painj

hello.. played the soccer match today.. scored a goal.. so happy la.. been quite a while i scored.. but than still lose 4-3.. i could had scored abt 2 more.. wasted... anyway.. oh man.. everton lost sia. 10 yellow and 2 red cards.. so shit la.. van de meyde send off.. wtf wtf... haiz... bad day... i gues.. cant say much .. i having headach now and its killing me!!!

yea yea

hey.. went to np ealier in the afternoon wif chee fatt and my parents.. yea.. met cheryl and joel there haha.. awesome.. registered for the camps.. looking at the people around makes me feel anxious haha.. gonna be someone i know someday.. so far so good =) its my skool !! come on.. i got to love it.. found out that i gonna study programming for my first module.. haha yea C programming.. been wanting to study it since i was p6 haha.. serious.. and now finally its something i got to study.. way too awesome.. hope that studying something i really like will motivate me =) and yea i think i talk abt this yesterday abt daniel asking me to join him to play music for money.. yea i think its a good idea.. more exposure.. same goes to more exprience and all..

yea i gonna play soccer tml.. for coffee bean.. yea striker!!!! MUAHAHAA finally.. gonna unlesh everything tml.. and all .. my poor +10 haha.. long time no play.. and yea tml we gonna play.. hehe.. hope that my foot injury is okay.. damn pain la that time i landed on my foot bone so hard..hope tml i can play.. yea yea..

notin much to say.. so yea.. the chapter begins..

thursday?

hello... life is going in circles for me now.. almost everything i do everyday is repeating all over agian.. been staying home for 3 days.. yea.. its a pain.. daniel came over to my house to collect his application form for his SIM dip.. printed out the wrong one for him lol.. so yea.. he treated me lunch la.. so nice =) he is as usual does his long talk.. one of the things he mention that had my attention was when he asked me if i am in with him playing music at pubs or resturant. well its what i enjoy always.. music.. haha so yea we practice a few songs.. and i said that i will be a part time musician from now.. its cool.. i mean music is the beat of my life..

now everyone is busy.. i feel so alone now days.. and when its time to have fun for me.. suddenly so many people ask me out.. man.. its killing me now getting bored.. all i do now is watch movies at home sleep eat and play haha.. and i just cant stop dreaming at home!! help me.. haha..

this sucks

yea yea

yea yea looky here.. my new blog skin.. kinda of suck? haha .. i did it 4am this morning.. couldnt sleep.. dunnoe why.. btw if yur not using firefox as browser.. the video code will appear as html above here.. dunnoe why.. but yea sowie=) the navigator is above here.. just click click only la.. today is kind of a short day.. woke up at 12pm haha.. than i watched scary movie 3.. than played ps2.. and i realise some things today.. i mean like.. for the past few weeks or days.. i haven really been happy.. maybe only when i play soccer or music.. so yea.. i mean like.. its just not me.. not happy and all.. i can remember clearly that when i was sec 3.. i wished i did not need to sleep.. and enjoy every second of my life.. i would like just chat happily until i drop dead at my com desk.. when i am bored.. i would take up the guitar and strum until my fingers go numb.. than talk to my buddy hakim all that.. laugh wif chee fatt and my classmates.. i mean like i really enjoy life back than.. and all the things happen were so happening.. it was like the begining of life to me..

recently i felt like i gonna die or something haha.. but its stupid yea.. every ending has a begining.. today i was thinking all day about my music.. reading some magazines about music and recordings.. oh man.. i watched muse concert agian.. and yea.. oh man how i wished i am matt.. i would be the happiest man in the world if i could be like him..

i have been planing how is life ahead in the future.. first is doing well in poly.. and having as much fun as i can also.. 3 years.. soccer,music and study would be the only 3 things i must have in order to really be happy.. hope that within the 3 years i could at least have an album.. i think i should at least have 2 albums.. i been playing music for 3-4 years now. and yet i am playing like i learn last year.. which sucks.. so yea.. i got to start being passionate and yea.. and yea.. hope that i could at least play soccer at a higher level.. play for a club and hopefully i might get a chance to play in s league or national team someday..=) haha..

