in skool

hello! well i am in skool agian.. reached early .. nizam and hairul should be reaching in abt 10 min time.. gonna study today wif them.. yea today is thursday.. and tml is my maths exam.. i gonna revise my maths entirely today.. got to at least know how to do all.. careless mistake is okay la.. but if dunnoe to do.. die! haha.. i realise that i am quite lucky to have only 2 papers for the examination.. i heard people are taking 5 papers or wad.. But the mass com people are aready on holidays since last week.. they have no exams.. they only have presenation and that kind of stuff.. lol.. what i do really miss having fun when the examination are nearing .. is SOCCER!! wahh.. no skool training.. no court soccer in skool.. damn sian.. i bet wif u next week after my eltech exams.. i gonna choing to play soccer haha.. well maybe this examination break is also good of my injured ankle.. i dunnoe whats really wrong wif it.. but yea its still not fully recovered.. so yea.. its not as strong as ever... i got to train to my tip top condition agian.. when i can just run non stop and creating chances for the team.. be it scoring or assisting..

well i am alone here infront of the cheers in my skool.. behind the bus stop... just sitting here enjoying the wind and looking at the people around in groups... well .. people might think i am a loner or some thing haha. .well.. i am waiting for my frens so yea i am not.. listening to songs wif my headphones.. too bad i cant download songs in skool.. they kind of block it or something.. also i got no games in my laptop haha.. cause i reformated it!! hrmm i got movies that i downloaded from irc but no idea how to watch them.. its somekind of weird file formats..

well.. how i wish everyone is in skool and exams are over.. we can go jamming or play soccer... lol.. its 2 months break!! gonna work for a few days for sure.. hacing chalet and yea maybe my family gonna have a holiday at this lighthouse which i went ages ago.. its a small island off singapore.. its has only a lighthouse and 2 chalet houses
its really small..
can say its only 3/4 of the soccer field size haha definately gonna bring my laptop.. bring my guitar.. bring my ps2.. bring alot of moives.. bring alot of food!! haha.. gonna have fun duo.. having foc chalet and class chalet too.. it will be a time really for me to relec.. but can be boring la.. so i kind of expected it.. next month i am gonna start fasting!! wahahahha.. than 1 month later its hari raya.. a time to get really really busy hahaha =) well it would be nice to see all my cousins and relatives once agian..

i am gonna end 1/6 of my skool life in poly.. i felt like it just went pass just like that.. its freaking fast la.. hahaha but i only will finish studying here entirely in 2009 wah.. lol.. than i enter ns in june 2009 around there... finish ns by 2011 june! omg that really sound damn far.. i would be hrmm.. 23 years old by than.. no idea what my future brings yet.. omg i sound so damn old la.. i am only 18 now.. 23 is like 5 years later.. everyone that i noe around me definately is gonna look different like mad..

i guess its a time to really enjoy my time in poly haha.. wahha i just called nizam he say 15 min more .. omg.. i am so damn bored here alone la.. and there are people playing at the soccer court.. but its sizzling hot now la .. the sun is like a volcano haha.. guess i just reserve my energy.. =) btw i have a soccer game this sunday but than i having exams on monday.. hrmm.. thats intresting yea? haha.. last sunday i played okok la i think. i guess i under performed.. this sunday i gonna give all out.. hope ayat is comming so yea our partnership can bring us more goals..

haiz.. damn.. i guess i continue surfing the web around haha and maybe just sleep or something so yea..
rock on mates!

here by me

hello everyone agian =) well exams this friday and next comming monday and than its holidays.. today went to skool actually to attend this eltech lecture abt A.C circuits but than i end up going library studying on my own and watch movie wif ayat.. lol.. had quite a fun time studying today... so yea quite good la.. but still alot to study for me.. haiz...
nothing much to say tonite.. so sowie
but i have a song in mind here
its a very nice song

Here By Me

I hope you’re doing fine up there without me
'Cause I'm not doing so good without you
The things I thought you'd never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood
So how could I have been so blind for all these years
I guess I only see the truth through all this fear of living without you

And everything I have in this world
And all that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

I can’t take another day without you
'Cause, baby, I could never make it on my own
I've been waiting so long just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong
I'm sorry I can't always find the words to say
But everything I've ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

And everything I have in this world
All that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

As the days roll on I see
Time is standing still for me
When you’re not here
I’m sorry I can’t always find the words to say
Everything I’ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

x2
And everything I have in this world
And all that i'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

life is short

hey everyone.. i haven been blogging for quite awhile.. maybe because i was busy thinking and that point of time i have nothing to say much.. so yea now .. maybe i shall type out some of my thoughts.. dun know if they make any sense.. but this is what i come to after all the thinking.. hrmm..
life is short and temporary but life after is eternal.. everything i do now.. i am confused what my future brings me later.. i haven been flashbacking my memories for the past 2 years.. what happen.. seriously.. what i missed the most was when i was in love wif my previous galfren.. besides that.. maybe how i work my way up towards my music? this 2 things that i recalled.. god i am sure i do miss those times.. and now things are just going the way i din expected it to.. and people come telling me that everything is all right and its normal.. well.. i am sad to say that its just not i wanted it to be.. its like .. hrmm .. u noe.. just becoming a swinger .. playing around wif people hearts that kind of stuff.. and the meaning of love to me is like so simple and kind of dumb.. its damn stupid la i think.. u have someone who u called yur bf or gf than.. the only thing that u do is that yur just be there physically and just say all this mushy words and than u forgive everything.. besides that maybe u have fun dating and all that kind of sweet things.. BUT .. this is the part which i really look into.. yea But when you find yurself into a big big trouble and the whole world is gonna crush on you.. espcially when u quarrel wif yur bf or gf.. will he or she still be there for you ? ya they can like confort you.. but the thing is that they are not always by yur side giving you all the support you need.. it used to be that love is like u can find it like fishes in the sea.. but now.. you just take a good freaking look.. the sea is polluted.. just my luck that i came across wif this gal not long ago who really ruin it.. just spoilt the meaning of it.. well well.. i am not gonna avenge this on anyone else.. but i just have to say that i am quite disappointed of how things are now.. and its sad.. freaking SAD!! imgaine the divorce rate in 10 years time.. my words.. if u dun believe.. u wait and see..

well well.... i guess it would be a very long time till i am lucky enough to find one agian.. someone who will make me believe in love once more.. or else its all bullshit i can say.. oh yea.. this is a phrase i thought of when i thought of my past.. "Let me see you once agian, so that we could know wad we need and at least i have the chance say goodbye to someone i remembered always" its sad for me how it ended more than a year ago.. but yea.. well.. i admit i took things for granted even now ? i watched a moive just now wif zul "the click" its like showing things that i believe that it could make sense.. and its damn sad .. DAMN DAMN SAD when you took things for granted and you never have the chance to tell the one you love that you love him or her.. omg.. its really sad la i watch the show.. he had a rewind of his life showing how he treated his dad.. and he just din look at him and din entertaint his day.. and that was the day his dad died ! omg.. haiz.. i guess that being emo at times like this for me maybe its good.. ya never noe.. cause all i noe now is that i have to be a better man..

i always had this idea to kind of look up back to my ex and at least have a chat wif her.. but than.. i guess.. maybe its not the time or maybe.. i should just move on and i might happen to catch her someday agian.. its very hard for me to forget because it was the first time i crave someones name into my heart.. and its the only one i had.. so yea.. i just have to face the facts and move on..

times like this.. i will always remember who were there for me.. and never ever take things for granted..

rock on mates =)