All the way to glory

haiz... yesterday told my family abt my results which really sucks.... its hard to tell them wat really happen to me during my examination period.. but i also need to be push to score better in my N levels.. cried the whole nite last nite... not just because they scold me or what.. all my sadness i had for the pass few weeks... everything happen just like that.. and now i lost everything.. my father took my computer away.. my handphone.. and i being force to study at home now.. so i hardly will be online aready... some how i need to cool myself down.. i just need to study all i can to do my very best in my n levels..

today just had my new chinese tution which jun wei introduced to me.. lol.. 4 hours!! okie la.. not so bad.. get to eat free mac donalds.. =) the teacher teach also quite fun.. they place to dead people stay one.. got her son super naughty.. make noise lol.. i can't study in quiet play for long.. thats why 4 hours was like nothing.. something to keep my mind going.. my chinese i did super badly for my prelims.. wondering how would i do for my n levels... my other subjects okie la.. my phyics improve alot and my accounts... the rest all okie okie la.. border line.. my english dunnoe why so sucky.. i really suck at expressing myself.. my paper one pull me down alot... paper 2 also very risky...

can't believe my family did a study timetable for me.. but i never follow =X .. i now just only came back ... so tired... besides all abt my studies...i been thinking lately abt ellice... wondering wat would happen.. waiting for answers.. most of the time i thought of happy thoughts that we had.. and feeling very bad abt losing it .. its entirely my fault that i cause this to happen between us.. i blame myself everyday of being foolish.. the reason why i fall for her is because of who she is.. nothing abt her can make me forget abt her... very special... lovely.. kind.. patience.. trustful..and faithful.. no matter how much i think abt it.. i can never rewind back in time.. of wat i lost.. now i just have to pick things up slowy agian...

MING!!! ALL THE WAY TO GLORY!!! GOGOGOGOGOOOOOOOO =)

Tired ....

just finish my keyboard lesson.. lol.. sooooooooooooooooo tired!!!! can die.. after swimming at jurong east ... i feel sooo sick!! running nose lol.. but i learn a song today!! so happy... right here waiting for you.. the whole song manage to play it after a few tries.. pratice makes perfect... my keyboard skills have been improving alot.. !!!=) i am one step closer to my dreams! =) just need to train my vocals now.. dunnoe how to learn or who can teach me.. cause my vocal really suck.. i dun believe that i was born not to sing!! i believe i can train my voice one day !! =)

There are times when i need to be strong

yesterday nite went out wif my class celebrate wei liang birthday.... lol.. go esplanade there walk around take photo then i play guitar at the empty aread there where the break dancers are.. lol.. sing song until so ps ps... =) then we walk walk then go marina bay eat steam boat.. hahahah eat until dun care.. eat lots lots of beef and chicken.... abt 2 giant plates i share wif one fren eat finish.. haha then go champange somemore lol... then photos also... hope i get a copy too... my hair veri weird.. just cut 2 days ago... haha.. just dun feel the same me.. =) got to bear wif it.. the sides are short.. i left my front growing.. wanna have tom delonge hair style .. where the front part cover the eyes.. so when play guitar on stage.. dunnoe to look at ppl and play .. hahaha. =) jkjk i should have my oringnality...

afiq bought the local band eletrico album...so damn bloody nice!!! hahaa,, reminds me the time when i go baybeats at esplanade.. super cool!!! the song i want you is super nice... =) they can go far... one day my dream is the be like that too.. but a bigger one..!! =) today going to jurong east there the swimming complex wif the big slides all that lol.. swim wif my class ppl... i veri tired.. but still go for the sake of them haha.. ho hwee overnight my house... we play game last nite.. until 4 am.. then we talk talk.. until i sleep =x haha.. its fun la.. now he still laying down on the matress on the floor sleeping.. too comfortable aready... well... last nite chat wif ellice on msn... i can't really explain clearly abt my feelings abt her for 2 weeks ago.. but now i am sure wif it... i feel veri bad and guitly for just leaving her like that 2 weeks ago... she was veri hurt by me... until now.. i still feel s0 guitly abt it... i dunnoe wat punnishment must i take to show that i acutally still care ... its never easy going back on track this way in life... but the main point is that.. it is the Track that leads me in life that my dreams are... and most of all i still love her alot... it has been that all along abt my feelings.. being force to forget abt her is a painful thing.. its like taking out a hook off my heart by just pulling it out... also i want show her the way in life should be... there are so many things.. i also learnt a few days ago.. that you will take wat it takes to show how much you love for gal.. so i must make my stand strong and clear now... from where i fall..

Living in this world if full of mysteries and puzzles... fixing and sloving it up pieces by pieces.. slowing you have the clear picture of wat we want... this world needs to be peaceful one day.. all mankind when one day there are no division among each other... everyone is equal.. lead by leaders and beliving in one reason.. that is when there is peace in the world.. regardless of race,religion or blood.. we will be the same... so respecting each other in this world today is the best to keep things peaceful=) understanding is even better...

I will make my comeback!

For the first time since the mid year.. i feel super motivated to do well in my n levels.. cause when you know that you have no choice but to take this path in life.. you got no fear of anything.. cause that is the only place you want to be.. even i fell down and hurt me and other ppl... the journey has to be continue.. there is no stopping in this world.. time cannot be control.. so every seconds and every breath counts... I have to make my stand sooner or later.. cause i know how much it will affect me through out my whole life.. I shall make my dreams come true one day.. Even when it is fate that i cannot make it.. ppl saying.. i dun care.. cause i created my destiny.. my way.. i need.. and i decide wat i want to have and i fight for it.. and when the time comes and i make it.. it is fated that i can make it after all.. no one knows wat fate u gonna get.. it always on your mind games.. you decide wat u want.. and you must fight for it! give 100% in everything to achieve it.. I will ever give up in my music.. cause i live wif it.. All the effort i put in it.. it was all worth it.. but still the better to come..

There are so many things need to be done... i lost everything recently.. its sad on how i lost it.. but there is only one thing that i lost which i cried for.. that only one thing has change many things in life in me... i never felt this love from anywhere before.. its just tragic on how things happen.. i cherish everymoment when i was wif her.. but now things has change... things aren't the same .. all i can do abt it now is to hope.. and my passion for fighting her is just like my passion for music.. cause of all the stars that had faded away in the sky.. she is the only hope star there left to reach.. for now i just let the time pass and see how the flow goes.. cause once i found someone like her.. i will never go out to find agian.. cause you will never get to find someone who you want to be wif and is willing to share both dreams together.. its only once in a million..

Everymorning when i wake up, its a brand new day to start with... my tale,my story,my life.. continues to live.. full of twisters in it.. screw up myself many times.. and ppl screwing me down back.. and one day i be the screw driver that either screw ppl up or down.. touch ppl lifes and make a difference for the better.. after my n levels.. i promise myself that i will start making music wif my band.. and slowy we will succed one day.. we have to work very hard for it.. and i would like to thank to all my friends who had been supporting us lately.. even we din did a great job... they still encourage us.. thanks for all the support.. one day when we make it.. i will never forget who support us.. i will remember =) wat matters now is we must make it up there first.. to be worldwide known.. many hard work.. my studies .. i am going to shift it to music.. so i do music study when i grow up... then we have many chances.. yea we build our dream together

The feeling of playing music is the only thing will control my emotions... I love this world.. even it has been bad things happening recently.. I will live wif it.. and live in this world till my last breath.. The world , the people , the music....