it has been a hell of a ride la.. still building up together.. so yea.. the only sad thing for us is that i hardly get to have my time wif her.. so ya.. its has been quite sensational to just get used to things now.. things i still yet to tell her i haven .. haiz... as time goes on i hope i still now wad i am doing and i am still the man i used to be.. as happy as always =)

fuck fuck

i wanna get out of this house aready la.. fuck man my dad.. i noe my fault i skip lessons then u noe wad.. tml i got chalet he dun let me go .. say i go hotel sleep better wtf right.. fuck la.. i gonna leave tonight vanish far away.. this is the the alot of time i been thinking about this.. i am trap at home .. fucking trap.. i cant do anything much to get out of this fucked up place... i gonna a letter to give my reasons of awol.. fuck la.. its holidays and no going out.. fuck it.. if u gonna control a 18 year old son at home fucking sick at just doing nothing at home.. its way of my limits.. the laws even states that if yur 16 or above u can just roam around wifout yur parent concern.. so yea.. i am being treated even worst than that... i can even just torn or chill out... i am aready the lowest point of my life and yet he smacked my head just now.. u push it too far away aready.. he said this if u wanna live like this get out of the house.. i go word for word this time .. i just wanna fucking kill myself..

wait and bleed

hello lads.. my laptop is down so cant update much for the past few days or even weeks.. so yea the update is that it is holidays.. and the sad news is that i think i am not as happy as i used to be due to some crisis i think i have... u see.. actually i had been in a relationship for a month i think.. at first it was all fun and all that.. and as it goes its dying out really fast and its just dont feel right.. i just dun feel the safeness of just going on like this... the fact is that she works and spends her time shopping wif her frens and ya alot of work agian.. and i just found out that me being left out ? i think i give one more week... if this really goes on and really makes my day worse just thinking about it.. i got to do something.. its never good whenever i feel this way.. and its 2 weeks holiday.. and i dun wanna just stay home and think about it.. its really painful just doing that.. its time that i should really make myself shut out to everybody except my family .. after listening to couple of angel and airwave songs.. they have this message which is that friends are always the one that make you happy.. i mean like i used to really love my life alot being happy and all that.. now its just the lowest point of time i am in now.. even its holiday and everything.. i had plans to restart my band and make a bigger impact than my previous one.. now i have 2 drummers from my class 1 guitarist or bassist and a bassist ... next whole week is jamming week... so yea.. and oh yea.. last thursday was like one of the most sad case la... after the test i actually waited for her at the atirm to recieve a call or something.. i end up leaving my class behind as they went to town.. had good fun.. wait for quite long until chee fatt and jun wei came.. and yea fuck it la.. i am going.. omg.. i never been that happy since the recent week i been to fucked up.. i laugh the loudest till cramps all that.. its not bad being gay after all..i mean happy dumbass haha.. i got to admit that if i were to compare being in a relationship now and the last one i had.. i was more confident and happier last time.. but i dun choose to live the past.. cause its over ass.. i just look ahead of my path... i guess the ones who take me higher and there holding my back.. i guess it should goes to the ones who has been there for me all these while.. you know who you are... and i never ever gonna forget the ones who were there when i am in the lowest point of time..

hate feeling this way.. but too bad.. its really reaching my limits.. you know why i love blogging. .cause it somehow share my thoughts and feelings who ever reads it.. even my brother sometimes reads it.. so ya.. it this 1 week i am not feeling anything from her.. i gonna ask for a week break.. being on my own and my frens.. see how its feels like being happy.. wad ever the decision is.. it would be right here in my arms..
i felt the hell rise up in me
nearby the clear stones of leaves
i wonder out where you cant see
inside my shell i wait and bleed..
and one thing.. i kinda of went abit of my path towards music... i just recentally start clubbing.. but one thing i noe for sure it will never be as good as a rock concert... and always remember this line my brothers.. ONCE A ROCKER ALWAYS A ROCKER!!!!

joga ell

hello ... today played the joga bandito finals at national stadium there.. got into the semi finals and lost =( we were sooo sosososososo close la.. sad sad.. and i hurt my back while i attemp to bicycle kick.. had wu shu in the morning.. did alot of practice agian as usual and i hurt my right arm while trying to break some sticks.. haiz...

