time is running out

i don't know why i had to sleep alot these few days. i wished i was like last time i can go on with a few days without sleep. maybe because of the stress is killing me. test comming and exams! omfg. and my this school of rock thing. band! anyway mark let me listen to this song yesterday and i find it damn nice. Your Guardian Angel by red jumpsuit apparatas .

sometimes its pretty irritating when i tried to strecth my vocal range and some people just like to make fun of it. my throat is fucking pain now because i aready like strain it and making fun of it is not gonna help. i got to sing more, but its just not happening because its being brought down with bad remarks. i don't even know if there is a slight improvement or not because its always the same three words "ming don't sing" being aready so stress up wif my fucking project and things are going worse because tml is the reharsal for zero to hero. our 2nd song isnt ready because the band can never be together to plan properly . if u don't realise i just hate it when people go in the jamming room where ever it is and just whack themsleves . i mean its like fucking noisy la.. the purpose is to play together wad. if play for awhile yur own its okay but all the way wasting time and not getting things done is fucking irritating.

if i had knew longer i would had join rex band to play guitar. because everyone there is aready that level so its more challanging to like improve. i mean the way i see it they are way more fucking serious about playing music. always just wanna improve and improve . not individual but as a band. recently i just asked hakim to handle whatever band i am in. cause its very stressful la to keep reminding all and decide what songs to play as a band. i just wanna perform in gigs someday. but haiz.. i just dun have this burning desire from my bandmates. there is always a fire inside me to just like fuck care everything and just play music. all that i ever wanted was a band that who rock together for life.

dying

today was a really really strange werid day. i think maybe because i watch romeo and juilet suddenly. i dunnoe why the whole day the movie picture was in my mind. yea a boy and girl who barely knew each other for less than 24 hours get married and dead within 2 days. how tragic can life be. the reason why they fell in love at first sight is because of the same vision they had abt love. its truly amazing how such beautiful the way they speak. the starting part when romeo have no idea who is juilet. the way he express his thoughts and how much he wants to love even there is no one yet he knew. well the ending of the story line is really u noe.. i just cannot believe it la in the both died. i kind of like the old ways of how they speak english. very beautiful.

this entire whole day i got this song stuck in my head, seize the day. learn abt 1/3 of the guitar solo.. omg i dunnoe what has got into me.. i am soo obssesed with the movie and music. i always picture myself like how romeo is in the movie at the starting. always gazing throught the sky and express the thoughts and feelings how beautiful life can be rather than hate. with the cousin and mates protecting each other.

how much i so want to give all i got
yet i speak in silence
let there be stars in the sky
when the sun kisses the earth
what i kept within me
shall soon one day be share and set free
the one any only thee i seek my answer
end this meaningless life of mine
and so shall thee show me colours
with a reason to go on
who is this person that will change my life?

the question shall not be heard but answered with a heart.
i for long await the time to come


this friday is my i&e school of rock orientation and i planning everything myself.. wtf ! =( i farking stress.. suffer in slience. let there be light for me to clear my troubles.