Time is really running out fast for me now.. 39 more weeks to my o levels!! that sounds very near.. one week pass by its like u waking up 3 times .. thats how fast the rate of life i am facing.. escially when i only get to see my dear for 3 times or once a week.. less than 5 hours in all.. imagine how it would sound in a week? Life has been painful without her for me.. Hope she dosen't feel the pain i have now.. on the other hand i continue studying all i can to strive.. today just when to NYP for the open house.. not really that intresting but i think its okie la.. still planning to go for JC.. but i should be prepared if i were to go poly too... Just finished my maths homework only.. simple questions i so happy =)
Things between my dear and me hasn't been really stable.. i dunnoe why also. she also thinks too but dunnoe why.. i guess that we miss the times we really had during our freedoms during the holidays.When we could play all we want.. But now we both face studies for our o levels.. even though i be taking this year she next year.. i could see how well she is going to prepare for her o levels..glad she is a girl who i can depend on to study on her own.. but sometimes the most i could do to help her is to feel better when she is stress or sad..her world is totally different from mine.. but we both wan to live a fair world.. but this world is acutally all the same.. just how people get used to the world.. you have to follow how the world works.. and than you can go smoothy.. perhaps she is different in a sense that i have more freedom than her.. i just wish that we could finish out o levels faster and procced further in life..
seeing my future is quite scary.. i am not even sure wat i want to be.. there is so many things in life i want to do. but which to choose.. ? i see myself now in a developing state of life.. studying for the future.. and 10 years ahead in life when i look at myself.. its still me and in a different world.. whe n in the adult world. everything you can do is allowed.. when freedom is release onto my hands.. and how i play with it.. my career? and very fast i would be serving ns too.. i can't even believe i studied 10 years of education just like that.. even it sounds very fast.. many things did really happen.. things happen faster than i close my eyes.. i been lacking of sleep these few days.. i can't get up for school sometimes.. i have no time to even dream.. even have dreams, it all has been shoplifted.. i only update my blog when i feel free and comfortable.. and esp dunnoe which idiot keep putting things which are not nice in my tag board.. i do really get very anoyed sometimes.. but the other hand it sounds just childish.who ever you are just dun make this world a bitter place for people to live in.. ellice and me accept for who we are and we love not cause of looks.. our looks is like a coustume u wear in life.. decided by god if u are handsome or ugly.. we accept who we are.. wat matters is what we do in life.. the reason of doing in life.. why are we here ? humanity has been really neglected these few days and i certainly do get upsad.. why are we always so engaged in doing only wat we like and dun care abt others?
In life.. the first thing i always do is the take care of myself and believe in god.. second is my parents and family.. than it goes down to the rest... this is a basic thing in life and sometimes people just dun understand..