hello

hello mates.. its been a really long time since i last blog here.. hrmm.. well school is good as usual.. and yea something special happen to me not long ago.. i will blog it here in my next post i swear haha.. so ya i am really really tired now.. so yea nites

thorn

omg i reached home 7am this morning hahah... last nite dnd .. hrmm.. lets start from after skool.. yea went to orchard wif debbie first to get chris present and get our bling blings for the dnd haha.. bought this peace sign bling bling.. nice =) haha and we rushed our way to the hotel.. and guess wad.. the dinner started 2 hours later.. omg.. time wasting la.. hahah.. debbie and me was aready hungry.. and yea met steph and evan and all thoese who were there la hahaha.. the worst part was that debbie and me had to sit at another table which we totally no idea who is there.. lol.. guess wad.. ADAM sat beside me haha. okay la he is the only person i know in the table.. the dinner was okok la.. the food was alrite.. the night kind of ended super fast la.. cause the dinner only started at 9plus.. under expectations la.. haiz.. anyway i kind of got half drunk? dunnoe why la.. wasnt stable and got debbie worried.. after that i sent her up to the another party.. and ya i end up sitting in the room to chill out lol.. and by the time i go down back to sent her home.. it was the dancing part which we missed .. so yea.. dnd is more like just dinner .. and then ayat came to find me.. than we joined adam and gang.. they wanted to go MOS but then got abt 5 of them underage la.. end up going to indocine.. the crowd wasnt really there.. so yea went there to chill out .. after that went to esplanade to chill out again hahha.. i wasnt really high la.. but had a long long day.. my dad was like gonna screw me when i get home .. so yea..a mixture of feelings.. high,tired,drunk,stressed,worried. haiz. i woke up at 2pm.. and yea.. i am stoning now.. since 2 to 7pm which is now.. bored to death.. adam they all going zouk but i cant go and i dun wanna waste my money yet.. maybe end of semester.. so yea.. wait for a better day tml =)

long nite in skool

hello hello... =) omg omg i went back from skool at 10.45pm? hahaha was wif ayat the whole day... i think we 2 are becoming really close buddies.. we use the same bag same pants same shoes same LAPTOPS!! hahahah omg.. so yea we stayed in skool to do revision.. yea its fun studying like that la.. cause he can teach me in a fun way la.. its fun hanging out wif him la.. cause he would always look for gals haha.. so yea.. great time spent today =) anyway tml i start skool at 2!!! muahhahaha finally a time when i can relec ... whew.. think i post some pics

helloa..

hello!!! was up was up.. omg i din blog for quite some time aready.. hrmm.. oh yea yesterday i went shopping!!! bought a new pair of shoes and bag!!! wahahhaha... loving it man!! later gonna play soccer to test out my new shoes!! haha yesterday also had a soccer game.. and i invited ayat and zul to play wif my bro team.. omg.. ayat is good la.. i think if i were to tag wif him striker.. it would be so cool.. we just have this chemistry together.. ayat scored a brillant goal.. and yea i missed a good chance to score when i blast it over the post... wahhaha.. nvm la.. it has been a long time since i last played.. so yea its quite regretful not to play often la.. ayat is really a nice guy la.. he is helping me to get into the np soccer team.. so yea.. i really wanna play soccer once more... because its just something i love to do la.. like my music!! so yea.. we going to sign up nssl together also.. yea.. and here is the bad news.. i hurt my back!! i went to head a ball.. i jumped up la.. than this guy behind bend down.. than i like kena overturn and landed on my upper back.. almost my neck.. wahha.. i thought i broke something la.. lucky its nothing much... oh yea i got to do my homework now .. so yea bye

suppppppppppp

HElloo i am in skool now ..

