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hello.. my blog seems dead for the past few months haha.. okie okie... many many many things have happen to me during those moments.. alot of sadness but i manage to overcome it and make life better =) well today had a crazy day.. cycled to west coast park wif my frens to prepare for the outing during ncc camp.. then we went there and play the playground.. there is one thing there that u hold on the pole then u will spin like mad dog.. non stop!!! wahh... until now i still can feel it!! big headach... lol... okok back to wat happen to me... ya since i stop writing my blog.. life had really great as i can say... whenever there is trouble happening to me i manage to overcome it ... even i had my chances of relationship being offer i just can't simply take it cause i am not confident abt it... and also on the other hand i got to chat wif ellice agian... the last time i chat wif her was last year.. and this year after nearly haf a year.. i manage to chat wif her agian.. its like a total diffrent person i knew her a year ago... maybe i wasn't bothered to noe abt her well enough last year.. okie i am so sorry for her cause i was like ignoring her and only cared abt my own things.... ya.. now then i relise how stupid i was .. now i got to know her well and i never regreted knowing her..=) in fact i should be greatful.. its like someone u thought that will never be the girl that u ever dream off.. since this year.. i started relising that i was wrong abt her all along since last year... she is the one i dreamt of everynight.. one of the main thing that she attracted my attention was her passion for music.. i was soo impress and she also had a same dream as mine.. infact wat i dreamt for a girl who will support me during my career.. infact .. ellice is even better than that.. she herself wan to share the same career as me.. i relise that everyone has something special in them which they could be very useful.. just the matter of us wanting to use the special tools or not.. and being forced not to use it by the ppl around yur life everyday agianst you is one of the hardest stage of life that you have to face.. with the power of believing u can acheive can overcome this stage of life.. this is the only one of the many reason why i think that she is the one.. she has the characters,the charmness, the ability and heart =) if your reading this .. no offence.. =) i just wan to be ture to myself when i refesh my mind abt my happenings... one of the reason why i feel more motivated and do think twice of wat i do is because of her.. even i never talk or met her before.. the way she talks is totally diffreny.. even wif just now words we know each other.. i can feel it.. the wind you can't see it.. you can only feel it.. i really that hope one day we can really each other in person.. waiting for the chance to happen is worth it.. even the odds are agianst me sometimes.. i will never fall and fail to acomplish my destiny..
and yea.. i also went to the EIC camp few weeks ago.. 4 days.. it was a camp there u never imagine of how much it can really change yur life.. it first of all make me stronger to believe in wat i am doing and how to make business.. and now i dun get easily fear... i will take every chances i have as they dun come easily.. even i may be small in the camp someone who dosen't learn much.. i dun imply it by showing ppl..i imply it rite to myself to keep me going... i will give what all i got when i start.. the time haven't really come yet... i will start when i can feel it.. even many ppl think i am over confident.. they are worried for me.. come on!! i need to do things confidently... in order to be confident i must do alot of work.. it dosen't come soooo easily... no one will shatter my dreams.. cause i noe wat i fight for.. so far since after my mid-year i was happy and sad abt my results.. and i am going to really study for my prelim and n levels !! i can do it! yes yes i can... after believing in wad i can do.. its time for action! i hope that one day it will come through=)
now i still having headach.. i hope i din type rubbish or anything.. cause i really wan to update my blog... haha okok i stop now.. my head soo painful!!