I WILL SURVIVE!! 

I never let my dreams slip away! =)

been really busy this days studying i guess ? =) must really do well for my n levels.. than i go for my o levels next year !! can't wait till my n levels are over!! cause i wan freedom!! can go out anytime i want and can work! =) but then i must start fasting after my exams also.. aiya.. nvm.. i can bear the pain...

today watch dougeball *not sure spelling* wif ellice lol.. veri funny movie and short also lol... wanted to watch resident evil 2 but dun have.. lol... i suddenly feel time is fast and slow this days.. when i am in the train and bus traveling.. the time really goes veri slow... without my music.. forgot to bring my headphones today! i was like dying.. only can sleep... but when i was wif ellice .. time really fly damn fast... but it was good times doh =)

my father everyday keep pestering me to break off wif ellice.. but i dun give a damn.. lol.. when he talks abt it.. i ignore him and dun talk to him... he really THINKS TOO MUCH!!! say things until go so far... i guess he dosen't understand the kind of relationship i am having now... he thinks that i doing this for fun and its bad.. lucky.. my brother dosen't objects to it =) but he keeps distrubing me abt first love lol... sometimes it will really happens.. ya know... but i have faith in mine alot.. so i wan to prove him wrong! =)

i feel much more motivated than ever since being wif ellice =) thinking of her makes me wan to have the will of studying.. cause i will not let her down .. thank you dear =) hope i dun distract her studies also.. i wan her to do well and make her parents proud also ... her parents really cares abt her alot.. but somehow not in a correct way i can see... no matter how they treat you they still yur parents k ? =)

actually now i just making my time pass by faster at nite.. waiting for her to call me lol... =) hope i dun fall asleep than never answer... its been quite a while since we really talk on the phone.. hope that tonite shall be the nite agian ... okie .. so i end here ! =)

I will survive!!!

Back online! =)

today... weird day i can say... not feeling good today.. because of dunnoe how many things.. feeling sick this morning.. during PE i switch sides lol.. play hockey... than suddenly i felt like scoring own goal.. maybe i am really not feeling well.. ya.. than back to lesson aready no mood.. giddy than i headach then fell asleep.. i got woke up by ellice calling my hp this morning lol.. =) thank you dear.. *hughug* ya.. then she said her parents behaving veri weird doh.. than told her not to worry.. and i forgot to tell her something! ... nvm... i swear to god i will say it the next time i talk to her =)

then when i was having my last 2 periods maths.. suddenly my father sms me say that come home straight after skool.. got important thing to discuss wif me..i got shocked and started thinking of so many things... first thing came to my mind wad ellice.. thinking that they found out abt us or my hand phone bill... lol.. i got soooooooooooo worried and i got distracted for my 2 periods.. then went home.. first thing was my handphone bill.. exceed than my father took my hp away say next month den give back... then my mother say that i got bring girl come to our house.. than i straight away noe that my neighbour sabo !! wahh... feel like knn... but anyway.. it was also my stupidity to hold her hand walking around my house area.. thats wat my brother was laughing at me at.. my parents told me to break wif her.. then i show attitude face lol.. dun care and dun talk to them anymore.. they ask anything i dun wan to say.. whew!! -.-" my father keep saying who is that stupid gal want to be wif this useless guy also.. wahh.. than he say i cheap?!@! >=/ cannot feed parents aready want to hold gal hand.. lol.. i wanted to laugh but cannot ... aiyo.. my brother kept smiling at me.. cause he last time also kena... watever it is i not gonna break ! i dun care.. =) my father say until like find love to so easy like that. saying that girls only go for money.. aiyo.. i listen aready feel like .......!! then when my parents wanna go out.. i manage to get my hp back!! =) *smartsmart* then my father give mother.. then my mother disagree.. then i quickly run away.. lol.. =) and also i get my COMPUTER BACK!!! =) WOO HOO!!! ..... i whole day using my com to recover wat i lost...!

things are really getting back to normal at home for me.. even though i kena scolding.. i dun care.. =) haha... just hide from them.. till the correct time =)