lec

hello people haha omg .. i dunnoe why i love going skool now.. its so fun.. just that some lessons can die la.. its like dunnoe how many lessons in a row.. hahaha.. anyway. today finally fix my laptop problem and got the visual studio !! WOHOO =) hahaha..anyway today had quite alot of fun la.. just that its freaking HOT!!! in the afternoon.. omg!! hahahah.. its sooo HOT!! la.. can burn my skin.. wahahha.. oh ya.. today this gal rachel said my red shirt made me look like mac donalds OMG!! haha than i like wad!!@#@!! hahaha.. kk tml i dress up better la =)

sup

hey today first day of skool in NGEE ANN!! omg MADNESS AHAHAHA everything every single thing is different from was i used to study in.. now everything is so high tech use laptops so study and do tutorials.. i starting to enjoy studying la.. suddenly i have this strong sense to study.. cause everything is independent learning so ya.. its all up to us to study or not.. cause at the end of the day i wanna walk out of that skool wif my diploma cert =) so yea.. omg.. my block so near canteen 1.. roxor haha.. okay la wanna sleep now so tired haha... tml i continue.. maybe in skool

woke up at 1?

hello mates.. so sowie i din blog the past few days.. cause i like couldnt find a time to blog as i have been busy hahaha.. no la.. i had been tired doing stuffs la.. omg omg tml skool starts.. but than its starts at 8AM!!! wtf.. not fair sia.. others start at 1pm.. haiz.. haha i think my course the lesssons are much more packed than other courses.. basically learn almost everything in engineering.. so yea... tml have maths hahaha.. i think my maths.. rusty!!! oh ya.. the stupid teacher go and uninstall my anti spy ware and anti virus.. than all the spy and virus comming in my com like no body business.. wahahha.. now got this stupid pop out la.. wtf.. haha i dun care i reinstall my own anti software..

wanna change this blog skin soon!!!! haaha cuase i have dreamweaver now!!! muahahahaha.. can finally make my own skins=) cool. yea.. anyway.. i got to say that i love NAGA!!! mauhahah everyone is mad in there.. all kinds and specs of people... but the weird thing is that where they live muahahah.. all over singapore la.. and some even not in singapore lol... wicked wicked... i join song composing club and cannoe polo ... soccer have to wait for the F!@#!@ trails which is in june!!!! WTF la.. so long... at least have some training session for the freshies or wad la...i was saying that i go set up my own club for the freshies to play hahaha. cause 2 months is too long la .. .wtf.. anyway afiq join my up for nssl.. hahaha COOL SHITE!!! but the thing is that all my shoes are torn =( i got to get a new one soon..
anyway i wanna go bath now..
parents bringing me out later.. collect my jeans and maybe some shopping ? hahahahah
RAWK ON!! \m/

yea

hello once agian people!! =) first time blogging on my bed and its 3.19am now.. i suddenly got worried that my laptop battery might be spoilt or the lifempend of it become very short.. lol.. seruious la.. it keeps droping by 1% each time i go check.. haha nvm think it can last until i go to sleep =)

today went out wif my mom and dad .. went to funan.. where i got my cakewalk music creator 3!!! wahaha my dad bought it for me.. =) so happy la.. cause its something i been wanting to learn.. how to compose music tracks on my very own pc.. cool eh.. and it comes wif a midi usb cable.. how cool can it be.. haha anyway.. wads even better is that my dad bought me a pair of topman jeans!! woho.. i love it.. wear it to skool everyday i swear haha.. skool next monday and tml nono later got naga outing... gonna meet themm so fun eh.. =) oh ya i spend almost my entire night checking out the new software and was chatting wif lina lol.. i show her the music which i composed not long ago.. My fairytale.. lol she go and post the lyrics at her blog la haha.. nvm.. i feel quite honoured actually someone did that... i suddenly feel like having this full burst making music agian.. it is just something i been waiting for a long time to do la..

it just feels so good la to be so free using a computer anywhere anytime.. the only bad thing is that the battery dies out quite fast.. =( if only laptop batteries are like handphone.. wouldnt it be cool? hahah.. i think my one can last less than 2 hours .. so sad la.. if the battery dies out so fast like that.. my dad gonna kill me la.. =( i need to start saving now.. and WORK! yayaya i wanna work la.. study and work... i need money so desprately now.. to meet my needs...haiz... nvm la.. now just live off wad i can get.. =)

cant wait to meet u guys later!! wohoo =) naga all the way..