i think living without music for me .. my life would just die.. and now.. listening to tons and tons of songs.. filling up my moods.. yea.. all i wanna do is rock n roll.. RAWK ON mates..! =)

cant get my eyes off you

hello mates.. my laptop going nuts.. haha guess i have been installing to many and downloading stuff into it haha.. lucky i got it recovered back.. today haiz.. so boring la.. zhi wei say got something on than cannot go interview.. sucks =( been watching movies almost everyday at home!! wah.. such a loner life i have.. somebody save me!!!! been listening to emo songs over and over agian.. than watching SAW just now haha.. omg .. its so gross.. i never wanna have that shit feeling.. it sucks..

so this song goes.. greenday!!

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone!!


My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Til then I walk alone

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the borderline of the edge
And where I walk alone
Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone..

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Til then I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Til then I walk alone

passion

hello there... today i just found my old cds.. burn all my old mtv vids and songs inside.. since i was sec 3 ?? haha now i revive them into the laptop.. yea!!! oh man. blink concert videos awesome!! because of all this vidz.. i was greatly inspired each time i watch to be a rocker.. i mean like i felt the passion and the joy of being a musician .. i just love being there on the stage rocking wif my band someday.. wif the crowd responding.. also watch the mtv cribs.. oh man. give me more and better ideas how i wanna my house to be next time haha..

today wasnt really a good day cause i went to the factory agian today for the interview and it was lunch time? so yea i came back 1 hour later wif zhi wei.. and than they say come tml!! whahahahha... so yea.. tml i am going early i dun care.. affter that went home to like do all my cd and stuff.. wanted to find my half life so i can play cs.. but than can't find it.. my cd key!! =( anyway.. the good news is that i am going to the nike joga finals.. wif krisitan and nazrul.. haha!! the underdogs.. we really made it dude.. i gonna play soccer wif matin and all see who going haha.. i love soccer.. i love music.. i love my life if i can do this all my life!! haha..

anyway i watch the mtv diary.. show how billy joe armstrong talk abt his family.. yea its isnt easy to be a musician and balance family the same time.. its no point having a great career being a rocker but have no one share it wif.. its so cute when he drives his son to buy fish ..and the fish is part of the armstrong family .. hahaha.. cool.. if he was my dad.. omg.. yea.. =) seeing blink 182 agian.. made me feel so special.. i really do use to idolised tom delonge.. he is so cool..

well all i can do now is just wait wait wait and go go go go go.. haha.. somethings are meant to take and some meant to leave.. can't take them all rite.. so yea.. maybe when i have a bigger cradle next time =) lulululululu... i am going BLINK!!!! now haha.. yea rock on mates always!

time

hello mates.. yes yes yes.. i got my notebook!! =) loving it.. toshiba m100.. its 2.2kg.. not really light la. but its lighter than others.. most of them.. so yea.. i spend my whole sunday at home haha.. bored... watched the singapore local movie One More Chance.. nice show ... can cry the touching parts haha.. tml going for interview.. for the 3rd time saying this cause on saturday.. the factory was close?? haha gonna smack qing rong la.. tml going agian.. better be open now haha..

well recently i have been chatting wif some of my frens online .. having some problems.. some are quite similar to mine.. and yea.. its always like this.. i mean like when u help someone to gain confidence.. its easier said than done.. but now i guess i gain back my confidence.. after many days of wondering and all... just that i still have some unfinish business.. if ya noe wad i mean yea.. =) have been listening to this song by paparoach Scar.. nice song.. but doesnt really suit my suitation cause its like telling the person off.. which i dun.. but i like this part of the song

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

the song is nice la... emo type all that.. but than there is another song i also listen .. by lifehouse.. "you and me"
What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off you

Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of

You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive

haha yea songs just control my emotions.. i listen to those that suits my feelings most.. well.. news for myself.. well i did chat to her alittle today.. wasnt much.. dun even noe if she did read my last post... its weird ya noe.. wondering if she reads it or not..

i got to just keep moving on.. and just keep in touch as much as i can.. this blog is something i can pour my thoughts too.. cause its like telling ya fren about yur troubles.. the things is that.. blogging here.. whoever reads it.. becomes like a fren to consult me haha.. great.. my blog has all along been my passion my tale my life