Thursday, August 23, 2007

new skin

hello! i think this skin is freaking awesome because its the lyrics from the song "iris" superb song. well its meaningful to me. anyway exams are over and i pray hard that i will pass all my subjects and continue with my poly life. i just cant imagine the worse. its really scary. who knows that it would be my last time coming to school taking the exams and coming to school normally. its really really scary i can say. well now its holidays i should be enjoying as much as i can lol.

i started work like the day after my final paper. can say teaching the juniors was really fun. they had to prepare for this robotics competition and i was there to assist them and encourage them. well they were sitting on the floor figuring out how to make the robot move more accurate. to collect these 3 bricks from their base. lol. its lego my childhood toy haha.. anyway well after 2 hours the kids working out on the solution they accidentally hit the power off their laptop and all the documents are gone lol. so they have to like retype the whole program out.. well i pity them so i sat on the floor wif them and help them out. lol.. its really cute and nice to like see how the juniors respect . they were like saying " wah teacher so pro. we take 2 hours to figure out, he 2 hours can liao " haha.. of course la or else why would i be paid to help them lol. well its really nice mixing around wif the juniors . i miss my sec school days. i think if i would be a teacher i would be too nice to be one haha.. i always never like scolding people but just talking to them to like encourage them. because forcing is no use. once u win their heart. what ever u do in life with yur heart, surely it will work. no point forcing them . well look at myself i think my life is really screwed up. and i dun see my self as a role model for them to follow . all my life.. the only thing that isnt perfect for me has always been my studies. i dunnoe if its because i am dumb or what. well i kinda of figure out that my motivational spirit i super weak. i always intend to give up halfway and not focus. i always hated myself for being lazy. and regret .

well now its holidays all i can only look forward to is JAMMING! got the role or rhythm guitarist for Rex band. pretty awesome but of course i would prefer playing lead guitar. haha.. lead is like the way to feel the guitar . everytime play power chord sure sianz one haha.. tml indra aiman mark and chek wye comming my house to jam the whole day.. hopefully we will work something out for saturday rehearsal.

my life aint perfect but i can't complain , i think i am fortunate enough to suffer this less . as i known people who needs it more than i do. i realize i always feel like i am in an illusion . i still don't know what makes me feel like its reality. its always abt dreams and nightmares.

with every hidden message there will always be a reason