yea the NAGAs!! ROXOR!! doing our trademark... no one does better than that.. can u dig that?  

suck this

today i have something that i kept low abt it since i was young... like they always say blood is always thicker than water.. but come to think about it.. for example like my cousins.. even they are younger than me.. they do push me around like i am underneath their fingers.. i was sorry for all the things i done that i might did them last time like pushing them around? i dunnoe.. but it just hurts me deeply.. i was really super ultra naughty when i was young.. so maybe they still had that image on me.. but its like too painful to live it this way.. just now had a small incident when i lost my band? the soccer id band.. i mean like its so obvious i put it on the table where i usually put wif my other bands.. and my cousin lost his.. early in the morning.. and just now he told me that he found it in his bag and i lost mine.. ever since i din wish to be treated as how i was, i tried my best to be a better person.. but than its just that its hurting la.. even playing soccer.. i know i might abit to the exterme.. but the way they talk to me isnt encouraging.. unlike when i play wif my frens? because when i play wif my other frens.. its like everything is so smooth and mistake is part of our game.. its just not nice to being humilate by my cousin thats all i can say.. trying to start a new life in poly. i wish i could just leave all this behind me and just work on towards a brighter start. respect is something that i so far never had among my cousins.. its not that i demand it.. but just that seeing others having a better way of communicating in a more brotherhood manner.. its just painful la.. but one thing i am sure is that i surely cant play soccer well wif my cousins.. its just something which is impossible since young.. trying for years.. because today we had this futsal match in the morning.. i was really hungry for glory so that we can qualify.. even we draw 0-0 i wasnt happy at all .

dont know if this is just some stupid thoughts i had or is it something i just cant keep low abt it.. anyway... i just really had when ppl enter my room and leave it a mess. cause its aready messy and they make it worse.. lol.. i just clean up a little just now.. cause i find it messy la. cant take it also and my mother also has been nagging abt my room.. skool starts in a week time.. oh man..

oh yea tuesday is NAGA OUTING!!! WOWHOOOO!!! haha.. going orchard once more.. but the sad thing is that i am broke and in dept.. i starting to feel really pain how money just go away like that.. and to earn it its really difficult..

my life has been quite messy recently.. my music my soccer my studies.. this 3 i must plan it out properly as soon as i get my full time table.. i dun quite under the time table i have now .. so yea 1st week of skool i shall see abt it first.. join some cca like soccer and yea.. think i will spend 80% of my time in skool when skool starts.. lol. i think so..

hrmm.. oh yea.. last 2 days i went sentosa wif the sports camp ppl.. yea had some fun but wasnt to the fullest la.. but had a good time.. and oh yea i pang sei 2 of my frens that day.. one is the 06A02 badminton outing at clementi and Kris playing street soccer.. i felt so bad la.. thats why i couldnt like really smile the entire day wif the sports camp ppl.. oh yea we went orchard after sentosa and yea i met hakim at his work place.. listening to some cds they have there and got intro to hakim frens working there who offer me polka =) so nice.. was wif chao wei the entire day and we took cab home together.. qing juan is so funny la.. he looks like a gamer.. cause he has that face.. that my sec skool zhi wei has ahhaha.. so yea.. just fun ppl la.. we joke in the bus and laugh till my stomach cramps hahaha..

nazrul called me at nite to confirm for ther soccer tornement the next day but i seriously cannot la.. cause my brother also sign my up for another competition.. than nazrul was like WADeVER la.. i felt like such a @#@ person.. and thats what happen to kris also.. i felt so down because of this.. and we are going to have our finals at nike futsal.. haiz... well i guess its really hard to balance the people u wanan go wif next time... now i have like 5 groups of people who i can choose to hang out wif.. so yea. .its hard la sometimes.. staying at home is the best la.. ahhaha.. :D fair play

i been lazy to blog the past few days because i been busy and my cousins slept over at my house so yea.. i dun really like ppl looking at wad i typing for my blog.. but reading it after i post would be better.. so yea... tml i gonna stay at home!!!